Not Enough
Chapter 1 – First Day Back
It was still absolute bliss to lie still in Edward's arms like this, even though neither of us had need of sleep. From the window in our bedroom we could see the sun rising in the east.
It wouldn't last long. The usual cloud coverage of rainy old Forks was quickly moving to hide this small town from the suns rays. That was good; it would mean we could go to school today. Surprisingly, I was actually looking forward to it. I wouldn't have expected that.
I was back in my junior year in Forks high. It had been nearly twenty years since I had graduated from here, back before I became a vampire. I found it somewhat comforting to be back here. I didn't expect that either.
"What are you thinking?" Edward asked suddenly, stirring me from my thoughts.
I sighed; he really never got tired of asking me that. "Just how strange it was to be back here after so long," I answered truthfully.
"It's been a while, hasn't it?" he mused, obviously thinking of that time when he first met me. He chuckled then.
"What?" I asked, curious.
"Renesmee's getting impatient," Edward said, turning his face to look at me with a questioning expression. "Shall we?"
I sighed again, reluctant. "Yes, I suppose we should". I faced him as well then and lifted myself slightly to press my lips to his. "At least we still have tonight, right?"
Edward chuckled again. "Yes, we do," he paused, "though we should probably take advantage of the sunny weather tomorrow to hunt. You and Renesmee especially". He shook his head exasperated. "Just because you have the best control of any of us besides Carlisle, doesn't mean you should push how long you go without hunting, you know".
"I know," I responded easily, "I just like to see what I'm capable of".
He shook his head, not happy with my answer. "We all know what you're capable of, Bella," he said gently, my favourite crooked smile on his face.
I smiled back and kissed him again. An annoyed growl sounded out side the door. I shot a questioning look at Edward, whose eyes were slightly unfocussed, listening to whatever thoughts were in said annoyed person's mind.
I hissed under my breath when he didn't answer immediately. "Well?" I asked at last.
"Alice," he said. Something about his tone told me this was not something I was going to enjoy. "She wants us to hurry up so she can get you dressed for school".
"Ugh," I complained, "why do I always have to be Guinea Pig Barbie? You would have thought getting to dress Renesmee all the time would be enough for her".
"She never puts up a fight, so why should you?" Alice asked innocently as she invited herself into our room. "Besides, it's you that really needs the help, what with your fashion sense. So come on, get out Edward and let me get to work".
I groaned again at her exuberance and I saw Edward shoot a warning glance at Alice as he left.
"Alice, is this really necessary?" I asked, pointlessly. There was never any point arguing with Alice, she always got what she wanted.
"Yes, it's really necessary," a shocked look on her face, she continued, "It's your first day as a junior; you need to set an example".
"An example of what exactly, Alice," I asked, already knowing she wouldn't answer. She rolled her eyes, but said nothing further.
It honestly wasn't so bad. I ended up with a dark blue blouse, Edward's favourite colour on me, and a knee length skirt in a slightly lighter shade. I had to hand to hand it to Alice, she really did know a lot about clothes.
Edward was waiting for me in the front room in the main house and I crossed straight to him and sat own in his lap. I barely noticed Emmett and Rosalie sat on the other couch.
He inclined his head to press his lips lightly to the top of my head. "You look gorgeous," he whispered, his breath caressing my face as he spoke.
"I love you," I replied.
"As I do you," he answered.
A deep chuckle distracted me, though I had no need to look up to know who had made the noise. "Go wrestle a bear, Emmett," I muttered.
"Testy, testy," he teased. There was a sharp smack and some muffled curses. "Oww," Emmett shouted, "Hey, what was that for?"
"You know what," Rosalie spat back.
Emmett grumbled once more then fell silent. Edward smirked, looking slightly smug at his brother.
Alice arrived then, towing an eager Renesmee behind her, with Jasper following slightly after. I gaped in amazement at how perfect my daughter looked. She was going to make a lot of boys envious that was for sure.
"You look amazing," Edward said, echoing my silent sentiments. I could only nod in agreement. Renesmee looked pleased; she cocked her head to the side and focused on him.
From the corner of my eye, I saw him roll his eyes. "Yes, Jacob will be here soon," Edward answered an unspoken thought. I could understand why Emmett found this so annoying.
