Disclaimer: I don't own Code Geass. Obviously. It is owned by it's respective owners.

A/N: Damn it's been long since I updated this. But whatever. Anyways, enjoy the damn chapter. I tried to make it as good as I could, but nothing is perfect. Eh?

(1) - Yes, she's still in a wheelchair.

(2) - That's right, she's dead. But how Marianne is still alive will stay a mystery, until I tell you all.

(3) - A made reference to Roxius. Also, apologies to him also.

Chapter Two: Guilt

'I don't know what happened. I'm not sure if it was right? Was it obscene? Yes, it was. When I touched her body, there was some kind of chemistry between us. That I didn't understand. I kissed, I touched, I fondled, I fornicated, I make love...to my very own mother. Us both are very alike, both physically and biologically. I entrusted myself into her and as soon as I did, there was no going back. It was also the first time I've ever saw my mother completely naked, but nonetheless, her body was amazingly beautiful. I tried to stop myself, but I was hypnotized by her smile, her moaning, her energy.

When we did it once more, she whispered, "There's no need to hold back, you'll always be safe in your mommy's arms." I believed her, no matter how bad she was, she loved me deeply. When she told me herself, I saw her cry for the very first time. To me, her voice is intoxicating as I'm always hypnotized by her voice. I guess I can easily clarify myself as a sick pervert. But sometimes, I hate the way she loves me. Maybe it's human nature? I'm not sure.'

A clear two weeks had passed since Lelouch and Marianne's incestuous encounter, and since then, Lelouch has never been able to look at his mother the same way, but Marianne never seemed to find a problem with it, in fact, everyday she wants to at least talk to him. In some way, Marianne has always loved Lelouch, even before they had sex. As for him, he didn't know what to do? Through the past two months, he's been able to keep it a secret, especially from his father, girlfriend and best friend.

His feelings about it has been mixed so far, not wondering if it was good or bad. It didn't worry him of course, but regardless, he felt guilty for doing such actions with his own mother, and it affected their communication. Marianne couldn't handle being away from her son, which deeply hurt her inside. She feared if he didn't want to see him again, which sparked her to find him.

Meanwhile, Lelouch was walking around inside his home, bored as he's ever been. A million thoughts ran around inside his mind and only a few involves Marianne. He said to himself sometime back that he wasn't avoiding her, he would never avoid her. But his reason was he could never think of anything to say to her. He sat on the couch, thinking only to see flashbacks of their night, this could be because he has kept it secret.

He suddenly heard somebody knocking on the door, he got up to answer it and it was none other than Marianne, wanting to speak with him.

"Lelouch..." she whispered, trying to say something, "May I come in?"

"Um, sure." Lelouch reluctantly agreed. She walked into his house and looked around a bit. Luckily for her, she managed to keep her composure and stayed positive.

"It's been a while since we've spoken to each other." Marianne stated.

"Or seen each other, for that matter." Lelouch added.

"Yeah, I bet. Anyways, what have you've been doing?"

"Uh, nothing much. Except for the other things, but that's not the case. What are you doing here anyways?"

"Well, I just wanted to speak to you, since I've never gotten a chance to recently."

Lelouch didn't want to blurt out his reason for not talking to her, but rather responded, "Well, that kinda sucks."

"Well, answer me this: What happened? Why haven't you chosen to speak with me?" Marianne desperately asked, he literally nothing to say and he couldn't give her a valid reason why.

"I just..I just don't know. I've just been busy as all."

"That's a lie. It's because we had sex back then? Isn't it?" she asked, he suddenly froze up on the spot which began to anger Marianne, "Answer me!"

"Yeah, maybe?" Lelouch answered quietly.

"Lelouch? What is your problem? Was it so embarrassing for you that you don't want to mention it?"

"Well, maybe it is. That doesn't give you the right to badger me about it."

"Well, maybe I should." Marianne fired back, but she changed her tone and continued, "Lelouch, I'm your mother. If there's something bothering you, you can always tell me. I'll always be here to listen. Even though there was times I didn't."

"Yeah sure. Whatever."

