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Conner couldn't help but to sigh as he found himself replacing the spark plugs for the fifth time in the past twenty minutes, no matter which way he tried to think it through nothing changed. He still wasn't sure how he was supposed to tell M'gann or the rest of the team about why he had been called up to the watchtower. The teen of steels attention was yanked from the engine by the sound of the doors sliding open, he knew without having to turn around that it was M'gann by the slight lavender aroma coming from behind him.
"Hi Conner." Megan started as she snaked her arms around his shoulders, and placed a light kiss on the dark haired teen's cheek. The Martian girl was worried about her boyfriend she hadn't seen much of him since he got back from the watchtower, but she had felt the mix of emotions raging through his mind. She knew that Conner would never admit to needing help with whatever he was dealing with right now, but at the same time she knew how he would close off if she pushed too hard.
Conner knew that Megan would have picked up the mass amount of conflicting emotions swirling through him, truth be told he was actually surprised that she had left him alone for as long as she had. The teen of steel knew that he still wasn't quite ready to talk about what had happened up at the watchtower, so in an attempt to distract the green skinned beauty he turned his head to the left and pressed his lips against hers initiating a passionate kiss.
M'gann was taken by surprise when she felt him begin to kiss her, but she was quick to reciprocate all thoughts of trying to get to the bottom of whatever was bothering her boyfriend fading from her mind.
Conner smiled slightly into the kiss as he slid backwards pulling M'gann onto his lap as he went, all it took for Conner to deepen the kiss was a gentle prodding against his girlfriends supple lips, and the already kiss deepened into a full on make out session. The two alien teens didn't stop except for the brief inhales, only to smash their lips back together in the age old dance.
Conner smiled as he watched his girlfriend walk away his eyes lingering on her heart shaped backside, his smile faded though the further away she got as the guilt from manipulating her feelings for him began to eat away at him, and before he knew what he was doing the teen of steel had all but ran to catch up to her.
"M'gann stop" Conner said as his hand gently wrapped around the girls bicep, he wasn't sure how he was going to explain everything that happened at the watchtower, but he knew that he couldn't taint their relationship like he had.
M'gann wasn't sure why Conner had stopped her but she could tell by the look on his face that the usually stoic boy was having difficulties with whatever he was trying to say; as such the Martian girl didn't say anything instead giving him her full attention.
"The reason that I was taken up to the watchtower was because they found away for me to get my full Kryptonian abilities." Conner blurted out, taking the green skinned girl by surprise.
"Conner that's great" M'gann said, a large smile splitting her face, she knew that even though Conner never said anything out loud the fact that he wouldn't get full Kryptonian abilities had always bothered him. But by the look on her boyfriends face she wasn't sure that it actually was such a great thing. "Isn't it?"
"It's complicated" Conner sighed as he turned away his right hand running thorough his black locks.
Megan could tell that this was bothering the boy greatly; in fact his thoughts were going so rapidly that she had to make sure that she didn't accidently use her telepathy on him.
"Conner you can tell me." The Martian assured him, while laying her hand gently on his back, hoping that he'd open up.
Conner sighed, he wanted to tell her, he really did, he just didn't know how. How the hell does he explain that the operation that he was considering undergoing, could end up killing him, or worse he survives and ends up like Match. He was about to just blurt out everything that could happen when they were once again interrupted this time by Robin, kid Flash, and Aqualad entering the garage.
"Hey guys" Richard said, his usual boyish grin nowhere to be seen, in fact none of the boys had smiles on their face, all three looking decidedly serious.
M'gann was somewhat startled not only by the fact that they all looked so serious, but also by the fact that they hadn't left as soon as they saw that they were having a private moment like they usually would. She was about to ask what was going on when she accidently picked up on Aqualads thoughts, causing her to release a horrified gasp.
They knew, Conner wasn't sure how they knew but somehow they had found out, and judging by not only M'ganns gasp but also the way that she was now looking at him she had found out as well.
"How'd you find out?" Conner asked as he looked directly at Dick.
"Hacked the watchtowers surveillance" The boy wonder responded, obviously feeling no shame in what he had done.
"So then you know" Conner stated.
"You mean that it could kill you, yeah" Wally spoke up this time, glaring at the boy that he had come to consider as something akin to a sibling,
"Wore you planning on telling us or just up and doing it." Dick asked, taking charge of the conversation again.
Conner wanted to sigh as he looked at the four people who were currently glaring at him; he was rather surprised that Kaldur and M'gann had remained so quiet, but he could tell by the look on their faces that they were immensely angry at him, M'gann especially. He knew that Wally had begun talking probably tearing him a proverbial new one, but the truth was that none of them knew how he felt, after all how could they and the fact that instead of letting him explain when he was ready they bombarded him like this, even going so far as to question his intelligence and sanity as Wally currently was, was just too damn much.
"What do you know!" Conner roared, causing the teen age speedster to stop mid sentence as he and the others stared shocked at Conner's outburst.
