Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters – they all belong to Stephanie Meyer.
We'd only been driving for about 20 minutes and it was nearly 7pm. The thought of Jacob alone on my drive was still upsetting me. Should I have stayed? I knew that I had made my decision between Jacob and Edward; life and death. But shouldn't that have made me feel good? I looked up from my quivering hands and saw a sign reading 'You are now leaving Forks'.
Suddenly I reached over and spun the wheel towards the side of the small, deserted road. The look on Alice's face was indescribable. I must have caught her, and myself, by surprise, something which very rarely happened.
I had no idea why I had just done that. It was like something had been controlling my hands. I quickly pulled my arms back to my lap and looked down.
"What the hell, Bella?!" she exclaimed.
I kept looking down. I couldn't look at her. I had no idea what I had just done, how was I meant to describe that to her?
The engine roared as she put it into drive and continued on our route.
About a minute later, I did it again, although this time I practically turned the car around.
My whole body was thrown forward, pushing my head against the windscreen. I couldn't feel anything, which surprised me. I looked up into Alice's furious eyes.
"We don't have time to mess around, Bella! We have a plane to catch. If you're not going to take this seriously then I advise you get out of the car now!" I think that both of us knew that what she was saying wasn't true. She knew that without me, Edward wouldn't listen. But somehow, I listened to what she said and slowly reached my hand down to my side to unbuckle my seatbelt.
The look in her eyes went from pure anger to complete disbelief.
"No, Bella. I didn't mean it, really! Please stay!"
I looked at her, the desperation in her face. But I continued to unbuckle myself and climb out of the car. Finally I turned around to talk to her, but she beat me to it.
"What are you going to do, go crawling back to that dog?!" She really was angry now.
"We have to save Edward, Bella! Remember, that's what we're supposed to be doing!" She shouted.
"Well, maybe I don't want to!" I yelled back. She looked horrified.
"So are you saying that you would really choose the mutt over your true love, my brother?" By this point, she had stepped out of the car and was standing in front of me.
"That's just it though! He's your brother Alice! Sorry to admit it but I don't think he's my true love. Besides he left me, Alice! He broke my heart!"
Alice looked at me in shock. "You really think that?"
I looked at her and nodded, only slightly.
"Bella! He only left because he wanted you to have a shot at real life! He never wanted to leave you; he only did it for your own good."
A couple of weeks ago, that would have made me so happy. Edward still loved me? But now I didn't feel the same way. I didn't feel as though I couldn't live without him. I didn't feel drawn towards him. Instead, I felt drawn towards Forks, and more specifically, La Push. I needed my sun.
"I can't do this Alice; I can't do this to Jacob!"
"Forget about him, Bella. He's only doing it to make Edward jealous, you know that!"
Now I was beginning to get angry.
"Stop saying that! I'm not going with you Alice!"
She stumbled back a few steps and gave me one of the worst looks I had ever received. It almost frightened me.
Then, all of a sudden, she climbed back into the car and roared the engine really loudly. The car sprung back into life and hurried off into the distance, away from me.
A single tear rolled down my cheek.
I turned around and began walking slowly back towards Forks. After about a minute, I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. When I picked it up, I recognised the number immediately.
"Hello?"
"Bella?! Are you okay?" I smiled. Hearing Jacobs comforting voice made me happy.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"Bella, where are you?" He asked caringly.
"Umm about two minutes past the sign leaving Forks. Do you think that you could come and collect me, Alice kind of left me."
"Sure, Bells. I'll be there in 10."