Beyond My Heart

by deepwater1978

What is happiness? How can one know if it had reached your doorstep? It is a difficult question and there is just no definite answer. I've been searching for the answer for a long time until I read an article recently. It was very meaningful and the ending caught my attention... It is not what happens to you that determines happiness. It is how you think what happens to you.

2. Chapter 2

4 years ago...

Dear Diary,

Caroline told me that love at first sight would only exist in movies. I strongly agreed with her statement until he appeared.

I could still remember that day was a Wednesday. It was a sunny morning. He was standing at the corridor talking to a group of people when I walked past him. Maybe it was a coincidence or maybe it was fate, I was not sure. We looked up at the same time and our eyes locked for a second. He continued to talk but my heart was doing a double time. I walked away quickly.

I had never felt like this before. It was scary but exciting to me. Who was this guy?

x x x

Dear Diary,

Destiny was on my side that day. He was my new tutor, taking over Prof Alicia who was on maternity leave. I could hardly concentrate on my tutorial but I tried my very best to contribute in the discussion as I wanted him to have a good impression on me.

His name was Damon. Damon Salvatore/

In the next few weeks, I was living in a haze. Every time I saw Damon, my heart would race like a horse. If he smiled at me, my soul would melt. Unfortunately we seldom had the chance to talk beside the tutorials. I only found out from friends that he was a few years my senior and he was just doing a part-time job at the moment while waiting for his new employment to commence. I wished I could get to know him better but I could not get enough courage to approach him.

x x x

Dear Diary,

Damon was always surrounded by girls! I was jealous but what could I do? Most of them were pretty, smart and sexy. They could make him laugh but I could not. Beside impressing him with my work and performance, there was nothing I could do to get his attention.

When the semester ended, I was absolutely devastated. Holidays were coming and when I came back he would be gone, forever! I still remembered the last day of this semester clearly. I was walking out of the library when he marched in. He smiled at me briefly and walked past me. Walking past and out of my life, just like this...Ever since then, there was no more news of him in the campus.