Title: Reversal

Summary: What if Bella were the one to leave Edward in New Moon, instead of him leaving her. What if she thought it was for his own good.

Prologue

It had been two days since my disastrous birthday party. Two days since I had begun opening my gift, got a stupid paper cut, and Jasper lost control. I felt so bad, I mean it was all my fault for getting cut! I should have been more careful, I knew better than that! What's worse, I could tell Edward was upset with Jasper, and that wasn't fair at all. He should be upset with me! I was the one who was always getting hurt and having to be rescued. I was the one who put the Cullens under the constant strain of temptation. Even Alice and Esme had to leave the room for Christ's sake!

It had to stop now.

I couldn't take being the source of the Cullen's constant struggle to remain true to their vegetarian diet. Of being the source of Edwards constant burning pain. I loved him, loved them all, to much for that.

But he wont turn me, make me like him.

What other option do we have though? There is no way for us to be together and…but my other option hit me like a shock of frigid water. The mere thought of it feels me with an intense feeling of emptiness. Could do it? Could I be that selfless? Could I survive it?

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I had been thinking over my plan for a few days, knowing it was the right thing for him. Every time I thought about actually doing it though, I gave myself some lame excuse to spend just one more day with my own personal angel.

It was wrong of me to though, I know, and I knew Edward was feeling me pull away from him. I had to distance myself though, maybe it would hurt less when he was gone. I knew that this was what was best for Edward, and all of the Cullens. Edward even said it once himself, vampires can find distractions easily. He could forget about me and be happy. Be with someone, probably a vampire, who was not always the damsel in distress; not always causing rifts between his family. Just the thought of him with someone, anyone else, human or vampire, killed me inside though.

"It's what's best for him." I told myself one morning over a bowl of Cheerios. Edward hadn't shown up yet to drive us to school. "It's what's best for him" had actually become my mantra over the past few days. A way for me to cope with what I had to do. I repeated it over and over in my head, but it really didn't make the pain any less potent.

Just then, the door bell rang, and I rushed forward to open it. I knew it would open to reveal him looking painfully handsome, with the crooked smile I loved spread across him beautiful face, and make it that much harder for me.

Friggin masochist I thought bitterly as I pulled open the front door.

Just as I thought, there he stood looking strikingly handsome in a simple black t-shirt and dark grey coat. It was striking against his ultra pale skin. The crooked smile that made me go weak in the knees was there as well, almost sending me to the floor.

"Good morning," He said, his voice ringing out like a beautiful melody. He bent slightly and pressed his cold lips to my forehead. The feel of his lips made my weak human heart constrict. I knew this might be the last time I would ever feel them. Amazingly, I kept myself under control and non of the tears I knew were brimming fell from my eyes. Those would be saved for later, for when he was gone and I was alone.

"Good-morning" I said to him, trying my best to conceal my face.

I quickly grabbed my coat from the rack behind the door, leaving my nearly untouched bowl of cereal on the kitchen table.

I didn't have an appetite anyway.

We drove in relative silence to Forks high school, the scenery whipping by as the speedometer hit ninety. Edward broke the quiet about half way to the school. I didn't mind, I wanted to hear his velvety voice as much as possible.

" Jasper is still pretty torn up about your party," He told me quietly.

'I don't blame him Edward," I said, 'It was my fault, I should have been more careful." He looked like he was about to disagree, but thought better of it.

" Well Alice has been watching his future like crazy, but all she sees are just some hazy images. It's driving her mad." At his words my body went rigid.

How had I forgotten to account for Alice?

My best friend?

Alice, my best friend who could see the future?

Had she seen my plan? Did she know what I was going to do?

No. No obviously she didn't, or she would have come and talked, well yelled at, me about my plan. She would try to talk me out of it.

She must be incredibly occupied with Jasper for things to start slipping by her.

"Bella?" I was brought out of my thoughts by Edwards lyrical voice.

"Yes?" I asked him densely.

"We're here," He told me. Only then did I notice the familiar surroundings of the high school. Students were walking towards the buildings, not a care in the world. I spotted Angela and Ben holding hands while heading towards the English building, then Mike and Jessica talking by his old car. He had his arm slung protectively around her shoulders. Everywhere I looked I saw couples, and I couldn't take it.

