"(Give me love, give me shelter) Save my soul from this loneliness (Give me love, give me shelter) Save me now cause I'm falling down (Give me love, give me shelter) Save my life from this emptiness (Give me love, give me shelter) Save me now, cause I'm falling down" Save Me, RBD
Youre almost there.
Youre glad that you can allready see the bridge up ahead. The road is empty and you can see the bridge straight up ahead in between the snow. A new idea pops into your head, and you decide to do it here instead of ruining your spot, the beautiful meadow with the lake that once held so many amazing memories for you.
You dont want a show or attention, you just want to get it over with.
You stop the car at the beginning of the bridge and take out the note you made for your mother to leave it in the passanger seat. You dont want her to blame herself in any way. In the letter, you just tell her how much you love her and how even though youre going to be gone, you want her to move on and be happy, and that youre doing this because you know youre too hurt to move on and you dont want to make her life any your decision. On top of the letter you place the necklace she gave you that had a picture of you and her when you were ten.
You walk towards the center of the bridge and cross over so youre on the opposite side of the fence made to prevent cars from falling into the lake. This is the deepest part of the lake and you look down. The water is peaceful, unlike every emotion inside of, and most importantly, its freezing. It would be over in a few minutes maximum. You finger the cross you have on your neck, and for a instant you wonder if everything they ever told you in church was true. You wonder if you really are going to go to hell for this. You wonder who besides your mother will miss you and who will come to your funeral. You wonder if you should stop.
No, you dont want to stop.
So you take what you believe is your last breath, and you let yourself fall.
Youre almost there.
You cant believe you actually did what you did. You have been so stressed out lately that you decided to not care what the label thougth. So you grabbed your wallet, keys, and passport and made your way to the airport. You had grabbed a black coat and some dark shades and hoped not to be seen by your fans. You love them, you really do, but you need this time to yourself.
It was almost impossible.
As soon as you got off you ran to buy a ticket. You remember they looked at you like you were crazy when you asked them for a ticket to the first plane out of there. They couldnt understand what Joe Lucas, frontman of JONAS, would want to do for once alone in Wisconsin. They didnt understand that you had to leave to anywhere before everyone found out and you were forced to stay.
You just needed some time to yourself, to find yourself again.
So here you are now, completely lost, but glad, as your making your way through the road, the last sign you passed said that there was a bridge a mile up and to drive cautiously. You kept driving and soon you could see the beginning of a lake. It had began snowing again,and it truly was a beautiful site. You never saw things like this is California, the perfect white snow in the winter, Thats why you were supriced that as you kept driving, you could make out a dark blurr in the middle of it all. As the car advanced a few feet more, you could see that it was a person. Curiosity took over you as you watched the person while trying to keep your eyes on the road.
You slammed your foot onto the breaks when you saw them fall.
As fast as you could, you got off the car and ran towards the center of the bridge. You looked over the fence and you could see a girl drowning, but she didnt seem to be trying to save herself, she looked unconscious.
Withouth thinking twice about it, you took off your large coat and jumped in to save her.
The water was freezing and it felt incredibly painful against your skin. You quickly went after the girl, knowing that there was a chance you could lose control of your body soon. You grabbed her and began swimming as fast as you could while pulling her along. The cold was so painful, that you felt like there were hundreds of knives being stabbed into you at the same time. You swam in the same direction as your car and thankfully, you were at the edge of the lake. You pushed yourself out the water and turned around to pull her out, panting heavily.
You lean down and pull her out, pushing her now heavy coat off. You want to rest, the cold and the freezing water make your body feel exhausted, but you know that if you dont move fast, the girl could still freeze to death. Picking her up into your arms bridal style, you swiftly make your way towards your rented car. It takes you a few minutes, since the car is parked so far away, but you mentally thank yourself for going on all the hikes and workouts with your friends back in California.
You can feel her shivering as you manage to get the door open. You carefully place her in the passanger seat and go around the car to get to the drivers side. Sticking the keys into the ignition,you turn on the heater as high as it can go. Withouth warning, her body begings trashing violently against the seat, arms furiously hugging her own body, desperately searching for heat. You begin rubbing her arms with your hands, hoping the heat and friction will provide her some warnth.
Your at a loss for what to do. You have no clue were you are or which way is the nearest hospital, so you decide to keep driving straight until you find some thing, a sign, anything, that gives you a clue as to where to go. As you near the end of the bridge, you notice there is a car parked there. Hoping its the girls car, you get off your own and check to see if its unlock. It is. As soon as you open it, you go straight for the glove compartment, hopeful that her adress is in the registration. All you need is an adress and the cars GPS will lead you there. You sigh when you find all the documents and start to get out of the car when something shiny catches your eye. On the passengers seat lies a locket necklace, placed neatly on top of a letter. Curiosity gets the best of you and you open the locket, only for it to reveal a picture of the girl when she was younger and of an older woman who you assume is her mother. You place the locket in your pocket and hurry back to your car, papers in your hand.
