Oh my gosh I'm so so very sorry for not updating but I finished all my megabytes and I was left without any…. there is still no excuse of why I didn't update but I'm really really sorry…well lets forget this and start all over….Hello everyone it's roket well I wanna thank the people that review the first chapter of you're my medication. Thank you very much! I hope you like it. As you can see I'm a fan of Adrian but I also have another confession I'm also a Christian fan ;(…. that is why now I'm undecided so my choice is well a little twisted because I really have no idea on who to go with?!. Anyone have some subjections….well tell me what you think of this second chapter. Don't worry I try not in disappoint you. Well here it goes!!!…( I also want to apologize in advanced if there is anything misspelled or anything else) .'_'. Dimples!!

Disclaimer: I do not own anything. I only own the little plot I created…oh, I wished I owned Christian or Adrian!!!

Chapter 2:

We all had started to stretch when we got their and they started choosing partners. I was stuck with no other than the infamous Christian Ozera, not that I would of mind its just if it weren't for the fact that just a couple of minutes ago we had a little moment. Uh I can't get it out of my head. Ignore it rose you can do it, it was just some weird fall!.

Instead of paying attention to him I decided to see how where the other kids doing, although they weren't that young, a year younger maybe hmm. As I turn, I see oh my it's Jill. I start sprinting to see her Although Lissa was my best friend, over the couple of days Jill and I became a little closer. She was 17 (A/N: I changed her age and also well I suppose she is a Moroi…hmm unless I'm confusing her to Mia, oh no wait Mia and her have the same element! Never mind)

"Jill hey how you been?" she was obviously not paying attention. I turn towards the direction she was looking at, to find that she was seeing CHRISTIAN! What the hell? That little inner voice told me why do you care? She turns around and shock was shown all over her face because of being sneaked up on, and then replaced by embarrassment of being caught. Christian was showing a boy I think his name was Ryan something oh yeah Ryan Smith I was never good in memorizing name.

Christian was showing him something but since his back was to me I couldn't see anything only something bright yup its FIRE!

"Liking the view?" I had no idea why I said that but I regretted it. Why can't I just shut up?

Everyone went silent.. Obviously, I said those three damn words to high ah, uh oh.

"what did you say rose?" YES my chance to escape.

"I said how are you… but….. you didn't say anything'' okay that was the worst escape I have ever used. Nice save rose. But apparently, they believed me because they turned back and continued what they were doing.

"oh sorry Rose ..I ..space out a little" no kidding.

"its okay I don't mind now lets see how you are doing" I turn to see Christian staring at the floor but with him shaking his head and a smirk on his face. Okay so I didn't convince EVERYONE, but damn I hope he didn't hear because I'm dead.

One hour later….

"okay I'm done I got to go, see you later Jill bye everyone" I start walking to my dorm until a gentle but firm hand was on my shoulder and made me stop. I turned but with a scowl in my face.

"hey you left in a hurry you didn't say bye to me only to Jill" he is accusing me of not saying goodbye?. Really life just loves giving me guy problem.

"I did say bye I said ' bye everyone' so the bye was directed toward you too. Its your fault if you though I did not say good bye now I have to go see you later'

His face fell a bit and I felt terrible for what I said and on how annoyed I sounded. I turned on my heels and left but then stopped and was facing Christian.

" Bye Christian have fun see I didn't forget" he started laughing

"Bye Rose, I missed you" he turns and left without another word. Wow. What did he mean by that I missed you…whatever.

