Chapter 2
A/N: Ok so I really really really hated the first Chapter I wrote. While I wrote it I thought it was ok, but after I published it I just looked at it in digust tbh. However, I will continue for you aca-mazing people that reviewed! Don't think I ignored you. I will still reply to every single one of you. It would certainly help if they taught us stuff like this in school, because even though English is one of my best subjects, they don't teach you how to write storys/fanfictions. Now that would be a class I'd love to take! Instead we write Summarys and Analyses 100 times a year. Anyways, I actually like this Chapter so far...although I'll probably change my mind again after I publish it. This Chapter doesn't have that much dialogue since I discovered that I'm pretty bad at it (or writing in general).
Enjoy
Chloe's POV
It was cold when Chloe woke up. Although she swore to herself that she'd forget about Beca it dawned on her that it might be easier said than done. When she looked in the mirror, she noticed that the events of last night haven't just messed her up emotionally but apparently also left traces on her appearance.
Her hair was ruffled and frizzy, her eyes were still red, puffy and underlined by dark circles, much like you expect them to be after crying for hours and her nose was red from the many tissues she sniffed in. She looked like a complete mess.
Again Chloe asked herself how she could let her little crush on Beca escalate that much. The worst thing was the little glimmer of hope she had had. The one that was unceremoniously crushed the night before. She should have known it from the start. Why would Beca even like her back in the first place?
Damn it! She was moping. Chloe Beale was not a moper! She was the funny girl. The girl everyone loved. Well except Beca.
"Ok, this is getting out of hand!" she murmured to herself while she moved her fingers through her hair frustrated. Her thoughts shouldn't revolve around one girl 24/7! Even if she was 5 feet 1 of sheer perfection in her opinion. This couldn't be healthy.
Well maybe it wasn't a complete loss. Beca said that they could remain friends after all. Of course being around Beca as much as before won't really help getting rid of her feelings for the younger DJ, but it was either this or losing Beca completely.
She felt tears well up once again just thinking about it.
No, losing Beca was definitely not an option, but she had to keep her emotions and feelings to herself to make sure that that wouldn't happen. She also should try to carry out the resolution she made to herself: Getting over Beca Mitchell
Step 1: Make yourself look somewhat presentable and not look like the girl that got her heart broken.
Step 2: Get a new hobby.
In other words: Try to get her out of your head by distracting yourself.
Step 3: Keep your distance.
Well not exactly, because Chloe hated not being around Beca, but she could at least try not to constantly touch or stare at her. God she sounded like a creep, if she thought about it. Maybe Beca hadn't had a lot of girl friends before, but did she seriously not notice how Chloe looked at her?
Step 4: Find someone else.
Her stomach turned just thinking about it. At the moment the only way she could imagine being with someone else was to make Beca jealous (even if that would be pretty immature). Tom was a nice guy. Maybe she should call him up again.
If she followed those steps everything should be fine in a few months, right?
Little did she know that nothing went like she planned it in the next few months
Beca's POV
So this was what it felt like to break your best friend's heart. Well it felt like shit.
It's not like she intended to hurt her. Only a sick person would intentionally try to hurt someone as sweet, caring and bubbly as Chloe. God, she really hoped that they could stay friends, but she had seen enough movies (even though she hated them) to know that that never worked out.
Why did everybody have to fall in love anyway? Love just messes everything up. I mean even her parents could stay together, despite having a child to think of and how it would affect them. Love sucks.
Beca always told herself that she was merely being paranoid whenever she wondered why Chloe's gazes and touches seemed to linger on her for a bit too long. She assumed that Chlow was just naturally touchy feely, but now she was stuck in this mess.
The worst thing was that she still had one follow up Bella meeting. She had to see Chloe again, but most of all she was, although she hated to admit it, scared of Aubrey. How can you blame her though? The girl freaked about every little problem. Now that Beca had hurt her best friend, she didn't even want to imagine what Aubrey would do.
"Worst case scenario: She pukes on me" Beca chuckled to herself. She had to distract herself somehow by trying to make the situation seem funny in her head, but it was pretty hard.
Beca decided that she might as well attend the meeting because Aubrey was less likely to kill her with witnesses around. Then again it was Aubrey so who knows?
Aubrey's POV
When Aubrey came home from her daily morning workout she instantly checked on Chloe, who, to Aubrey's surprise, didn't look at all like the girl that cried herself to sleep.
"Oh- um- You look great!" Aubrey said pleasantly surprised. Not that she let herself give in to profanities like love a lot, but when she did and got hurt, she looked like hell for a week.
"I feel great. You know I was pretty tipsy last night. The alcohol totally made me overreact. Don't worry about me. It wasn't that big of a deal anyway. Just a stupid school girl like crush." Chloe lied, trying to sound as convincing as possible.
"But you've only had like two glas-"
"I said I'm fine, ok!" Chloe got up clearly annoyed and started to pace around the room."Besides, Bellas meeting starts in 30 Minutes and we always have to be there early. Let's go!"
"If you say so." Aubrey replied, but deep down she knew her friend was hurt. Beca Mitchell was going to pay.
Beca's POV
Beca was glad to see all of the Bellas again. She was. She just hoped that Aubrey could control herself and not kill her in front of them. Surprisingly when Aubrey and Chloe came in, Aubrey just glared at her as usual, but didn't do anything else.
Beca felt like she could do cartwheels and jump around in happiness. Of course she didn't know that she'd ruin the peace just a few minutes later.
