Amber: This chapter is dedicated to Ayu for a special reason. I hope you enjoy this!
we do not own Shugo Chara.
Chapter 2: bottled up emotions and her story?
~Ikuto POV~
OH MY TACOS...when me and Utau walked into our dormroom,we found a naked Amu and Spikey having sex..
What made it worse was that when Amu got off the bed,she was bare of any clothes!
She smirked when she saw me looking at her.i felt heat rush to my cheeks. DAMMIT!
The worst part thought..I got really hard down there..I cringed from the throbbing in my pants.
Hmm..maybe being a playboy wont be so bad...WAIT! IKUTO WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING!
Utau wont be happy if she heard you say that..
My thoughts were interupted when both Amu and spikey came out of the bathroom,clothe intact.
Damn..she,s really hot.
"Amu! Spikey! What the hell were you doing!" Utau yelled. Spikey glared at her.
"Hey! My names Kukai! NOT spikey you little bi-"
I glared. "Dont even THINK about finishing that sentence!"
we both glared to the point were lightning could be seen flashing between our eyes.
"woah! Kukai chill!"
"Ikuto calm down!"
both Amu and Utau had yelled.
Amu went up to kukai and whispered in his ear,causing him to smirk. he nodded and ruffled her pink hair.
"see ya later Amu! Dont forget!" then he left to who knows then went to where she and Kukai had..ugh..sex.
She picked up the sheets and put them in a hamper and switched to clean sheets.
"ya know,its not polite to stare. Especially when i'm 'busy'." she turned around,hands on her hips.
"yeah,yeah. Whatever you say princess." I smirked. 'Damn that facade of mine. she smirked at me
" though..I wouldnt mind if you and I were busy.." I held back a bush and instead,my smirk widened."hmm..if thats what you want."
thats when I was hit upside the head by utau." OW! Utau what was that for!" I rubbed the side of my head,feeling the pain.
"hmph! that was for saying yucky thing infront of me." amu snickered." Aww..is Ikuto-kun okay?" she cooed. I playfully glared.
"shut up.." Utau coughed,her face serious."amu..what happened to you?" the moment she spoke,Amu lost all humor,none traceable in the least.
Amu clenched her hand and turned towards Utau with disgust "you happened." Utau had confusion written all over her face.
"w-what?"
~Amu POV~
"w-what?" she said.
I glared."..its because of you i'm like this..so broken..alone..its because of you everyones dead..mom..dad..Ami..
their all dead because of you.." I could feel the tears brimming in my eyes. "i have no one left but Kukai..he loves me like I love him..
he takes care of me,makes me happy.." I was trembling."but..I still feel so lonely.."tears streamed down my face as I fell on my knees.
I hugged myself trying to calm down. 'why am I doing this infront of them? year after year..I was able to hide my feelings from everyone,
especially kukai..so..why not now?' I was interupted from my thoughts when I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist.
I looked up to see who it was. Big mistake. My golden orbs were met with a beautiful pair of sapphire blue eyes boring into my own.
My breathing hitched. the only thing on my mind was'his eyes..their so pretty' i could feel the heat rise towards my cheeks. I was blushing.
Something I hated to do..But,the strangest thing was..I didnt care.I felt safe in his arms. It felt so right to be there. I wrapped my arms around
his neck and buried my face deep into his shoulder.
"shh..its okay Amu..dont cry,everything will be okay" He kept repeating those same lines for 30 minutes. He was trying to comfort me.
I smiled as the tears finally stopped. It felt really good to let my emotions out. '...Maybe we can be friends..Ikuto...' My eyes felt heavy.
"thankyou..Ikuto.." was the last thing I said before drifting off into a deep sleep.
~Utau POV~
amu..im so sorry..i never meant to leave you..I just had to..for mom dad and ikuto..but..instead i ruined not only our friendship but your family too..i'm sorry amu..i really am...
~Ikuto POV~
"thankyou..Ikuto.."
she fell asleep in my arms. '...she looks so peaceful right now..' I stood up careful not to wake her and walked towards my bed. She had a tight grip on me so I knew it was pointless to let go unless I wanted to wake her up. I put her inbetween my legs(i know what your thinking perverts). Her head resting on my chest. we were like that for about an hour and a half "Utau!" i whispered/yelled "what?" I motioned for her to walk towards my bed. "go to be-" I was cut-off by the door slamming open.