Marianne felt like he didn't understand, so she walked over to him and connected her lips deep into his, they stayed there for a few moments and Lelouch didn't bother to struggle away from her. Finally, she broke the kiss and told him:

"Lelouch, know this: I will and always love you, romantic or not. And I will because you're my son, my only son. Understand me?"

The only way Lelouch could respond was by nodding in agreement. Although not words, she accepted it nonetheless. No matter how bad it was for him, he couldn't find a way to say otherwise. She looked at him with a warm smile on her face and was slightly blushing.

"Listen, I at least wanna have some kind of connection with you. There's no harsh words to say so."

"I guess so." Lelouch sighed.

"That's right, Lelouch. There's nothing to be ashamed about. What's done, is done." Marianne told him straight out, "If you want, we can have more hot consensual sex like before."

"I'll pass for now."

"Why? It is because I'm your mom? You did great before and I never told you what to do."

"I don't want to be reminded again."

"Well, I don't have to then. Okay then?"

"Fine. Now get out."

Marianne was a bit offended by the request, so she answered, "Hey! Don't talk to me like that, Lelouch!"

"Okay fine."

And after that, Marianne left the house but her argument over being with him, remained with her. As for Lelouch, he still didn't know what to do at this point. He didn't know what to say to his girlfriend and if he could be truthfully to her too, despite cheating on her with Marianne. This case didn't seem to be much, but no there was no doubt on his mind that he felt some kind of guilt.

30 minutes later, Lelouch was all alone in his house, just trying to think about what he should do. He couldn't think of anything to do, he wandered around his house, looking for something to do that could get his mind off of his mother, he did every mind-inducing activity possible but neither worked for him. Eventually, he just sat down on his couch and had his mind somewhere else. Lelouch lied down for a while, just at least try to sleep out of it. However, he never thought of any positives about the 'situation', although there not being any whatsoever. But soon enough, Lelouch closed his eyes and went off to bed.

But about another half-hour later, Lelouch's loud ringtone woke him up, he got up all dizzy and confused, but was conscious enough to pick up his phone and answer it.

"Yo, what's up?" Lelouch yawned, discovering it was his sister, Nunnally calling to pick her up.

"Hey, Lelouch? Are you coming to pick me up from school?" She asked him.

"Yeah, I'm coming. I just have to get my head together."

Noticing that his voice is lowered and 'mellow', Nunnally curiously asked, "Are...are you high?"

"Huh, no. I woke up not very long ago, which is why I sound like this. Anyways, I'll be there in a bit."

"Oh, okay then. Later."

Lelouch hung up his phone and headed out. He has been outside lots of time since then, but usually with a gun...for obvious reasons. Lelouch didn't know why he needed a gun at all, to protect himself from...well his brother, or to protect himself from his mother. He was unsure. But what he was sure about was how long can he keep this secret. Not very long, maybe?

Nearly an hour later, Lelouch had just arrived at Ashford Academy, about to pick up his little sister. He had remembered that she was either a junior or senior but either way, she was doing as good as him. Regardless that she was confined in a wheelchair (1). It was well into November and he hated it already, but that wasn't the case right now. It's been five or six years since he's ever stepped foot inside his high school Alma mater and things had changed, or was it just him, he wasn't so sure.

He looked at his watch for a second to check the time, until he literally ran into his longtime friend, Suzaku. With him falling to the ground, Suzaku took his eyes off his book and bend down to pick Lelouch up off the ground.

"Oh..shit. Lelouch, you okay?" Suzaku asked, pulling him on his feet.

"Yeah, I'm okay." He answered, scratching his head a bit, "What are you doing here?"

"I don't know. I've been here in Japan for a few days. You?"

"Meh. Me and my sister live over here now. Even though I play baseball out of the country, I come here after the season and she stays here."

"Cool. Cool. I'm just here for a few days until I return to football."

"I forgot you play football, if it wasn't for you, I would be able to doing what I am now."

"Pretty true." He agreed, "So, where is she?"

"Huh? Oh she should be around right about now." He predicted, and coincidentally Nunnally came over to Lelouch and Suzaku. He looked at Lelouch as if he was psychic, but kinda surprised all the same.

"Okay, ready to go?" She said, then looking over at Suzaku, "Oh, hello Suzaku."

