Shattered Dreams

Chapter 1: Secrets

Last Time

There I could be nice. Sugino stared at me. I knew in that instant what he was thinking. I mean what would you say if you saw my pitiful expression. The soft red eyes so filled with pain in exhaustion my white bangs fallen over the side of my face in a way that made the sadness in my eyes seem to magnify.

"Kantarou… then my senses were correct you really are turning into a demon!"

Now

I couldn't keep the grief stricken look from my face. Then it was true I really was turning into a demon. My suspicions about what had been happening to my body ever since Suzu died were correct. The pointy ears, the violent mood swings, the sudden lusts and the cravings for blood and raw meat. Sugino must have felt sorry for me because he touched my shoulder gently and sighed, maybe this was hurting him as bad as it was hurting me. Yea right.

"Sugino-sama … I beg of you please do not tell Haruka about this?"

Sugino sighed and nodded.

"So it's true then…"

I couldn't keep the disappointment out of my voice. A demon!? The hell was I supposed to handle that!? As if I didn't already have enough shit to handle. Uh oh…mood swing.

"Kantarou look out its Haruka!"

I nearly broke my neck looking over my shoulder. He was right flying at us fast was Haruka, I wasn't ready to see him yet and definitely didn't need him finding out I was a demon.

"Sugino grab me!"

He stared at me funny then as if he understood grabbed my shirt just as Haruka was about to pull up on us I whispered:

"Just let go"

Sugino released and as he did so did I. I took a sky dive towards the ground. I felt peaceful as I fell, spiraling towards the ground my braid fell loose and whipped infront of my face. Haruka had followed me he was screaming something but I couldn't hear him. He reached out to me and was an inch away from grabbing my shirt but it wasn't a loose shirt it was a muscle shirt I almost cursed mentally but didn't. Then I was crying I could see the tears flying up in shining rivulets of diamond like spheres only to have there journey cut short by Haruka's face.

"Muu!"

The little green creature was suddenly under me a huge green sphere engulfed my body my eyes widen.

"When was I going to learn about this!?"

I yelled my mood swing trauma resurfacing. Sitting up in the sphere I turned to Muu sitting next to me. She tilted her head and smiled with another incoherent gurgle I once again had my Muu hat.

"Everyone's just full of surprises"

I smiled gently and replaced Muu in my arms instead of on my head. Haruka had been forced to spiral to the side and glide over the ground to regain his footing. He walked over to us smoothing out his suit. I merely stared at him. His hand reached out and the tips of his fingers grazed my cheek before I was suddenly in a tree. Even I was surprised at the sudden re-location. Haruka's hand fell to his side,

"Kantarou, when will you come home"

He whispered as he floated to the branch I had appeared in Muu was growling cutely and swinging her tiny fists as if to say she would protect me. Keh…she's a little late. I stared at Haruka with bland red eyes.

"I'll come back now…if it bothers you this much that I am gone"

I said and even I was a little shocked at the cool calmness in my voice. Muu had to look up at me to make sure she was still in my arms and not some scary demons. I shivered slightly; I was a scary demon now. Just that self realization came to fast for me I collapsed and Haruka's strong warm arms cradled my sickly cold form.

"K-Kantarou, god what have you been doing to yourself!?"

He sounded worried but I couldn't tell through the thick haze I was falling into. But all I could feel was the stiff rigidness of anger. He was mad at me? Was it because I hadn't eaten a damn thing in one whole week? Maybe because I was so pale, there were bags under my eyes and I looked extraordinarily scrawny. I sighed and fell into the deep hazy darkness of the first sleep I had had in a week.

(Border)

When I awoke I was back on my bed. Oh did I forget to mention Suzu left Haruka her entire inheritance? I thought it was just super how her parents and sister all miraculously were murdered. Sad but it's the truth I was grateful the gods had killed them, we really needed the money. Plus there father owed me for the countless exorcisms I had preformed without being paid. I turned my head so my cheek was resting in the silky fall of my white hair. Haruka was asleep in a chair across from the bed in a corner. How long had he been there watching me? I turned as I heard the door open.

"Kan-chan! You're awake!"

I was assaulted by Yoko. I smiled gently and hugged the little fox girl. But it was as chaste hug because as soon as I touched her blood and flesh flashed into my mind and I turned over the bed and threw up. Yoko's eyes widen she ran from the room and came back with warm water and a cloth. Haruka had moved to hold my hair back from my face. Muu whom I hadn't realized was curled up in a little ball fast asleep was now holding a lock of my hair trying to help Haruka sooth me. I sat up and wiped my mouth I was shivering Yoko came and properly smothered my face in the warm wet darkness of the cloth before going onto the floor to clean up the bile I had thrown up. Hell what else could I be I hadn't eaten in a apparently eight days now.

I got up from the bed and stumbled out of the room Muu jumped onto my back and Haruka following me from a distance. I was starting to get a migraine right behind my left eye and it was a steadily pulsing. God why couldn't they just leave me the hell ALONE! As my mind seemed to scream that a shock wave sliced out of my body and threw both of them into the next wall nearly smashing the wall down, but it had been left with minor cracks. Haruka had caught Muu so he was fine but Haruka had a thin trickle of blood coming from his forehead. He was staring at me eyes wide.

I lost it I was suddenly over him my body pressed into his he had moved Muu so the poor unconscious green thing wouldn't be crushed. I fitted my body between his legs and trailed my tongue over the blood on his forehead moving the thick black tendrils away my lips explored the scratch fangs that I didn't k now I had grazed the wound opening it more. The blood was hot and filled with a sweet metallic bitterness that made my throat tight and hot. I was crying and I didn't know why, half of me was crying because I was becoming a monster (not that demons are monsters it's just this is sick!) and the other part of me which was stronger crushed that side and was all about the joys of flesh and blood between my teeth.

Haruka was moving his lips but I couldn't hear him. I was to enraptured by the metallic bitterness washing down my throat and tiny scalding waves. I groaned it wasn't enough he'd have to bleed more. That thought stopped me. God what was I doing!? I threw myself back from him his blood on my lips I was panting. Sugino flashed into my mind. I needed his expertise and he was the only one who knew what I was becoming. I got up and ran.

"Kantarou!"