A/N: So that's probably the longest chapter I wrote. I hope it's good.

Freddie's Pov

I was back in the parking lot, the place where my doubts started. My mom would be mad at me forever. I couldn't stay in Seattle anymore. I needed to get out of this city, or at least t'ill this fiasco I caused ended.

There were a lot of cities I wanted to visit. I shouldn't be to close since I didn't want anyone I know to find me soon, but not somewhere too far. It should't be a place where any of my relatives live. Finally, Los Angeles seemed like a really good choice. Sam lived there after she finished college. She was a culinary critic. She was one of the only persons I could talk to after what happened. Me, Carly and Spencer saw her rarely but now she came to Seattle just because Carly asked her to be her maid of honor. I saw Spencer, my mother and other of my relatives coming from the church, looking really mad. Probably they were searching for me. I got in the car and I started driving.

First, I drove to my old apartment, where me and my mother lived. All was packed since me and Carly were going to move together in a house we did buy after we got engaged and it was going to be finished and we were going to move here after the wedding. I took my laptop ,my pearpad and some clothes and I got out the apartment. I saw Lewbert yelling at me.

"NO WALKING ON MY FLOOR THAT I JUST CLEANED! He said. I remember when we made the 'messing with Lewbert' segment on iCarly. Sometimes, when I thought of it, I missed the old times. I was just Carly, Sam and I, just three kids making a popular webshow. I got in the car and I started driving. I got on highway because I could drive faster there. Bad choice...It was a summer saturday and everybody was on the road so it was a big traffic jam. I waited almost an half an hour without moving. I got really bored and decided to look at my pearpad. I opened the photos folder and started looking though them. There were some photos from the high school and also there were photos from college. There were also photos of Carly and I in the last years.

Always when I was with Carly, I couldn't say that I wasn't happy but I couldn't say that I was happy either. I always had a feeling that it wasn't right, that it was just like dating my sister, but not that gross. Every time I kissed her, I didn't feel anything, there were just some lips on mine and that was all.

Finally, I decided to open my phone and see who called. There were like 20 calls and 30 text messages from my mother, 10 calls and 5 messages from Spencer and 2 calls from Gibby. I read the texts from my mother. I figured out she was disappointed and angry so I didn't want to call her right now. The last text she send me said that she though that I wasn't ready to begin my own life and I still needed her. She was so wrong. I couldn't wait to move out. When I came back from college I started looking at apartments but then I started dating Carly and I proposed so I didn't have time to buy and apartment. Spencer also sounded angry and disappointed but I though that I should call to say that I'm sorry. Spencer was always like a brother to me so maybe he shouldn't be that mad, but I seriously doubt that. If he wanted to, he could be really responsible and he would almost kill somebody that would hurt his sister and I had a feeling that I just did it. I decided to call Gibby first, after a few rings he picked up the up.

"Hey,Freddie"he said. He sounded really calm.

"Hey, Gib, how are my mom, Spencer and Carly reacting?

"How do you think they're reacting?" now, he sounded really angry."Spencer's cursing and he says that you were the least guy he expected to do that to his sister and all your family is talking about how they though you were a better guy and how wrong they were."

"And Carly?" I asked. I really didn't want to do that to Carly, but it just wasn't right. And what I did was better for her too.

"She's crying! You made her cry!" I felt really bad about that. " You didn't say 'I do' and then you left the wedding" I could at least stay, apologize and explain why I didn't wanted to marry her, but I was too scared to do that.

" I gotta go now" he said. " And Spencer want me to say to you that the next time he'l see you, he's gonna kill you with his bare " he said as he hung up the phone. I was still driving on the highway when I started getting really hungry. I didn't eat anything today so it wasn't something strange for me to starve. I drove a few miles, then I saw a little restaurant. I parked and entered. When I entered, I immediately regretted going there. It looked like the kind of place someone who has been to juvie like Sam would only eat in there. I took one of the only free tables and I waited t'il the waiter came at me to ask what I would like to order. He was a muscular man in his 50's. I ordered a coffee and a burger. I noticed that he wasn't leaving after that. He stood there looking at me.

" It's not everyday, when you see someone like you in a place like this" he stated.

" I decided to drive on the highway, and I was starving" I answered him sincerely. "I'm getting you your order" he said and he left. After 5 minutes he returned with my food.

" You look sad, what's the reason?" he asked. Normally I wouldn't start talking about my life with some waiter but now I didn't have anything else to do.

" I didn't say 'I do' at my wedding cause I wasn't sure if a really loved her that way or if I wanna spend my life with her, then I run out. And now, her brother who was like my older brother in childhood, since she was my best friend is really mad at me and I disappointed my whole family." I felt actually good talking to someone.

" Sorry, if you're busy and I'm keeping you from work".

" Nah, it's okay, I have something to tell you after you finish that" I told everything from the day I meet Carly to now.

"You know, when I was your age, I was about to get married to this girl. Her name was Maddie, I was so sure that I was in love with her. But every time I kissed her, I didn't feel anything. And it made of me think of the night I kissed her sister, I felt sparks and it was the best feeling in the world. One week before the wedding, I realized that I was in love with her sister. But I didn't back out, I married her and I regretted it all my life. One year ago, we divorced, I never talked to her after that. Then I got fired from the hotel where I was a deluxe cook and I built this place. It makes me happy to know that it's all my work here."

I always expected that when I kiss Carly I would feel fireworks, before. I expected it to be like my first kiss on the fire escape with Sam. It was magical. But, now I guess it's just a first kiss thing, since I never felt it again.

"Look, kid, I can't tell you what's the right thing to do, but I can definitely tell you that marrying a girl that you don't really love with all your heart and that you would regret marrying isn't the good choice. Better disappoint other peoples temporary than disappointing yourself for life.

"Thanks, I gotta go now. By the way I'm Freddie" I said as I got out the door. The road was almost free now , so it wouldn't take me too long to arrive in LA.

I couldn't believe that a stranger I just meet in a place full of delinquents just gave me some really good advice.

A/N: I know that first chapters don't have that much seddie, but I need to have Freddie realize that he doesen't want to be with Carly. It's going to be more seddie soon.