Chapter.2

Once I saw Lucas the next day at school, I knew something was wrong. We greeted each other and kissed. This kiss felt different. It felt wrong. Our kisses usually felt amazing, even unexplainable. But this was just…..wrong. I tried to ignore it. Later on that day, Lucas got mad or sad, but when I asked him about it, he said it was nothing. I felt worried.

(Later outside during lunch)

"Um Scarrlet, Lucas wants to talk to you by the bench at the creek."

"Okay, thanks Kevin".

As I walked behind the school, through the woods and toward the creek, a million thoughts ran through my mind. This meeting could be bad or good. He could say he loves me and wants to be with me forever. If that's the case, then I'd tell him what I was and we'd live together forever. But happy endings like that didn't happen. That's a Twilight ending, and my life is far from that. And Twilight doesn't know what real vampires are.

When I got to the creek, I saw Lucas throwing stones, "Lucas?" "Oh hey Scar" he said, but didn't turn to face me. I walked to him, touched his shoulder and went to sit on the bench. After throwing his third stone into the creek, he came to sit with me. He took my hand and looked me deep in my eyes. That's when I knew. I knew we were over, and I knew why. Or at least who it was for. But I couldn't bring myself to speak. To end it first. I couldn't do it because that would only hurt me more. To know that I broke up with him, without a real reason would kill me inside.

"Scarrlet, I love you and care for you."

"I feel the same, probably more." He looked away into the distance, and then looked at me.

"But I-I feel like we've lost something," "Scarrlet, I think we should just be friends."

I closed my eyes and squeezed him hand. Just hoping that what he had said hadn't been spoken.

"And I'm going to ask Kera to be my girlfriend." He turned my head to face his; we were locked in a gaze. He gently kissed my lips then said "I'm so sorry Scarrlet."

All I could say was "I'm sorry too." I was sorry for making him my everything, for loving him completely. For almost telling him what I was so we could forever be together. I was sorry for even saying yes. He stood up, brushed my cheek and said "A hug please?" I couldn't. I wouldn't. If I hugged him, I burst out crying. But I still did it. I embraced his lavender smell. Our hug lasted a long time. I knew we'd never be like we se to. I just knew. He let go of me, and left. Without even looking back. The last thing I heard was I'm sorry Scarrlet. After he left, that was when I felt the first of my many tears.

I went to sit on the bench. I could stay there forever. Literally. But since I didn't have any important classes after lunch, I could stay for a while and just think. I could kill her; I could just snap her throat and end her life I thought. But then I remembered telling Kera that she should want Lucas to be happy no matter whom he was with, so I guess I should do the same. I wanted to hate them. But I couldn't, I could only hope that he's happy.

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How could he? What happened to loving me? What happened to never wanting to hurt me? A friend of mine had called when I got home to tell me that for the past 2 weeks, Lucas had been cheating on me with Kera. That why I'm so mad.

Thanks for ruining my life, thanks for making me feel guilty when I suspected you were cheating. Thanks for lying to me. If you didn't love me, then you shouldn't have said you did. If you wanted to be with her then you should've dumped me from before.

Thank you Lucas, thank you for being my first and hopefully my last love. I thought in bed while looking at the ceiling and listening to Chris Browns Cry no more and any other sad song I could think of. How could he do this to me? How could he just cheat? Why would he cheat? I doubt he even knows how much he hurt me. I couldn't stay here. I needed to be free of this... form. I needed to run. To shift.

I told Amalie to tell our parents where I had gone. I headed towards behind the house. I got a bottle of blood before I left. I hadn't had had any for most of this week, so without it shifting would be harder. I finished the bottle and took the only step to shifting. I cleared my mind and focused on my initial animal. Every shifter or vamp-shifter has one. Amalie's is a humming bird, while my mother's is a cat.

When I'm in my human form, my eyes are dark gray, with brown around it. But when I shift they become completely brown. Only vamp-shifters have two eye colors, so only we can do this. Even though I'm half vampire, the sun doesn't affect me. But it does harm vampires. The older they are, the less the sun hurts them. But the younger ones are in a lot of danger when out in the sun. I do have fangs, but they usually come out when I'm thirsty or mad.

