Pain.

The only thing I think is: how am I still alive? I know Envy, he wouldn't miss on accident...unless...he wanted me alive.

I coughed and spat out blood, blinking as I saw Envy staring down at me, frowning.

"Ne, o'chibi-chan, you're still alive?" his voice was still...seductive, but it'd lost its playfulness, was now more serious.

"Obviously." I spat out blood. Oh Gate, it hurt.

"Well, aren't you going to do it?"

He shrugged delicately, sitting next to me, twirling a strand of hair around his finger. Gate, he was such a girl sometimes... "Why should I?"

"Weren't you hellbent on killing me this whole time?"

"Not really, it was my job to keep you alive. To…toy with you. I wanted to kill you, but I wasn't allowed to. Besides, I like seeing you squirm." he leaned in and smirked, and I tried to scoot back, but my wound prevented me from doing so.

"So why not now? Dante's dead, the job is done."

"Do you really want to die?"

"Answer my question."

"Why should I?"

"Envy, please."

"Fine. Only because you're dying. I don't want to kill you because I don't feel like it. You'll die in a few minutes anyway. I would, if you weren't."

"Bipolar palm tree." I murmured. It was getting harder to breathe...

"What did you say, I couldn't hear your voice from way up here."

Envy turned away, but I caught the smirk. So he was egging me on. Too late. "WHO ARE YOU CALLING SO SMALL HE-" ohhh Gaaate! That hurt.

"O'chibi-chan so kawaii…" Envy cooed then, running lithe fingers through my hair.

What the hell?

I looked up at him and frowned, beginning to notice things I'd never noticed about him. Like how long his eyelashes were, hiding scarlet eyes the color of blood. Playful eyes, narrowed, and was that eyeliner? His face was angular, but his lips looked rather soft...

I shrugged inwardly-I was about to die, nothing mattered-then heaved myself up and pressed my lips to his. They were soft. I let myself fall back and closed my eyes.

"Why'd you do that, Ed-kun?" Was it just me or was his voice strained?

I licked my lips absently. "I'm about to die. Nothing I say or do matters now, does it? At least Al's safe."

I stopped, seeing the impish sparkle in Envy's eyes, seeing the grin slowly slide across that pale face. "Envy, don't you dare-!"

"And why not, I'm bored, and your precious little brother won't have you to protect him now. I could just do this," he smirked at me, and now he was a mirror image of myself, "and saw how I healed myself with alchemy, that the homunculi and Dante are all dead, that we're safe. Oh, the look on his face when his beloved older brother kills him…"

"But you won't, because you see me in him."

He scowled. "That gives me a bigger reason to do it. So I can kill you twice."

"But if you really wanted to, I'd be dead now."

He snarled at me and muttered under his breath, but I didn't bother trying to hear. Just concentrated on staying awake...

"Ne, Edo, I'll make you a deal. I won't hurt a hair on your dear little Alphonse's head…if and only if you give me what I want."

I blinked, feeling a sudden hope rise...then crash. "You're lying."

"No. see, when I want something, I get it. And you have what I want. It's your little rule of equivalent exchange, no?"

The twist on my past made my lips twitch, but I didn't give him the satisfaction of giving in to the barb. "About Al."

"I already said I won't hurt a hair on your brother's head. Would you rather that or have me kill him as soon as you die? Hurry up, I'm getting impatient."

I sighed, it was worth a shot, wasn't it? "Fine."

As soon as I finished speaking, Envy straddled my hips and kissed me, easily slipping my tongue into his mouth and probing it. His hair hung in my face, and I wanted to brush it away, but it'd seem like I was enjoying the contact-which I wasn't, right?-by stroking his head.

So I didn't.

He tasted like fire, I noticed dimly. Tangy and sweet and spicy and dangerous. I shuddered and mind on overdrive, reflexively bit his tongue, hard.

He reared back, almost comically crossing his eyes to stare at the tip of my tongue as it healed. "Now, Edo, if you don't cooperate, I'll have to go back on our deal~!" he said in a sing-song voice, brushing his hair back, to no avail.

I hated myself for nodding slowly, knowing my face was scarlet. "But why-"

"You talk to much." Envy sighed, bending down, and this time I eagerly kissed him back. He hummed against my lips, the grin tickling. Wait.

Breathing.

Right.

