Dean's pov
He had been thinking about this for a long time, he and Sam had been through a lot in all the years they had been hunting. Though the last four or five years had been the worst, Sam's death then his own. He hated the time that lucifer had taken Sam's body, it wasn't his brother that beat him until he could not see or think straight it wasn't him when he killed Cas. It also wasn't his brother when Cas brought him back from hell even though it looked like him it was soulless version of his brother walking around. Not the brother that would do anything for him. no it was the brother that watched him get attacked by vamps and not do anything about it.
This is his brother the one he had wanted for so long. He wanted to hold him and tell him how much he loved him. How when he was with Lisa and Ben all he could think about was holding him in his arms. Now that they had a place to live that they could call their own he'd hope they could get closer, things never happened the way he planned. The angels falling and Sam almost dying and Cas becoming a human. It seems like things were starting to go back to normal, if you could call how he feels for Sam normal. They were on cases again and Sam was feeling much better.
He was just so happy to that he and Sam were still together this time and still in one piece. The drive to the motel was probably the most peaceful drive they have had in a very long time. He knew he had to do something about these feelings for Sammy but he couldn't stop them even if he really wanted to which he didn't. Dean didn't care anymore of what people thought of him and his lust for his younger brother. The way people looked at him before never stopped him even if they didn't know his deep dark secret.
He knew it was a sign when the motel only had one room open and it only had one big bed, Before he knew it he had payed for it and walking down the hall to their room. Looking over at his baby brother he could feel his heart starting to do flips. Locking the door behind them as they stepped into their room, he smiled at Sam. Before he knew it same was walking around and looking the place up and down to pieces. Yes this had been the best looking motel room they had ever stayed in damn it was even better then their rooms in the bunker.
By the time Sam had come back out of the bathroom Dean had removed his Shoes and shirt. He had been pretty hot in the car and now that they were in a room with ac he didn't want to wear his sweaty shirt any longer. Sam had sat down on the edge of the bed near Dean looking over he asked.
"So what are we watching here?" Sam sat down on the edge of the bed removing his shoes, it looked like there would be no researching happening to night
"not much cops I think all I know is a saw some blonde pull out her boobs and show them to a cop. She was drunk out of her mind." Dean smiled at his brother
"Uh Dean, um are we really going to share a bed?" Sam nervously looked down at the floor.
"Yea why do you ask?" Dean leaned closer to Sam
"Uh well I mean were two fully grown males and sharing a bed would be weird wouldn't it?" Sam looked up seeing Dean was closer to him.
"Well Sammy we used to share a bed when we were kids so it's not that different if you think about it" Dean was trying his best not to pull Sam down on the bed with him and kiss him.
"...Ok I guess it is fine!" Sam Looked very nervous looking back at Dean and then the floor.
"It's gonna be fine Sammy" He sat up and patted his brother's shoulder then leaned away making sure to stop him self from kissing him.
Getting up he walked into the bathroom he pulled his phone out of his pocket and dial up Castiel. He waited for a long time but no answer. He called him back two more times before he finally got an answer.
"Cas I need to talk to you about that thing I told you about!" He started to pace back and forth.
"Dean what do you mean... Oh the Sam thing am I right?" Castiel Asked Him
"Yes I feel like I'm about to lose it, my need it getting worst to me." Dean started sweating uncontrollably
"I think maybe it is best if you just tell him the truth Dean. I am sure he'll understand" Castiel was staring at his laptop screen searching for any information on Sam and Deans case.
"ARE YOU NUTS!" Dean was starting to worry
"I am serious Dean its about time you tell him or you'll end of hurting yourself!" Castiel said finally giving up and shutting the lid
"Cas your not helping!" He was starting to get angry why would he say such a thing
"Dean I have to go." Cas replied
Before Dean could say another word Castiel hung up the phone. Dean threw down his phone breaking it into a million pieces.
He had heard yelling Dean into his phone calling what he thinks is Castiel, nuts. Then there was a loud sound it sounded like something smashing into pieces. The only thing He could think of that could have done that was Dean's phone. Deciding he should knock on the door and find out what's the matter with Dean.
"Hey Dean are you ok in there? I thought I heard something break!" Sam called to him hoping he'd answer him
"I'm Fine..." Dean looked into the mirror of the motel Bathroom while trying to calm down.
"Dean you're lying to me and I know, I mean we've know each other we're brothers." Sam said as he got up walking over to the door he started to pick the lock.
"Ok I'm lying sue me sammy!" Dean started to hear Sam picking the lock.
"Ok then Dean tell me the truth why were you yelling at Cas and why did you Break your phone.
Sam had finally got the door open, seeing Dean sweating and Shaking. Walking up to him he placed a hand on Dean's forehead. It was clammy and full of sweat, there was no fever. He smiled up at Dean then looked down and saw the mess that he had made with his phone.
"Dean, Please just tell me the truth. Whats going on in that head of yours that you can't tell me!" He said looking like a lost little puppy
"Sam if I tell you, you will hate me or even look at me differently and I don't know if I can handle that I mean things were just starting to go back to being normal." Dean looked down at his feet
"Dean I could never Hate you! You mean a lot to me, I mean look at us we have died for each other. I will never hate you or even look at you differently" Sam's heart started beating fast
"Sam I don't think you understand what I mean by this, I mean this could change everything!" Dean was now staring directly in Sam's eyes
Sam became closer to Dean pulling him into a hug shushing his brother. Dean held onto him shaking still. Sam looked at his brother's face seeing the stress and worry washing over Dean's face.
"Please just tell me Dean I'm sure its not as bad as you think it is" Sam softly said to him worrying about him
Dean didn't reply all he did was pull Sam into a lip bruising passionate kiss. Before Sam knew it he was kissing Dean back with just as much passion as Dean was giving him. Sam was starting to moan into the kiss when suddenly Dean pulled away. Almost pushing Sam away from him, But Sam wasn't having any of that.
"Dean don't push me away!" Sam pleaded with him
"Sammy can't you see I'm sick I shouldn't have done that! It wasn't right I just forced my self onto you" Dean looked as though he was going to cry
He hated seeing Dean this way and the only think he could think of was to show Dean how much he really loved him. Pushing Dean against the bathroom wall he kisses Dean once more with more passion then before. Grinding against Dean feeling how hard he was. Dean groaned the sweetest Sound Sam have ever heard.
"Mmm Sammy, That feels so good" Dean was blushing madly
"I love you Dean! I have wanted you for as long as I can remember I need you Dean!" Sam said leaning in to Kiss Dean's neck.
"Sammy, I love you too!" Dean's body was shaking with need
Sam pushed harder against Dean Grinding against him with more force. Nipping and sucking on the crook of Dean's neck leaving a mark. Hearing Dean's moans was music to his ears. He had always imagined what this would be like to let dean know how he really felt. This was better then anything he could have come up with him in his own mind.
Picking Dean up letting him wrap his legs around his waist Sam walked them back to the bed laying Dean down gently. Looking down at Dean it was like he was a god looking back at him. Oh how he couldn't wait to see the rest of Dean. They had seen each other naked before but it was in a brother way. Not the way Sam had always hoped to see him, Not like now.
"Dean I want to see all of you, I need to see all of you" Sam slowly began to undress Dean
He removed Dean's belt slowly removing that he then stopped. He wanted to save the best for last. His eye gazed over his older brother's toned body, leaning down he kissed his neck. He started kissing a trail down Dean's chest stopping just above the line where his pants laid.
Author's note: I hope you like this chapter there is more to come!