Only a moment later the door opened and in came Jacob, fully clothed much to my surprise. Usually he didn't bother carrying around all his clothes when he phased. Then I realised that he hadn't phased at all, he had driven his new car here. Hmm, I wonder why I hadn't heard that.
"Hey there, Bells," he greeted, coming to stand by Renesmee's shoulder. "Wonderful," he commented as he took in her appearance.
Renesmee laughed; a pealing bell sound. "You can thank Alice for the dress," she said.
"Thanks, Alice," Jacob obliged playfully. Then he turned to a slightly more serious matter. "I came to ask if it would be alright for me to take Nessie to school".
I felt Edward shrug around me. "It's not really my decision, Jacob. If Ness - Renesmee wants to go, it's up to her".
Of course, Renesmee was delighted, so there would be no problem with that decision. I tried not to notice Edward's slip with our daughter's name; I still refused to call her 'Nessie'.
"Come on, come on," Alice said suddenly, "we don't want to be late for school".
"Like, we'd be late," Emmett gloated, receiving another smack from Rosalie, "Oww, quit that woman".
"What did you call me?" Rosalie hissed. Emmett looked suddenly nervous and made a quick exit out the front door with Rosalie close on his heels.
Jacob chuckled and Alice shot him an irritated glare, before turning on the rest of us. "Hurry up," she growled threateningly. We knew better than to push her.
Edward lifted me up and set me on my feet before taking hold of my hand and pulling me gently toward the door. Me, Edward, Alice and Jasper all got into Edward's Volvo, while Jacob and Renesmee got into Jacob's new, and somewhat improved, black Rabbit.
Rosalie and Emmett were already pulling out of the winding drive in Emmett's jeep. This was definitely going to be interesting.
Edward and I shared all the same lessons, so at least I had some company seeing as no humans would willingly choose to sit by any of us, except Renesmee. I never fully understood that, maybe it was because she was half human. Or maybe it was because people were always immediately taken with her.
We had trig just before lunch. I did not find this lesson particularly interesting and decided to try something. I carefully focussed on my book in front me and concentrated on pushing my shield away from me.
I had only done this on rare occasions, so it took some work, but finally I managed it. Where are we hunting tomorrow? I asked Edward, pleased to see him jump in his seat. Not an easy thing to make Edward jump.
He turned to look at me incredulously. I shrugged, waiting for his answer. "Not far," he murmured, too low for any mortal to hear.
I frowned. What are we hunting? I persisted, determined to get more of an answer.
Edward smirked, catching the annoyance in my thoughts. "Whatever we can find," he said, adding wryly, "we only have tomorrow, remember?"
I huffed, I did remember. "We could always skip school," I suggested.
His smile widened. "And set a bad example for our daughter?" he questioned. I wondered briefly if he enjoyed toying with me like this.
"Humph," I grunted, unamused by his sense of humour.
Alice met us in the hall after class and walked with us to the cafeteria. We gathered trays of food that wouldn't be eaten and went to our table, not speaking. The others met us there, except Renesmee and Jacob who sat at a table by themselves.
"So, did you have fun in Trig?" Alice asked casually.
I looked at her suspiciously, wondering why she would ask me this. Had she seen something in one of her visions? I didn't know what she would have seen, as far as I know nothing terribly exciting could possibly have happened.
"No," I answered carefully, watching her for any king of reaction.
She smiled innocently at my expression. Frowning again, I turned to look at Edward to ask what she was thinking, only to see the same innocent expression on his face. I growled under my breath.
"Nothing bad, honest," Alice placated me.
I could see there was no point in pressing for details so I let it be. "How was Renesmee's first day?" I asked instead.
Edward winced slightly and I was suddenly concerned. "She's attracted nearly as much attention as you did on your first day here," he said slowly, before suddenly smiling, "I think Jacob may have some competition".
I winced slightly as well. That was all they needed. Still Edward and Alice didn't seem worried about it so I guessed there was no trouble ahead for now.
Jacob met my gaze then, over the top of the sea of heads, and winked. I smiled back and wondered again if he should be pretending to be a junior when he looked more like a teacher. Oh well, no one seemed to question it at least.
Alice stiffened then, a look of panic flashed on her features briefly. "Hold your breath," she hissed to us quickly.
Automatically, I stopped breathing, though not before I caught the scent of fresh blood. The flames ripped down my throat, made worse because I hadn't hunted in so long and the thirst had been bothering me already. I groaned softly.
