Here I am walking down the halls of McKinley high school, not knowing what road or hallway to take. I am lost. I am lost in life and in my mind. I have no idea what I want to do when I leave, I can't even imagine leaving. This school is filled with sweet memories of my family "The Glee Cub". Those guys have sticked by me through thick and thin, and I don't want to leave them, but I have too.
Should I stay in Ohio and work with Burt and carry on the family business , I have a feeling he will need my help in the future, because he won't be fit to work all his life and I'm pretty sure Kurt won't be there to help. He will be living out his dreams in New York along with the love of my life Rachel Berry. At least I hope they both make it to New York it has always been there dream and they should go for it. But should I, I mean Rachel is so determined, she sings everywhere I can imagine, but just look at me an awkward country boy who can't dance or show their talent to anyone but Glee Club.
The thing is if I don't do anything with my life, my whole time in Glee Club would be a waste of time, a lot of hard work down the drain. I haven't been getting all of these solos for nothing right? But am I New York material, I can't dance for god's sake. I need my dancing to get better, at least I have that "Booty Camp" that Mr Shue set up, I am so afraid my dancing is going to cost us Nationals and my career.
Rachel's words keep ringing around in my head "I don't want you to give up on what makes you most special, you're really talented, talented enough to get far" I do want to work with Burt but Rachel sais I am better than that. She is honestly the best girlfriend I have ever had. I don't know how I was in love with Quinn for as long as I was when she had been there for me from start to end. That's how confused I am.
But am I really as good as Rachel says I am, or is she just saying that, because she will do anything to make sure I make it to the big time with her. I can always tell what she is thinking, she has been very sad lately. I assume she is scared about graduating, but she keeps looking at me with sad eyes like our relationship will be over. Our relationship may have to end when we are apart but I will always think of her, and my love for her will grow stronger every day. I will forever hold on to that invisible tether connecting our love. I just hope she won't ever let go. When you're famous, you forget about people like me.
As I walked down the hallway towards the choir room I thought to myself.
"Can I live out my dreams or will I forever be a Lima Loser?"