Levi x Insomniac!Reader

It was midnight. I could tell by the position of the moon. I had woken up again because of my insomnia. Why did it have to come back? I first got insomnia shortly after my first expedition with the Survey Corps. I had watched my friends die at the hands of the titans. It went away after a couple of weeks but now, it had come back. I didn't want to think about it, but my memories rose to the surface.

I was about to start my first expedition. My friends were all seated on their horses around me. We were situated on the left flank of the formation. We were all nervous, we would've been idiots not to be. I was probably the most nervous of them all. As much as I feared the titans, I knew that I had to help humanity. I hated being trapped and living inside of the walls made me feel that way.

"Begin!" Erwin shouted.

I spurred my horse forward and it broke into a fast canter. My two guy friends that rode in front of me had grins on their faces and I knew that one must've said something stupid or funny, it was always the way with them. When we finally rode outside of the wall, I felt something that I've never felt before. It wasn't happiness, nor was it relief. Then I realised, I was feeling like I belonged out there. It was freedom. Pure, sweet freedom and I loved it. CRUNCH! I turned my head to the left and almost screamed. For there was a titan and it was looking straight at me. It's deformed mouth spread into a psychotic grin. I fumbled for my gun as I realised that it was an abnormal. The way it loped towards me told me that it was different. I shot up a black flare but the second after I fired it, I was trapped. It had enclosed it's hand around me. I couldn't reach my swords, I could only flail around, helpless. I saw my friends, all six of them, maneuvering towards me. A mixture of angry and scared looks on their faces. The titan dropped me once it realised that it had new targets. As I fell, I grabbed my swords and rushed to join my friends. I saw one of my friends get stomped on and I screamed, a cry full of rage and grief, because if it wasn't for me being in a titan's grasp, she wouldn't have been killed. As I maneuvered towards it's nape, one of boys got a bit too close to the large mouth. He was devoured in a bite. I got my swords ready to strike as one of my female friends got slapped out of the way. She was killed instantly by the force of the blow. Another female friend of mine tried to cut it's Achilles Tendon, so it couldn't walk but her back snapped when she flew right into the heel as it swung upwards. My last remaining friend went to cut it but he was smashed into the ground at terminal velocity. I cut the nape right as he reached the ground. As it fell down, I looked at the corpses of my friends. The rest of the expedition was a blur to me. I only remember the sorrow and guilt that I felt.

I put a hand on my head to feel the temperature. It was fairly hot. I got up and headed to the toilet. I had only made it halfway there before my guts started to rebel. I ran the rest of the way and barely made it before I vomited. I cleaned myself up and headed to the kitchen to get something into me. Once I made it there, I grabbed a cup and filled it with water and I grabbed a banana. I finished my glass of water and was about to take a bite of the banana when a hand covered my mouth and the other arm pulled me backwards from the waist.

"Cadet, what do you think you're doing?" a deep voice demanded.

I mentally slapped myself. It just had to Captain Levi.

"I came down here to get a drink-"

"And a banana? You do realise that you have been caught roaming around during curfew hours, and stealing food by one of your superiors?" Levi interrupted.

"Yes, sir."

"Do you want to tell me why that is?"

"I have insomnia, sir. It's gotten worse over the past few days. I've had to rush to the toilet because I've started vomiting after I wake up, sir," I informed him.

"That would explain why I woke up to you running past my room. Do you usually go back to your room via the kitchen?"

"Yes, sir. I've been getting a drink each time-"

"Do you also grab fruit?"

I gulped. "Yes, sir. I can't go back to sleep once I go back to bed. I toss and turn until it's time to get up."

"Can't you just wait until breakfast to eat?" Levi inquired.

"I-uh-I-" I stammered.

"I suggest you get back to bed, cadet."

"Yes, sir."

I put the banana back where I had grabbed it from. I didn't realise that I had ran out of the kitchen.

Levi watched Ellie run out of the kitchen. Even though his face looked like he couldn't give a crap, he was worried. He got slight bouts of insomnia himself but he didn't wake up and vomit. His nightmares weren't that bad. If she was vomiting, Levi knew that what she was dreaming about had to be serious. He decided to keep an eye on her in case anything out of the ordinary occurred.

At breakfast, I ate rather slowly. I was tired as I hadn't fallen asleep last night after I was caught by Levi. What confused me though, was the fact that he hadn't punished me. He hadn't even mentioned punishing me either.

"Hello? Earth to Ellie! Is anybody home?" Eren stated.

"Sorry. I'm just really tired!" I said through a yawn.

"You bet. I've been calling your name for the last few minutes!" Eren exclaimed.

"It was only about a minute, Ellie. Don't worry. Eren's just exaggerating," Armin reassured me.

