_Ok I know this has nothing to do with the story but I thought this would lighten the mood. I saw Idina PREGNANT for the first time!!!! OMG! She got chunky lol ..of course that's what happens you're your pregnant but..SHE LOOKS SO CUTE! : D lol

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6 months later.

How could he do this to her? How could he do this to her AND Fae!

Elphaba had just gotten the worst letter of her life…. Fiyero passed away in battle. He wasn't coming home this time. She ran up to her room and sobbed for what seemed like an eternity. He broke her heart. There were no words to say. Although she wanted to scream, that she hated him, and everything else in the world. she'd be lying. So still crying she just lay on her bed, and said." I love you. I thought you loved me too..but for you to leave me like this…" She was chocking though sobs. "Please Fiyero, come back to me! I need you!. At least…show me you're here. If..If I can't have you in my arms… be my angel Fiyero. Show me you're here." She got quite, and closed her eyes.

All of a sudden, there was a strong wind at their window, she abruptly opened her eyes, and went to the window.

…It was him. She couldn't see him. No. But there was no other explanation. The window was shut. She was still upset, and still cried, but It could have been a lot worse, now that she knows he's there.

She cried herself to sleep.

i reached for you this morning
woke up with empty arms
once again it's sinking in
how far away you are

She woke up the next morning thinking she had a terrible nightmare, and turned around for Fiyero. To find her self empty handed….It wasn't a dream. This was going to be a bad day. Along with a bad life, she thought.


i still pour two cups of coffee
and tell you all about my dreams
this kitchen's way to quiet
you should still be here with me

She went to the Kitchen, Fae wasn't up yet. Despite her better judgment, she went into the cupboard and got two mugs out and poured two cups of coffee. And talked. And talked. And talked. And talked. She was talking to her angel. Talked about everything, her dreams, Fae, and how much she loved him. Thinking it would make things better. It didn't. She just started to cry even more. Until her 3 year old Fae walked in and saw her.

"Mommy, are you ok?" Her daughter said with full concern.

Elphaba picked her up and brought her into their living room. Took a deep breath in and out and.

"Um...No sweetie, mommies not ok." She took another deep breath "Oh boy…um..I'm not sure how to tell you this. Fae. Sweetheart. Daddy… daddy isn't coming back." Elphaba said trying not to get emotional

"Why, he'd he go?"

Ugh, this was going to be hard. "Well,…do you know who God is?"

"Yes"

"Well daddy works for God now." Elphaba said trying to put on a happy act in front of her daughter

"Wow!" Fae smiled.

Elphaba couldn't help but laugh at her innocence. "Yep! Now he's one of God's angels. So now, although you can't see daddy. He's there. He's your angel now. So if for some reason you can't come to me for any reason at all, just talk to him, where ever you are. He can here you. You might not be able to hear him, but he's there " She smiled

"But..If I can't see or hear him how would I know?"

"You..You'll know."

3 Months later

and even though i cry like crazy
even though it hurts so bad
i'm thankful for the time god gave me
even though we couldn't make it last
i'm learning how to live without you
even though i don't want to
and even with you gone love lives on

Elphaba still cried at night. She couldn't help it. She still loved him. She had a picture by their bed. It was of her in a hospital gown holding Fae when she was just born, With Fiyero's Arms around her kissing her forehead. She kissed it every night before she went to bed, and told him she loved him. She always thought of their memories together. That was the only time she smiled any more. She was grateful she at least got the time she did to remember him.

i still call your mom on sunday
it's good to hear her voice
she always tells me that same story
about her stubborn little boy

Now that Fiyero was gone Elphaba had become very close with his family. Especially his mother. They would tell stories of him, that made them laugh, smile, and sometimes...Even cry. It was good to cry every once in a while, not as much as they do, but still it is good every once in a while.

and i kept your favorite tshirt
you know the one i used to hate
ain't it funny how it's the one thing i
i just can't throw away

Today was Fiyero's birthday. Elphaba went into her closet to get her clothes to start the day, when she accidently kicked something….that stupid tee- shirt. She picked it up and smelled it. After all this time it still smelled like him. She walked out and threw it on the bed. She was gunna put it somewhere special. She wasn't sure where yet. But she'd find a place.

she comes with me on your birthday
little flowers in her hands
she's always known there's something missing
but to young to understand
and someday she's going to ask me
what kind of man you were
i'll tell her all the ways i loved you
and all of you i see in her

They went to his head stone, and left flowers for him. But then Fae started to cry uncontrollably, and Elphaba could not figure out what was wrong. She knew Fae still didn't really know what was going on. She sat on the ground and pulled Fae into her lap and rubbed her back and tried to sooth her, by shushing her softly." Fae, honey. Can I please know what's wrong?"

Fae was not exscactly sure why she was upset. All she could tell Elphaba was that she was talking to her daddy, and she got upset that he wasn't responding. She didn't know why though because as Elphaba said she would know that he was there, and she did. She could feel it.

"It's ok to cry sometimes and I know, you know he's there but I know it can be hard not to hear his voice. You did nothing wrong ok?" Elphaba said looking in her daughters eyes. She just nodded her head and buried her face in her mom's hair.

Elphaba started to cry with her daughter. She hadn't cried like this in a while, but then it got bad. She started shaking, and coughing…

Elphaba gasped, there was sweat on her fore head and the first half of her body shot up.

"Fae? Fae sweetheart, what's wrong?"

Elphaba turned to see a face that she never thought she would see again "Oh..Oh my god. Yero! You're all right! Your alive!" she said hysterically while pouncing herself on top of him, kissing all over his face

Fiyero pushed her up a little bit to see her face "Of course I am Elphaba, why wouldn't I be?" He said soothing her.

"No reason" she smiled "I.. I just had a night mare, that's all. You...Were in the war, and passed away during service." She paused, starting to tear up "Oh...Oh god Fiyero, I don't know how I would ever live without you." She said putting her hand though his hair."I love you, so much"

"I love you too, Elphaba. But, if one of us were to ever pass on." Fiyero cringed not even wanting to think about a life without her. "No matter how unbearable. Our love will always live on."