SAILOR MOON'S HORRIFYING ADVENTURES
WEEK TWO

Monday (Day 8)

Dear Diary,

PLEASE SAVE ME! I don't want to be Sailor Moon! I don't want to have dreams anymore! I don't want to remember the dreams I've already had...

Okay. I'm better now. I just had to vent. You know what it's like? When you have a secret you cant ever tell anyone and you have a whole bunch of responsibility and its really scary and stuff. Yeah... That. And it's not just the secret itself, but what the secret means. I have a family.

There's my mom. Her name is Ikuko and she is really beautiful and nice and loving, and the BEST COOK EVER! She stays home and takes care of us, even though I know it wasn't always what she wanted. But she says she's happy to be a mom, and it makes her life better. She does all sorts of stuff for us, like making lunches and breakfasts and dinners and cleaning and cooking and shopping and always tries to help me with my math, even though I think she's worse than I am. She is funny too, especially around my dad.

His name is Kenji, and he's a reporter. He is overprotective and a bit insane when it comes to boys. I remember once, when I was twelve, this boy in class dropped off my missed work when I was sick and dad chased him down the driveway pelting socks at him. Dirty socks. That was so funny! He is really awesome. He likes to do stuff with us kids. Shingo and I even got him to play Sailor V with us!

Shingo. That's my little brother. He's really smart, but I won't tell him that. Nope, big sister rules, you know? Seriously though, he is actually not bad for a little brother. I mean, I know we fight and tease a bit, but I love him. And I know he loves me too. Even if he pretends to gag whenever I tell him. He is really smart though... and sometimes that can be a problem. Because some of the kids pick on him. It MAKES ME SO MAD! I just want to... to PUNISH THEM! Don't tell Luna I said that. Hee Hee.

I have a cousin too. Haruki. He will be moving here, I think mom said next week. His mom and my mom were sisters, and then when his mom died his dad took him and moved away so he could get away from the sad memories. But now his dad has terminal cancer. It's really sad. My mom cried about it at the dinner table. He will be moving in with us in a few weeks, and my uncle is going into Hospice, which means a nursing home meant for dying people.

I really love Haruki and I wish he didn't have so much to be sad about. He was always such a happy kid, a lot like me. He's almost seventeen! So much older than me. Maybe he can scare off that jerk Mamoru who KEEPS TEASING ME!

I didn't even tell you about that yet... Hold on... I have to talk to Luna. I'll be back.

I'm Back!

Okay, so, one thing I didn't talk about last week, because I have to admit, I was a little embarrassed about it, was that I'd considered writing into the Radio Show, you know, the one with the Romantic Letters that was actually a fake show and was being run by a Youma? Yeah, that one. Well, I'd been thinking about writing a letter to Tuxedo Kamen, because I thought maybe I might love him. Luna said it was stupid, and eventually I listened.

Okay, but before I listened, I had the first few lines of a letter written. It said:

Dear Tuxedo Mask, I want to thank you for saving me. I think you are really sweet and cute.

Yes, I am in fact, that stupid, to leave a letter like that IN MY BACKPACK! Ugh. So today, when I was in the arcade, getting ready to play Sailor V, I was searching the bottom of my bag for some change and the letter fell out. Well, I didn't get to it before Mamoru did! UGH! And he read it and started laughing, and then he asked me where I was on the night of the Jewelry Store attack... and I was so flustered my face turned bright red and he starts telling me I have a dumpling brain to go along with my dumpling head, and basically says I was stupid for going out.

I was so upset I didn't even play Sailor V. I just ran out of the arcade, crying like a baby. Maybe I really AM a crybaby after all. HE JUST MAKES ME SO MAD! I mean, what did I ever do to him? I mean, sure, I hit him with a crumpled up test paper. Sure. But it's not like one tiny piece of crumpled paper can hurt someone. It wasn't like I threw a barbell at him or anything!

And now we seem to LITERALLY run into each other everywhere. Now he's at the arcade all the time too, and I just don't know what to do. And sometimes I can feel him getting closer and closer before he gets there, and I try to go a different way, but it's like I'm being pulled toward him by an invisible string that I can't even find to cut!

It's hard to look him in the face, because what if he figures it out about the DREAMS? I mean, what if he can see them in my eyes or something. I know it sounds crazy, but sometimes it feels like he can read my mind! And it's not like the dreams are, you know, PG rated. I have no control over the first one, the one I've been having for a while.

