Hello again! So I was planning for the first chapter just to be a one-shot but after writing this idea didn't stop bothering me and for whatever reason I tried to fight it at first (hence the major delay in an update). But I clearly ended up writing a prologue to the first chapter in which Jay tells Will what happened to him. I hope everyone likes it.

Disclaimer: Still don't own anything!

Jay was pretty excited to visit Will at school, he just appreciated a weekend at home parents of course but he hadn't seen his brother and wanted to talk face to face. Med School had been hard on his brother but they always set aside the same weekend every year for just brother time.

As soon as he got out of the car to see his brother he couldn't help the smile that burst on to his face as they both went in for a hug.

"Hey bro." Will smiled upon seeing his brother.

"Hey bro." Jay echoed back at him.

The brothers quickly were able to convince their parents to leave to give them some time alone. Will showed Jay around where he had been living first. Then the two went out for some lunch and met up with some of Will's friends, all of which liked Jay a lot.

Throughout the day though Will picked up on something. He couldn't put his finger on it. He could tell something was off about his brother, he was quieter and almost jumpy. But Jay didn't say anything so Will didn't either when he was in front of his friends.

But once they got back to his apartment and Jay still wasn't himself Will had to ask. "Jay what's going on?"

"Nothing I'm good." Jay tried to blow his brother off but Will didn't buy it for a second. He reached over to put a hand on his brother's shoulder.

"Hey. I'm your brother, you can tell me anything in confidence. You don't have to be the tough guy." Will felt his heart breaking and his brother hadn't even told him anything yet. "I want to help."

"It's over now. Nothing you can do." Jay told his brother as little as he thought he could get away with.

"You pretty clearly need a listening ear. I'm right here. What's over Jay? Let me help." Will was practically pleading with his brother.

"I can handle it I promise." Jay wasn't sure what his brother would do if he told him, but he knew Will wouldn't stop without some information. "Just something happened recently that brought up some memories. That's all."

"How long ago are these memories from?" Will knew he wasn't going to be able to go straight to the memories.

"Couple years."

"Why didn't you tell me?" Will finally put it together that his brother had been through something traumatic.

Jay shrugged. "Guess I just didn't." He knew they were getting closer to the truth and he wanted to hold it off as long as possible.

"Jay. I am right here for you. I'm always going to be here. I know physically I haven't been able to be there for you but I'm only a call and an hour away. I promise."

"You remember my old basketball coach?" Breathing was becoming much more of a manual task for Jay. He reminded himself that it was Will he was talking to.

"Yeah of course." Will felt a sense of relief but also dread as he knew they were getting closer to the truth.

"He died a couple of weeks ago." Jay started with the recent stuff because it was easier.

Will felt like sorry wasn't the right word. "That's really too bad." He knew what he came up with wasn't much better but he knew he had to say something to keep his brother talking.

"I'm not so sure." Jay couldn't bear the thought of looking up at his brother.

"Jay what did he do to you?" Will tried to push, unsure as to what would happen.

"Stuff he really shouldn't have done." Jay tried not to lose his battle with his tears but his voice cracked when he spoke.

Will's heart cracked further with Jay's voice. He put his arm on his brother's back in a feeble attempt to offer some reassurance. "Like sexual stuff?" He almost didn't want to ask.

Jay just nodded in response.

Will didn't push on specifics. "I'm so sorry I didn't figure it out. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you then. Was anyone?" He again didn't want to ask but he knew he needed the answer.

"I've never told a soul." Jay couldn't help but keep trying to fight his tears.

"Thank you for telling me now. For trusting me." Will knew he couldn't let his little brother regret this. He had been holding this in for far longer than he should have.

"Thank you for being here." Jay choked out his words and it felt like the damn inside him was finally breaking. He barely registered Will pulling him onto his lap as he cried all of the tears he never could before.

Will fought to keep his tears at bay, knowing the time for his would come later. "I'm right here. You're safe. He won't hurt anyone ever again. Let all of it out." Will started a mantra as he rocked his brother like he was five years old again.

The second Jay gained some of his composure he realized what position he was in and quickly scrambled out of it, wiping his eyes. "I'm sorry."

Will maintained the contact with him though with a comforting hand on his knee. "Hey Jay. You don't need to apologize for what he did to you. Alright? This isn't your fault. I want to be here for you no matter what you need from me."

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner." Jay really didn't want his voice to get as small as it did.

"Don't be sorry for anything. You were not the one in control. He scares you. You're allowed to be scared. But it is ok now. I want you to feel safe with me emotionally too. You can tell me everything or nothing else. I will still be right here with you, I wouldn't be anywhere else. You don't need to do this by yourself anymore." Will could only hope he was getting through to him.

"But," Jay paused. Momentarily unsure that he wanted to say what he planned to. "I feel so weak and stupid. It just kept going and I didn't stop it." Jay felt tears start to come down his face again.

"It wasn't on you to stop it. That was on him. I know I don't know the details but I know you did the best you possibly could." Will tried to say the right things.

"I'm just so tired." Jay tried to let some of the tension out of his body as he let Will pull him into another hug.

"I know Jay. I can only imagine." Will tried not to let himself imagine how tired his brother truly was.

"This doesn't change anything does it? Like between us." Jay pulled out of the hug as soon as the question came to his head.

"Of course not. I think of you the exact same as I did an hour ago. If anything I'm grateful that you trust me this much. I'm honored. I love you so much and I want to be there through the good, the bad, and the ugly. I promise." Will tilted Jay's chin up, prompting him to make eye contact as he listened.

Will finally saw the last tension leave his brother's body. "Thank you." Jay couldn't say anything else.

"Anytime. You look like you are in desperate need of some sleep. Am I right?" Will let himself smile.

"Always." Jay laid down on the couch that he knew was his bed at Will's. "Is it…" Jay really didn't want to ask and found he couldn't as he trailed off.

"I'll sleep out here with you tonight." Will wasn't sure what the repressed memories would do to his brother as he slept.

"Thank you." Jay felt as calm as he had since he heard the news as he shut his eyes in attempt to get some rest.