Later that day…

I was finally inside my dorm without one signal thought that was related to Dim--I couldn't even think his name for the fact that every time I would think of that terrible night when I was faced with both death and maybe the chance of becoming a demon. But what I don't get was why didn't I fully killed him, I know I might sound like a ferocious psychopath for the fact that I kept thinking well not thinking but analyzing the flaws in the mistake I made. But I did know this. even if I was the most perfect of people no matter what that 'perfect' person isn't really perfect in the end that person will also make a mistake wasn't that part of perfectness that their mistake made them much more better for the fact that they knew how not to repeat what had already been done… so why could i just accept this well for once and for all. Well in the end I couldn't prevent it because I was not thinking all that was roming my head in the end was life is like a black hole deep and cold…andalso I don't wanna die(A/N: wow I wrote a almost speech now if only I could type as much when I have to do a 15 page essay.. Hmm I get inspired J)…

Stop thinking about it Rose. I decided to keep myself distracted with my Ipod. One of the songs that started was from AFI called Miss Murder. I started singing to it. I love this song and somehow I stopped when it came to some lines of the lyrics

That the ghost you love, your ray of light,

Will fizzle out,

Without hope.

These lyrics hit a nerve and not in a good way. What did it mean that I was one day going to forget Dim--Dimitri and never be able to love again but my life is doomed already so I can say it is good to forget. Jeez I'm so confuse why is it that I just can leave all these feelings behind. A note that was on the ground proved my point.I turned off the Ipod and took the earplugs off leaving the device on the bed. I went to get the note. It was closed I turned it to see the front but the dim white color showed nothing: no address from who it was for and from who it was. I was undecided what if it was from Dimitri no it can't be maybe it was from someone else. I tore the edge and slipped out the note in it, it said:

My dear Roza

Oh how I missed you. I be seeing you very soon at least I hope. I must say that I almost thought that, that little fall with Christian made me almost kill you both. Do you think you can move on. You think I don't know every step, every breath you take. I know everything. Some of us just have our sources. I suppose you want to know well not now but I will tell you very, very soon. And I promise I will come for you whether you like it or not. I do ask you that if you value the life of you precious friend and you so called boyfriend Adrian or Christian which ever one you are dating that they watch their backs because they might not see what is in store for them. As always my roza I love you. Remember that always.

Love, Dimitri.

(A/N: ohh a evil dimitri he sound kind of stalkerish. don't you think?… poor rose…umm very explicit…no guesses no?…what was up with the whole boyfriend thing? Wow!!)

I finished reading the letter I had no idea what to do. If he love me then why did he caused me to suffer why didn't he just leave. Instead of keeping the letters like always I went to a drawer that contained some matches and a bowl that was used for decorating my unsuccessful room I never really had the time to actually make anything of the room. I got all the notes that HE had sent I put them in the bowl and ripped them one by one. Every time I would tear one I felt like my heart went crashing down like if I was also ripping my heart out of my chest. I then continued putting it in the bowl I then lit the match and saw the flames dances in the end of the match something about this reminded me of Christian the flame dude. I concentrated on what I was doing. I threw the match in the bundle of letter pieces. The flames turned from blue to a bright red-orange the top of it was still however bluish-purple… I watched as the flames decreased and turned the papers into ashes. I through the ashes and I fell to the ground and let myself fall to pieces and started crying and letting all the anger and pain that was inside me be released. I think it was probably over curfew when I heard a tap on my window. (A/N: I love windows you'll see why yeay!!)

I went to open the window to find Christian in a little branch. My room was on the second floor so I had no idea how the hell he did it in getting in on top of the branch.. Uh Christian and his weird stunts.

'what are you doing here?" I whispered while leaning on the little rim of the window. I swear I'm going to fall in any second.

"I came to talk to you… of course if you don't want to well then I guess I'll leave" he got of the tree branch turned and left but came to a stop and came back but it seemed like he was struggling on getting back on "second thought you need to talk to me so let me in or I will not let you sleep and will continue throwing rocks at your window."

" you where throwing rocks at my window really'' hmm I never heard anything.

'yeah for like a minute" I glared at him " what my hand got tired… now can you move from the window so I can get in"

"okay fine" I moved out of the way.

"okay then…ow" I shushed him " I'm sorry rose next time I'm almost killing myself I'll remember to not whine while I'm dieing… ow!… I sprained my ankle…whatever" he got through my window and inside my room but well he couldn't catch the pole of the bed and so he fell. I mentally slapped myself for not helping him and well it was funny looking at him fall on his butt.