My gaze finds its way back to my food but I looked up when I noticed Levi looking at me rather intently. I quickly looked down at my food and began to eat again. The bags under my eyes were more evident than what they had been but no-one payed any attention to it. They were all blind as far as I was concerned. Once I had scraped my plate clean, I stood up and went to brush my teeth. Then, I had training. On this already horrible day, I just had to be partnered up with Kirstein, my least favourite horse-face. The morning's practical was hand-to-hand combat, something that I excelled at. Jean rushed at me and I side-stepped at the last second and stuck my leg out. Jean face-planted but he got up straight away and threw a right hook. I swept my left arm downwards, successfully deflecting his attack. I jabbed at him with my right arm and as I brought it back, I turned my body to the left and kicked him behind his right knee with my left leg. He collapsed on one knee and I grabbed one of his arms, twisting it behind his back.

"Yield!" Jean grunted.

I released him and backed off. I put my hands up, signaling that I was ready for another round. He came at me again, slowly this time, and aimed at my face. As his fist extended towards me, I wrapped my arm around his elbow and pushed the back of my hand against his shoulder. He started gasping in pain but I didn't release until he cried yield again. I released his arm and stepped back. He stretched his arm out, getting rid of the ache. Once he was done, he put his hands up and charged straight at me, his head low. I grabbed him around his neck and used his momentum to flip him onto his back as he crashed into the ground.

"What is with you today?" Jean asked.

"I'm tired."

"Cadet, what are you doing on the ground?" the instructor bellowed.

"Just catching my breathe, sir."

"Well, hurry up!"

I waited for Jean to get up, which he did, after a few minutes. I was getting ready for a fourth round when the instructor shouted that the training session was over. My day couldn't get any worse.

"Cadet Collis. What was that?" Captain Levi asked.

I turned around, eyes wide and gulped.

"I was just doing as I was told, sir,' I replied.

"No-one was even doing it at that ferocity. So why were you?"

"I gave it my all."

"You went overboard. You could at least given him a chance-"

"If I had given him a chance, every fight I might be in, I will give them chances too, which is a dangerous choice. That's why I don't give people chances in fights," I explained.

"Careful, cadet. I don't think that you want to clean the entire headquaters by yourself so I suggest you watch what you say," Levi warned.

He turned and left leaving me standing there confused. He would usually hand out punishments like there was no tomorrow, so why didn't he give me one? I decided not to mention it, or think about it, because I didn't mind. I grabbed my maneuvering gear and headed to the course. I just really wanted to hit something, and killing fake titans was going to have to do. I zipped around the course until I was too tired to destroy more fake titans. I collapsed on the ground, gasping for air. I heard footsteps once my breaths came more evenly. I twisted my body so that I could see who was coming. Just my luck. It was Captain Levi. I hurriedly stood up and turned to face him.

"What on Earth is wrong with you, cadet?" he demanded.

"I have insomnia for one thing."

"Are you really using that tone after my warning earlier, cadet?" he sneered.

"Why did you come out here anyway?" I asked.

"To check up on you. You skipped lunch."

"Really? I skipped lunch? What time is it?" I questioned.

"That's what I said, cadet. And it's four-thirty," Levi answered.

"It's that time already?"

"Yes, Erwin wanted me to find you. Everyone's worried."

"How long have you been looking for?" I asked.

"Since lunch."

"Is everyone still looking for me?"

Levi looked sidelong at you. He sighed and stood next to you. "What do you think?"

I grabbed food and sat down next to Eren. I picked up my fork and began to eat. I shovelled the food into my mouth, hardly stopping to breathe. I was so hungry, especially after skipping lunch. After I had finished, I had a long, hot shower. I hoped that it would be enough to wash all of the sweat off of me. I got out and walked to my dorm, towards the bed that was waiting for me. Once again, I tossed and turned for hours before finally falling asleep. I had the same haunting nightmare that usually plagued my dreams before waking up and rushing as quietly as I could to the toilet. I made my way to the kitchen and grabbed a glass and filled it with water, ignoring the temptation to grab a piece of fruit.

"Two nights in a row, cadet. At least, this time you didn't grab fruit," Levi spoke through the darkness.

I turned around and could vaguely make out his silhouette in the vast darkness. When he was lost to my eyes, I sensed him behind me right before I felt his breath on my neck. I shivered and he took my hand. He pulled me out of the kitchen and I held my breath. I knew that he was going to punish me, I just didn't know how. He led me past my room and I started mentally freaking out. He stopped in front of a door and I almost walked into him. I looked at Levi and then at the door before I realised where Levi had led me. We were standing at the door his room.

"Captain, w-why are we he-here?" I asked.

"Get inside."

He pushed me inside and I stumbled as I tried to regain my balance but to no avail. I face-planted on the couch. I pushed yourself up and turned around as Levi closed the door.

"The bed's in there," Levi stated, waving his hand at the door leading to his bedroom.

I made my way over to his bedroom. When I got to the door, a thought struck me.

"Where will you be sleeping?" I asked.

"On the couch."

"No, you should get the bed. You didn't have to bring me here-" I started.

