Chapter 2-Bella
This is my continuation of Black Decision; there will be more to come.
Again, I do not own the Twilight Saga, I am just a fan.
The cottage window overlooked picturesque grounds of smooth stone, plush green trees, and then fog, broken by the sun. I stood there for I don't know how long, but I was comfortable, it was like laying straight in a bed or a coffin if you will, and I loved it. I watched as Jacob reappeared from the forest with Nessie trailing behind him, holding onto his leg and with a wide smile. She looked so much like me when I smiled. But then, Jacob can make a crocodile smile (before he twists the Croc's neck that is). At that moment I felt another pair of hands creep up my waist, and then slide up to lay on my shoulders.
Edward.
My Edward.
"I want to know what you are thinking, my Love," He whispered into my ear.
"I don't know about that hon'." I said. He looked disappointed.
"What, you happy keeping secrets now?" He meant it as joke, but the steel on the end of the sentence made me pause.
"I can't yet, here comes our Nessie." I leaped from him and reached the door in time to see Jacob standing there. Nessie wandered in and I lifted her to kiss her face. Her sweet angelic lips brushed my neck. I put her down and that's when I realized that Jacob still stood there. There
was a look of confusion written over his face. Edward was bending over talking to Nessie, but I could no longer hear him. All I heard was Jacob's fast heartbeat and his erratic breathing. He smelled like a dog, but he looked so good.
It has been a while since I've looked at him like this and he was still my best friend, maybe I appreciate his physique too. No harm in that, right?
"Bella." He said my name. It sounded like chimes in the wind to my ears and he said it with force too.
"Jacob get the hell out of my house, now!" Edward shouted from behind me.
"Edward?" I turn to him as he was about to approach Jacob. "What is this about?"
Jacob remained at our doorstep, abs tightening, rippling muscles brown and kissed by the sun, his hair long but not too long. It was unbelievable he hadn't responded the same way back at Edward.
"He knows." Jacob said.
"This mongrel forgot about Nessie's gift of visions and memories," Edward said stepping around me to get to Jacob. I wouldn't let him.
"What? I don't understand. Jacob?"
Edward cut in.
"Nessie just showed me that Chelsea made a surprise visit to them earlier in the meadow speaking to Jacob, and now I hear his rambling thoughts about love with your name floating
around. Who do you love Jacob?" Edward slid in front of me so fast it could have been wind for all I knew.
"Is it Leah? Another member of your pack? It had better be." Edward grabbed my hand and held on tightly.
"Yes, it's Leah." Jacob said without hesitation.
I hadn't realized my other hand had lightly fluttered to the hollow of my throat. A sharp intake of air from my lungs and then quick exhale made me calmer. Why was I wound so tight? Did I think he was going to say me? Of course not, his heart belongs to Baby Nessie doesn't it?
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Meanwhile, Edward left with Emmett, Alice, and Tanya to go hunting. I wasn't thirsty at the moment, and I was a bit worried about the daggers Alice was shooting from her eyes at me today. She seemed much more bristled than usual around me. I stayed at the Cullen house watching their television.
"Bella."
I turned to Jacob's voice. He stood behind me his body heat was a raging fire and I swear it singed the atmosphere. His voice ran over me like some kind of decadent chocolate and I wanted to lick it up from his lips.
"Jacob, we should talk."
"I agree."
"So, maybe we should head out to La Push-"
"No. Somewhere else. Maybe my house, the mall…" He kept his eyes away from me as he was deciding where we should go.
"Okay, Hillside Mall, some miles from here. You can grab some food there; I know how you like to eat."
Jacob smiled at me. His perfectly white, perfectly lined teeth in sharp contrast to his eyes. His eyes were somber, but I pretended not to notice.
We made it a date then. In a few hours we were going to Hillside Mall and were going to shop and talk. Whether he minded doing this or not was of no concern. I wanted us to be away from the Cullen house.
"I need to check on Nessie first." Jacob looked away from me as he went upstairs to where Carlisle and Esme were teaching my daughter lettering, mathematics and such.
I shouldn't feel confused and rustled that he loves my daughter, which is what I want. He is like a Godfather to her. Yet my hands grab the couch ready to shred the cushions to ribbons because I know Jacob will leave me permanently- for Nessie.
And I can't have that.
While at Hillside Mall, Jacob and I share a coke like we used to so many eons ago it seem like. Women and little girls stared at Jacob with very distinct expressions. Some squinted their eyes
at him as if trying to figure him out but with a bit of lust in their eyes. Most women darted their eyes my way, but I quickly put on the hard game face. Jacob never paid them any mind.
"Okay, so we're here." I said. We both sat down in the crowded food court. Some music was playing softly in the background; children begging their parents for ice cream, and gooey pretzels.
"I talked with Chelsea- you know. The witch."
"Yeah, Edward said as much. What does this have to do with us, though?"
"I haven't been honest with my feelings and Chelsea sees that. You know I still love you, right Bella?" Jacob said to me. His eyes were smoldering.
"Yes. I love you too, Jacob. But Nessie-"
"Heh," he let out a sarcastic laugh. "I love Nessie to death. When she first turned her eyes to me and her soul imprinted onto mine, I felt a release. A release of holding on to you and thinking you could ever be mine." He took a sip of his soda.
"Jacob, I don't want to feel like I am complicating your life anymore. Yes I do have some feelings for you, but what could come of it? Edward would have your head if he finds out how you really feel about me."
"He'd have to fight me first, Bella. But that's beside the point." He leaned in closer to me. The round table was small, and he swallowed it with his large frame. I smelled the coke on his breath.
"Nessie is my life…and so are you."
At that moment we both heard a shrill scream coming from behind us.
I turned back, and saw to my utter horror, girl's throat being ripped out by a--
Wolf.