"yeah, yeah, yeah you complain to much" he was walking around my room examining it.

"so why are you here?"

"oh I don't know I just came thought I might come and visit you know?"

"not really, I mean last time I knew people visit each other I don't know during daylight hours you know when you are fully awake not when you are in pj's and running around in god knows what hour and going to peoples windows and saying 'HI hey let me in' sounds kind of stalkerish don't you think?"

" aww did miss rose not get any sleep. But that is not why I came. I came to well um--"

In that moment there was a soft tap in my door. Okay do people have life's after hour haha. Why can't people just let others I don't know go to sleep. I was complaining to Christian about him whining and I'm doing the same thing uh..

We stood frozen. Okay option 1 open door let person come in and see Christian and maybe get us in an enormous trouble and loose my chances of being Lissa's guardian. Option 2: hide Christian in a drawer okay maybe not a drawer hmm or under the bed and hope no one accidentally drops something which will get me in much more trouble…I think option 2 is the best one..

"Christian under the bed now!" I panicly whispered. He hid under the bed with a smirk on his face. Oh god!

I walked the few steps that where left in my little room.. My hand clutched the door handle and move it sideways and then I opened it to see the person in the hallway. Uh oh it was Adrian but he wasn't alone he was with Lissa. Perfect a club meeting at night when I was suppose to be dreaming about Johnny Depp. I have no time alone.

"hey guys…. what you up to at this time of day" my voice broke twice. I cleared my throat.

"well we came to talk to you" I gave her a questioning look that was later replaced with a little of guilt. Even though she didn't like Christian: word around the academy (A/N: haha " word around the academy… uh *ahem* sorry lost it bad joke J) was that she was with having some time with 'Aaron'. I still felt guilty for having her ex-boyfriend under my bed. I let a little giggle escaped my from my lips it was just the way the thought came that made it sound wrong.

"I'm sorry I normally would be happy to talk to you both but well you got me in a wrong time"

"why rose what's wrong?" this was Adrian's time to talk his eyes swept around my room.

"NOTHING, I was just going to go to sleep" I breath in and out but didn't exaggerate it for the fact that I didn't want them to think I was doing something that might cause me trouble. But hey it wasn't my fault so why am I doing this. A tiny voice in my head was saying something but it was just a faint whisper.

"hey listen guys can we just talk tomorrow you know…I'm really tired, please"

"well okay but tomorrow okay then lets go Adrian"

"you keep going I catch up with you in a sec.. let me just tell rose something"

"okay bye night rose"

"bye Lissa" I watched lissa leave and then I turned towards Adrian. I suddenly felt a all my emotions come back and I recalled the one where he kissed me.

"okay little Dhampir what's wrong you seem a little shaken"

"I'm fine Adrian and I thought no more nicknames"

" I don't think I established that in the proposal"

"haha funny but still no more nicknames"

" aww your no fun"

Lissa's impatient whistling made us stop talking.

"okay then I guess that's my cue" he just stood there I was expecting this so he leans in and pulls me to him but instead of kissing on the lips he kisses the very far side of the side of my lip. Damn I was teased. So I decide to get him in his own game. While he was pulling away I pull him from his shirt, he was obviously shocked for the expression on his face. I then place my hand on his cheek and move my face towards and then I shift my face and whisper in his ear.

"no one can tease Rose Hathaway and just leave without suffering so ha! You just lost your game"

I got to say that he was a little confused because when I said bye to him he was like bb-byee..

I closed the door ah fun. I totally forgot about Christian under my bed because he comes out and scared the hell out of me.

"oh yess!! I scared the famous Rose Hathaway I think I deserve a medal"

"oh how about a better prizes how about a black eye on you right side.. At least girls will find you more hot"

" last thing I knew I was hot. I think I heard someone say that to me?" were the hell is he going to with this. Please don't be what I think it is.

"what do you mean"

"never mind"

"so Christian can you tell me why you came here other than get me in trouble"

" how would I get you in trouble?"