When you get back into your car, you see the girl is incredibly pale, her lips are still blue, but you can detect a hint of color returnig to her face. You enter her adress into the GPS and start following the directions, knowing that once you get her home, someone can help you figure out what to do. The whole way there, you keep checking on her when you hear her shudder, thankfully, after a couple of minutes driving, you enter the town and soon the car signals for you to stop in front of a two story house, claiming you have reached your destination. You get out of the car and shiver when the cold air and snow hits you. Your coat was long forgotten at the bridge when you jumped in the water, and the heat inside the car had been at its highest possible to help her. You go straight for her door and start knocking furiously, but no one ever opens the door.
" Excuse me, young man, can I help you?" you hear a voice call out to you. You turn around to see a blond woman who looks in her forties looking at you expectantly, waiting for an answer.
" I need help. The girl who lives here is unconscious in my car and I dont how to help her" you almost yell at her. You see her eyes widen and fill with fear and panic. She runs to your car and opens the passenger seat to discover the girl there.
" Sonny" she sobbs, panic evident in her voice. You look at her and she seems like shes about to breakdown in a panic attack, when suddenly she snaps out of it and runs back to her house. A couple of seconds later shesback outside with a set of keys. She hurries to the girls house and opens the door.
" Get her out of the car and into the house" she tells you, and you do as youre told.
She leads you into the living room and makes her way upstairs, only to return a few moments later with a couple of blankets. Swiftly, she wraps them around the girl and lays her down on the sofa before leaving again. You can hear a stove turning on and the house becoming warmer. You dont know what to do anymore. You havent stopped to think clearly about what your doing since you drove onto that bridge. All you knew is that when you saw the girl fall, you had to save her.
" I turned the heater up and made some coffee and tea. I wish I could stay, but my little girl is very sick and I have to take her to the doctor. I cant thank you enough for saving Sonny, but Imbegging you to please look after her for a couple of hours. Her mother is out of town and she wont answer her phone and''
" Its ok, Ill watch after her" you cut her off. " You go take your daughter to the doctor, just, will you do me a favor? Dont tell anyone Im here, I dont want people to know where I am yet" you plead.
You can see the realization in her eyes when she realizes who you are.
" You're Joe Lucas, from JONAS, right?" She asks you, and you simply nodd. "My daughter loves you and your band" she comments. " I have to go now, Ill be back as soon as I can, and if you have any questions, you can just call me at this number" she says pointing at a piece of paper she had left on the center table. You nodd again,and she leaves.
You sigh once youre left alone with the girl, who you now know is called Sonny, and look at you wrist to see your clock read its almost 12pm. You sit down on a sofa and lay your head back when you feel your body finally give out. Youve put it through a lot in the last hour or so and before you can help it, you feel sleep take over you and everything goes black.
*******
You wake up and it takes you a second to remember where you are. Your eyes land on the girl and you sigh with relief when you notice that some color has returned to her face and her lips are nolonger blue, but a pale pink now. You look up and see a clock on the wall claiming its 6:53pm, meaning you slept around seven hours. You realize you must have been exhausted, since lately its a good night when you sleep 3 or 4 hours.
You pull your iPhone out of your pocket, which you had grabbed when you carried her in to check for any new messages or text. Not suprisingly, theres a bunch. The phone vibrates when you receive another one.
Joe, where are you bro, come back, forget about what she did, shes not worth it and moms worried it read, your older brother sent you. Kevin. Hes always so happy and optimistic, even during the worst situations. You keep scrolling down your received messages when another one is received. Joe im so sorry, I never meant to hurt, you know I love you, please forgive me and come back. Anger rises in your body as you read her message before deleting it and moving on to the next one. Dude, are you allright? Just answer me so I can tell mom not to worry. Nick. Your little brother and bestfriend. The two of you are so different but somehow that only made you closer when you where growing up. You decide to answer him. Nick, Im fine. Tell mom I love but I just need a little while for myself, If I dont do this, I think I might break down. I need a few days to get a handle on everything again. You send the message and a few second later it receives a reply. I know you do bro, Dont worry, I'll handle everything around here and tell mom your ok. Just be safe and do what you gotta do, I love you man, It reads.
You throw the phone back on the sofa and look back at the girl. You cringe when you notice that she looks anythingbut peaceful. The color has returned to her face, but even in her sleep, she looks as if she was in pain. Her brows are furrowed and her eyes are closed painfully tight. Her lips are pressed into a tight line and suddenly tears start running down her face and she starts crying. You jump out of the couch and start gently shaking her shoulder, trying to get to wake up. Suddenly, a big pair of eyes are staring right at you, and you freeze.
Shes finally awake.
AN: I know this took me forever to upload, but I was doing some personal soul searching and while it did answer some of my questions, it opened up a whole bunch of other ones. But I am getting better, so probably as the story advances it will be less angsty on Sonnys side. Expect some Chad and Joe confrontation in either the next chapter or the one after that.
PS It really makes me feel better when I get reviews, so the more you review the faster I will update.