I gulped hard at the thought, and reality. I was talking to MARIANAS TRENCH!
I brushed a dark, brown strand of hair out of my pale face, closing my eyes and breathing heavily. It seemed like I'd met them all before... but... I just... damn. I loved all these guys more than anything in the world, and I knew that Josh atleast had a girlfriend, maybe they were even married.. I didn't know that much.
Running my slender fingers through my hair, I looked at them all sheepishly. Unsure of what to do, I tried handing Josh one of my still-cold Cokes. "H-Here." His black eyebrows raised as if he were shocked, and I smiled. "I'm serious." Laughing a bit, he took it. I laughed too, but it was barely audible. Matt and Mike started whispering to each other and I couldn't decide on what to do. By now, I was almost shaking. "M-Mike... Matt... did I do something wrong..?" Both of them shot their eyes to me, and I bit my bottom lip, backing up a step.
"No! No, girl, you're good." The scruffy-haired Matt laughed. We sure were laughing a lot..
"Yeah, calm down." Mike added.
"I will when you stop being so defensive and calm your titties!" They all burst out laughing, Josh almost choking on his Coke, looking at Mike. I giggled a bit too, surprised they reacted like that. I smirked.
"So what's your name?" Josh asked, still fighting laughter.
"T-..Taura. Taura McAllister." He was about to speak up when I held up my free hand and cut him off. "No need; I already know who all of you are. You, Mr. Coke, are Joshua Ramsay, age twenty-eight. Michael Ayley, you are thirty-one, Matthew Webb, you're twenty-four, and Ian Casselman, Mr. Test-Tube baby, you're.. apparently one hundred according to your MySpace." Ian started laughing. Then, he waved a finger in the air, with one hand on his hip.
"First successful, REAL, Test-Tube baby! I don't have an age!" Josh laughed while the other two rolled their eyes. They heard their manager speak up, and all four reared on their heels, spinning around. I stood still, not knowing if I'd be in trouble for talking to them before the show.
"Guys, you got about fifteen minutes." They all nodded and it seemed like he didn't see me. They all turned back to me and smirked.
"We are ready." Ian laughed.
"You guys laugh.. a lot..." They all seemed to be completely fine with my comment. Josh even nodded. I laughed too, smiling a bit and closing my bright blue eyes. He walked up closer to me as Ian turned to attend to his drums, Mike to his bass, Matt going to the bathroom quick. It was only me and him. "S-so.." I muttered shakily, rubbing my arm slightly.
"What? Are you afraid of me?" He snickered, leaning closer and breathing down my neck, I froze and bit my lip. "Hahaha I'm just fuckin' with ya." I laughed cautiously, and he seemed to be a bit more outspoken. He just was. "Just so ya know, Ian's about the same age as Mike. Calm your titties." He quoted me from earlier, and I couldn't help but laugh along with him. I knew he had a girlfriend, but I couldn't help but start to get attracted. Whether he was with Amanda or not.. I.. damn. I rubbed the back of my neck nervously, blushing lightly without knowing it.
"H-Hey.. Josh.. how are things with Amanda..?" My eyes darted to his orbs, locking and trying to read his emotion. I was a bit taken aback when I saw a bit of hurt and confusion.
"Uh.. to be completely honest... I.. I don't know. Because of the tours, I've barely seen her, and I've heard more and more about her being at clubs and parties. I'm a bit concerned.. I've been cheated on before, one of my many issues in highschool..." He trailed off, placing his hand over his mouth, trying to think. "I'm honestly thinking about breaking up with her... she's scaring me..." My eyes widened and I placed a hand on his shoulder, looking him in the eyes.
"I-I'm so sorry.. I was being a stupid, inconsiderate bitch, I shouldn't have brought something like that up, I-I.." I froze and sucked in air through my teeth when I felt the cut on my wrist open up. Shit, Taur! You're not supposed to use that arm! I yanked my hand back and wrapped my other hand around it after setting down the soda, feeling the warm crimson slip through my fingers. "Ahh... shit, I'm sorry...!" He looked away for a second, obviously having some mixed feeling inside, and I felt bad. But my depression had me doing this, cutting, every week.
"Not you..." He said quietly, reaching inside his pocket and bringing out some bandages.

My eyes widened when I remembered how he too cut himself. Before and during the Heroin addiction. I felt so stupid, bringing a memory like that back to the poor guy.
He wrapped my wrist securely, looking back up to my face and keeping a hand on mine. "Look. I know, sometimes you're going to feel alone. You can't do this stuff though, no matter how much you're tempted. I gave into temptation every single time before I went to rehab, and look where I am now, having gotten out of it. You need to stop, it's nowhere near healthy, please. I know from experience." He heard Mike yell something back to him. "Shit.. the show.." Looking around quickly, he bit the inside of his cheek before talking. "Look. Meet me back here after the show. I'll tell the guys.. is there a time you need to leave?" I shook my head, looking down.
"I-I live alone.. my boyfriend cheated on me two weeks ago.." He sighed. I had no idea what he was thinking, but all I knew was I was putting a lot of pressure on his shoulders right before the show.
"Alright. Then.. if you want, you can come back with us to the band house tonight. Maybe longer, if you want. Just please, I don't want you going too far." My breath got caught in my throat. Nodding, I looked back.
"Shit..! Gates to the audience are shut.." He slumped back, head flying back before groaning.
"REALLY!" I couldn't hold back the giggle as I watched him. Though, he did do something I didn't expect.
Still holding onto my hand, he ran back onto the stage and the crowd roared, the guys all looking at Josh with a smile. My heart raced.
I was on stage, at the concert, with Marianas Trench.