"I think it's time to announce the new Bella Captain that will replace us next year." Aubrey announced proudly "I think it won't really be much of a surprise, considering how much this Bella has helped to make the group grow and improve in ways I never thought possible. We may not always have gotten along but I am proud to announce that the new Bella Captain is...Stacie! Come on and get the Pitch Pipe."
"What?!" the whole group exclaimed in shock. After a few minutes of baffled silence, Stacie spoke up hesitantly. "Guys, wow thanks. Not that I am not grateful or anything, but I think we all agree that Beca deserves that title more than any of us."
"Naah, don't worry. I don't mind. It's not like I want to be the leaders of the nerds anyway." Beca said jokingly. A part of her still feelt betrayed though. Without her they would have kept performing Aubrey's number until they inevitably lost.
The fact that Beca hadn't said anything before seemed to be the only reason Aubrey hadn't lashed out at her yet, so now she finally did.
"Look just because you try to be and sound like some funny, sarcastic badass it doesn't make you one! You are just a scared little girl that won't let anyone in and when you finally did, when somebody great falls in love with you, for god knows what reasons, you push them away. Just grow the hell up and don't try to make everything a joke!"
"It's not my fault that your best friend decided to fall in love with me, ok! She messed everything up with her feelings crap. I just wanted a friend, not a girlfriend. I can't help that I'm straight and if Chloe has a problem with that, she should talk to me, not unleash her pitbull at me." Beca instantly regretted what she said. She didn't only hurt Chloe even more, at least judging by her face, but she just blurted it out in front of everyone.
Everybody was shocked and looked down awkwardly.
"I- um- Excuse me I have to go." Chloe said while she stormed off. Beca even thought she saw a few tears escaping the older girl and now she felt even worse.
"Great job, Beca! Really! You managed to make her cry more in two days than she has in all the time I have known her. You are not the one who has to pick up the pieces and fix her after you've broken her. You know, she even wanted to stay here another year for you, because you meant so much to her, but now I guess luck is on her side, because she doesn't have to see your sorry face ever again in a few months." With those words Aubrey stormed off to too.
"Well this is even more awkward than the time they didn't let me into Disneyland, because I was dressed up as a crocodile." Fat Amy broke the silence. "Didn't know ginger played for the other team too. Guess two out of 10 acapella girls are lesbians."
Beca just stood there, looking down guilty. "Congrats on the Captain spot, Stacie. I guess I'll see you guys around."
Chloe's POV
If she was being honest with herself she had to admit that her plan was going horribly. She finally at least managed to at least look somewhat good and now she felt like a pathetic loser again. Crying alone.
She found herself a secret spot so no one could see find her and see her like this. She had discovered it in her first year at Barden. It was a little alley between two sorority houses that could only be reached if you climbed over the rooftops. Not even Abrey knew about it. Whenever Chloe wanted to be alone to think she came here. She didn't know that a certain brunette also had discovered the little spot a few weeks ago, so she was startled when she heard someone climb down.
Of course. Of course no one came down here in years and of all the people to find her it had to be Beca. Chloe silently cursed her luck. When the DJ finally arrived she seemed just as surprised as Chloe that someone discovered her hiding spot.
"Chlo?" hearing Beca using that nickname stung Chlow for some reason "What are you doing here I thought I was-"
"-the only one who knew this place." Chloe finished her sentence. "Well I guess not. I kind of came here to avoid you though."
"Come on, Chlo. How old are we? Five? You know we'll have to talk about this eventually. You're my best friend. I hate seeing you suffer. I want the sweet, bubbly girl I knew back."
"It's not that easy. I can't just flip a switch and go back to the way we were."
"We could try though, right" Beca replied with a hopeful smile.
Chloe already hated herself for what she was about to say. She knew that a few hours ago she didn't want it to be like this but she had to say it. "I don't know. Maybe it's better if we don't see eachother for a while. I could try to get over this...thing, or whatever it is, I have for you."
"Oh ok. If that's what you want. I'll miss you though. A lot. I know it's selfish, but that doesn't make it any less true."
"Stop."
"What?"
"If you say things like that I'll just start to get my hopes up. I know you don't do on purpose, but I just don't want it to happen again. It also makes it even harder for me to spend time apart from you." Chloe replied sadly.
"Oh ok...I'll just go now. I don't know when you'll be ready to talk again or even see me so would it be ok if I hugged you?"
"Sure"
Beca pulled Chloe into an awkward hug. Well at first it was awkward, but soon they both relaxed and Beca buried her head into Chloe's hair. To be honest she was never the one eager for physical contact, but she couldn't get enough of Chloe.
She didn't want to let go.
A/N: So I hope this Chapter is at least slightly better than the first one. Your reviews are really the only thing that keep me going with this story, because I get so self conscious about my writing. So keep the reviews coming :) They really mean a lot to me and I will reply to them sooner this time. Seriously I have a goofy grin on my face all day when I get a notification of a new review! I wouldn't be mad if some of you volunteered as Beta readers by the way ;D
I am thinking about making Beca date Jesse, but I am not sure if I can put myself through this. First of all, Chloe has cried and suffered enough and second of all I seriously cringe just reading summary's of Jeca fanfictions! A friend jokingly put on a Jeca fanvideo on youtube and I jumped away in horror to cover myself with the next blanket I found and hummed titanium to calm myself... They are one of my NOTP's just no, but if you want some more angst just tell me what you think ;) I do realise that I wrote them extremely OCC ugh. Maybe that will get better once we get to the fluff parts later on
