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Chapter Two
Is it hard to decide something? For some people it is.. I am usually undecided.. I want black.. Then I want white.. I want pasta.. Then I want rice.. My family is so used to that by now.. And my friends.. But what makes you decide somehing for sure? Be totally one hundred per cent sure? Is it a feeling? Is it something you know you must do? And what if this decision is going to change your whole life?
My life is going to change.. For better.. For worst.. I hope it is for the better.. It is not very easy for a 18 year old girl to leave her parents, her home, her everything and going somewhere she doesn't know.. To a continent what so ever.. It's not Paris.. It's not Italy.. It's not a country.. It's a continent.. Ok.. Yes.. California is a state.. So? The whole Greece is one state..
Am I afraid of going there? Don't tell my parents, but I am.. I am scared to death.. You ask why.. My grandparent's going to be there.. Yeah.. But for me are two people I never met.. Only talking with them on the phone.. Pictures and everything.. So I am going to be alone in a place I only saw in the movies, or read in books.. I am going to study at one of the most well known universities and although I am very social still it's not going to be easy..
Seconds thoughts? No. No second thoughts.. I decided.. And I am leaving.. This is final.. I will just inhale and exhale when I am going to board to that plane.. The 15th of July.. Final destination.. California..
What am I thinking now? That I want to pass my last days with my best friend and family.. To go as many times as I can to the sea.. Just sit down there and eat ice-cream.. Enjoy the sun and the people.. Enjoy my home.. Go have a coffee at my favorite cafeteria which is next to the sea and dance at my favorite club.. Ok.. If I continue I may cry and I don't want to.. I am not a cry baby.. I am a grown up woman.. This was my decision.. And I am not backing down.. Greece is going to be here.. I will be back.. My parents are here.. My whole life is here.. I am just going for four years.. Yeah.. That's it.. I can come in summers.. Yeah.. I planned everything.. Everything is going to be fine.
"Mom.. I am going out.."
"Where are you going Spence?"
"I am meeting with G.."
"Oh.. Say hi.. Tell her to come over sometime.."
"I will.. Bye mom"
"Bye honey"
I am so going to miss my best friend.. When we go out we are something else.. I make fun of people I see and then she laughs and we laugh.. yeah.. Yesterday she was sad.. I know she is happy for me but I can tell when she is sad or not.. It doesn't matter if I can't see her.. I hear the sound of her voice and I just know.. It's not easy to let go.. But I am not going to stay there..
"Hey G.. I am here.. Come down.."
"Ok.. I am coming.."
Her house was a fifteen minutes way from mine.. So we were in each other's houses very often..
"Ok.. I am ready.. Where are we going?"
"What do you think of BLE?"
"Ohhh.. I love BLE.. Let's go there.."
BLE was my favorite cafeteria and bar at night.. It was next to the sea.. We could drink our coffee and feel the sand on our feet. What better than that?
When we sat down I could read her so well.. She was trying to smile and look all happy but deep down I knew she was crying on the inside.. And it hurt me too..
"Are you ok G?"
"Yeah.. I am fine.. Why?"
"It's me you know.."
"I am alright.. Don't worry"
"But I do worry G.. If it is about me leaving.."
"I am happy for you Spencie.. You know that"
"I know.."
"And if you are happy I am too.. Ok? I am just going to miss you.. That's all.."
"I am going to miss you too.."
"So.. California?"
"Yeah.. California.. Sun and beaches.."
"You couldn't stay away from the sun eh?"
"Nope.. I am so used to our weather that I believe if I were to go to New York I would to die from depression.. At least California is close to the weather of Greece.."
"And what university are we going?"
"UCLA"
"Hm.. Good choice Spencie"
"I know.."
"And what are you going to study?"
"What if I tell you that I don't know yet?"
"Spence.. Oh my God.. Really? You are unbelievable"
"I know, I know.. I just want so many things"
"As always.. Then stick to one"
"Well.. I was thinking photography.. You know it's my passion.."
"Ok.. Then go for photography.."
"But I like Anthropology too.."
"Can you do both?"
"I don't know.. But I want to have one thing to focus.. I want to be the best at that one thing"
"I am sure you will decide at the end"
"Am I not always?"
"Yes you are"
We sat there for a couple of hours.. When we go out together we can talk for ten hours and still we will have something more to say.. She is just awesome..
My birthday was coming.. Actually was this Saturday and we were planning what we were going to do.. I was thinking of asking all my friends to come to my house and have fun.. Eat pizzas and drink.. Just have fun..
After my birthday was the last course I had to give and then I was free.. I would go out every day till it would be my time to leave.. Now I understand my best friend.. It is hard to let go.. Even if you know you are coming back.. But I am not going there again..
"Hey sweetie.. Did you have fun?"
"Oh.. yes.. You know mom that I always have fun with G"
"How is she?"
"Well.. She is kind of sad.. But I understand.."
"She is going to miss her best friend.."
"I know.. I am going to miss her too.. But that's why we have technology"
"Did you eat anything?"
"Nope.."
"Do you want something to eat?"
"Not really.. Maybe a glass of milk but later.. I am just going to rest for a while.. Ok?"
