Second chapter to my sunlight storyas if you didn't already know. I hope you like it
Disclaimer-I don't own Teen titans or the song 'Never let this go' by Paramore
Sunlight lies
Raven stole a glance at Beastboy as they walked slowly into the streets. Beastboy was smiling and the breeze lifted his hair and moved it around his face. Feeling her heart sink deep inside she looked back at the ground. Sighing heavily.
Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer
Again to anyone
Raven knew she shouldn't be near the changeling. He was the one person who made her emotions go completely haywire. Hiding in my room she knew she couldn't hurt anyone, especially him. Raven was insulting and mean to him, though never meaning any of it, just so that he'd leave her alone. No such luck. But deep inside a part of her knew that she would never hurt him, she feared that he would hurt her, feared his rejection. That was the true reason why she distanced her self from him.
Please don't get me wrong Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
"I've been meaning to speak to you...bout something" Beastboy blurted out, grabbing Ravens attention. Looking at the green boy, she frowned, not sure what to expect "well, talk about what?" she said impatiently, crossing her arms defensively across her chest."Well…" Beastboy paused not sure how to continue. "There's this guy…" he started. Raven rolled her eyes smirking slightly, this guy was so obviously him. Continuing Beastboy mumbled "he really likes this girl, I mean really likes her, but he's not sure how to tell her". Raven raised an eyebrow, what girl? she wasn't aware of any other girls in Beastboy's life. But then again she didn't know much about him anymore. Raven felt jealousy and sadness build inside her but ignored it best she could. Trying to look nonchalant, she replied "Well if this guy likes her as much as you say he should just…just tell her how he feels". Turning her head pretending to gaze at the city Raven fought back the tears.
One day you'll get sick of
saying that everything's alright
And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending
Just like I am tonight
Beastboy was confused, why was Raven being even more distant then usual? She wasn't even curious as to who the girl was. He'd known she'd figure out that the guy was him, but she didn't even seem to care. Beastboy hadn't known what to expect, he'd hoped for jealousy at least, maybe even if it was only a glimmer. Looking back at the gothic titan, he noticed a lone tear trickle down her cheek. "Rae…Rae what's wrong?" he asked, concerned. Raven suddenly looked straight at him their eyes locked together, Violet with emerald. Hers revealing a sadness he never knew existed, and his revealing desire, desire for her. Breaking the connection Raven mumbled "nothing, I feel ill I'm gonna go back to the tower". A lie of course.
Please don't get me wrong Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
"Wait, Raven I need to tell you something." Beastboy cried out. Ravens walk broke into a run. Beastboy began to chase after her changing into a cheetah, overtaking her he morphed back into his human form just before her, he held out his arms, becoming a barrier. "Move!!" Raven snapped crashing into his chest. "Not until I can tell you, Raven are you listening to me?" He questioned shaking her shoulders. "Raven, I'm the guy I was talking about...and your the girl I'm crazy about" Beastboy searched for a reaction but got none, she just stood there. "No" Raven breathed. "What" BB asked, "you don't want me, You want someone who actually cares about you. Your just annoying optimistic Beastboy to me, nothing more" Raven said coldly. Her words cut through him like a knife taking his breath away. "So just let it go" she added simply, turning into a raven of dark energy she returned to the tower.
Let this go, let this go
But I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
When she reached her room Raven ran inside falling onto her bed, Tears she'd been holding back fell freely now and she felt utterly alone, pushing people away was what she did, but pushing Beastboy away made her heart ache and his break. but she couldn't tell him the truth. Ever.
I'll never let this go
I can't find the words to tell you
That now I feel like I don't know you
I didn't like this chapter too much but i do love this song. hope you liked it, Please R & R
Gothic and Chaotic