Chapter 1

"Dean, are you going to tell me what that was about in there?" Sam said closing the door.

Dean started the car and pulled out of the parking space. Sam sighed and rest his head on his hand against the frame of the window flicking on the radio. Sam shifted unsettling in the passengers seat.

"You know you can talk to me Dean. I mean we're supposed to be here for each other." Sam rest his hand on Dean's thigh. Dean glanced over at Sam. Thinking he was uncomfortable, he retracted his hand and continued to fiddle with the radio.

Dean quickly turned the radio off when Sam stopped on Top 40. They sat in silence for a good five miles. Sam looked back and forth feeling awkward enough to pick up the map off the floor before throwing it in the backseat. Dean ignored Sam as he stared forward. Fifteen minutes passed before he finally blurted out: "Okay. If you must know, I've been having..flashes."

Sam glanced down at his hands hoping he wasn't becoming a psychic. Praying that he didn't know he was still talking to Ruby. Not letting enough time to pass for Dean to start asking questions he replied, "Flashes?" as he shifted to face Dean.

Dean pulled off the road and switched off the car. "Of hell." He didn't quite know how to say what was going to come out next. "I haven't been completely honest about what happened to me..you know, downstairs."

"What else is there?" Sam wondered as he looked at Dean with anticipation. "You already told me about the souls you tortured and that you even enjoyed it." Sam rushed through the last few words not to sound unsympathetic to the way Dean had to had felt about the whole situation.

Dean wiped his face. "It's not about that..well not entirely."

Sam looked confused. "What could it possibly be then? You can tell me Dean." Sam put his hand on Dean should brushing his ear to reassure him that he was not going to judge him for anything.

Dean liked the comfort and grabbed Sam's hand grasping it tight before letting it go. "It's about Alistair. You don't know everything about what happened between us." Dean swallowed trying to get the lump out of his throat. "We..we we're..involved." Dean slumped his head as he glanced out of the corner of his eye to gauge Sam's reaction.

Sam looked at Dean with wide eyes hanging onto every word as if to recreate the setting with words alone. "Okay, how involved are we talking?"

Dean sighed. "Like he made me his bitch." Dean wiped his face and got out of the car, he paced back and forth as Sam got out of the car.

"Dean, you're not the only one with demons, Okay?" Sam gave his brother a big hug. He lingered. Deans eyes glanced back and forth as the hug lingered a little too long even for a comforting hug. Dean let his hand wander slightly down Sam's back and rest above his ass.

Sam felt his cock swell in his pants, Sam broke the embrace. Coughing into his fist trying to play off an awkward moment. Sam looked his brother over to see if he was going to be okay with he caught him staring at his shoes. "Yeah, so.."

"There's more Sammy."

Sam blinked a little speechless. "uh..."

Dean continued. "I..I liked it." Dean smirked slightly with a snort. "I made me feel almost..alive." He rose his head only to catch Sam staring at him. Dean licked his lips as he grabbed the back of his head, running his fingers through his hair.

Sam couldn't help himself as his libido got the best of him. He gently kissed Dean's lips, breathing him in. He opened his eyes slightly to look at Dean. He pushed him away letting the fever rush over him.

Dean blinked furiously, he couldn't believe what had just happened. He had loved Sam for years but he had no idea that he felt the same way. They had spent all their lives looking out for each other, protecting each other as feeling slowly grew.

Dean lifted his hand and softly brushed Sam's right cheek. "I..I didn't know you felt this way Sammy."

Sam quickly grabbed his hand and gently kissed his palm. "I would do anything, anything to keep you from falling apart." Sam looked into Deans eyes deep and longingly. "Please. Don't keep anything from me that would keep us apart..keep us from being honest with one another."

Dean kissed Sam deeply. "I'd never be anything but honest with you." He grabbed Sam by the waist and kissed him deeply melding their bodies together. Arching his body against Sam's tall frame tumbling them against the impala.

Sam pulled away from Dean slightly giggling at the situation. Sam ran his hands up Dean's back. "We should probably get to Bobby's."

Dean rose off Sam and brushed himself off. Sam stood up stealing a kiss from Dean while he was looking at their surroundings. "This doesn't mean I don't want you Dean, just that we should wait." Sam said coughing at the awkward silence. "Now let's go before he calls."

The boys climbed back into the car pulling back onto the road, clueless that they were being watch from the bushes.