I glared at him " the point"

"I don't know I just felt like I needed to come and see you, but now I know what we can talk about"

I just looked at him with a waiting expression

" so you are going out with Adrian"

"how do you know"

" you can see a lot while your under a persons bed" he was obviously being sarcastic but their was something that told me to think twice of what he was really saying or well what he meant.

"AH! So its true."

" well um.. I don't think I should tell you. I mean that's why its called a 'personal life' "

" its okay you don't have to tell me… but I came here because I felt like I needed to come and talk to you.. Well I better be going. Sorry Rose that I woke you up"

" no wait I wasn't asleep I was actually burning some stuff" he looked at me questionably.

'I got a note or rather letter from Dimitri today. That might be why I didn't hear you and may be because I was hearing music"

" what was the note about?"

" well um he left a note in my room and so he was talking about taking me with him. And some other things."

"when you mean other things, is the end of the story right I wont get any more .."

"pretty much…"

" well I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow."

"christian am I kicking you out or something" I looked a him and when I mean look was thatI really saw why Lissa like Christian. His jet black hair was messy just like Adrian's except longer and It was shaped in a very rocker style. The blue in his eyes gleamed a bit from the light outside. But hidden in those eyes their were filled with pain and loneliness and so many other things that just made me want to know him even more and his li-. Okay rose get a hold on yourself you like Adrian you are going out with Adrian TOMORROW. I can't believe I'm thinking this.

"Rose?"

"what"

"nothing… no you are not kicking me out. I just though you needed some time alone."

"are you kidding me the last thing I want is to be alone"

"If you want I could stay with you" I looked at the ground trying to calm that little feeling I got in my stomach.

"um if you want?"

"oh we should do something fun… oh do you have food?"

I grinned at him while I went to retrieve the hidden food I had under the bed at the very edge.

"you keep food in you room? Do ants come and eat it"

" no you just scared them away"

"very, very bad joke rose, you are not fit to be a comedian."

" whatever, besides isn't my career already chosen. Anyways I have the game rock band you wanna play"

"No! you have rock band"

" yeah everyone does. On second thought I don't think everyone since you don't have it. So are we going to play?"

"are you kidding me hell yeah" we high fived each other.

We got the rock band and tried to connect the thing.

"okay so the instructions say connect that one to the Tv"

"Christian I have not idea which one you mean. that's it I'm improvising" it apparently worked because the little rock band logo showed up. We high fived again but this time he intertwined our fingers and pulled me to the little couch to play.

"okay we need to make a little bet or what--you-mu-call-it um oh yeah a dare"

"you're on bring it on flame dude"

"flame dude?"

"what that was the only nickname I came up with. Okay I had another one but it sucked"

"what was it ?"

"the torch oh and I was going to combine the thing to so the torch thing"

"that is a terrible nickname lets stick with flames dude makes me sound cool and sort of dangerous.. I think you need a new nickname little Dhampir"

"hey hey I don't like the nickname I almost killed Adrian for it" he whispered something really low but I still heard it "yeah right.. "

"okay lets start the game"

"so what is our bet?"

"if I win you have to pull a prank on one of the guardians take you pick there is stan , stan , stan, oh did I say stan"

"okay but If I win well lets just say things will get bad… I'm still thinking about it so you'll have to wait and do it"

"fine!" this is not something I expected: for one I have on idea on what that is I will do and its kind of scaring me.

"lets begin the games" (A/N: Oh this is going to get interesting at any moment I say go Christian or Rose ahh I don't know whichever one wins it will be awesome ….Muaaa ha ha)

Well everyone this is where I say cut or in this case stop typing because I think I'm giving to much info… oh see I told you that my decision on the two amazing dudes is going haywire. GO CHRISTIAN AND ADRIAN!!*having little party* ummm… so I have to ask you something since my decision is very obtuse I ask of you if who would you pick of the two. Its just an little confussing and I just want you to be happy. I want happy review-ers! And last in for all thank you guys I hope you the best in you stories because that's what inspires me. Thank you, thank you. And remember please review thanks it's the little button. ByE BYE ~~~~TWILITEROKET!!