(A.N:/ So, the last chapter was the one that I had already published. This is the new one. I'll try to update this soon but I have two other fics to do too...But enough about that. Anyway, here's chapter two. Hope you enjoy!)
When Nick arrived back to their dorm after going to Mindy's he didn't even bother trying to speak to Jeff. Ask him why he said those things, or even if he was going to apologize. He said nothing.
That was two weeks ago.
Jeff found himself in the bathroom connected to his dorm, with an exacto-knife he took from the art room, up against his arm. Before he pressed down he examined his arm, sighing a little. A large portion of his arm had cuts on them, ranging from almost completely gone and thin, to fresh and long. His arm looked as if he had been cutting himself for a few months now even though it had only been two weeks since he had started. Jeff found himself in a bathroom with a blade against his arm at least three times a day now. This was his second today.
Jeff put pressure on the knife and quickly sliced through his skin. He found it to be easier if he did it quickly instead of slow like he used to. Jeff repeated the process a few times before pausing for a moment to watch his newly formed cuts start to bubble crimson. A few of them, the ones with the larger bubbles, streaked down his arm and landed in drops on the tiled floor. Jeff quickly rubbed the bottom of his sock over the drops to clean them up. Jeff, deciding he wasn't quite finished, took the knife once more and cut down, a little deeper than usual but not enough that he would need medical help. He watched as the line quickly turned red, then began to bubble right before it dripped down his arm.
He sat there, frozen as reality melted away, as he watched the steady flow of red slowly but surly grow weaker and weaker until the blood dried on his arm. When he had finally realized he had been zoned out watching himself bleed twenty minutes had passed and he knew he needed to get out and meet Kurt in the cafeteria who had now probably been waiting five minutes for the blond to arrive.
Jeff quickly ran his arm under the sink, grabbing the washcloth he used for his shower to wipe away the dry blood. He went over to the medicine cabinet and pulled out a large bottle of peroxide. Jeff flinched and squirmed a little as the peroxide touched his skin, making it slightly burn. Jeff then grabbed a large hoodie and put it on, wincing a little when the fabric rubbed his cuts. Jeff rolled up the sleeve and put two large medical bandages on his fresh cuts. Jeff took a moment to be grateful that he had these supplies in his bathroom. When he and Nick were talking they used to pull pranks on others which usually resulted in one of them, almost always Jeff, getting hurt.
Once Jeff decided he was ready he grabbed the stained red cloth and placed it in his dirty laundry basket, under a few shirts and underwear. Jeff opened the bathroom door and stepped out only to see Mindy sitting on Nick's bed, half naked, and alone.
Mindy smirked when she saw Jeff walking out of the bathroom. "You were in there a long time. You weren't touching yourself while thinking about my Nicky, were you?"
Jeff huffed. "Go fuck yourself you fucking whore." He said, grabbing his bag and heading towards the door.
"I don't need to. That's why I have Nicky."
Jeff gridded his teeth together. Even though he and Nick were currently fighting that didn't mean that Jeff didn't still care about him and the way that Mindy was talking was really starting to piss Jeff off. "You're acting like you're only dating him for his dick." Jeff said, mentally cursing himself for even saying anything at all.
Mindy huffed. "Because I am. He's not good for anything else an-"
"Are you fucking serious!" Jeff growled, completely losing all ability to control his rage. "How dare you say something like that! How dare you use my best friend you fucking bitch! I don't even understand why he likes you! You're just a useless, manipulative twat who's only future is being a prostitute. Oh wait no, I'm sorry, that would mean someone would have to pay to have sex with you and don't the other way around." Jeff hissed, completely unaware that Nick was behind him.
It wasn't until Jeff was on the ground, nose bleeding, that he even realized that he wasn't alone with Mindy. "How dare you say that Jeff!" Nick yelled, shaking the hand he used to punch Jeff. "Do you really think it's okay to treat someone like that? No! It isn't! I'm not going to let you treat the girl I love…" Nick continued to yell at Jeff but every word became fuzzy and unintelligible for Jeff as he heard the word 'love'
Love…He loves her…He loves her and not me…He loves her and hates me… Jeff thought as he started to suddenly feel dizzy. He felt like his stomach was attempting an acrobatic stunt and he couldn't handle it. He felt like he was going to throw up and actually die all at the same time. He felt like all his organs were shutting down and he was going into heart failure. But Jeff knew that none of that was happening. It was just his heart being stomped on repeatedly as Nick continued to yell and hate him.