"Are you alright love?" Edward asked sounding concerned.

" I'm fine," I assured him, though I was far from it, " I was just zoning out I guess."

I could tell he didn't fully believe me, but he let it pass.

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The rest of the day passed without incident. Since Edward and I had almost every class together, we spent pretty much every second with each other. This made it extremely difficult for me to distance myself from him.

How was I suppose to give him up?

At lunch, Edward and I took our usual seats with Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie. Though Jasper now sat at the far end, furthest from me. Alice was unusually quiet, and the far off look in her eyes told me she was still looking for Jasper. After lunch the rest of the afternoon passed in a blur, and before I knew it the final bell had rung.

The final bell, I thought sadly, how fitting.

Edward met me outside of the locker room as usual, and we walked hand in hand through the student parking lot to his shiny silver Volvo. I was silent the whole ride home, and I could tell Edward was concerned. We reached Charlie's house in record time, and Edward turned to look at me with worried eyes.

"Bella, love," he said, his voice echoing the unease in her topaz eyes, " What's wrong?"

"Edward," his name was just a whisper. It hurt to say, knowing what I was about to do,

"Will you come for a walk with me?"

"Of course," He replied softly.

We both climbed out of the car, and started towards the woods that surround Charlie's house. We don't go far down the path before I stopped, I could still see the small house through the clearing.

" What are you thinking," He asked me, beginning to sound frustrated.

" Edward…I…" I couldn't bring myself to say the words.

" What Bella? What is it?" Edward was pleading with me now, and all of a sudden the tears and emotion I had been holding back came flooding out. His arms were around me in an instant, comforting me and begging me to stop crying.

"I…I…" I sniffled, " I can't d..do this anymore."

"What Bella?" He pleaded with me, " Do what?"

"Live in this world anymore," I managed to choke out, " I don't want to."

At my words, his fingers stopped making the comforting circles through my thick parka. His body was rigid as he processed the false meaning behind my words.

"oh," was all he said.

"Edward…" I began but he cut me off.

"You don't want me anymore," It was a statement, not a question. He had let go of me by now, and stepped back a few steps. He stared into the blackened depths of the surrounding woods. It took me a minute to compose myself enough to speak. Speak the words that would take him away from me forever.

"No, I don't want this anymore." It came out as barley a whisper, but I knew he heard. I wondered if noticed that I said this, and not him, there was certainly a difference. He continued to stare, unmoving, at the trees over my head. Then, so quickly I didn't see him move, he was there in front of me, hands gripping my shoulders as he gazed intensely into my eyes.

I knew what he was doing, looking for my lie.

I couldn't let him see through this, it had to be this way. I steeled myself, and stared straight back into his penetrating gaze. We stared into each others eyes for what seemed an eternity before he seemed to finally give up. He seemed so lost and defeated, that I wanted to confess my lie right then.

No! I screamed at myself.

"Why?" he murmured.

" I'm just tired of being in danger all the time," I lied after a moment of silence, " I want to lead a normal life….with a normal guy." I couldn't believe I just said that to him, it was the worst lie I would ever tell. The look on his face only added to the intense pain I felt.

It looked like he was being burned alive.

"I'll keep my promise," He said to me quietly, "You'll never have to see me again." I stood there frozen, not knowing what to do.

This was it.

I nodded as I walked slowly up to his dejected form and wrapped my arms around him.

"Good-bye Edward," I whispered into his ear, "Be happy."

Then, faster than I thought possible, I turned on my heel and ran back up the leafy path. I didn't dare look back, for fear he would be gone, or worse , still there staring after me. He didn't come after me though, so I just ran. When I reached the front door, I wrenched it open and slammed it shut behind me. I made it to my room before I truly lost it. I fell to me knees on my hardwood floor and sobbed.

Who said I couldn't lie?

AUTHORS NOTE: So this to was a one shot that I had originally titled An Eclipse at Twilight. But again, decided not to make it into a story. PLEASE REVIEW guys, I promise the next one is alllll neeeewwww!!! Yes ALL NEW!