"Ok honey.."
Well.. My parent's are Americans.. You know that because I told you that.. So we kind of have this whole American-Greek habits.. My parents were half their life to the states and half their life here in Greece.. I believe though that we are more accustomed to Greek habits.. We don't have dinner at night as American's do and we don't eat the usual American breakfast.. For me it's just a ball of cereal and my parents have a coffee.. Then we have our lunch round 3 or 4pm.. So not American.. I am curious what I am going to find once I go there.. I am not planning on eating all the time..
Once I was at my room I didn't rest.. I was online searching more things about my new home.. I am curious and I want to know everything.. Sue me.. It's not a bad thing to be prepared and I wanted to be prepared.. I would be a fish among sharks.. Big sharks.. But I am a strong girl.. I will be ok.. Just fine.. Perfect..
You know.. Time passes really fast.. And I mean really really fast.. At one time I was talking with my best friend and arranging my birth day party and now I am packing.. Yeah.. The 15 of July is here.. A whole month passed and I think it is like yesterday I was thinking of leaving.. A tear falls while I close my luggage.. I close my 18 years in a luggage.. Jeez.. It's not like I am moving forever.. I am such a cry baby sometimes.. But don't tell anyone.. It's suppose that I am a rock and rocks never cry.. But another tear falls too and I find myself crying on my bed.. Yeah.. Rock my ass..
"Spence.. Are you ready honey?" noooo… I am not.. I don't think I am ready to let go..
"I don't know.."
"Spence.."
"It's ok dad.. I am ok.. I am ready"
"Mom is downstairs and so is your brother and Georgia.."
"You are making it more difficult than it should be dad.. how I am going to say goodbye to all of you? I told you I should have gone alone to the airport"
"Like we would let you go to the airport alone.."
"But you are making it difficult.."
"Come on Spence.. Let me have your luggage"
My father tried very very hard not to cry.. I could hear his voice.. It was already breaking.. But he was trying for me.. When I got down everyone was smiling but I believe they were crying because once they saw me they started to chat and smile.. While they were drying their tears from their eyes..
"Ok.. I am ready.. Let's go.."
I won't cry.. No.. I am not going to cry.. Oh.. Shit.. I am so going to cry..
The one hour drive from our home till the airport was in dead silence.. My best friend and brother were sitting at the back with me, my mother seemed lost looking outside the window and my father was driving us to the airport..
My flight was leaving at 18.00.. We were there two hours earlier.. I know I shouldn't have to be that early to the airport but I was anxious about the whole thing.. I know I told my father that I would prefer to go alone at the airport but having them here with me is better..
We sat at a cafe so we could eat or drink something.. We made jokes.. I tried to make them laugh and not let the butterflies I had in my stomach take over me.. I knew them as they knew me..
Time really pass so fast.. Because one and a half hour has passed and I had to go to my gate.. I had to say goodbye and I don't want to.. I can't.. It's hard..
"This is me guys.. Ehmm.."
My mother was crying, my father was crying, my best friend was crying and by brother was trying not to.. Oh.. Yes.. I was crying too..
"I am going to miss you sweetie.. Please be careful.. Call us once you are there ok? You have your passport?"
"Yes mom.. I have it here with the ticket.."
I couldn't see my mom crying.. She was breaking my heart.. I really need to let go because if I don't I am going to stay here..
"Mom.. please don't cry.. Ok?"
"Ok.."
"Now give me a big hug.."
I held her closer, inhaled her unique scent.. The scent that only a mother has.. I was going to miss them.. I was going to miss my mom sooo much..
"Dad.. Come here.."
My dad was crying too.. I was his daughter.. His little princess and now I was leaving from his nest.. I was flying with my own wings.. I am wondering.. When I am going to have children.. Will I be the same? Of course I will be..
"Just be careful.. And don't talk to strangers and to boys.. I know how they are over there.."
"Don't worry dad.."
I kissed my brother who was trying really hard not to cry.. He was strong and a boy.. Boys don't cry.. We were always together.. Him and I.. And now one part of his is leaving.. I am going to miss my little bro..
"Watch out for mom.. Ok?"
"Ok.."
And last but not least G.. My G.. My best friend..
"Don't you dare cry.."
"G.."
"I mean it.. If you cry I am not letting you go.. I am going to keep you here whether you like it or not.."
"Not a single tear?"
"A tear yes.."
"Come here silly.."
I hugged her and held her tight.. I whispered to her ear that I loved her and she was the best friend I would ask.. When I saw her face it was covered with tears.. And I couldn't hold mine too..
"I told you not to cry you moron.."
"Ooopss.."
"Now go.. Call me.. Ok? Whenever.."
"Even if it's 12am and you are sleeping?"
"Even if it is 3am and I am sleeping.. Miss you Spencie.."
"Miss you too G.."
I let them go.. Once I gave my passport to the guy so I could enter and walk to my gate I stopped and looked back one more time .. they were still there.. Waving.. Watching me follow my dream.. Looking at me leaving.. Flying with my own wings..
TBC
Ok.. I must say that although I am the writer I was cloudy at the end..
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