Chapter 1

Contemplation

Graduation was coming up and I still wasn't sure what I was going to say to Edward. I know I want to marry him. I want to spend my life with him forever. To spend all of eternity together. But Renee will NOT be happy. This is almost exactly what she had warned me about, to stay away from, what she didn't want to happen to me. Of course she doesn't know about the whole becoming a vampire thing…

I parked my truck and hopped out, deep in thought. Edward was by my side in a second.

"What are you thinking about?" ha asked.

"I'm thinking about graduation," I answered.

"Oh," he said tightly.

I know he doesn't exactly like the idea of taking my soul, but how could someone like Edward or Carlisle not have a soul...? I thought. At that moment Alice skipped up to us gracefully.

"I can't wait for tonight! It's going to be SO much fun!!" she exclaimed. Seeing my confused and horror stricken expression, she added, "Don't worry, Bella! I'll see you right after school!" and with that Alice skipped away. Just another reason I should be afraid…

"What's tonight?" I asked, confusion written over every inch of my face.

"You'll see!" Edward whispered.

I was as much dreading this as looking forward to it. Edward hardly said a word all day and whenever someone said something about tonight he looked excited, nervous, and resigned all in one. This can not be good, this can not be good. Especially because Edward is nervous and won't tell me what this is all about!

I thought through the possibilities:

1.) Edward is changing me. No. That isn't possible; he said he wouldn't change me until he married me. Which brings me to number

2.) Edward going to ask me to marry him. Again. Hmm…that was definitely possible.

3.) One of the couples from Edward's family is getting married again. Possible but not probable. They wouldn't hide that from me.

4.) We were going to another stupid dance and he didn't want me to know about it. No…I surely would have heard something from Jessica if there was a dance coming up.

So…that only leaves me with...HE'S GOING TO ASK ME TO MARRY HIM??!!! What am I supposed to say? I really want to marry Edward; I love him more than anything in the world. But Renee would flip! I know what I want, but I also know what's right.

Well…Edward gave up on right and wrong the moment he decided to be with me, right? So why shouldn't I do the same?