All I wanted to do was run. When I ran in this form, it felt amazing. It's an unexplainable feeling. It's as if all my troubles had gone away. But I know that once I get back to school they will start again, but for now I just wanted to enjoy the moment. The moon looked amazing as well as the stars. I've always loved astronomy. As I lay on the grass, the wind rustles my black fur. I feel so relaxed. As if I would drift off and sleep. Until I heard them. My guess was that it was the Red Swords. The Red Swords have been around for centuries. Their only purpose is to kill what they think is evil in the Supernatural World. Vampires, werewolves, shape shifters, vamp-shifters, witches, demons ECT.

They would kill me without thought. They know almost everything about the supernatural world. But it was hard for them to find vamp-shifters or shifters because we look so close to human and we can shift to animals that are common in the area. I got on all fours and went towards the Red swords group. There were about 7 of them. 3 girls and 4 boys. They looked between 17-21. There was a blond, brown and redhead girl. They were in track pants and t-shirts. The blond was carrying a bag. Weapons? A tent maybe.

There were 2 black haired boys, but one had a blue tint in it. The other two had blond and light brown hair, The boys were muscular. But the one with the blue tint had a similar shape to Lucas. NO, NO, NO. I'M NOT GOING TO THINK OF THAT JERK!

It was hard to see there faces, but I could tell that they were beautiful. The blond guy seemed to be the leader and was probably the oldest in the group. I saw the Red Swords symbol on the blond girl's bag (a sword painted in red in a white circle.). They were talking about there mission in Toronto. The leader said that they may have to stay a while. I was scared. I just hiding here was dangerous, so I ran. I ran to the back yard, changed back ad told my family about what I'd seen. Mother told me not to shift for a while. Father agreed and said he'd be out of the country for a while, until they left. I had to argue with my mother. How could she tell me not to shift? Shifting was the only thing that brought me slight happiness. When I was tired of yelling, I went to my room and emailed my older brother on my laptop. Thomas was now 113. I'm the youngest in the family. He lives in Barcelona right now but come back on holidays. I missed him, Suddenly, the phone rang to interrupt my memories.

"Hello?" "Um Scarrlet, it's me." It was Lucas. I would know that deep, yet smooth voice anywhere. "I should've told you. I know I should've and I'm sorry for it"

"You should be. But it's not you fault." "Don't say that. We both know I could've stopped it," "Scarrlet, you should hate me." He sounded so sad. But I knew I probably should, "I should hate you Lucas, but I can never hate you. No matter what you do."

"Scarrlet we only kissed 3 times." "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE KISSED HER AT ALL IF YOU WERE WITH ME!" "Scarrlet I-""Lucas, don't even bother saying sorry. You made me mad at myself Lucas. I felt so guilty for thinking you were cheating. But you actually were." "Scarrlet I'm so sorry." He said with a crack in his voice. I know he feels bad for what he did to me. "Scarrlet I-I didn't want to hurt you"

"Lucas, you'll never understand how much I loved you. And for you to just do that to me…." My voice faded out. "You don't even know Lucas, you really don't." I whispered.

"Scarrlet I don't know what to say or do to make this right again."

"There is nothing you can say or do Lucas. Umm I have stuff to do. Bye"

"Bye Scarrlet." And that was it. After that I was never the same. I was worse then I was after the Jared thing. I couldn't find joy in anything. It just felt like there was something missing from me. Something Lucas took away. I thought about killing myself. But vamp-shifters don't die as easily as humans do.

For a while I tried to find what I lost. I tried to date, but I'd just end up dumping them because they couldn't fill the void. After a while, even shifting couldn't help me. For months I was emotionless. But it was May now and I was getting somewhat better. Lucas and Kera had broken up and now Kera and I were very close. I'm the kind of person to forgive but never forget. So that why we were friends. She said sorry, but all I wanted was for this to be over and forgotten. But vamp-shifters have amazing memory….sadly. Soni and Lucas were getting close. Though she denied her feelings, I knew she liked him and I also knew that he felt the same. But she was my best friend; she wouldn't date him knowing how much it would hurt me. Right?