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Chapter 2.
In some sort of way we are all healing. As long as we live and things keep happening around us we need to heal. And sometimes we just need to heal from the outside. When we get into an accident and break our leg we need time to let the leg heal. We put a cast around it and give it six weeks to heal. But there are other things that happen and scare us from the inside.
And those are the difficult parts. Because we are healing and we need time. But we can't put a cast around it and give it six weeks. We need to go further with our life. But still we are healing. So we try and do the best we can but it can´t stop us from breaking once in a while. And it is difficult because other people can't see it and every one things you are just fine. But deep down we all know when the mind is broken the body can't move.
You can be taking step by step. Moving slowly forward. But when you can't remember what you are doing, when you can't remember where you are going, the world stops. And the moment you stop the world pass you by.
When I wake up I have the most beautiful view before me. Dimitri is still asleep and the blanket is only wrapped around his hips. His face is so relaxed and his chest looks like it is made from porcelain. I can't help myself to trace his chest with my fingers.
His hands tighten and his sleepy eyes open slowly. As soon as his eyes meet mine a beautiful smile forms on his face.
'Good morning beauty.' He says and gives me a quick kiss on the lips.
'Good morning hansom.' I answer and he chuckles.
'How late is it?' he asks and I roll around. When I finally find my phone and see the time I shoot out of bed.
Oh my gosh! I have to start at my new job in forty minutes and it takes me twenty-five to get there. I'm so screwed. I start grabbing clothes as I hear a laugh. Shit, Dimitri.
'Don't laugh at me. Don't you dare laugh at me. I'm so late Dimitri. So late! And it is my first day.' I say panicking. What will they think of me. I am new in the job and I am coming late at my first day. This can't be happening. This just can't.
A pair of hands pulls me closer and he kisses my lips slowly. But even that can't relax me at this moment. I just want to die at this moment.
'You know, Roza. I can always write you a not. I'm a doctor.' He asks smiling.
'Roza, huh?' I ask him. In the interim I'm finding I put on some underwear and shooting Dimitri daggers for just standing there.
'It's your Russian name.' he says. He is finally putting on his clothes. Thank god. How can I meet the man of my dreams one day and screwing up everything the second.
'Well, comrade. Your note won't help me. I heard this doctor I will work for is a total ass. And he will probably kill me for being too late.' I say while pushing him out of my room. He chuckles and let me.
'He won't be that bad. Not all of us doctors are asses.' He says and he watch me getting ready for work. I stop and glare at him.
'Oh he is. I heard all of these stories about him. And all those nurses are doing everything they can to keep him happy or they are living in hell for a couple of days. I heard that one of the nurses burst out crying when he only looked at her. Can you believe that?' I ramble the story and look at him. His eyes tell me how amused he is by my little rambling story.
'I must admit that that doctor sounds like a total jackass. And I won't keep you any longer from trying to be on time.' He says and he collects his jacket. He wears a long leather jacket, I think it's called a duster. And with the long hair it makes him look like a cowboy.
'Euhm, yeah. So how do we do this?' I ask immediately nervous. What if he only wanted this to be one-night stand? And now I'm rambling this whole story to him when he is probably not even interested. But why didn't he leave in the middle of the night? Isn't that what a one-stand is supposed to do?
'Well, I hope to see you again. Maybe we could exchange numbers?' he says with one of his beautiful smiles.
We exchange numbers and then we go separate ways. I'm on my way to work and I don't know where he is going to. But I hope that I will see him soon.
'So this brings us to the end of our tour. I hope that you find your way soon. And otherwise you can always ask.' Sonya says. She is one of the nurses and I already like the woman. She is kind and warm. I can really see myself become friends with her.
'Thank you so much. I really appreciate it that you showed me around. And the first days always will be the hardest.' I say and she laughs. We all know it is. It was in our internships and it will be when you first start working.
'Come, come. We will have to go if we want to be on time for the doctor. Mostly he will first go through all the files and then he goes to all the patients. Just be silent and listen, alright?' she says and I can feel myself getting nervous.
I was already happy that I made it in time. Barely, but on time. And luckily the doctor was late so we had a little time for a tour over the children's ward. Yes, I am a nurse on the children's ward. Very proud to be.
I sit in the back with a couple of other new nurses. Gladly I'm not the only one starting new. But it makes me wonder why so many nurses quit. Would that have to do something with the doctor?