"Hey. Nice to see you again."

"Come on, time for us to go."

"Well okay. Nice to see you again, Suzaku."

"What are you talking about? I'm coming with you two."

"Really?"

"Oh course he is. Come on."

Now back at Lelouch's house, the two took his sister upstairs while they catch up and went outside. For some odd reason, Lelouch had the thought of telling Suzaku about what he and his mother done, yet he wondered what would happen if he did, would he scold him or support him? That's what he thought.

"Hey, man. If you did something bad, how would you handle it?" Lelouch asked.

Suzaku looked at him and he answered, "I don't know. If it was bad, then it would be a burden on my life, if it was 'kinda' good, then whatever. But anyways, why do you ask?"

"Nothing."

"Is it about Euphie? I already said I forgive you for what happened. Although I didn't want to." (2)

"No, it's not about her. It's...yeah it's nothing."

"Oh really? What is it exactly?"

Lelouch didn't want it to come out just like that, so he explained as non-literal as possible, "Have you ever fucked someone, then felt guilty for doing it?"

"What? Don't tell me you paid for sex?"

"No, nothing like that. I mean someone you are close too and cared about?"

Confused, Suzaku raised an eyebrow and said, "What the fuck are you talking about? Just tell me."

Lelouch didn't want to hear that, so he just sighed, "Just promise you won't tell anybody else, or overreact."

"Okay. Now what it is?"

"I did things with a certain person."

"Can you be a little more specific?"

He took a deep breath and said clearly, "I went and had sex with my mother."

Lelouch opened his eyes after admitting it, but he expected some kind of response from Suzaku, instead he stayed silent for a little while and so did Lelouch. He gave him a blank expression, and he thought that Suzaku was trying to sink it in.

He felt a bit of surprise when he got up, so he said, "Suzaku? Did you-"

But then Suzaku placed his hands on Lelouch's shoulders, patted him a couple times with a smile. Absolutely confused for a moment, he tried to continue talking but he took his hands off him and then this happens...

(3) "THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!" Suzaku proclaimed, punching him so hard, he literally went through a nearby wall.

Lelouch tried to get up, but then Suzaku grabbed him and took him into a shed, just not so far from them. He throws him inside and he slammed the door. Lelouch didn't know what was gonna happen, yet he knew by Suzaku's face, it wasn't good.

"Shit! What the fuck, man?" He cried. But then, Suzaku buried his foot in his testicles.

"I should be saying that to you!" He yelled, "What the fuck is wrong with you, Lelouch? Did your father really piss you off THAT much?"

"No. You don't understand."

"What don't I understand? Did I mishear something about my friend fucking his own mother?"

"Listen, for a second."

A moment of silence swept them and Suzaku took his foot off of him, then said, "Okay, I'm listening."

"When I was beaten up, my mother came and took care of the wounds I sustained, she didn't ask questions, all she did was treat me. Then apparently she kissed me, I didn't understand why but being the idiot I am, I fell into it and the rest was history." He explained, hoping he would believe him.

Shaking his head, Suzaku sighed, "Goddamn it, Lelouch. What is wrong with you? Did all that bullshit in the past fuck you up?"

"It didn't. I was stupid, and I didn't know what I did until it was over."

"Does anybody else know? Like your father or even Shirley?"

"Neither of them. You are the only one that knows now."

"Alright, alright. We need to resolve this so it won't happen again." Suzaku told him.

"Wait, you're not gonna tell anybody else about this, are you?"

"Hell no! I'm not that big of an asshole. Besides, how do you think Shirley would react if she found out her boyfriend and his mother's incestuous relationship? - Wait, how long have you and your mom been...?"

"It's been two weeks. We've only had sex once."

"Lelouch, don't lie."

"Alright, we had sex like a couple times that same night. But that was it."

"Okay. I really need to help you right now. This is too disgusting of a secret to keep."

"In truth, it wasn't so bad. I wished I was blindfolded at the time so I wouldn't see her face."

"Whatever. Let's begin."

Now another hour later, Suzaku had Lelouch strapped to a table, blindfolded with one light above them. Suzaku just walked around the table, looking at him. Luckily, he wasn't stripped of his clothes, yet. But after ten minutes of silence, Lelouch asked:

"Suzaku, what are you doing?"