"Collis, listen. This is my room. Do as I say. You're getting the bed and sleeping in it!" Levi interrupted.

I grimaced and accepted the fact that Levi was intent on sleeping on the couch. I struggled to get to sleep again but I woke up at four, when Levi entered the room.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"You were crying out. I thought someone had come in or something. Plus my clothes are in here," Levi answered.

"Oh, well, I suppose you do need clothes."

"Of course I do. Erwin wouldn't appreciate anyone walking around the headquarters naked," Levi snapped.

I nodded and clambered out of his bed. I walked out of the bedroom and had grabbed the handle of his office door when Levi's voice stopped me.

"Where do you think you're going?"

"Back to my room. I do have to get changed as well-"

"You're staying here!" Levi ordered.

"Why?" I questioned.

"Because you don't get enough sleep and obviously vomitted again last night. I'll be back with food later."

"I'm not allowed to leave your office?"

"Correct."

"Why not send me to the infirmary?" I quizzed.

"They won't appreiciate you going down there for some as trivial as insomnia. Epsecially since it can't be cured."

"Then why can't I go back to my dorm?" I continued.

"Because I know where to find you if you are here."

I opened my mouth to say something but closed it when I realised that he was right. He didn't know where my room was. I sighed and took my hand off the handle. I stepped back as Levi put his hand on my shoulder.

"Besides, they are things to do here."

"I'm not doing your paperwork for you so don't ask," I informed him.

"I'm not expecting you to," he said.

He left the room and I stood there, staring at the door for a few seconds. I turned and walked to the window, sitting the the narrow ledge, looking out as far as I could, enjoying the silence and the beauty of the night. Levi came back holding a bowl full of oats with milk and some fruit. He was also carrying a teacup, probably full of black tea. I thanked him and began to eat, leaving the tea for him.

"You do realise that the tea is for you?" he asked.

I looked up at him, eyes wide.

"Thanks."

He nodded and left, saying that Erwin wanted him for something. I finished off the food, leaning back as I dropped the spoon in the bowl. Time passed as I stared off into space. Levi walked into the room and I flinched. I was so lost in thought that Levi had startled me when he walked into the room.

"Are you okay?" Levi asked.

"Yeah. I was just lost in my thoughts," I answered through a yawn.

Levi set the plate that he was carrying in front of me. Sausages and vegetables. I ate rather fast. I was hungry after all. I wolfed down the food in no time at all. He waited until I was done before taking the used dishes with him. I stood up and looked at the books he kept on his bookshelf. He had more fictional stories than anything. I picked an old looking one, titled The Name of the Wind. It was a large book, over one-thousand five-hundred pages. I sat down and began to read. I had fallen asleep some time after.

Levi walked into his office to find Ellie asleep and softly snoring. A book was resting on her arm, above her chest. About time she fell asleep. Levi walked past her quietly and sat down at his desk, pulling unfinished paperwork towards him. When Levi finished all the required paperwork, he got up and stretched. He gathered up the finished paperwork and was about to walk out of the door to deliver it to Erwin when she started sobbing. He ran to her side, his eyes filled with concern. The sobbing grew quieter until her eyes started fluttering open. Levi grabbed a bucket from his little supply closet and ran back to Ellie. She fully woke as he neared her and she grabbed the bucket straight away. She vomited multiple times before leaning back, breathing heavily.

"Thanks, Captain," she breathed out.

Levi nodded and grabbed the bucket from her. He rushed out of his room and to the nearest toilet. He up-ended the bucket removing the foul contents. He flushed and cleaned the bucket thoroughly before cleaning his own hands. He made his way back to his office where he saw Ellie sitting with her legs up on the couch, clutching her stomach.

I felt so horrible. My stomach had just ridden all of the contents yet it was still churning. I really needed something to settle it, or even better, stop vomitting completely. I closed my eyes and swung my legs on to the couch just as Levi opened the door. I turned my head to look at him and the expression on his face was one of slight worry and concern. Levi dropped the bucket and lept to my side.

"Are you..." he trailed off.

"No. I feel horrible and my gut is still churning."

Levi stood up and turned to grab the discarded bucket. He put it next to me and ran to the kitchen. He got back as I finished dry-retching. I grabbed the plate he was holding and ate the food, not tasting any of it. I passed the plate back to him and laid back down. Levi's gaze lingered on me for a few seconds before he left to put the plate back in the kitchen. He came back surprisingly quickly. He walked to my side and picked me up, despite my protests. He dropped me on his bed.

"Are you feeling any better?" he asked.

"A bit."

Levi pulls of his jacket and boots, placing them down neatly before carefully taking off the straps for the 3DMG. He laid down next to me, pulling me in close. I closed my eyes and fell asleep, tired from all the vomiting.

Hey guys, sorry this took so long. I had already wrote most of this story on my laptop but it deleted it so I had to start again. If you want to request a chapter, please feel free to PM me or leave a review.