There it was at the tips of my fingers

There it was on the tip of my tongue

There you were and I had never been that far

There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away

Again I don't own Rizzoli & Isles or this song

Chapter 2- The Talk

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After leaving the BPD Jane went straight home so she could pack and be ready when the Isles jet came for her. Jane could only think that there must be something seriously wrong with Maura for Mrs. Isles to call her. In fact she did not even think Mrs. Isles liked Maura hanging around with her because they were not from the same social class. Now she knows otherwise and could not stop thinking of Maura all day. Jane put her key in the door to discover Angela Rizzoli sitting on her couch.

Jane: What the hell Ma you scared me. What are you doing here?

Angela Rizzoli: Janie is that anyway to talk to your Mother? I am here to help you pack. Now get your butt in gear you need to shower change and I'll start getting things together for you.

Jane: Ma, how do you know that I am going anywhere?

Angela Rizzoli: Well….. Janie please sit down for a little bit ok. Sit right next to me there is something I need to tell you before you go ok.

Jane: Ok Ma

Angela Rizzoli: Jane I need you to know that Constance and I have been talking over these past five years that you and Maura have not been talking. In fact Constance has become one of my closest friends.

Jane: Ma what the hell you and Constance Isles friends? All this time you have been in contact with her why?

Angela Rizzoli: Jane honey just calms down and let me explain. Janie you know when you first where born and got a little older I used to watch you all the time. You always been so tough Janie kept up the thick skin never let anyone in. I said to myself dear lord this child will suffer. This child will suffer so much in her life and there is nothing I can do but be a mother and be there for her when she falls. Angela takes in a deep breathe and continues. Janie when you meet Maura I saw something in you that I have never seen in you and that was happiness and hope. I saw how you two had so much fun together and how you both hated when the other one was mad at them. I saw how you made a point not to stay mad with her. You let her touch your hands Janie. You never let me touch your hands anymore.

Jane: I'm sorry Ma it's just I didn't want you to feel sorry for me or I don't know….

Angela Rizzoli: when I saw Maura touch your hands and you said nothing and did not get mad I knew that you loved her. I knew from the way you tried to be careful on the job. I knew when you shot yourself to protect her and Frankie. I knew the way the two of you looked at each other. Janie a Mother knows. Even Constance saw it the few times she visited Boston. We both knew when Maura left that something was wrong for her the leave the way she did. We also knew her leaving was going to destroy the both of you. Janie I ask you why you never told me you were in love with Maura or why you never told her.

Jane: Ma it's complicated I mean Ma really our family is so Catholic and for GOD sakes we are Italians too. Can you imagine what people would say about me? What they already say about me. I never felt this way about anyone much less another woman. It scared the Hell out of me. If I told Maura there would have been no way that she would have hid our relationship. Heck Ma she never told me how she felt either.

Jane thinks back to the last night she and Maura spent the night together.

Jane: Hey Maur wake up sweetie it's late lets go to bed.

Maura: Oh sorry Jane I fell asleep during the documentary I never do that.

Jane: Maur why do you apologies so much. I mean really I fall asleep on you like all the time.

Jane and Maura both laugh. Jane grabs Maura's hand and leads them into the bedroom.

Jane: You want to shower before you go to bed or what.

Maura: Oh yes sure that would be great, but I didn't bring anything to sleep in. she says with a pout.

Jane: Well you know you always leave something here. Here are your wonderfully expensive pajamas.

Maura: Janie are you making fun of me?

Jane: Oh never with a smirk on her face.

When Maura returns to the bed Jane is reading and watching the last of the news.

Jane: Hey don't you look clean.

Maura: Generally that's what happens Jane when you take a shower. As she smiled

Jane: Lights out?

Maura: Oh Jane I ah I ah I need to tell you something but I don't know how to tell you.

Jane gets nervous and starts to pace the room. She knows that it is something serious that Maura wants to talk about. She even thinks she might know what it is but she is too scared to hear it so like she always does she avoids the conversation.

Maura: It's ok Jane we can talk later it's not important really. Goodnight Jane. I love you don't forget it.

Jane: Goodnight Maur I'll never forget.

In the back of Jane's mind she wished that she could have said I Love You I'm in love with you.

Jane comes back to reality when she hears Angela calling her name.

Angela Rizzoli: Janie where did you go. You spaced out there for a minute. Thinking about Maura huh?

Jane: yeah Ma I can't stop thinking about her you know. Even though she has been gone and no contact with her I still think about her.

Angela Rizzoli: That's because you love her Janie and it's ok to love her ok. I don't know what is going on with her at this point that Constance insists on you coming and believe me I have tried to get her to tell me but she won't and that scares me Jane.

Angela looks at Jane to see tears now falling freely from her eyes as she begins to sob like Angela has never seen and she grabs her and holds her like she used to try to do when she was a kid.

Angela Rizzoli: Shhh Shhh baby it's ok let it out baby. You have suppressed this for ten years now let it out you will feel so much better. Janie please look at me ok. Janie when you get to New York you make sure you don't leave without telling Maura how you feel. Don't let another ten years go by. Many people don't get a second chance Janie but this might be yours. Now let's get you packed.

Hey guys thanks for the reviews. This story is a bit hard to write for me it's very emotional for me. After losing my LLBFF over the summer it was really hard. Listening to Rascal Flatts song words I couldn't say really made me look at things I wish I had said. Before we hung up at night we always told each other I love you don't forget it. I regret that we never told each other how we felt and let fear of what family and others would say and we missed out on each other. Always tell the people you love how you feel sometimes that second chance does not happen. Love reviews so keep them coming.