Edward squeezed my shoulder, not as a warning, but in sympathy and I heard his barely audible 'I told you so'. We glanced at the same time to Renesmee. She met our gaze, but didn't react in any way to the blood, though I knew she could smell it.
Her restraint was as good as Carlisle's so that even spilt blood did not concern her. Even though I had managed to pass over the newborn stage because of my control, when I was this thirsty even I did not know how I would react.
We watched as a girl hurriedly left the room, a tissue clamped over her nose. Nosebleed. Normally, that wouldn't be much of a problem for a mortal. It was only now, when there were so many vampires around, that it could be potentially life threatening.
I took in a breath, tasting. The scent was gone from the air now. The others began breathing too, a sense of relief at having survived that potentially disastrous situation. Yes, I would definitely need to hunt tomorrow, I thought, rubbing my throat.
"Are you OK?" Edward checked.
I nodded, looking up into his face. At that moment I felt a wave of burning desire crash over me. Jasper caught my mood immediately; he coughed loud enough to distract me.
Quickly, I looked down and if I had been human I would have been blushing right now. Emmett shook the table with his silent laughter and I scowled at him, promising revenge later. He wisely kept silent.
Last period biology breezed past swiftly and we all met up in the car park to pile into our designated cars and drive back to the house. Alice was focussed somewhere in the future ahead of us and was unconsciously rubbing her arm.
I was watching her, so I was the first one to see the frown mark appear between her eyes. "Alice?" I asked.
My tone must have caught his attention because Edward now turned to her, eyes unfocussed as he read her thoughts. His brow furrowed in confusion. "What was that, Alice? I didn't catch all of it".
Alice shook her head slowly from side to side. Jasper was watching her as well now and I wondered what emotions he was picking up from us, Alice especially.
"Nothing," she answered. I didn't know what she had seen, but I felt fairly certain that it was more than nothing. Alice sighed, "Will you please stop looking at me like that, Bella. I don't know what that was; at this moment it is nothing".
I knew how temperamental her ability could be. The future wasn't always set in stone.
Leah and Seth were waiting in their wolf forms when we got out of the car. Seth wined slightly when he saw Jacob get out of the car. Jacob looked at him once then disappeared into the forest to phase.
Seth looked at Edward, who responded with a slight nod. The other two wolves darted off after him, vanishing between the trees.
"What was that about?" I asked looking at Edward who was wearing that little frown again.
He looked down at me. "They found an unfamiliar vampire trail".
I stared confused, thinking through the meaning and implications of that simple statement. "Why did they wait for Jacob to get back before going after them?"
"Pack procedure. Jacob is the Alpha and as they had no idea if those vampires were friends they had to wait for his decision".
"What did Seth ask you?" I pressed for more information.
"If they should go and investigate," Edward said in his soft, velvet voice, "Don't worry, though, they're not going to attack, unless it becomes necessary. They just want to talk, if they can even find the vampires".
"What does that mean?" I whispered.
Edward smiled reassuringly. "The trail is quite old. The vampires responsible may be quite far away by now".
"Oh". There wasn't much more I could say about that. I just hoped the wolves would be careful. Rosalie and Emmett drove up then and we entered the house to be welcomed by Esme.
"How was your day," she asked, a ready smile on her heart shaped face.
I shrugged. "Just your average first day in high school," I joked. Beside me Edward chuckled.
"I don't know about anyone else," Renesmee said suddenly, "but I'm going to bed. You lot may not need sleep, but I do". She waved a cheerful goodnight and outside, off to our house.
"Should we follow?" Edward asked, raising an eyebrow.
I leaned my head to the side as I considered, my eyes caught a familiar sight and I chose what I wanted to do tonight. "No, I'm thinking I want to hear you play for me".
Edward grinned, picking me up and seating me next to him on the bench behind his piano. His hands flew over the keys as they picked out a familiar melody. My lullaby. "It's perfect, Edward," I mumbled, snuggling into his side.
"I love you," he said.
"I know," I sighed back, contented. He chuckled against my side and I allowed my mind to drift with the flowing music.
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Author's Note: Well here it is, my first chapter. Please, let me know what you think and if I should continue with this and I'll try to update soon. Bye for now!! :)