"I was just planning out some shit. Now, let's begin the psychological stage of this."

"Psychological stage? How many are there?"

"Only three. I planned on five but the producers wouldn't let me."

"Okay- Wait, what?"

"Nothing. Let's begin. This is simple, I was you to close your eyes, and go inside your mind. Then, you must tell me what you see, if you lie, I'll taser you."

"Why do I need to close my eyes if I'm blindfolded?"

"Shut up and do it."

"Whatever." He sighed, closing his eyes. He stayed silent and then, saw some flashbacks and even some unusual fantasies with her.

"Now, what do you see?"

"I see myself with my mother, and she's looking at me strange."

"How strange?"

"She approaching me slowly, and now she's kissing me."

"What else?"

"Now, it seems she's sliding her tongue down my throat, while I try to resist from touching her ass."

"...Weird? What else?"

"She's now having me tear off parts of her dress, while she touches me even more. Wait a minute, I'm not tearing it off, I'm striping her down to her underwear."

While he was apparently describing their 'night', Suzaku found it very odd, not odd but rather screwed up. And that was the beginning.

"Okay, just skip to the sex part, anymore of that I might puke." Suzaku told him.

"Alright, both me and my mother are naked and I can't stop looking at her naked body. I hold her while I take my...yeah you know what and began the thrusting motion."

"Gross. Now what?"

"Um...she's holding on to me tight, as she was moaning and breathing deeply. She's asking for more and or me to 'penetrate her deeper'." He explained, when the word 'penetrate' came out, he felt like vomiting, "I now see me and her kissing deeply with my hands all over her body. She keeps saying some certain things, and wraps her legs around my back. Okay, this is fucked up. I'm going faster while we both were ready to...ugh, fuck it. But however, I tell her that I love her and she tells me that she doesn't want to lose me."

Suzaku raised his eyebrow in a bit of confusion and complete disgust, he chose not to say anything, if he did then he would have to hit him.

"Okay, I'm gonna say that we came together and I ended up sleeping on her chest."

"Alright. That's enough of that. I honestly didn't need to hear most of that."

"You're telling me?" Lelouch answered, "Let's just move on to the next stage."

"Yeah, okay."

Ten minutes later, Lelouch was still on the table, but this time wasn't blindfolded. Apparently, the second stage was interrogation and Suzaku began hitting and tasering him. With only seven minutes of yelling and abuse, Suzaku heard Lelouch's phone ring. He went and grabbed his phone out of his pocket and answered it.

"Hey, don't answer my phone asshole!" He complained, only to get slapped.

"Shut up." Suzaku whispered, "Hello? Who is this?"

The other person just happened to be Marianne, who wanted to talk to her son, "Um, who's this exactly?"

"Nobody. Now what is it?"

"Where's my son? Let me talk to him."

"Sure." He agreed, putting the phone in Lelouch's ear, "It's for you."

"Who else, dumbass?" Lelouch whispered then seeing who it was, "Hello?"

"Lelouch? Is that you?" Marianne desperately asked.

"Uhhh...yeah whatever."

"Oh come on, don't think I can't tell if it's you. I obviously know these things."

"Yeah, sure. Why are you calling at this hour?"

"It's not that late, it's not even ten o'clock."

"Okay then. But you didn't answer my question."

"Oh right, I called so I can talk to you, of course. I'm just trying to get back home. But where are you?"

"I don't know." He simply replied.

"What do you mean by 'you don't know'?" She said, "Anyways, I wanted to tell you something."

"What would that be?"

"I wanted to say that I miss you right now. In fact, I just want to be there with you so I can give you kisses and not let you go."

"Ughhh." He groaned.

"What's wrong? Does your mother's love bother you?"

"No, just...I'm thinking of the things you would do to me."

"Oh. Well, in that case. I would take you sweet, erect dick and guide it into my hot, wet slit and make you lick every part of my body. In fact, I would ride you so hard, you'll feel me for a months...and on a swingset..."