'Good morning. Everyone ready?' I hear a deep and warm voice saying. That is a very familiar voice. I look up and am shocked to who I see standing there.
Dimitri. No, please, please, no. This can't be happening, right? I can't listen to his voice talking about all those children when I can still hear his voice say all these naughty things to me like he did last night.
And, wait, he is the doctor! I better could have died this morning before going to work. I have said all these things about him to him. And I didn't even know it. How can I face him? Let's hope that he won't notice me anytime soon.
Luckily for me he didn't look up from the files in front of him. It was nice to listen to his voice for almost an hour. He has this beautiful voice that makes you forget about everything around you and you only listen to him. And I noticed that I'm not the only one. I have never heard a room full of woman be so quiet.
'And that brings us to the last point, are there any news from your front.' He says and finally looks up to Sonya. She is head nurse at the ward and most of the talking was between her and Dimitri.
'Well, we have four new nurses starting today.' She says with a smile and looks our way. It seems like Dimitri has lost his interest because he is already writing down on his notes.
'Names.' He orders. We are silent for a moment until Sonya looks our way. The other girls say their names first before it's my turn. It's making me nervous. Would he react when I tell him my name? What will he do?
They say their names and receive a nod from Dimitri, who is still looking down. The girl next to me gives me a small push that it's my turn. I say my name and am really glad that my voice wasn't shaking. As he hears my name he looks up and his eyes meet mine. I can see the surprise in them for a short moment and then it's gone.
'Good. Welcome ladies.' He says and stands up. All the nurses stand up with him and the four of us are standing a little awkward at the back. Not knowing what we should do.
'Go with the doctor.' A nurse whispers to us and we come in action as one person. It makes us giggle and we share a look of understanding. One look of Sonya makes us shut up immediately.
We were happy that it was finally lunch break. We had spent the morning with the visit round with Dimitri and had learned that he was a very strict men. Things had to go by his rules and his methods. But on the other side was he a really sweet men when it came to the children.
It makes me wonder why he transferred from being an oncologist to a pediatrician. But I'm not sure if it is even in my place to ask such a thing. First he was just my dream man that I had slept with. And now he is my boss. How could it become so complicated?
'He was in a good morning this morning.' Sonya says and we can only stare at her. This was a good mood? If this is his good mood I don't want to know what his bad mood is.
'Good? Good? He tortured his this whole morning.' Avery says. She is one of the girls that started working with me today. The other woman on our table starts laughing at her comments. Except the four of us. Not really understanding what is funny.
'He probably got lucky last night.' One of them says and the other start laughing even harder. All I can do is look down and try to not get red. I know he got lucky.
'I won't mind to spend the sheets with him.' Another woman says. And I can't help it to get a little mad. I don't want to picture other woman in bed with him. And that's crazy because he isn't even mine. Oh, I wish he was mine.
'You are just such a slut!' Sonya exclaims. I hold my breath waiting for her answer. But she only starts laughing.
'There is nothing wrong with being a slut!' she says a little too loud. A lot of people around us are staring at us. But she doesn't even care. She even goes as far as pushing her cleavage a little higher. It makes us laugh and I love the group I work with.
'Are you entertaining yourselves, ladies?' I hear Dimitri's voice ask behind me. We stop laughing and everyone freezes. How much did he hear?
'We are always entertaining ourselves doctor.' I hear Sonya answer very politely and we start laughing again. How can she be so serious after what we just said!
Dimitri just shakes his head and he sit down. Next to me! How did that happen? I can feel his warmth radiate of him and I smell his aftershave. It takes all of my control to keep my hands to myself and not touch him.
'Can you help me for a minute?' I hear his voice but I can't see him. But I know by the way that he asks that he can see me. So I take a deep breath and walk inside.
In the room is Dimitri busy with the examination of a small girl. I put up a smile and look at them both. The mother is sitting in the corner keeping her eyes fixed on her daughter.
Poor little girl has fallen in a pool and she has signs of hypothermia. Her skin is very cold but the pH of her blood has returned to a more normal level.
'Her pajama needs to be changed and I want another check on her temperature.' He says with his authority. And I can't do anything than just follow what he says. I walk closer and the poor girl is looking at me with those big eyes of her.