But shouldn't I have some control over the dreams with either Tuxedo Kamen or Mamoru? And the worst part is, I feel the exact same about all three of them. Its like I'm falling in love with three different guys, and I can NEVER TELL A SOUL! I just wish I knew WHY!?

Anyways, today at school people were starting to act a bit strange. Like they were all really excited about becoming idols, and I don't know. I guess part of me feels that way too, but I am so much more suspicious than I used to be.

Tsukino Usagi

Tuesday (Day 9)

Dear Diary,

Something strange is going on. Very strange. I thought this morning, maybe things were a bit too good to be true. Haruna-sensei wasn't acting normal. The other students were just plain bizarre... Nothing is right. I felt a strange... atmosphere? I don't know if that's the right word. But no one was acting normally. They all want to be idols all of a sudden. Pop-stars. But they can't ALL be pop-stars. Can they?

Naru wants me to sing a duet with her. Part of me wants to... like, really, really wants to. Which doesn't make sense. I mean for a little while I felt myself getting really excited, like the mood was catching or something. And then I felt this pressure and warmth in my chest, and all of a sudden I was feeling grossed out about the whole thing, like it was really wrong. What do you think it means?

CONTINUED...

Okay, so school ended and everyone sort of went crazy. They all want people to ask for their autographs and all this other weird stuff... booking trainers and finding talent agents and... oh I don't know. I can't figure out what is going on! Luna says we have to find out what's happening. As if I hadn't already figured that out. These are my friends!

So now, I'm sitting in the arcade, trying to figure out where I should look. I'm thinking concerts or talent agencies or something. I've got the phone book, and I'm making a list, but I figured I needed to take break and drink this giant chocolate shake sitting in front of me... hee hee.

So, yeah, that's what's going on... except the reason I'm taking a break is that Mamoru started staring at me like I was doing something suspicious. I have Luna hiding under the table on the bench beside me, and I put my school bag over the phone book, and now I'm just gonna sit here and pretend to be a normal teenage girl. HA!

Normal my left foot! I just can't wait until Haruki gets here. That Mamoru won't bother me anymore! I can guarantee it! HE WONT STOP STARING! He's glaring at me! What could I have possibly done wrong now? I haven't even said a word... crap!

CONTINUED...

Okay, it's late now, and I'm at home, which I guess maybe I should leave my diary at home, but there really is no safer place than my subspace pocket.

What's that? you ask...

My subspace pocket is like... a place... where stuff I need to get disappears to, then reappears the moment I reach for it. Luna says it's endless, but I can't enter it myself. I don't really understand all of it... she started using words in a different language (from a planet called Mau) and my brain hurt. Hee hee.

Okay, so anyways... Mamoru decided he had to come figure out what the hell I was doing TALKING TO MY CAT and ACTING SMART! What the hell!? I mean I'm not stupid. I hate that he thinks that about me. I don't fail everything. It's just the dreams... More on THAT later... just remind me. Hee hee. I know you can't cause you're a book. Silly Usagi...

Anyways, I tried to pretend I wasn't doing anything, and made an excuse to leave the arcade, but Mamoru followed me. He says he thinks I'm suspicious. Well I was like, "Mamoru-baka, you need to leave me alone or I'll tell people you're a hentai." And he said... "Don't call me a hentai, or I'll show you what it means." ... So I took off running.

So the first place I ended up checking into was this talent agency that seemed to appear only two weeks ago out of absolutely nowhere... but it was just someone who moved to Tokyo from someplace in England because their only client is going to move here. Which I guess is cool, but it doesn't really get me anywhere, now does it?

So then Luna met back up with me. HOW DOES SHE ALWAYS FIND ME? Anyways, we went over to the concert grounds and there was this huge crowd of people listening to some new pop-star, except she wasn't singing, she was telling people they should all become pop-stars too. The whole thing was just so weird. So Luna and I tried to sneak in and look around, but we got blocked.

I wanted to use the Luna disguise pen but then I saw MAMORU! He was watching me! I thought I'd lost him, but he comes up to me and tells me I need to stop putting my nose in where it doesn't belong and that what I'm doing is dangerous. I told him to leave me alone and that I could handle myself. So he says if I can handle myself then to get away and he backs me up against the side of the building and held me there.