I pulled back, gasping, breathing as fast as I could, only to lose those breaths as soft lips brushed against my cheek, kissed the corner of my mouth, then trailed down to my neck. I moaned as Envy bit lightly, then sucked hard.

In my bliss, I didn't notice I was shirtless until I felt Envy shift and then his mouth and hands were on my bare chest. Pleasure-pain electrified my veins as he licked around my wound, sucking broken skin, and I moaned again, this time, more out of pain.

"En…vy…hurts!"

He sighed, and I felt the rest of my clothes come off as he kissed me again. I unconsciously arched my hips up as he did, wanting...

"Ne, Edo-kun, I thought you didn't want this." Envy mumbled against my lips.

"I…don't know. And this isn't fair." Gate, I couldn't believe I just said that.

"What?"

"I'm…you… you've still got…" I would NOT humiliate myself by saying it, so I just glared at his clothes.

"Mm…o'chibi-chan wants to see?"

Yes. Gate, yes. No. I'm straight. I don't know. I was thinking of what to say but by then Envy's shirt was gone already. I brushed cold, perfect skin with my flesh hand gently.

"You're cold…" I murmured.

He shrugged, looking uncomfortable. "So? I'm technically dead, aren't I? I don't think I should be warm."

"Why do you hate me?"

"Because of that bastard Hohenheim."

"He did it to you to?"

"So you're saying that your mother poisoned you until you died, then he tried to transmutate your dead body, and when it failed, he left you?"

And I thought I had it bad with him... "No, but he left me and Al when we were little…that's why mom died, I think."

"Tough nuggets." Envy held a hand in front of my face. "Now suck."

"Why?"

"D'you want it to hurt even more than it already will?" he asked impatiently.

Oh.

I-gate, this was uncomfortable-took his three fingers in my mouth, sucking hard, and then he pulled away and a bit of my saliva stayed connected to his fingers before he twitched them and it fell to the floor between us.

My brother enemy lover stared at me for a long moment, eyes...soft. Sure, there was a fair amount of want in his eyes, but...there was something almost like...love.

And now I gasped as his finger pushed...inside of me. Gate, it hurt.

"Relax, or it'll hurt more." I couldn't, it hurt so bad, and Envy rolled his eyes and bent to my neck and began to suck lightly. He soon huffed and kissed me again.

Then he began to pump his finger in and out slowly. Gate oh Gate it hurt so bad...!

But.

Then he sped up roughly, and he hit a...spot. Gate, it felt good.

"Ah...Gate, Envy!" I unvoluntarily arched my hips up as Envy pushed his fingers into it again.

I needed more, Gate, it felt good.

I fumbled for Envy's skort and he hissed at me, but I didn't care, because now something much bigger than two fingers was in me.

"Thanks for the fuck, o'chibi-chan. Maybe we can do it again." Envy stood, chuckling. "Wait. You're dying."

I stared up at me, helpless, gazing at his naked glory, still on a high from the merciless orgasm.

"Oi, Gluttony! Get your fat ass over here!" he suddenly called.

"No no no please don't. I'll do whatever you want, just-" I couldn't believe I'd just said that, but now I wanted, needed to live. My enemy lover half-brother stared down at me, eyebrow raised, a smirk on that perfect face.

"Not gonna lower yourself to beg? I could stop him if you want. No? Oh well, not my loss."

Gluttony—now mindless—was suddenly in front of him, jaws wide.

"Gluttony!" Envy was now Lust, and Gluttony stopped, tiny eyes widening.

"Lust? My Lust?" he asked.

Envy reached out and Gluttony sat. "Gluttony, can you do me a favor?"

His head nodded so fast I thought it'd fall off. "Eat this boy. No—slowly. Eat his insides first. Make it unbearable. I want him to suffer."

Gluttony turned back to Envy. "Lust?" then he turned to Ed. "You took my Lust from me!"

Oh gate. I don't want to die. I won't let him hear me scream.

"I won't scream. I won't scream. I WON'T SCREAM!"

Gluttony's heavy breathing and chewing as he ate me, torturing me slowly by eating—saving what I'd need to survive for last—and causing me excruciating pain.

Pain. Darkness.

I blinked. Everything was hazy, but I still remembered. Everything.

I'd get him back. Everything went dark again, and the last thing I knew was Envy 's smirk.

"Welcome to the family...Pride."