2 months later (Won't Go Home Without You)
Cold hard concert floor met me as I lay down. I was about ready to give up, if it wasn't for the few hundred I had I probably would have given up a long time ago. The streets were my home and I was almost out of money for food. About a weeks' worth of food was left in the dollars I had left. Though I haven't ate all day and I wanted to go as long as possible as to not waste any food.
It's not anybody's fault though. Only mine, but I couldn't stay home. Go to rehab, face my parent's disappointed faces when I got up every morning, rumors when school started up again, and most of all I couldn't go and testify against Jace he didn't deserve any of it but because of me he was. Guilt was eating inside of me and even more when I found out something that changed everything.
How I found out was simple, my monthly of course. I missed it; well I guess you expected it though. I was so deep into the passion; I'm guessing he was too that we forgot about consequences of our actions. Everything was falling apart. And I just watched it as it fell the pieces would just crumble in my hand. I hated everything, I hated it. The baby just complicated everything. No I didn't regret leaving home, but I regretted ever taking a step into the room.
Ok I'll be truthful I don't regret anything; I just wish it didn't have to end like this. I hated life right now and there was nothing I could do about it. As much as I wanted to blame the baby I knew I couldn't everything was my fault I was just a screw up, and it was my entire fault.
Everything was screwed up right now. Through it all there is one thing that keeps me going, dark golden eyes. His face keeps running through my head, is the baby going to have his nose, or chin, or eyes, maybe even his smirk. I thought about everything but I knew there was only one way out of this. It tore my heart to pieces but I thought it was what had to happen.
I was going to head down to the anonymous abortion clinic. Maybe I could get a nurse there and convince her to let me in for at least hundred it was a long shot though.
I sighed and turned over trying to get comfortable on the hard cold concrete by a shop. I closed my eyes and let out another heavy sigh. Everything again came rushing back. Then it happened, my childhood came back into my memories.
I screamed and ran from the boy that was chasing me. He tackled me down to the grass and tickled my sides.
"Mommy help!" I giggled and tried to push off the boy.
"Come on Clare let me have it" the boy aka my best friend at the time Alec tried to yank the necklace out of my time" My mom went over to me and picked Alec off of me.
"Clary that wasn't yours to start with" My mom scolded and touched my cheek.
I pouted and handed the necklace to Alec. He ran off and handed it to the girl that stood by the swings eating ice cream. She blushed and took the necklace from Alec. Alec then blushed even brighter as she kissed his cheek.
"Ew I don't understand mom, boys have cooties why is she kissing him, bleck" I scrunched up my face. My mom glanced at me and smiled.
"My little girl" She sighed "Please don't grow up"
I giggled "I don't want to boys are icky!" She just sighed "One day little one you won't think about like that" I just laughed and pretended to know what she meant by that.
Now I know. Silent tears ran down my face, I'm sorry mom. My thoughts were yanked from my head as I was pulled up by the sleeve.
"Look what we got here Drake" A guy slurred as the grip on my arm tightened. "This one's a beauty huh?" He pushed me into the arms of another guy. His breath wafted over me and I gagged, of course alcohol.
"What's your name whore" The guy asked as he slid his hand up my side. I started crying and pushing his off.
"Leave me alone!" But he just laughed. Drake held me against his chest as the other guy ran his hand up my shirt. I gasped as his cold hands ran along my ribs. Panicked I kicked my feet out. The guy fell with a thud as his family jewels were damaged.
"You little bitch!" He screamed and slapped me across the face once he got up. My lip split open and started to bleed.
"Hey dick heads why you don't pick on someone your own size" Some guy randomly yelled out. I peeked out from under my bangs and stared at my "hero." He was about 6'8 aka really tall and toward over everybody. He wasn't buff but wasn't lanky either, kind of in the middle. His brown hair was cut short and styled to have a small curve on the top.