While she continued, Lelouch had a very blank and horrified look on his face while, he overheard, Suzaku couldn't resist but to snicker a little. As he tried to stop snickering, he looked down at Lelouch then noticed a raging erection poking out of his pants, so Suzaku took out the taser and charged it at his crotch, brutally shocking him..down there.

"GAHHHH!" Lelouch screamed as he was viciously shocked by Suzaku. After hearing his loud scream, an alerted Marianne immediately said:

"Lelouch? What's wrong? What did you do to my son! Now don't worry, I'm coming!" She immediately hung up the phone and turned straight back to his house.

"Okay, that takes care of the second stage." Suzaku proclaimed, but for Lelouch, he was as angry as ever.

"You. Fucking. Prick!" He said, with his tone as dark as ice.

"What did I do?"

"You know exactly what you did, asshole."

"Hey, if I didn't do that, then she wouldn't be coming here right now."

"You planned that?"

"No, her calling was just luck, having her come here was also luck."

Lelouch just glared at him, just wanting to kill him. But for Suzaku, he had something planned for his friend. No more than twenty minutes later, the two were waiting, Lelouch was unstrapped from the table while Suzaku just stood in a corner, waiting for his mother's sudden appearance. However, Marianne arrived no less than ten minutes ago, she looked all over for him until she saw the shed. So she ran straight outside, and to the shed.

"What stage is this exactly?" Lelouch asked.

"Glad you asked, this stage is about convention. With your mother coming in about at least a few seconds, you can confront your mother about your situation."

"Suzaku, I swear you're gonna pay for this."

"I hope you can get outta here in three...two...one...now."

Then out of nowhere, Marianne busts in the door to 'save' Lelouch, when she sees him, she discovers that he is standing well. Marianne was a little confused, but she went over and hugged him tightly. Just grateful that he was 'okay'. Yet, she didn't know that Suzaku was inside with them, until he came out of the corner and said:

"Hello, glad you're here. Now we can finish this."

"Were you the one that hurt him?" Marianne growled, completely staring at him.

"Yes. But that's not the point. The point you're here is because your son aka my friend, has something to say to you."

"Is that true? What do you want to tell me?"

"It's about our...special time."

"Lelouch, I thought we talked about this already today."

"I know, but you need to hear this."

Not wanting to hear anymore of the situation, Suzaku went to them and said, "I'm going outside until you guys finish up."

"Okay, then." Marianne replied. So then, Suzaku walked out of the shed and stood for a moment. Then just walked away, shaking his head and probably wanting a beer. As for Lelouch and Marianne, they were talking for a while. There wasn't any sex, or arguing or even crying, all there was just talking between them. Suzaku didn't know what was going on inside and he didn't want to know at all.

No less than another ten minutes later, the two came out of the shed and inside, Marianne tried to ask him about the huge hole in his wall, but chose not to. As for Suzaku, he just sat in his living room and drank a few beers. He didn't want to even acknowledge what went on inside and he honestly didn't want to.

Eventually, Marianne left without saying a word and Lelouch had felt okay that he cleared his mind. He went to find Suzaku only to see him drunk and laying on his couch. He gave him another blank expression and said:

"She's gone, I talked to her, she understood, that's it."

"Huh? Oh okay. Good." A drunk Suzaku replied, "God I'm so damn drunk."

"Obviously. Now get the fuck out." Lelouch told him, "We're lucky that Nunnally didn't hear or see any of this bullshit."

"Hey, you should be thanking me, man. I had to hear all that nasty shit you and your mother said, I wanted to fucking puke."

"I appreciate the help, Suzaku. But still, I really want to be alone."

"Sure. But can I stay here until I sober up?" He asked.

"I don't give a fuck. You can stay here for the rest of the night, I really don't give a fuck. I'll tell you that much."

"Thanks. Good night, man."

"It's at least 9:30. Oh well, later."

So then, Lelouch went upstairs and flopped into bed after a pretty odd day. As much as he felt better for clearing his mind, he still didn't know what to do with his relationship with Marianne, as much as she missed him and how she wants him back, he still had some guilt about it. No matter how he could sugar coat it, it was still a big deal and he hoped it won't ever happen again.

At least for now. If it was to happen again, then it will only be the beginning.

End of chapter two...