"Nick, please talk to me." He heard Jess pleading from behind the door. "Please Nick Nack" she said sweetly and a small smile tugged at his mouth. He cautiously walked over to the door. "I'm okay Jess" "No, you're not. You're my best friend Nick, i know everything about you and you're obviously not okay." "Not everything, Jess.

You don't know that I never stopped loving you. You don't know that all I want to do right now is pull you in here and kiss you senseless. Infact that's all I can think about whenever I'm around you. You don't know this, because you're inlove with another man. Nick laughed sadly at his thoughts.

"What does that mean, Nick? what don't I know?"

His heart was racing. The wind was knocked clean out of his body. He couldn't spend another minute talking to her because he knew he was about to breakdown and didn't want to subject Jess to that on her happy day. Love isn't just about the emotions you're feeling; it's about what this person means to you. And Jess meant everything to him. He could hide his heartache for the rest of the night, so Jess could have a happy one. When you realise the one you love is completely inlove with someone else and all traces of hope are extinguished, you see that the life you thought you'd have is impossible.

It didn't matter that he wanted to be a long haul trucker now because he wouldn't even have her as a wife, to come home to , be it in Mars or Portland, she had just disappeared from the picture entirely. He was going to be a lonely truck driver on Mars, pining over an earth girl for the rest of his life.

He washes his face and opens the door only to ssee Jess sitting on the floor against the wall waiting for him. He felt his heart strings being cut with surgical precision. He helped her up and she walked into the bathroom and tugged on his hand then closed the door.

"hey J-Day" he said a bit too forced and happily. "Stop it Nick. What's goin on? You've been weird around me for so long! and don't think I haven't noticed because I have! Youve been out all night, drinking all day, too tired to watch tv. I miss you, Nick!! " She shook his arms.

He felt a piece of him die inside because nomatter how great those words sounded, they would never mean what he wanted them to mean. He couldn't pinpoint exactly which part of him had died but he was almost sure it was his heart. There's always a hope in never knowing if she still loved him or not, and there was a chance in holding on. But knowing she was excited to marry sam squandered all that hope. And that's what truly broke his heart, because when she left, hope was all he had and he planned his happiness on someday, but all that had been taken aeay from him now.

Nick remembered how he had changed since that dreadful day. He had just been going through life, drifting without any purpose for the longest time, trying to get back to her. The world was somehow less bright without Jess in his life and he could only imagine how bright Dr. Sweeny's world was right now. He stolled pursuing a life he always dreamed of because without Jess nothing mattered. His life had changed and so had he. He onky defined himself in two ways. Before Jess, and after Jess. That was all there was for him.

He gulped down the lump in his throat and felt the burning picking in his eyes. Then he felt her cool smalk hands on his face. "Why wont you look at me, Nick?". Her voice was so small and coated with so much pain. He looked down at her and felt a single tear run down his cheek. She quickly wiped it away.

God I could just take one more step and kiss her. She's one step away. She's staring at me with those beautiful blue eyes and all i want to do is kiss her. This is so unfair.

What's wrong, she asked, her voice even more gentle than before. He looked away again and said so quietly he thought she couldn't hear, but she did. "Everything".

"Shouldn't you be getting back to your fiancee? " He said, sounding so defeated. She gasped. "Nick...is that what this is all about. " Then she laughed. He felt crushed and humliated. She stood there laughing at him. Just then Sam walked in and kissed Jess on the cheek and Nick finally lost it.

"YES OKAY. Yes Jess. This is what all this is about. I knew you were going to move on some day Jess. Eventually. I had prepared myself for it. You're amazing, who wouldn't want to date you??. That doesn't change thr fact that it caught me off guard to see you with him again! That hurt so much, Jess. As if you werr trying wipe your mind clean of everything we had, and the one thing that had meant Everything to me. Us. I understand what was happening when you started dating him again, but I couldnt watch it Jess. Thats why I've been sleeping at the bar for the past few days and drinking myself in a mess."

Nick paused as everyone else in the house ran to the bathroom hearing the comotion. Jess took a step closer to him and called out his name but stopped ehen he flinched and took a step back.

No, Jess! It was supposed to be me! I wanted to be with you since the moment i saw you. I wanted to start a family with you! I wanted...I was ready...I was just scared Jess and I pushed you away. I was ready to be the man you wanted. I'm just coming apart here Jess and I cant take this anymore. Watching the woman I love, falling inlove with someone else is killing me, Jessica!

Nick's eyes dropped to the floor. He clutched his chest in his hand. In a broken, defeated voice, breaking on every word as he tried not to cry, he said slowly, never looking up at any of them."You were supposed to love me for ever. Not him. It was supposed to be me."

Jess stood speechless, her heart breaking at Nick's pain apparent in every word and every movement he made. Sam lunged forward and punched Nick as ran out if the lofr realising the mess he had just made and the scene he caused.

Nick ran out of loft, holding his jaw in his hand. Sam looked down at Jess. "Is this a bad time to propose?" And she wanted to laugh, she really did, but her mind could only focus on Nick. The woman I love. Thats what he said right?

Jess heard Sam calling her name and she looked at him. It didnt even take her 5 minutes to decide. Sam held the ring box open in his hand and Cece smiled, knowing Jess was goinf to make the right decision. Everybody groaned as they couldn't believe what they were seeing. Jess stepped closer to Sam and hugged him and kissed him on the cheek. He was the smart, safe choice.