Nick was still yelling, hovering over Jeff, when Jeff couldn't take it any longer. He stood up as quickly as he could, earning himself a sudden rush of dizziness, before storming out of the room. He knew his nose was bleeding but he didn't care. He didn't even bother putting his hand over it to try to cover it up. He didn't even care when the other students in the hallway looked at Jeff in either disgust from his bloody face, or concern. He didn't even care that Kurt had been waiting for him for probably fifteen minutes now. He didn't even care if he died right then and there. He just didn't care.
Jeff ran into the women's bathroom again, thankful he always carried a spare exact o-knife and supplies for cleaning up in his bag, and pulled it out the second he got in a stall. He pushed up his sleeve and began cutting, deeper than usual but still not bad enough for stitches. Jeff knew better than to do that because then the doctor or nurse would notice the many lines on his arm. He knew he couldn't go too deep but if he did, he didn't care. The worst that could happen would be him dying and in that moment, it felt like it would be the best. Jeff watched as the crimson dripped down his arm, careful not to get any on his clothes.
A few minutes later Jeff began feeling guilty for making Kurt wait and quickly cleaned himself up, including his nose which was still bleeding lightly, and practically ran to the cafeteria, thankful that Kurt had decided to wait.
"You're late." Kurt said, not looking up from the book he was reading.
"I know sorry." Jeff said, sheepishly as he sat down across from Kurt.
"You're bleeding." Kurt said, finally bringing his gaze to meet the blond's face.
Jeff's eyes widened and he immediately put his hand on his arm, but quickly realized Kurt was talking about his face. When he had cleaned the dry blood off his face his nose was still bleeding, it must have dripped down some when he was running. "Oh uh-yeah."
"What happened?" Kurt asked, concerned.
"I…It's nothing really. I just got punched…" Jeff said, awkwardly trying to avoid Kurt's gaze.
"What? By who!" Kurt asked, completely taken back. Jeff was the kind of person who everyone liked. He was friendly, kind, funny, helpful, and always had a big smile on his face. Everyone liked Jeff, so why would someone try to hurt the bubbly blond?
"Kurt, seriously, it's no big deal…"
"Stop avoiding the question." Kurt said, sternly.
"I-uh…Nick did, alright? His girlfriend was being a bitch and told me she's only dating him for the sex and Nick walked in when I was telling her off and well, hit me. Hard too." Jeff explained.
Kurt gasped a little. "What? Mindy? I…Of course she would. I met her once for like two minutes and she kept glaring at me."
"Because she's homophobic." Jeff explained.
"Wait, so does she have something to do with how you and Nick haven't been speaking?"
Jeff nodded, a little thankful that no one else was around and that he was speaking to Kurt. Aside from Nick, Kurt was Jeff's closest friend. Kurt was also the only other person aside from Nick to know that Jeff was gay. Jeff had confided in Kurt last week about his sexuality. Though he knew the rest of the Warblers would welcome him in open arms, Jeff was still terrified to say anything. Jeff sighed deeply. "Yeah. I uh-oh God, this is going to sound so awkward but I walked in on them having sex and I ran out of course. Then I came back when Nick texted me that they were leaving but of course they were still there. Nick was in the shower and that bitch kept talking to me, calling me a…" Jeff paused a moment, looking around to make sure no one aside from Kurt would hear the next word he said. "fag, and at first I was going to just ignore her but she kept going and it just…It just really pissed me off and Nick came out of the shower in the middle of me telling her off."
Kurt nodded and gave Jeff a sympathetic look. "You know, my roommate moved out last week. I'd be happy to let you stay with me until this whole thing blows over."
Jeff finally looked up at Kurt and smiled weakly. "Thanks Kurt. I really appreciate it."
Kurt nodded. "Anytime. Besides, I can give you a whole new wardrobe while we stay together."
Jeff chuckled a little. One of his favourite things about Kurt was the boy's ability to make any situation, no matter how sad or serious, into one about fashion. "There's nothing wrong with my clothes!"
Kurt looked him up and down and Jeff suddenly felt incredibly self-conscious. "Uh Jeff, you're wearing sweats and a hoodie…sweat pants that have a giant mustard stain on the crotch."
Jeff frowned a little. "I dropped my hotdog, okay! It happens!"
Kurt rolled his eyes. "Whatever. Just tell me when you want to move, I'll help you pack."
(A.N:/ I don't know why but for some reason this story is like super easy for me to write…Like I just busted out 1800+ words in like 30 minutes! That never happens! Ha, I'm a slow writer -_- Anyway, hope you enjoyed! Again, if you want me to continue, just tell me. I kinda want to but I'm not sure if anyone will actually read it haha. Thanks for reading!) \o/