Disclaimer: Anything you may find in Twilight isn't mine. I tried to make this original, but some things may appear. Song lyrics? Not mine either. Characters? Always mine.
Author's Note: The sequel to The Middle of Somewhere!! )
Thank you, everyone.
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Chapter One
I watch the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again.
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts 'cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Tryin' to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Sunlight spilled through the curtains of my room. Grumbling, I reached over and slammed a hand down onto the alarm clock to stop that annoying scream it was making. With a sigh, I pulled myself from bed and trotted downstairs.
I hadn't spoken anything to my parents about Aiden. I hadn't told them anything, as a matter of fact. And, since I had turned 18 almost six months ago, I was living in my own apartment. Brittney and Devon moved in together and were now planning to get married. They had been very careful asking me about how I was. When I got back home, I went into a horrible depression. I was still suffering from those sudden break downs and outburts, but what girl who was as heartbroken as I wouldn't?
The pain never went away. It never even dulled. I wasn't lucky enough to feel that numbing sensation. Instead, I had been stuck with a horrible pain day in and day out. Occasionally, I would come across one of his sweatshirts in the laundry or in my closet, only to start the tears right back up again. I had changed so much over the past 10 months. It was now May and the last day of school was already gone.
I was going back to the lake with Brittney. This was the one time it would be only her and I. Devon was going to spend some time with his family before the wedding. That was what they had agreed on and I had no problem with it. Time alone with my best friend would be good, but wouldn't help me get through my depression. I wanted my depression to be over, but it wasn't coming to an end anytime soon. My life hadn't been easy since Aiden left me, but I took it day by day and struggle by struggle.
Today was no different.
When I climbed into the kitchen, a sigh escaped my lips and my eyes fell onto the answering machine. A blinking red light caught my attention. I hadn't even heard the phone ring! Quickly, I reached over and pressed the PLAY button. The robotic voice spoke before my message.
Message receieved today at 8:51 AM.
Hey, Leigh, it's Tanya. I haven't talked to you in awhile and I wanted to see how things were for you. I was actually hoping that maybe you would come and stay at the cabin next week. I'm going to be here all summer and I was wanting someone to keep me company. I hope you can come! Give me a call back!
Bye!
And the message clicked off. Sighing, I erased it immediately. Tanya should know that I wouldn't want to be near the lake, but I had agreed to take Brittney. And, we were leaving tomorrow. My things had long since been packed, as I hadn't really much unpacked since last year. Strange as it was, the clothes were still clean and just packed away for some day when I would return.
That day was tomorrow.
My thoughts didn't dwindle down at all, even after I took a burning hot shower. When I stepped out of the water and wrapped a towel around myself was when I actually took note of my appearance. I had really let myself go. My hair was still as brown as ever, down to my shoulders and my eyes had large bags underneath them. My face had actually become rather pale over the year, due to the fact that I refused to do anything.
Everything reminded me of him. It wasn't fair how I was left like that.
I started to wonder how he was now. I started wondering where he was, what he was doing, and if everything was okay. I even went as far as wondering something I promised not to think about.
I wondered if he loved me.
I forced myself to stop thinking about things like that. I forced myself to merely worry about the tasks of teh day. The tasks which lay ahead of me.
The same tasks I focused on every single day since the end.