Ohayo minna-san! Hisashiburi!
I know it's been a long time. But now I'm back with a 1827 fic. I've been into yaoi lately and you know KHR has a LOT of male characters. Hibari and Tsuna are absolutely cute together, don't you think? Tehehehe XD. The perfect seme and uke in my opinion.
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My name is Hibari Kyoya.
People around me always seem to react the same way when I am near. The dull and impassive look in my eyes that are always so devoid of any kind of emotion drove people away. I'm used to it, it's not like I want to socialize with them anyway. Talking to others, pretending to like them when the truth is I actually don't is a pain in the ass. I see through people and that is probably the reason why I'm so poor at making friends. I always end up saying what I really want to say and they ALL leave me. Not a single one of them stayed. I don't particularly like being honest but LYING was actually more annoying than telling the truth so I chose the latter. I was amused at how loneliness took a toll on me. You could say I grew twisted as the years go by because I developed a fetish for anything even REMOTELY related to violence. And thus, a deadly and murderous aura has shrouded my entire being ever since then. I hate crowds, I always have, always will. Growing up, I was a hard child to raise and my family had a difficulty putting up with me. No one knew what I was thinking, my face was a mask of nothing. No one TRIED to understand me, they gave up because it was futile to do anything. I was violent most of the time and got into trouble often. But I've got to give them some kind of appreciation, a trophy, a certificate or something because they never gave me away. After everything, they still accepted me, no, no, more like they TOLERATED me. Oh..and there are only TWO things in this world I really treasure. My tonfas and a little yellow bird, that looks like a chick called Hybrid. He can sing and fly. It's annoying, but I haven't killed him. I am apathetic and my patience is thin. I don't feel concern, I don't feel anything. Am I human? What is wrong with me?
Damn, idiotic HERBIVORES. Crowding together again like the pathetic lowlifes they are. I grunt at their worry-free expressions, makes me want to rip their throats out and their bubbling laughter that almost seems to never stop. God ... they are the most SHALLOW of human beings, they laugh at practically every little thing. As I pass by, they make a path for me to walk through, the apologetic looks on their faces told me they FEARED my very presence. I scare them too much, they can't even stand to be around me for long.
Hibari-san is kind of cool right?
I know...but he's super scary.
Yeah..too bad he was actually my type.
What! Really?
Shhh. He's going to hear.
Fools. Walking down the hallways, anxious herbivores avoid glancing my way, they disperse to other places to avoid getting beat up. Well... that was the most REASONABLE thing to do. If you were smart, if you had any kind of mind at all, then running away would be the only thing left for you to do. Then, suddenly, I heard a voice at the far end of the hall...
COME ON YOU TWO. DONT MAKE SUCH A FUSS. YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS IF HIBARI-SAN SEES US RIGHT?
As I kept walking my heart was thumping inside my chest, hammering inside my rib cage like it wanted to go out. My heart beat escalates, I pick up my pace but not enough to make people notice. I clench my fists as I trudge along. What was this feeling? It's annoying. Why is my heart beating so fast? As soon as I saw him, the particular herbivore that got on my nerves more often than I usually allowed and who constantly paraded my thoughts at night it was annoying as hell, I stopped dead in my tracks. I should just kill him right now. I should just finish him off and get it over with.
Sawada Tsunayoshi
MA, MA, GOKUDERA. YOU DONT HAVE TO BE SO MAD. IT'S NOT LIKE TSUNA WAS TOTALLY CLULESS ABOUT IT. NE, TSUNA?
The baseball idiot Yamamoto Takeshi is as stupid as ever. Probably getting more stupid every day.
SHUT UP, YAKYUU-BAKKA! I'M SORRY, JUDAIIME, MY APOLOGIES, YAMAMOTO SAID IT SO ABRUPTLY. I'LL BE SURE TO PUNISH HIM. He glared at Yamamoto. PROPERLY.
The Italian man Gokudera Hayato, swore profusely but exhibited a profound loyalty for Sawada Tsunayoshi.
Ah. Sawada Tsunayoshi. Short legs. No athleticism whatsoever. Bad grades. TOTALLY. The epitome of UNATTRACTIVENESS. But strangely, in some odd vague way, I AM attracted to him. Why? I don't even know. Well, his brown caramel eyes almost seem to melt when he's happy, his auburn hair is soft and silky though I have never actually touched it, and most of all when he smiles, I think it's the most angelic thing I have ever seen, my stomach flips and it leaves me breathless though I try not to show it. This person, as clueless, as stupid, as idiotic as he was, was my Achilles Heel. But he doesn't seem to notice it. Well, that's expected, he's a herbivore after all.
PLEASE YOU TWO. HIBARI-SAN IS GOING TO COME FOR SURE.