'Hi sweetie, my name is Rose. I will just help you in another pair of those pretty pajamas of yours and check on your temperature. It won't hurt you. Don't let that big doctor scare you.' I say and smile at her. And I'm lucky to receive a smile from her.
I can feel Dimitri's stare on mine and as I look up I can see anger in them. What did I do? Is this about that comment?
I try to ignore him as I help the girl. I talk with her and she talks back at me the best she can. She is very sweet and I hope that she will be out of here very soon. It's always very sad when a child needs to be hospitalized.
I can hear him talk with the mother and goes through a couple of stuff. I finish with the girl and just tell him her temperature before walking out. He doesn't look up when I leave so I just wave at the little girl and continue working on the files.
'A word please.' He says and he doesn't wait for my answer. He just walks away and I stare at his back. What is this? He can't seriously mean this. I didn't do anything wrong.
'You can better follow him.' I hear someone say. Great. All the other nurses heard him. Now they all think that I did something wrong. But I didn't!
I stand up and walk after him. I won't let him do this to me. I was just talking to that little girl and knowing about all my doctor visits is that they can be very scary! The nurses always seemed so much nicer.
His office door is open so I just walk in. He stands with his back toward mine. The sleeves of his blouse are rolled up to his elbows. Looking very sexy. Don't think about that! You are supposed to be mad at him.
'That took you long enough. Close the door.' He says again with that authority. But this times it just makes me weak in the knees. I can't help but find it very sexy the way he talks and barks orders. And I wonder how it would be if he would do that in the bedroom.
I follow his order and as soon as I turn around to face him again he is only inches away from me. I take a deep breath as I stare in his eyes. They bore into mine and darken with the moment. I lick my lips and see his eyes travel down to my lips.
Suddenly I am pressed against the wall and his lips are attacking mine. Only the taste of his lips makes me crazy. I moan and wrap my arms around his neck. His hands are searching my body and he presses his body closer.
The moment I can feel how excited he is I push him away from me. We stare at each other, both breathing heavy.
'You can't do that doctor.' I say and try to pull myself together again. He chuckles and rest his hands on my hips.
'I remember you calling me names. A lot. But doctor wasn't one of them.' He says, his voice husky. The things this man do to me.
I've always been in control. Never wanted to lose it or let another person take it. It is why so many of my relationship didn't work out. But with Dimitri. I want to give him all the control within seconds.
'Well last night I didn't even know you would be my boss!' I say and push his hands away. He only laughs and take a couple of steps back.
'Doesn't that make it even sexier, Roza?' He says and gives me that look that makes me want to throw all my believes away.
'It's Rose when I'm working.' I say and I look away from his stare. There is no way that there can come any good from this.
'And didn't you wanted to be an oncologist. So what are you even doing here?' I continue. And I know that it comes all out a little bit bitchier then I intend to.
'Oh, Roza. Don't be like this. We could have a lot of fun when you just give in.' he says. I give him a death glare and he signs.
'Alright. We can do this your way. I couldn't watch all those patients just die. I wanted to do something more with my life. And then I found out how much I enjoyed to be pediatrician.' He says. He looks away and his I can see that his mind is very far away.
I can't help to wonder what happened to him. And I just want to reach out and make him feel better. Something that is very dangerous. I am working for him. He is my boss. I can't have these feeling for him. It always ended badly.
'Couldn't you watch those patients die or couldn't you watch me die?' I ask. It comes out as a whisper but I know he heard me. He looks up and I can see the truth in them. And I don't know what I must do with it.
'I can ask you the reason why you became a nurse Rose. But I also know the answer at that.' He says and I nod. I sit down in the stool next to him. I guess that we know each other better than we think.
We are silent for another couple of minutes. Both thinking about the reason we are doing what we are doing. And it is odd that we aren't that different. He wanted to be a doctor, but didn't wanted to be an oncologist after we met. And I wanted to be a nurse after we met.
'Do you remember when we first met?' he asks with a smile. And I smile because I remember. He holds his hand out and I take it. Seeking comfort in his touch.
'You were the hottest doctor I had ever met.' I say and he laughs.
'That isn't what you let me know back then. What did you call me back then?' he asks.
'Cheap foreign labor.' I say and we both laugh. I just had another chemo session and wasn't pleased with the people in my room, my parents. And then Doctor Wilson had come in with him following. Saying that he would be my new doctor.
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