I didn't even try to get away! What the hell is wrong with me? And he got closer and closer, and I was really worried he was going to try and kiss me, and I just stared at him! His mouth barely touched mine. Just like, a brush of lips, and he tasted like coffee and chocolate. And he's SEVENTEEN, and in my head I'm freaking, thinking about those dreams and that if I let him kiss me than I must be a bad person, but I couldn't move.

Part of me really wanted to kiss him back, and part of me wanted to run away screaming. He kissed again and again, and I didn't know what to do! What the hell is wrong with me!? So then HE SAYS, "I thought you could protect yourself."

And then he's wiping tears off my cheeks and I didn't even know I was crying, and he says he's sorry he scared me, but I'm just frozen. Just staring at him. I can't speak or move, and I don't know what to do! It was EXHAUSTING!

So Luna comes around the corner and sees him with me and she just loses it! GO LUNA! She jumped onto my shoulder and scratched his cheek. He yelled and finally pulled away, and still I'm just staring at him, not sure what to do or think or feel. Then Mamoru looks at Luna and says, "I wasn't hurting her." But Luna saw me crying and she knew something was wrong.

HE STOLE MY FIRST KISS! That's what's wrong. I really want to march downstairs and tell my dad... but then I also want to give him more kisses. See? I'm going insane! I called it that first night. What with the crazy dreams and the Sailor Moon, and the boy... that I DONT THINK IS CUTE AT ALL! NO WAY!... kissing me, I mean, I really think I'm losing my mind!

Tsukino Usagi

Wednesday (Day 10)

Dear Diary,

Things are getting worse. School was technically open, but NO ONE WAS THERE. Luna and I are at the arcade, and the place is practically empty. Just me and Motoki and Mamoru, who is very obviously not looking at me. But with Mamoru here I can't go into the secret base, and I'm afraid if I leave he'll follow me again. What should I do?

CONTINUED...

Mamoru came and sat with me as soon as Luna ran off. I didn't know what to do! He apologized for making me cry, and I said it was okay.

So then he says, "I dream about you." Part of me really wanted to ask him what he meant. Then he describes a couple pieces, like the room with the generals, and I know he's telling the truth, and I realize he's the boy in the dreams, and if he's the boy, and I'm the girl, then maybe we were meant to meet.

I don't really want to talk about it any more right now. So I'll write more later.

Tsukino Usagi

Thursday (Day 11)

Dear Diary,

There is going to be a concert tomorrow. That weird pop-star that acts strange is the singer. Luna and I are going to go. We tried to sneak in today to check her out. I even used the Luna disguise pen... but something stopped me. Not someone. Something. Not so much a feeling... more a presence. But I don't know if that's right either.

So I turn around to head away, and I see this man again. He's got this curly blonde hair, about two inches long. Bluish eyes. He seems so familiar. I know I've seen him somewhere, but I can't put my finger on it. It's important. I can tell you that much! Really important. There's something about him that makes the hairs raise on the back of my neck, but at the same time I feel like I'm supposed to help him. What could that MEAN?

Having no one at the school, it was actually closed for the day, which was so strange. My brother and mom and dad still seem normal, but then again, all of us were going to school and then busy with our other things. I mean Shingo has soccer and clubs after school, and I'm busy doing my Senshi stuff. (Senshi means soldier). Luna says that's what I am. A soldier. Only one of many.

I think maybe Sailor V is a Senshi too. Luna didn't say anything when I suggested it, but I could tell she was really thinking about it, so maybe she is. Or she could even be the princess.

But can I admit something to you... as long as you promise never to tell? I don't think Sailor V is the princess. I think... maybe I am. And that terrifies me. I can't be responsible for a whole bunch of other soldiers, but Luna says she will make the leader whether I like it or not because of my instincts and because people like me. I mean is that really the kind of thing you want in a leader? Oh, yeah, that Usagi, sometimes she says stuff is good or bad, and she's right. Or, oh yeah, Usagi is so nice she just has to be the leader.

Pfft!

It's ridiculous. Between all my dreams and the feelings though... I have to admit I feel like I might be... HER. In my dreams my mother is the Queen. I really hope I'm wrong... so I'm going to keep trying to find her until I can figure it out for real.

The other reason I've started to think I might be, you know, is Mamoru. Hear me out before you just think I'm boy crazy. Ever since I met him my older dream is getting clearer. I can see his face now that I know he has the dreams too. He's the Earth Prince!