I approach them, menacingly, Sawada Tsunayoshi flinches instantly as if sensing my arrival and whips around to face me but the sudden movement makes him trip and he slams against my chest. This is my first physical contact with him where I'm NOT trying to bite his head off. He was skinny, I could easily wrap my arms around him. Is the Akambou starving him to death? What is this extraordinary feeling? I won't kill him yet so I can find out. .Thump. What the hell is happening with my body? Should I hug him? No, no, that would be bad, hugging him would be inappropriate so I grabbed his shoulders. He froze when I touched him, fear and apprehension plastered clearly on his face.
"Sawada Tsunayoshi, do you so badly want to die?" My voice was like acid. I should be kinder to him. But how? this was the only way I know how to interact with him.
"Hieee! Hibari-san!"He tried to break contact by pushing himself away. I release my hands and so he falls to the floor with a thud.
"Teme! Don't touch Judaiime with your filthy hands!" Gokudera barked at me his fists clenched, always ready for a brawl to prove his unending loyalty towards his so called boss.
"Come on, now Gokudera. It's not like Hibari meant any harm." Ever so enthusiastic and always on the positive side of things Yamamoto tried to soothe Gokudera's nerves. Seeing the two of them together this way and around Tsunayoshi is unnerving. It makes me want to kill them both at this very spot. Tsunayoshi, was still on the floor, paralyzed, unable to say anything. Cute. No. Stop. You can't think that way. Should I just finish him right now? Yes, I should. Maybe it will rid myself of all these stupid feelings of uneasiness. No, no I shouldn't. Let him live his miserable , no good life.
"Hn. Herbivores. I'll let you go for now." I left but not before giving Tsunayoshi a look. What kind of look exactly? Well, I don't know. I may never know for sure. And so I disappeared from their sight. My heart trembling and at the same time aching. I should have treated him better.
Tsuna's POV
He left. Hibari-san left without doing anything. Thank goodness! My life is saved! But what was that look he gave me just now. It almost seemed gentle. I didn't know Hibari-san could make a face like that. I'm glad I got to see it.
"Judaiime. Are you alright? Here let me help you?" Gokudera-kun offered me his hand and I took it. I was back to my feet again. But thoughts about Hibari-san wouldn't leave my mind. I guess I'm just thankful he didn't bite me to death . He must be in a good mood.
"It's great right. We're okay. I thought we were goners the moment I saw Hibari walk right towards us." Yamamoto just laughed it off, like he always does in situations like this. But Yamamoto was right, we were certainly goners the moment Hibari-san saw us goofing around like that. But why? Somehow, we're alive, no bruises, no broken bones, nothing.
"Aho! Stop being so optimistic about everything, yakyuu-baka!" Gokudera yelled at Yamamoto. But Yamamoto doesn't mind getting yelled at, especially if it's by Gokudera . Oh right. They were dating. Well, I was suspicious about the two of them because they tend to run off on their own and they never tell me where they're going. Well, Gokudera makes up some lame excuse but he's blushing scarlet red all the way to his roots it was obvious he was lying. As for Yamamoto, he doesn't say anything but I get it. I may be a bit slow but I knew there was something going on with these two for a while now.
"But you love me right Gokudera?" Yamamotot took on an affectionate tone and brushed himself against Gokudera. So Yamamoto knew how to flirt too. Gokudera-kun, who was conscious of my prescence smacked Yamamoto on the head.
"S-shut up! Moron!" Gokudera -kun avoided Yamamoto's eyes embarrassed about this whole situation. But he was as red as a tomato so maybe he did have some degree of affection towards Yamamoto. "We're being disrespectful to Judaiime. Bakka!" Gokudera glared at Yamamoto. " I apologize for his idiocy and tactlessness Judaiime!" Gokudera added. I sweatdropped. How on earth did Yamamoto fall for someone like Gokudera? They're complete opposites.
"It's fine. Gokudera-kun, Yamamoto. Let's just go. Before Hibari-san changes his mind and comes back." The three of us left for the cafeteria to buy some snacks. We just had our lunch but somehow our encounter with Hibari-san made us all hungry. Hibari-san wouldn't leave my thoughts. That gentle look on his face was unreal. Is he not feeling well? No, no, I'm sure that's not the case. Then, what? Why did he gave me that look. That gentle look that somehow made my heart flutter for a moment.
Hibari's POV
An exasperated sigh escaped my lips. This is annoying. I suddenly have the urge to kill someone. Should I call in Kusakabe and beat him up. Well, that's certainly a good idea. But that would be too easy. I rake my fingers through my hair to get some composure. Calm down, this is nothing. That herbivore is just playing tricks with your head. Yeah, that's it. That's probably it. If that's the case then why don't you just go ahead and put him out of his misery. For some unknown reason, I can't. I slam my fists on my desk, now I'm mad. I'm fuming with anger. I don't understand this. What's happening to me? This is the first time I've EVER in my entire life felt this way. What exactly did that herbivore, Sawada Tsunayoshi do to me? I grab a pencil from my drawer. I want to hear bones snapping. But this will do for now. I broke the pencil into two, imagining it was somebody else's arm.
KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK
Kyo-san! I'm coming in. The door opens and Kusakabe enters the room. There was a vase on my desk with newly fresh flowers, I threw it at Kusakabe but he crouches down and it misses. A look of alarm flashes on his face but it was just for a moment. He recovers instantly.
"Kyo-san. I will have that replaced immediately." Kusakabe has certainly gotten used to my abusive and violent nature.
"Kusakabe, come here." I ordered.
"Yes, Kyo-san." Kusakabe was beside my desk in three long strides.
" Do you have a girlfriend?" My face was dead serious. Kusakabe blinked at me, surpised at my sudden interest about his love life. "Are you mute? Answer me. Before I lose my patience." I added in a cold monotone. I took out my tonfas, ready to strike if he doesn't say a word in 3 seconds.
"Errr…y-yes. I do have o-one. " Kusakabe answered, slightly blushing from the embarrassment. He clearly didn't expect me to ask this kind of question. Kusakabe avoids looking directly at me. I grin. What an idiot fool he is.
"How do you feel about her?" I continue my interrogation on him. Kusakabe wanted to ask me something but he didn't dare to.
"Well, how do I explain this, Sir. Umm…. I get really nervous when she's around, my heart beats so fast it's feels like it's going to stop, and…err…. She's always on my mind I guess." Kusakabe struggles to find the right words. I lunge at him and I smack him on the head with my tonfas. He's sprawled on the floor, writhing in pain. A trickle of blood flowed from his nose.
"Why? Why do you feel those things?" I grab his shirt and I hoist him up. My eyes were burning with rage. The murderous aura surrounding me must be so overwhelming. Kusakabe didn't dare look me in the eye. I shake him violently to make him answer.
"I-It's because, I- I love h-her." Kusakabe finally answers in a low voice. I drop him and he falls to the ground. Love. A human emotion. Is it possible? Someone like me…am I capable of falling in love? No. Bloody hell. Am I in love with that herbivore? His eyes, his scent, the way he moves, I remember all of it. I remember all of HIM. So, does that mean I love him? Conflicting thoughts were swirling in my head. I pace back and forth. Trying to clear the turmoil inside of me. By now Kusakabe has somewhat recovered. He sits up, wipes the blood of his nose with his sleeve and eyes me curiously.
"Kyo-san. Pardon me. But are you-"
"No. Don't say it!" I glare at him and that's enough to shut him up. "How do I get rid of it?" Kusakabe hesitates to answer. "Speak!" I ordered.
"You can't get rid of it, Sir. If it has already happen, then there is no turning back." Kusakabe is really annoying me right now. What does he mean by there's no turning back? Should I hit him again? No, that would probably kill him. If I want him to keep talking I should spare his life a little longer. "Love. Is a very mysterious emotion. Yes, it truly is. But it's something that comes only once in a lifetime. You can only truly love someone ONCE. And that's it. "
If I admit my feelings, will they go away? But how would that stupid herbivore react? As stupid as he is who knows what he'll say. If I confess my feelings would he turn me down? Of course he would. Perhaps he has someone he likes. But even if that's the case who would want someone like me to fall in love with them. Should I just tell that bastard herbivore Sawada Tsunayoshi how I REALLY feel about him? If he rejects me right away how would I feel? Somehow that thought made my chest tighten. I can't confess to him, not right now, maybe not ever. But I have to do something. I have to pour out my feelings before I lose my sanity. But how?
"It's making you crazy, right Kyo-san? Perhaps it is unrequited love then. That's the most painful kind of love." I glare at Kusakabe. "I'm right. But knowing your nature, you can't confess to her right?" Her? What is this idiot thinking. Oh right. He doesn't know. But Sawada Tsunayoshi being a guy and all complicates things a whole lot more. Then am I a….homo? I have no qualms about homosexuality. People can do whatever the hell they want. Be a homo, I don't care. But being gay MYSELF, how does that make me feel? Wait, am I undergoing some sort of identity crisis, maybe? That must be it, I'm not in love with Sawada Tsunoyoshi. I'm just confused. It's just hormones. Just give up already.
"If you can't confess Kyo-san. Then why not keep a JOURNAL." Kusakabe has the most absurd ideas. I'll kill him later. A journal?but that's a herbivore thing. I'm not THAT desperate, I'll just have to hold out a little longer. A Jounal? Really? Is he insane? There was no way in hell….
"It will help you control your feelings. A lot of people do it." Yeah…but they're herbivores. There's a world of difference between me and them, moron. But I DO like to write, in my spare time, at home when I'm not out killing someone.
"No one will read it but you Kyo-san. " Yes. That's right. Privacy. That's what I need. I just need to think this through. But ….am I REALLY, POSITIVELY, 100%, sure that I'm in love with that herbivore. Just thinking about that idiot makes my heart race. So maybe…that IS the case.
"I'll think about it. Now get out of here before I bite you to death." Kusakabe got out without another world. I sat back comfortably in my swivel chair. Damn you herbivore. This is really annoying and totally messed up.
Hn. A journal, huh.
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Really, Hibari? No qualms about homosexuality?
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