Title: Untitled
Chapter: 2
Author: Black eyed kids (Emrys)
Words: 1078

A/N: AU - If Conner found out sooner that the lady who helped kill Holtz lied, and went to save Angel.

Sucky punctuation! maybe to much punctuation or too little sorry!

Conner was on Angels lap, the tears had dried, and now he felt foolish, he was sixteen! sixteen year olds don't cry or sit on their dad's laps! even if (Conner would bet his gameboy) his dad wasn't going to let him off his lap for a while. Or ever.

"Conner, let Fred see your wrist" Angel ordered into his ear.

Conner stuck out his uninjured wrist thinking 'Well you didn't specify which wrist DAD' bitterly.

"Don't be a smart ass Conner" Angel growled, not having the patients to deal with Conner's new found suicidal thoughts AND his smart ass nature that he noticed in Conner quite frequently. Angel just needed to focus on one thing at a time and the suicide attempt was the problem he was going to start with.

"oh that wrist, It's probably nearly healed by now" Conner huffed with a roll of his eyes at Angel full aware Angel wouldn't see but Gunn and Fred would.

Conner flinched when Angels cold Fingers wrapped around a spot an inch or two above the wound on the injured wrist, "I don't care" Angel told him sternly, then forced his wrist over to Fred.

Carefully avoiding making eye contact with Fred and Gunn was hard exspecially since Fred was right in front of him cleaning the blood of the now stitched up wo- "OW! WHAT THE HELL!" Conner yelled in pain as Fred dabbed a wet piece of cloth to the wound causing it to burn.

"Its just alcohol, the pain will pass" Fred told him softly then by accident, on Conner's part, their eyes met, 'shit'

His heart ached when he saw the look of worry sadness disappointment and something else in her eyes.

Gunn watched as Conner and Fred's eyes met. Sure he was beyond angry before, but when that door was kicked down and he saw how weak, vulnerable, fragile, guilt ridden and alone the kid was he about broke down himself. And now here he saw Fred and the kids eyes meet and almost immediately Conner's eyes fogged over and he turned his face burrowing it and himself further into Angel and started to shake.

Conner couldn't take it, that look of disappointment... Too many times had he gotten it from father and once or twice from Gunn, but not from Fred, never from her...until now. He burrowed his face into his dads shoulder, did Fred hate him? she must...and he couldn't blame her, he knew what kind of a person he was...he was the kind of person no one would want to call family, son or even be proud of, He was the kind of person that ended up getting the people he cared about killed. He was better off dad. With that thought he started to push at Angel's chest wanted to get out of him loving hold and curl up in a corner somewhere and die.

Fred backed away as Conner started struggling rather violently in Angel's arms. He was thrashing, pushing, punching and kicking. The whole time she saw the desperation etched onto both father and sons faces.

"Conner! Stop!" Angel yelled as he tried to keep his super-human son in his arms.

Conner delivered a punch to Angels ribs, "WHY DO YOU LOVE ME!" he screamed at Angel when the vampire managed to capture his wrists.

The champions mouth hung open. What would make his son ask him that! "Your my son! I'll always love you Conner!" He stated to Conner.

Conner tried to yank his wrists back but found it futile, "You shouldn't! I tried to kill you! I used to hate you!" Conner screamed at his dad, his haunted and scarred blue eyes meeting love and adoration filled brown eyes.

Angel smiled and pressed his forehead to Conner's, jumping up and down mentally when Conner didn't flinch or try to pull away, "Key word Con, you USED to hate me...so that means?" Angel questioned Conner with a small chuckle.

"I-I love you, I l-Love Fred and Gunn too...but it doesn't matter! Because you shouldn't love me!" Conner screamed, then panted his voice raw.

"Why not?" Asked Angel plain as day.

"B-Because, Everyone I care about ends up dead! Sonny! Father! and so will you, Fred and Gunn if you don't let me go!" He yelled with the last of his energy.

He stopped fighting and slumped into his dads embrace, "I-I don't want you to die...I-I don't want you to hate me...I-I just don't want you guys to die and leave me alone again!" Conner wrapped his arms around his Dads road back and clung to his black silk shirt, "I-I don't want to be alone again" he whispered.

Several tears made their way out of Fred's eyes, she walked the few steps to Gunn and hugged him letting out small sobs.

"Your not going to be alone, I'll never let you be alone, I promise you that" Angel whispered into his son ear as he petted his sons hair lovingly.

Conner cried into Angels neck, "I-I'm sorry, I'm sorry, sorry, sorry sorry" he repeated over and over again until he drifted to sleep a few moments later.

Once Conner went limp from Sleep in angels arms he let the silent tears fall freely, "I'm never going to leave you alone like you were before...I promise" he said openly then kissed Conner's temple before setting him down on the bed and covering him up with the sheets and blankets.

He was never going to let anyone take Conner again, He was never going to let Conner be alone like that again...and he was always going to love Conner. Always.

The End!

A/N: Hola! This is my first finished fic, so my ending may be a peice of crap! :3 anyway I hope you enjoyed it!