Tsukino Usagi

Sunday (Day 14)

Dear Diary,

I swear I was intending to write Friday night when I came home, and then again on Saturday, but I broke my hand! And one of the bones in my foot, though I don't know which one. One of the metatarsals obviously, but I have no idea. That one still hasn't healed. Tuxedo Kamen (Mamoru) actually had to carry me home. Yeah, I really have a lot of explaining to do.

So there was this concert Friday night, and Mamoru was getting ready to leave the arcade at the same time I was on my way to go to it. So he tried to convince me to stay away but I couldn't for obvious reasons. I tried to convince him to go home and stay there... I wanted him safe. I mean I really want him safe. So then we both pretended we were going home, but we didn't!

So I get to the concert and it's an energy suck fest. I mean the people there were barely holding on... and most of my classmates were in that audience, and I got really mad when I saw Naru and I screamed for her to wake up. THIS IS THE THIRD ATTACK... AND THE THIRD TIME SHE'S BEEN CAUGHT IN AN ATTACK! It's like these Negaverse jerks have it out for her... or maybe it's because she's so close to me... OH NO! Am I putting her in danger? NO NO NO! I won't!

Sorry... I'm back now. Had to have a mini freak-out.

Anyways, there's this... Bluish Youma... thing. And I'm fighting her, and she sprays this stuff all over me, and it starts to cover me up and I can't get it off me and it's making me weaker and weaker and weaker, and Tuxedo Kamen had to wait until it had covered me completely before he could pierce it with a rose. But he saved me, then the creature turned on him, so I had to leap over a bunch of seats and pull him out of the way, but I broke my hand, and I still had to fight.

I stood up, and I used my tiara, but it went sideways because my hand hurt so much. So then the creature attacks again and I have to jump out of the way, except that goo had caught my foot again, and I didn't know, so I pulled too hard and broke my foot. Needless to say I screamed. So when I screamed, the pieces in my hair picked up the sound and amplified it and the Youma ducked and covered her ears.

I tried with my tiara again, with the other hand, and for some reason I said, "Tiara Encircle!" And my tiara caught the creature and then the tiara just got smaller and smaller and smaller until the Youma was dust on the stage. The goo disappeared and I fell instantly. My tiara came back to me, and I just lay there on the floor of the concert hall, and I didn't know how I was going to get home.

Until I heard my name. Yeah. Apparently as soon as I fell my henshin faded and Tuxedo Kamen automatically recognized me. So then he picks me up and starts carrying me away, hollering for Luna. And I knew. I said, "Mamoru," and he smiled and then he let his henshin go too, and it was him. He wanted to take me to his apartment but I had to explain that my parents would lose it if I wasn't home by eleven.

And then he looked so sad I had to ask what was wrong. He shook his head, and said it wasn't the time to tell me but he would. And finally Luna was there and she saw us together and hissed and I told her it was okay and that Mamoru was going to protect me until he got me home. She tried hissing again and I told her who he really was, and then she jumped up onto my belly (Cause he was still carrying me) and just stared at him.

She asked if he was an enemy, and he met my eyes instead and said he could never be my enemy. And that seemed to settle Luna. But she's been hovering ever since I got home. Like she doesn't want to let me out of her sight. But considering Tuxedo Kamen and I are the ones doing the fighting, shouldn't she trust me a little more?

And Mamoru came to visit me yesterday too. Just climbed the tree and got onto the balcony and I went out and sat with him for a long time. My foot was already healing by then, but this morning I tripped when I was on my way back from the bathroom. Oops. But Luna says she thinks it will be healed by the time I wake up in the morning. I sure hope so, because if I have a dream I'm going to be racing to school like normal.

Oh yeah, now that I know Mamoru is both Tuxedo Kamen, and the prince, from before, all the dreams are clearer and I can always remember his face now. I can't remember all the other faces in the first dream yet, but I'm sure I will soon. I bet I have to meet and recognize them first, like I did with him. I don't know how to do that, but I'm sure I'll figure it out.

So, I bet you're wondering if Mamoru and I are dating... So am I!

He kissed me again, but it was only on the cheek. I think he's afraid of making me cry again. I guess I can't be mad about that. But he is more than two years older than me, and goes to high school, and is so smart and brave and handsome. And now that we aren't fighting I really like him so much more, but I don't know what to do, and I don't think he does either. Boys do mature slower than girls according to my mother. Tee hee.

Tsukino Usagi