"HINAMORI AMU! I,SAAYA YAMABUKI,PRESIDENT OF THE HOTORI TA-"she stopped when she was punched by amu. ...wait..AMU!
"DAMMIT SAAYA! cant you leave me alone for more than 5 fuckin minutes!"
~Amu POV~ (sorry for the constant POV change..)
I was awoken by a door slamming open and yelling by Saaya. "HINAMORI AMU! I,SAAYA YAMABUKI,PRESIDENT OF THE HOTORI TA-"
She was cut-off when I shut her up by punching her straight in the face. I cracked my knuckles in annoyance.
"DAMMIT SAAYA! cant you leave me alone for more than 5 fuckin minutes!" I yelled.
she rubbed her face,trying to rid the pain. "FUCK HINAMORI! THAT REALLY HURT!" she was about to say more when she looked behind me.
hearts were visible in her eyes. I stared at her confused and turned my head to where she was looking at. She was staring at Ikuto.
"T-Tsukiyomi-san! Did I wake you?"she was blushing. Then she remembered about me and sneered. What she said next pissed me off.
"Tsukiyomi-san,what are you doing in sluts room?"
"first of all Saaya-pig,this is Ikuto's,Utau's,Kukai's,and my room. Secondly,i'm a playgirl,not a slut. Big difference retard. And lastly,do you need another beating? I think you do!" with that said,I grabbed Saaya by her shirt and knee'd her in the stomach. I then grabbed her by the neck and slammed her into the wall.
I ignored her feeble attempts and tightened my grip on her neck. She was turning blue. tch. like I give. I clenched my other hand. I was about to punch her when I felt a hand grab my wrist and an arm snake around my waist. I was forced to let Saaya go.
"thats enough Amu. As for you Yamabuki..get the fuck out of our !" Saaya scrambled to the exit and slammed the door shut. I clenched my teeth.
"Let go Tsukiyomi." He tightened his grip on me."No" I struggled against him."Let go NOW!" He turned me around ao that I was facing him. His face,only centimeters
away. I could feel his hot breath on my neck. I held back a shiver. "Not unless you tell us what happened Amu" By this point,I knew it was pointless. He was stronger than me.
I sighed in defeat."fine. I'll tell you if Utau gives me an explanation as to why she left..." She nodded eagerly. '..same old Utau..' I stopped myself from smiling. I looked at
Utau and Ikuto warily as I spoke.
"...After you left, I was depressed. I didnt know why you left which saddened me even more. I was stressed out and I couldnt take being lonely anymore. Mama and Papa tried to cheer
me up but that didnt work. EVEN AMI TRIED! but that didnt work either. So,i finally came up with the conclusion that you didnt like me anymore that was why you was the day
things went wrong and when I changed...
****FLASHBACK****
"Amu-chan~" my father Tsumugu said. "please wont you come camping with us?" He gave me the puppy eyes. I looked away and said "no." thats when my mama Midori and my little sister Ami came
all three said,"Please Amu-chan~!" I forced myself to look away from all three. Dammit! they know I cant resist 'the eyes' I turned around and regretted it. All three were staring at
me with 'the eyes' and their bottom lip sticking out. I was about to give in when the bell rang. Thankyou Kami! I ran towards the door and opened it only to reveal a grinning Kukai.
"YO! Its good to see ya again Hinamori!" I felt tears welling up. I couldnt stop myself. "KUKAI!" I glomped him. Both of us fell to the ground. he started laughing and ruffled my hair.
"good to see ya too!" he grinned that goofy grin I loved and missed.(He was 8 years old when he became my new neighbor a year after..Utau had left since Kukai had saved me from drowning when I was pushed
into the 'big pool' we had become great friends. But at the age of 12, he left to America to get better at soccer. he came back 2 years later..he was 15..)I grinned as well. wow...Kukai sure has grown up...
We were interuppted by my mama clearing her throat.
"alright you love birds..I can see you two need some 'alone time' with each other" She called to papa and Ami. "..Papa! Amu-chan's not going alright? Kukai
came back and i'm pretty sure they want to 'catch up'. Right Amu-chan?" I nodded. "UWAHH! MY LITTLE SPARROW HAS GROWN UP! AMU-CHAN DONT FORGET US!" little did I know,those spoken words would be the start of the day it all changed.
