I walked into the class room with roxas. Olette gave me simpatheic eyes i looked at her as if nothing happened she sat over next to me
"Ayame, listen you cant keep doing that to yourself"
i kept my eyes to the floor
"Olette just let me do things on my own i dont need your simpathy"
I wished i hadn't said that after she got up and sat at her seat i stared at the floor for a while befor the teacher called me name
"ayamee...ayame AYAME FURAKI!!!"
i jerked up "wha?"
"i said why dont you stop stareing at riku and start paying attention!"
i blinked confused 'stareing at riku?' I looked at were i was stareing bfor riku gave me a reasureing smile 'i dont like riku i like th hot blond- i mean roxas!!...i mean no!!' i sighed shakeing my head of the thought then felt something on my leg. I hadnt realized that xemnas was sitting next to me and demyx on the other side
"sorry about yesturday princess" Xemnas said rubbing my leg "i just couldnt let you get away with that"
i raised my hand "teacher, can i sit next to roxas or someone?" my sleeve slide down a bit i realized it then put it back down
"yes mrs. Furaki"
i got my stuff the slide into the seat next to Roxas and Hayner
"what was that?" Hayner asked
"Xemnas is a pervert" i mumbled then looked at Roxas who glared at Xemnas then turnt back to the head of the class. After an hour of questionsing and answering questions i raised my hand
"Can i go to the bathroom?" i asked softly and quiet
the teacher nodded i went into the bathroom and went into the same stall as befor. I rolled down my sleeve and looked at everything i had done yesturday i touchd each cut softly some hurt and some didnt i looked at my other arm it was the same. I got out a razor and did it again
'maybe olettes right...i should stop but-'
Something inturupted my thoughts it was the bell thankful i brang my stufff with me were ever i'd go i put the razor bakc in my back pack and left the bathroom roxas, sora and olette waited out there for me
"hi guys" i said softly they all smiled except for olette she knew what i had been doing so she gave a fake one like roxas had did the night befor
Sure it hadent been officail, that i was there friends nothing made it seem that way sora barely talked to me olette never gave me any helpful tips and roxas was my dorm-mate. I thought about ' Olette did help my cuts and was worried when she found out sora almost fought a battle for and and roxas stuck up for me and cheered me up..' i guess you could say they were my friends they all were talking when i had spaced out about thinking if they were my friends.
"hey..ayame!" sora said waveing his hand in frount of my face
"oh sorry sora"
he smiled at me "well i was just gonna tell you its your stop"
i smiled back at him "thanks"
roxas turned to me as olette and sora walked off "i'll be right back i hafta get soemthing from riku he borrwoed my math book so i'll see you in 5 minutes ok?"
i smiled at him "yea ok" he smiled then walked off. I went into the class room and was pushed against the wall
"hey princess how are you?" Demyx again
"get offa me" i said struggleing
he put my arms above my head and kissed my cheek "now why would i do that my pretty?"
he put his hands on my lower arms were the more healed cuts were so it didnt hurt my my sleeves went down that far. xemnas and him both noticed the cuts
"Hey! Demyx shes a cutter" Xemnas said almost laughing
Demyx stopped kissing my cheek and looked up
"oh i see" he touched one of the newer cuts and i winced
"and that ones fresh" he rubbed it a bit
"Stop it!" i growled at him
"dont worry i like the bad girls"
Roxas came in along with the teacher and the rest of the class demyx let go of me and went over to his seat i fell to the ground holding my arm. Now i know you guys dont get it she cutted herself (lol yes sometimes its changes point of veiws) so why dose it hurt as bad? she'd only been doing this scince she was 12 and now shes 17 its been a while well some dont 'heal' as good as other you could say.
roxas looked at me then at demyx and glared at him then helped me to my seat
"did he do anything to you?" roxas asked and i notice his hand rested on my sholder
"he just kissed my cheek" i said as roxas glared at Demyx
After class it didnt hurt so much i grabbed my stuff and headed for the door Xemnas put his arm in the way
"ayame my princess arent you gonna tell pretty boy here what you do to those beautiful wrists of yours" demyx said next to Xemnas
roxas looked at me conserned not sure of it was true, i glared at xemnas "move." i said sharply
"arent you gonna tell him how you express your pain in the worst way possible?" he asked again
"ayame what is he talking about?" roxas asked looked at me directly
"nothing now move demyx" i said again
"ok ok chill what ever you say ,Cutter" xemnas moved his arm and i ran out of the room heading back to me dorm it was 3 hours of study hall after all so it was ok to do so.
"wait wait ,aya, dont go so fast what is he saying?" roxas said trying to catch up to me i ran faster and ran into the dorm and tried shutting the door but roxas bursted through and all of our stuff dropped, He grabbed my by the sholders softly and sat me done on his bed
"now...aya what the hell is demyx and xemnas talking about?"
i studdered out two words of nothing befor he kissed me gently i was shocked at first but slightly gave back and he kissed a little harder (nothing M rated people so dont get your hopes up) and forced me backwards he got on top of me and kissed me a bit more harder putting my arms over my head like demyx did i flinched a bit he licked my bottom lip and i let him in not noticeing that he was doing soemthing else in the process. He kissed from my jaw line into the crook of my neak then pulled away looking at my wrists. thats when i noticed he pulled my sleeves down his eyes went wide then lowered to me
"why.." was all he said
i looked to the wall not answering he didnt move
"are you gonna tell me?" he asked
nothing i kept my eyes to the wall going over everythign that just happened, he sighed and got off of me softly
"ayame-" i interupted him "look if thats how your going to get things out of me by toying with my feelings than im not saying anything" i got up then laid on my bed a couple tears leaking out of my eyes. After that it was silent for what seemed like an hour but was only a matter of minutes. I felt the bedding form behind my sink a little and a trembling hand fall on my sholder
"Aya, im sorry I-" i turned and looked at him a couple tears falling again "i'll stop ok?" my voice sounded weak, i might have thought again on that. he made me sit up again "can i see your wrists one more time aya?" i had grown found of the nick name after two days do it didnt bother me. i slowly shook my head though ashamed of it. He kissed my softly again like he did befor then kissed a little harder forceing me back into the same position as last time. Him on top of me, my arms over my head and he slid my sleeves down again then broke the kiss. he looked at the cuts and slid my sleeves down a bit more he held both of my arms softly with one hand and traced a few cuts with his hand. I looked up at him, he looked disapointed or sad. I thought of why we got into the position and told myself i couldnt like him over and over again. he touched one of the fresher cuts and I jerked a bit he looked at me and kissed me again but i turnt my head eyes narrowing at the wall a bit he just watched me.
"is it because of your past?" he asked
"how do you know about that.."
"because olette looked into it...i heard after your mothr died your father blamed and abused you saying it was your fault she died.."
tears came to my eyes again "thats not even half of it" i mumbled more to myself but he heard it anyways
"can you tell me?" he asked softly getting off of me again
"its lunch we better go" i said grabbing my stuff and completely ignoreing the question
"right" we both left the room and headed for the cafe
im am very pleased about this story so far i liked writeing it so i hope you guys like it