Chapter 1

The secret is reviled

"Why?" I asked myself. "Just why did it have to be him?"

I don't know how many times I've asked myself that same question over and over again. Why did I have to fall in love with my brother's best friend? Just why him? He is a jerk, he's selfish and annoying, I just don't understand why I did fall for him.

Maybe because he has cute eyes…

Or maybe because he acts different when he's with me… But there is no way he likes me. He has a girlfriend. His girlfriend is what every guy, except my cousin, wants. But that's not all I bet he sees me like a little sister and nothing else. Oh how it hurt me.

The only thing I can do is stare at the back of his head, while no one else is looking. That is until the bell rings and it's time to be at another place. There is only… one minute left for me to look at him and after that I had to pretend that I hated him… the hate that only a sister can give.

A shrill ring coming from the speakers interrupted my thoughts.

There goes the bell and everyone including myself started getting up to leave. "Hey Bells… back to planet earth?" Rosalie, one of my best friends, asked in a teasing tone. She was one of the few people who knew about my true feelings for Edward.

"Shut up, Rose," I growled making her laugh.

"Hey, are you guys coming or what?" I heard Edward say from behind me. He was so close to me that I could feel his hot breath tickle the back of my neck.

"Yeah, we're coming," I said as I turned around and walked away, not even waiting for either of them to catch up.

"Hey wait up!" I heard Edward yell while running towards me. "Hey what's wrong?" He asked as he reached me and walked at the same pace that I did.

"Nothing" I lied.

"Are you sure? I mean, you seem down and all," He said as he tried to take a look of my face, but I looked away. "Rose said…"

"Rose said what?" I asked quickly, hoping desperately that she didn't tell him what I thought.

"She said that… you were having boy problems?"

Boy problems? … I guess I could call my undying love for him boy problems. "Oh," I simply said.

"What boy?" He asked. Did I just hear an edge in his voice?

"What do you care?" I asked.

"Because I do," he said with a firm tone. "Who is it?" He asked.

"You don't know him," I said, shrugging it off and hoping he would leave it at that. With my luck he just kept on asking. Man he was persistent!

"Then tell me who it is!" He demanded.

"Why do you care?" I repeated. "Are you jealous?" I asked. We both stopped and stared at each other.

"No," he said after a while, but his eyes said something else… I think.

"Then stop bugging me about it," I said. I was about to stomp off when he grabed my arm and pulled me back, into his arms, his eyes showed something that I couldn't quite see. Was it suffering? Agony? Sadness?

"Don't do this to me," He said in a harsh voice, like he was trying to hide whatever he wanted to say.

"Don't do what?" I asked. He opened his mouth and then shut it again, and before my eyes he hid all the emotions that were showing just minutes ago.

"For your cousin," He said and then he walked away, leaving me utterly confused in the hallway.

I didn't know what was going on. Did he feel the same way I felt? Or was it all part of my imagination? Probably the latter…

I sighed because there was nothing else to do and walked into the lunch room. When I walked in I saw all of my friends already sitting in our spot, including Edward.

I sat quietly beside my best friend Alice who was sitting next to my cousin Jasper. They are the perfect couple… actually every one in my group of my friends were couples. My friend Alexa and Rose's cousin Mikael, and lastly Rose and Emmett.

"Hey, I heard that this new café opened right across the street from my house and my cousin said that it's awesome… I was wondering if maybe we could go tonight," Emmett said.

"I'm in!" Alice said quickly.

"Same here," Rose said.

"We're up for it," Alexa added.

"Hn," Jasper said and everyone stared at Alice for translation.

"That's a yes!" She said with a giggle.

"What about you two?" Emmett asked and everyone turned towards Edward and I.

"I can't… I'm going to Jessica's house," Edward said as he tried to look away from me.

"Oh… that's a shame, you don't get to hang out with us anymore," Emmett said, practically whining.

"That's not true!" Edward said.