With one last family hug and I love you's,Mama,Papa,and Ami left. I walked into my house,were Kukai was at. He was watching soccer.'no suprise there..' I cleared my throat. "..kukai! i'm gonna change okay?" he waved me off as I went to my room.
I chose my white short shorts with a tight black tanktop that read 'I got white icing on me. lick here (arrow pointing down)' I skipped down the stairs and said "KUKAI! what do you want to eat?" he looked away from the tv and said
"can we get ram-" his jaw dropped to the floor. I was confused "neh Kukai? whats wrong?" he snapped out of it and was blushing like crazy."H-Hinamori..w-what are you w-wearing!" I just got confused even more "ummm..my pjs?" I saw something pass through his eyes.
was that lust? I shrugged it off and went to the kitchen,Kukai behind me.
"sooo..what do you want in your ra-" i was cut-off when I felt a pair of lips on my own. My eyes widened when i realized it was Kukai but soon went back to normal. I kissed him back. It was a sweet,and tender kiss. We soon parted,panting from lack of air. I was certain
now..it was indeed lust because next thing I know,Kukai picks me up bridal style and ran up the stairs into my room. he laid me on the bed while he took off his shirt and pants. he was only left in boxers. "Amu...can I...?" i knew what he was talking about. I nodded
and he pounced on me. he yanked my tanktop off as well as my bra and shorts.I was left in only my pink panties. Kukai looked at me hungrily. with one swift movement,he pulled my panties off..leaving me naked. I did the same thing with his boxers. Both of us now naked.
He positioned himself at my entrance. I squealed when I felt his manhood poke me slightly "Amu..are you ready?" I nodded as we began.
(AN:/ well you all know what happens here..I dont want to write a lemon yet so you'll have to wait until Dante wakes up from the coma..)
~2 hours later still Amu POV~
"wow..that was amazing Kukai.." he smiled and said. "that sure was...especially when you kept calling my name.." he smirked. I was about to say something when the phone rang. I grabbed the phone. "..Hello? Hinamori Residence."I was suprised to hear a man say,
"Are you by any chance Hinamori,Amu?"
I said yes. what he said next was the worst thing I ever heard. "I'm so sorry to inform you that your Mother Midori,Father Tsumugu,and your sister Ami have died in a car accident while on their way to camp Lake MaryBeth" I was shocked and started to cry." Thankyou s-sir"and we hung up. I threw myself into Kukai's bare chest and cried my heart out."..Hinamori..what happened?" After I told him,he embraced me into a bonecrushing hug and comforted me until I stopped crying. I forced kukai into another round of sex. He obliged. we went at it until the next morning. I took a cold shower after a long rest. I thought
'first Utau leaves..now my family..you hate me dont you god?'
'no,he doesnt hate you. you were the one that took everything for granted.'
'...shut up...I still have Kukai. He made me forget everything last night.. he made me happy..who's to say I cant be happy with other people?'
'..do as you wish Amu..'
And thats the day I became a playgirl. Every single person I have had sex with made me forget about my bad memories. Kukai didnt mind for he was a playboy too.
I hate what i've become but,I cant stop it..i'm addicted to sex which is why I never stop..
****FLASHBACK END****
"...now you guys know..." Ikuto tightened his grip on me even more. what suprised me was that he kissed my forehead."...everything will be alright amu..I'll make sure of it. I promise."
Utau hugged us "Amu...i'm so sorry..but please believe me when I say I never wanted to leave you..I had to. I was forced to leave you for the safety of my family.." I was about to say something when Kukai came barging in,looking very yanked me away from Ikuto
and started leading me toward the door. Before I was completely out I whispered/yelled,"go to bed..we'll talk tomorrow..okay?" they nodded reluctantly as me and Kukai left.
tomorrows the start of a new day...tomorrow...
Amber: I'm so sorry this is late! you try writing with a broken arm,ribs,headaches 24/7...As you know..I have gotten into an accident with my beloved boyfriend Dante..He protected me by taking most of the blow...he had whispered "I love you..my sweet Amber.."
I keep crying whenever I think about what he had said...Dante's currently in a coma since last lastweek on Tuesday..alot has happened since then..I will try to write up the 3rd chapter by the end of the week. If I dont,please forgive me. I'm just going through so much at the moment..)