"We can't keep going in circles like this, Maggie!" Alex said with hurt in her voice.
They were engaged for only two weeks before the fighting began. Alex brought up wanting kids at their party and things went downhill from there. They were normally great at talking to each other about things but they were both on such opposite sides that there was no way to meet in the middle. Neither person would be happy if they settled for what the other wanted. It was an impossible situation and there was only way to stop the hurting.
"What are you saying?" Maggie said, her lip quivering as she anticipated Alex's words. "I need you to say it out loud. I need to hear you say it out loud."
"We're over," Alex said as she looked down, not able to meet those brown eyes.
Everything was everything, but baby it's the last show. Everything could be everything but it's time to say goodbye so…
Maggie finished packing her things and was ready to leave. She made arrangements with her friend to stay with her until she could find a permanent place. She wasn't sure if she was going to stay in National City. How could she when she'd be constantly reminded of what she had?
Maggie didn't want them to end on a sad note. She wanted to remember their relationship as happy. They helped each other through some of the darkest parts of their lives and helped each other grow. She walked to Alex, turning on the radio next to her. Maggie started to dance, bringing a smile to both of their faces. "Dance with me."
So Alex danced with her. They were young and alive and so scarily in love that it was almost too much. Alex moved closer to Maggie, their eyes meeting as they took each other in. They breathed in one another, Alex's hands running up the woman's arms to her shoulders, then moving to cup her cheeks, pulling her in for a kiss that felt like it lasted an eternity but still wasn't even close to being long enough.
…it's no surprise that I got lost in your brown eyes.
"Maggie?" Alex said as she looked over the woman in front of her, her heart beating rapidly. It had been a few years since their last case together and even then they never talked about their personal lives. It was strictly professional. What would Maggie think if she saw her old friends, her old family, sitting together and laughing? What would she think of Ellie? Would she even think that it would be Alex's child? Why was she even here?
"Yeah," she spoke, awkwardly stuffing her hands in her leather jacket's pockets. "Look, I know it's been years but I just…" she sighed then smiled as she met eyes with the woman that once filled her heart with pure joy and love, "I miss you." She tilted her head to the side as she looked at her, more nervous than she's ever been in her entire life.
Alex opened her mouth to respond but was interrupted by a tiny tug at the hem of her shirt. "Mommy, I finished eating all of my vegetables! Can I please have dessert now? Aunt Kara says she wants some too!" Ellie said excitedly, opening the door up more to get closer to her mother.
Maggie's eyes widened when she saw the small child calling Alex her mom, feeling like she was reliving the worst fight of her life. "Oh," she said quietly, slowly backing up from the door.
"In a minute, baby," Danvers said to her child as she bent down to be at the same level as her. "Tell Kara that not everyone eats as fast as you two," she finished as the child sprinted over to her aunt, sitting next to her and giving her the bad news.
"Sorry, I didn't…" Sawyer swallowed as she was dumbfounded. She knew how badly Alex wanted to be a mom and she knew that she was probably going to have a child someday she just never expected to feel like she lost even more than she already had.
"No," Alex said, "we were all just catching up. Want to come in? We have plenty of food and…"
"No," Maggie answered quickly, motioning towards the hallway outside of the apartment. "I should probably just… I don't know why I thought this was a good idea," she laughed nervously, feeling like an outsider intruding on a stranger's life. She turned around and headed down the hallway.
"Wait, Maggie," Alex stepped outside, looking down the hall but not going after her.
Sawyer turned around hesitantly, the look on her face one of a lost puppy dog.
"See you around?" Alex asked, not wanting this to be the last time she saw her old flame.
"Sure, Danvers," she shrugged before finally leaving.