this is only short. i know. but it's just to get me into the feel of writing again. feedback is appreciated.

i don't own FFVII, or Neverlost by the smashing pumpkins.

All hands on deck
Setting sail to get wrecked off course
You make what you want of me
I will keep you anyway

Let's fill these hours and kill desire
Let's fill these hours and kill desire
I'm in touch with you
Let's kill these hours and fill desire

Every turn is torture thought
Every kicking of the drum

I've seen the film
I know the place
I'm never lost
There's just one way across

I heard the muffled sound of a tap being switched on. The water splashed into the bottom of the tub, a welcoming and homely sound. Through heavy lidded eyes I saw his feet walking to and fro as he placed salts and oils in the bath. this was the part I liked the most, the healing after the abuse, the repairing of the damaged goods. The luxurious smells crept out of the door and into the room, a heady mixture that almost overwhelmed me.

I didn't move, didn't try to cover myself as my flesh began to chill. I had no energy.

The taps were turned off, and the feet that had been busy before, stopped for a while, and then directed themselves towards me. He stooped, his hands making the first gentle contact with my skin, and he collected me in his arms. Carrying me like a parent holding their sleeping child. We were strong, impossibly so, yet I was happy to be the weaker of us now. happy to be the one that could be crushed like fruit. He stepped in the water, and sank to his knees, he laid me down, placing my head on his chest and wrapping his arms tight around me. This was the meaning of intimacy, we shared the same blood, the same life force, and now the same mind. He knew how I felt, what I wanted. He lifted handfuls of water and let them dribble down my chest. He ran his fingers over my shoulders, kissing the top of my head, my hair still dry. He kissed the bruised flesh of my neck tenderly, lovingly. his hands plunged under the water, his fingers finding my stomach, it ached through lack of food, lack of sleep and stress. I sighed, breathing in properly for the first time in hours. His long arms reached to my thighs, lovingly stroking them, giving the attention that he had neglected to earlier.

I felt myself hardening under his hands, he had taken what he wanted earlier, he had given me what I needed with the pain, he was doing it again now. I was truly spoiled.

We shifted awkwardly, I wanted to kiss him, and I did, a deep full kiss that I let myself dissolve into. It took my breath away, my swimming head becoming light.

He found my hardness, took it into his hand and began to stroke. My hands gripped at his legs as they surrounded me, held me in their protective cocoon. The breathe trembled from my lungs, I needed him more than anything now. his rhythm was slow, something I didn't experience very often. I rested my head back on his shoulder, allowing him full access to me, his free hand exploring me even more, giving me gooseflesh. I lost myself then, giving myself over to the sensations. He was my world, my life, everything to me then, and no one could interrupt our union.

I felt a familiar tingle in the pit of my stomach, like getting butterflies through nerves. I knew what was coming. I bit my lip, to stop myself from crying out loud. I sighed, as my climax hit, my mind blanked, and I gripped onto his leg even tighter as I felt myself erupt into the water. The trace of the incident was washed away before it was even there. My breathing was ragged, it calmed slowly as I recovered.

He leant close, buried his face in my neck and wrapped his arms around me like I was a doll.

"I love you" he whispered.

I'm never lost

Headlights shoot north
The ends of earth off course
Of course

If you think just right
If you'll love you'll find
Certain truths left behind

All this is that once forgot
A closing down of the gate

But oh these hours
I lost my place
I'm never lost
There's just one way

There's no disgrace in failing me
Let's kill these hours and fill desire
I'm in touch with you
Let's kill these hours and fill desire
I'm in touch with you
I'm in touch with you