"Yes it is… you haven't hung out with us since the beginning of last year... and that was because it was the whole class," Emmett said. Emmett was right and there was no way Edward could defend himself from this one, so he just stayed in silence. "Anyway… what about you Bells?"

"No… I'm not going," I said as I looked down.

"Why?" He asked.

"I'm not feeling well," I said in a low voice. I stand up picked up my things and walked away without another word. I made my way to the infirmary where the nurse gave me a leaving pass that all my teachers had to sign before I left. When I left the infirmary to make my way to the teachers launch I bumped in to Edward.

"Hey… are you leaving?" He asked as he stared at the leave pass in my hands.

"Yeah, like I said I'm not feeling well," I said with a sigh and keep on walking but he followed me.

"Are you upset… about the guy?" He asked. I sigh again. Why did he have to ask… why couldn't he just leave me alone?

"No," I said.

"Yes you are… I don't get it… why are you so upset about him," He said as he looked away with anger.

"Please I don't want to start fighting with you again. Like I said before, I don't get why you care, just leave me alone!" I said angrily making him look at me. By now we had both stopped walking.

"I don't care," He assures me… but somehow I didn't believe him… or at least I didn't want to.

"Then stop bugging me," I said harshly.

"Bells…" he let my name slip his lips but said nothing else as he pressed his lips together to keep himself from saying something else.

"Just leave me alone," I said and this time I walked away, and he didn't follow.

XxXxXxXxXxX

Hours later, I sat in my room staring at myself in the mirror. I couldn't stop thinking about him, and that hurt me more than I wanted.

I sighed and walked over to my piano and started off with a soft tone, and then I picked up the beat a little when I remembered the perfect song that went with what I was going through.

I started to sing the Taylor Swift song that I thought of, "You're on the phone with your girlfriend she's upset. She's going off about something that you said. She doesn't get your humor like I do."

I stood up from the piano but I got the rhythm in my head.

"I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night. I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like, and she'll never know your story like I do."

I've seen the video so many times that I could do the actual scenes in my head as I sang the song out loud. I looked myself in the mirror, trying to imitate Taylor.

"She wears short skirts I wear T-shirts, she's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time!"

I grab the brush that I had laying in my drawer and pretended that it was a microphone and started jumping around and singing while looking at myself in the mirror. While I did this, I imagine Edward with his girlfriend, which made my stomach twist with anger and jealousy. Oh how I dreamed to be in her place… where I should be.

"If you could see that I'm the one who understands you! Been here all along so why can't you see you belong with me? You belong with me!

"Walking the streets with you and your worn out jeans. I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be. Laughing on the park bench thinking to myself, 'hey isn't this easy?' and you got a smile that could light up this whole town. I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down.

"You say your fine, I know you better than that. Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that? She wears high heels, I wear sneakers. She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time

"If you could see that I'm the one who understands you. Been here all along so why can't you see you belong with me? Standing by and waiting at your back door all this time how could you not know baby, you belong with me? You belong with me!

"I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night. I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you 'bout to cry! I know you favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams. Think I know where you belong? Think I know it's with me!

"Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you? Been here all along so why can't you see, you belong with me?

"Standing by and waiting at the back door. All this time how could you not know, baby, you belong with me? You belong with me! You belong with me! Have you ever though just maybe, you belong with me? You belong with me."

When I ended I was gasping, still looking at myself. Then the noise of a foot step startle me. When I looked at my side, Edward was standing in front of my window staring at me.

I didn't know if he was exactly real, I've imagined him here, up in my room, so many times that I couldn't tell if I was seeing him there for real. "Edward?" I asked out loud. He didn't say anything. He just stood there, staring at me. By now I knew he was real, if it was my imagination he would have disappeared by now. So I walk to where he was, standing a couple of feet away, trying to keep my distance.

Then he took a step forward, he raised his arms and grabbed my wrist. Thing happened so fast that I didn't exactly know what was going on. He pulled me in to his arms once again, and then he kissed me.