"You have no idea what it's like to live feeling incomplete, feeling like there's this giant gaping hole and there's nothing that you can do to fill it." the entire team stared as Conner inhaled deeply.
Richard couldn't help but to stare at the Kryptonian teen, he had no idea that Conner felt like that, and he was sure that the others didn't either. But that didn't change the fact that Conner didn't tell them about the fact that he could die.
"Conner we didn't know, it's just we found out that you could die and we panicked." Richard said softly hoping to prevent the volatile teen from blowing up again.
Conner inhaled deeply as he reined his temper back in, he knew that he shouldn't have blown up at them like that, there was just so much on his mind currently, too much he needed to get away. It was almost as if sphere had read his mind as the giant metal ball rolled next to him before shifting into its cycle configuration. The young half Kryptonian didn't need to think twice before he jumped into the vehicle that Wally had dubbed as the super cycle and took off.
The teen of steel couldn't suppress his smile as he raced across the sky, loving the freedom that came from being up so high, even if it wasn't under his own power. He knew that he shouldn't have taken off like that, they deserved a proper explanation he just didn't know how to explain it though. Because he wasn't lying about feeling like there was a piece of him missing, and he knew that the missing piece was the powers that he lacked. But at the same time he was worried about what could happen if he went through with the procedure and something went wrong, could he really put the team at risk for something as selfish as getting all his powers, he wasn't sure.
M'gann pulled her fifth batch of cookies out of the oven as she glanced at the kitchen clock again, Conner had been gone for the past four and a half hours and she had been worried about him for every second of them. And when she worries, the Martian girl starts baking, she had actually made so many that she doubted that even Wally could eat all of them alone.
The green skinned girl couldn't help but to look longingly at the empty couch and silent television set, wishing that she was sitting there snuggled against Conner's chest like they did most nights watching a movie. Only for her to fall asleep causing Conner to carry her to her room where he'd cover her up and gently kiss her on the lips, just like in all those romantic movies that he knew she loved so much. But instead he she was preparing to make another batch of cookies.
The sky had darkened considerably by the time that Conner pulled back into the garage, sphere returning to her usual configuration, and wolf waiting patiently for his master to return by the door. Conner wished that he could say that his time flying astride super cycle had helped him come to a conclusion about whether he was going through with the operation or not, but truthfully he was still as conflicted as he had been when he left earlier this evening.
The instant the garage door slid open, the teen's heightened sense of smell was assaulted by an almost wall of different aromas. The further into the cave that he traveled the stronger the aroma became. Conner almost chuckled as he turned the corner seeing the massive amount of cookies piled up around the kitchen, M'gann had made so many that she could have her own little bake sale. But the sixteen year olds amusement was short lived, feeling of guilt rapidly replacing them as he remembered that the Martian girl only went on a baking spree like this when she was worried, and considering the fact that he was most likely what had caused her that worry. He had barely begun to internally berate himself, when the teen's attention was stolen by the echoing bang of the metal cookie sheet slamming against the floor, mere seconds before M'gann slammed into him, her arms wrapping around him in a desperate hug, he could almost feel her fear at the prospect of him disappearing again.
M'gann couldn't help the tears that slowly trailed from her eyes, her relief that the boy she loved had returned almost overpowering, while at the same time she couldn't help but to fear that the teen would disappear again if she let go of him.
Conner gently wrapped his arms around her, still somewhat uncomfortable with showing his feelings. Another thing that the teen of steel knew he needed to work on, because he knew that Megan wanted to be able to kiss him in public or hold hands anything that would count as a public display of their relationship.
Time seemed to fade away as the two simply stood there, wrapped in each other's arms, nether wanted to destroy the peace by bringing up Conner's massive decision or the fact that he had taken off instead of talking to them about why he hadn't told them.
But Conner knew that it must be almost midnight and though he could go for at least a week without sleep, he knew that his girlfriend needed at least eight hours or she could be rather cranky. That fact resounding through his head led the teen to begin leading his girlfriend towards her bedroom, he could tell from the look that she kept shooting him that she didn't really want to go to bed, her fear that he'd be gone when she woke up shining in her eyes. But after a number of reassurances's, he finally managed to convince the Martian to go to bed.
It didn't take the young half Kryptonian long to reach his room, where he quickly changed into a pair of shorts before falling onto his bed. His thoughts once again drifting to the decision that he had to make, as well as the fact that the rest of the team still expected some kind of explanation from him about why he hadn't told them about the somewhat dangerous operation. Conner couldn't help but to sigh as he realized that he had a rather long night ahead of him.
AN: hey everyone sorry about the long wait, I'd like to thank everyone who reviewed, followed or fav'd my story, for everyone who was hoping for the next chapter of an alien in Sunnydale year 2 I'm sorry that I haven't gotten it out yet this chapter was just bouncing around in my head. That being said please remember to review.