The gang of guys stood up and looked to the leader with question in their eyes. The leader looked at my hero one more time before running off. All the way mumbling something about not wanting to get involved with the "police."
My hero slowly approached me and crouched beside me. His eyes lit up and he smiled down at me.
"Are you okay?" He asked slowly. I nodded my head and began to get up with his help.
"Of course I'm okay" but right after that a wave of dizziness hit me and like the damsel in distress I was, I fainted right into his arms.
The sound of rushing water and horribly off key singing awoke me from my deep slumber the next morning. I rolled over and looked to see a cup of water right next to my face on the night stand. Unable to resist I took a sip, then a gulp but I choked when a sight startled me from the door.
It was just like my fantasy's; the steam rolled into the world and the drop dead gorgeous male stood in front of the door a towel hung low on his hips. His eyes widened when he took in the sight of me, choking and coughing on the bed. He rushed to my side and rubbed my back his bare arms caressing my torso.
"Are you alright, I didn't mean to startle you" he said with a thick masculine voice, as if he couldn't get more perfect. "Maia! She's awaken!" He craned his neck as he called out the door from the bed.
A lady with dark brown curly hair stepped into the room and surveyed me. She quietly tapped my back. Of course she was really pretty too. Then I noticed the wedding rings on both of them.
"Are you okay dear, it seems you haven't eaten in days, and I'm no nurse but I think you passed out from hunger so let's get some food in ya, yea?" She handed me a tray filled with a bowl of soup and a cup of water. Carefully she fed me a spoonful and in the silence I ate it up. After the bowl was empty on the bottom she took away the tray then expectedly looked at me.
"Are you going to tell us your name?" She asked. I shook my head and clutched the bed sheets. It was silent for about 5 minutes before the husband spoke up.
"Here maybe this will help I found it along with your stuff" he handed me the torn up teddy bear and smiled big at me. I quickly latched onto it and clutched it to my chest. My face buried into the soft fur and I inhaled my home smell.
"It's Clarrisa but people call me Clary" I finally said into the bear. The couple sighed glad that they were getting somewhere.
"I'm Maia and this is my husband Jordan" The lady with brown hair said and smiled big at me. "How old are you Clary?"
"I'm fourteen" I said and timidly looked around, now that I was on my own I had lost the confidence I once had when I was back home.
"What are you doing on your own sweetie?" Jordan spoke up from behind Maia. My mind automatically turned to turmoil, what was I going to say? Lie and tell them I'm an orphan? Lie again and say my parents were abusive. Or tell the truth? I decided not to tell them everything.
"My parents didn't like the decisions I was making, so I ran away." I took a breath "they planned to send me to a mental hospital" Ok so maybe not the whole truth. "They're crazy!"
"Oh dear" The lady just ate up my lie. Jordan on the other hand looked doubtful but didn't say anything else.
"Don't worry I don't mean to intrude I'll leave as soon as I can." I said. She shushed me with the wave of her hand.
"Don't be silly dear, we want you here, I honestly get a little lonely when Jordan goes to work and I need some help around the house. Please stay here" I was a little apprehensive I mean I had just met these people and they wanted me to live here, but I guess if I want the first months of my pregnancy to go ok I would have to be here. Then when I started showing I would hit the high road and get the heck out of here.
It would be a tough decision but I was willing to take the risk. I had no idea how my future was going to turn out, nothing was for certain but I knew with the extra help in the beginning it would help. I was ready for whatever the world threw at me even if I was alone, because I knew I was truly never alone I would always have this baby right inside of my heart.
"Fine I'll stay" and I wasn't just talking about me.
Honestly, people are always like "omg like shes like fourteen thats way to young" but this is my story and real fourteen year olds are getting involved in sex, and drugs. It's hard to accept but it is happening as sad as it is. Anyways I know the ages are switched up from the books but this is my writing so i'll make it how I want! :) Also they are all human-sorry no epic fight scenes with demons! :( but I hope you enjoyed this chapter comment and tell me what you think.