Chapter 1 - DADA

The sounds of the birds singing fill my ears as I crack my eyes open slightly. I let out a small groan as I sat up. Feeling has if I had no sleep thanks to my unsettling dream.

I run a hand through my long brown hair. Combing through all the unwanted knots as I look up at the window. Seeing that the sun was only beginning to raise. I look over to the other beds that were being used by my roomates.

I only let a sigh as begin thinking to myself. Why couldn't I sleep in like the others?

Why do I always wake up so early in the morning? Why can't I go back to sleep when I feel I can't my eyes open?

Why did I have to be alone? I'm always alone. Even in my dreams.

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I descend down the stairs from the girl's dormitory quickly and quietly before making my way to the couch that sat in front of the fire place that wasn't a lit.

Smoothing out my skirt as I sat down the couch. I open the book as I lay it against. Bending over to read the words that decorated the pages.

Escaping my world of loneliness into a world of adventures and fun.

I smile softly as I turn the page.

Books were my only sense of comfort now that he was gone.

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"The rules for this one on one duel are simple..."

The professor continues to drone on and on about the rules and what will happen if we broke them. She then tells us how she is going to be grading us. It doesn't matter if we win or lose. All that matters is how display our skills and she thinks having us to this is the best way to show our skills and what we need to work on.

But I completely ignore her as I continue reading my book as I sat on the ground as half of the desks were pushed to the side so then there would be room for us to have our duels without anything getting in the way.

I had planned on reading my book until it was my turn to go up there but that changed when I saw the professor stuck out her hand out in front of my face.

I rolled my eyes before handing her my book before crossing my arms.

"You may have this back after class." She tells me before walking away.

I just a huff in frustration before I heard a snickering from beside me.

I look to the side to see the infamous Sirius Black and James Potter sitting in the chairs beside me.

I shot them both glares before turning away as I certainly did not feel like dealing with them as tiredness weighted heavily on my eyes and shoulders. I wouldn't be surprised if I had bags underneath them not that it would matter.

I begin tracing my figure in the carpet. Making weird shapes as I listen to the duels that were taking place. None of them were interesting through so I spent more of my time daydreaming instead of paying attention.

The only the one that was even close to be interesting was the one that delt with James Potter. But then again, as much as I hate to admit it. Things are always end up being interesting when you deal with a prankster.

I watched as James walks away from his duel victoriously as he sends a wink to Lily Evans. The infamous smart girl. Also the girl that can't tolerate James Potter as she was the only girl beside me and her blonde haired friend to not clap when he was done with his duel. I watched as she huffed amd turns away when she saw the wink which makes me smirk slightly in amusement.

Seeing that I wasn't the only unhappy made a strange feeling surge through my chest.

I frown through as I watch James give all three of his friends high five his in victory. James was still smiling proudly because he had turned away before he could see Lily's reaction to his wink. Seeing the smiles on his face and on his friends faces caused my blood to boiled as I narrow my eyes.

I turned away with a huff as I cross my arms as snare takes over my frown.

It's not fair. Why do they get to be happy but not me. Why do I lose the person I care about most? Why must I live miserably? A life where I always question what I did to deserve such a harsh punishment. To lose the one person that understood me the most.

"Daisy Snow and Sirius Black are up next." Says the Professor, I look up in surprise when I heard that as my eyes widen as I suddenly broken out of my thoughts. "Come on up to have your match."

"Nice to see that can express other emotions beside anger." I hear a voice laced with mischief from beside.

I turn my gaze to the side to see the infamous Sirius Black standing beside me with his usual mischievous grin as he looked down at me.

I blinked at him in surprise before glaring up at him.

"Oops, it's angry Daisy again. Oh no, what shall I do?" Says Sirius as he mocks me in fearful voice.

I keep my eyes narrowed onto his as I slowly stand up onto my feet. I strighten out my back to try to appear taller. This of course failed as I stopped at his chin meaning that I had to tilt my head back to meet his eyes.

This only caused his grin to strengthen as he stared down at me. "Does a shorty like you really think you can take me on?" He asked. His voice with amusment.

I stared with a frown and narrowed eyes before cracking a smirk which caused a flash of surprise to show in his eyes for only a second before regaining his composure.

"Let's just get this done and over with. I don't particularly like the idea of stalling this more then needs to be. Since there is only one way of knowing who will win and who won't. Don't you agree?" I asked as I lace my voice with a large dose of sweetness.

How I was acting, was a side that I have never showen before. A side I had never seen before.

So Sirius wasn't the only who was shocked by how I was acting. I was shocked to as I had never thought that I possesed the guts to act in a such a way.

It was slient as me and Sirius made our way to the side of the room that was made for the duel as the Professor begins putting up protective spells over her and the other students incase a spell went haywire.

But one thing is for certin through, I thought to myself as I narrow my eyes at Sirius as I stood waiting for the Professor to give us the green light. Him leaving has caused me to go through many changes.

"Start!"

Sirius immediately points his wand me. "Expelliarmus!"

I simply I turned slightly on my heels. The spell missing by a few inches. I kept my eyes locked on Sirius as I raise my wand up immediately.

"Flipendo!" I yelled as I sent the spell toward him.

"Finite Incantatum!" Sirius canceled out my spell instead of dodging it. He stuumbleds backwards a little as a grimace.

He opens his mout to send out another spell.

"Aguamenti!" I blurt out without much before he could send out another spell.

I had to win this. I thought to myself as water spruted from the end of wand. Hitting him directly in the face which causes gasp in surprise as he stumbles back so more.

He bends over slightlyn spluttering out water as he coughed.

I grin in amusement as my eyes widen and excitement swells in my chest.

I was winning. I never win at anything.

I quickly pointed my wand towards Sirius once again, who was busy trying to get his long wet hair out of his face.

"Flipendo!" I yelled in excitement as I sent him flying into the wall.

"Accio wand." I stated calmly as I walked closer to him with a smirk as his wand flew to my free hand. I bend down to his level as he sat leaning against the wall.

Now that he hair was out of his face, he was able to send to a glare my way as a scowl appears on his. Any trace of amusement from before were gone.

"I guess now you know not to take me lightly from now on." I stopped as I remember how fluffy his hair way before it got wet. "Bye bye, Fluffy." I said as I stood up, enjoying the look of annoyance on his face.

"Shorty." He muttered, causing me to roll my eyes before throwing his wand at him before walking away. Ignoring all the eyes that were locked onto me as I return to my spot with my eyes focused onto the carpet.

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I left the classroom the second I got the chance to with my book in hand. But I stopped when I heard my name.

I turn around to see James Potter walking towards. I raised an eyebrow, wondering what he possibly want with me.

He glared at me as he placed his hands on his hips. "Don't you think you were a little harsh on him?" He asked me.

I blinked in surprised at his question before realizing what he talking about. I roll my eyes eyes as my face goes back to it's usual emptiness. "No I don't." I answered in a cold monotone voice that made James eyes widen slightly as he anger disappeared into an unsettled look. "He try to humiliate me before the dual. So he got he deserved."

I then turn around and begin walking away from them.

If I don't think it was harsh then it wasn't harsh. That's all there is to.

But it wasn't far enough way since I heard him whisper to his friends.

"So cold...I don't remember her being that cold last year or the years before that."

"That's because she wasn't that cold."

And he was right, I wasn't that cold last year or the year before that. But this year was different then the others. But no matter how cold I become, even I won't be able to ignore the guilt that was eating me from the inside out for long.