I'm Giving up on You
When the door closed Naruto finally flipped the covers back down and stared up at the ceiling. He could still feel the warmth where Sasuke had been laying down and he had to fight not to simply roll over and take in the scent that was left. "I'm so pathetic," He muttered out loud before he decided to sit up and look out across his long time living area. It wasn't much, but he liked the shitty little apartment, it reminded him of where he started, as lonely and painful as it was. The torture he felt around Sasuke seemed so much worse in comparison sometimes.
There was a knock on the door and his eyes widened, "Just a sec!" he called out, hoping it wasn't Sasuke. He said he wouldn't be back until tomorrow, Sasuke didn't much like to deviate from his plans unless he had to. He scrambled around his apartment and grabbed whatever clothes he could find before he finally managed to pull the front door open.
"You look like a slob, as usual," Sakura said with a huff as she stepped inside carrying a basket. Naruto really hoped there wasn't food in there, she still didn't know how to cook.
"You always wake me up with a loud bang on the door, of course I look like a slob," Naruto pouted as he let her in rubbing at his back, it was an odd sensation all of a sudden, walking around.
"I'm actually surprised I didn't have to wait out there longer," she said as she walked into the kitchen and she placed the basket on the counter and lifted the cover from the top of it.
"What do you have there?" Naruto said, clearing his throat as he tried to act natural. Sakura was never the most perceptive person, her self centered behaviour had widely changed since the war, but that perception beyond the end of her nose was not one of the things that had changed.
"Why are you standing around like that, just sit down and let me worry about it," she said in an irritated voice. If Sakura ever spoke to him in a gentle tone, Naruto would seriously question her mental health. He was glad for the normalcy, he didn't want to think about Sasuke right now…he was tired of thinking of Sasuke.
"Fine, fine," Naruto said as he scratched behind his ear, "Why you here anyway?"
"We have to go to the tower, or don't you remember? You have a meeting," Sakura said angrily as she flicked his forehead and Naruto just laughed. He was used to this, he kind of wished that he wanted Sakura like he'd convinced himself of so many years ago, because liking girls was expected and normal…he wished maybe she wanted him to, that way Sasuke might not be able to manipulate him so easily.
"Why do I have to remember things when I have you Sakura? You're the best," He said with a grin as he leaned over the counter to look in the basket.
"You can be so annoying sometimes, I'm not going to wake you up next time, maybe then they'll see how unreliable you are," She muttered as she took a few pieces of fruit from the basket and rummaged around the kitchen for his utensils. She knew his apartment so well. Sakura was a little abrasive from time to time…it would have been so much easier, they might have even made sense.
Naruto let out another laugh, "Hey now, I might be lazy and dumb, but my work ethic is pretty good…usually," He said as he reached forward to grab a grape and managed to avoid the hand that tried to slap him. He peeled at the tough outside and popped it in his mouth, grin staying on his face.
"I guess, I mean…you've always pulled through when it mattered most," she said as she tipped her head.
"We should go to dinner, what do you say?" Naruto said.
"As friends?" Sakura asked, not even looking at him.
"If you want," Naruto shrugged. "I wouldn't mind if it wasn't as friends," He said, this was normal too, he'd asked her out plenty of times.
Sakura put the knife down and looked at him…the fact that she put it down was a good sign at least. "Naruto…" she said.
"Why do you have to look at me like that? Like I'm some kicked puppy," he said with a frown.
"Naruto…but you and Sasuke," She said quietly. "You said you loved him."
"So? You said the same thing," Naruto shrugged. He knew she still did, she really was better for Sasuke than him though…the only real issue he saw with them being a couple was how Sasuke would treat her. He was aggressive, and Sasuke was right, he wasn't always a good person. Sakura and he knew that already, but Naruto figured he had a much better chance at enduring that side of Sasuke. Sakura wanted to fix Sasuke, and Sasuke would never admit to the fissures in his existence. Sakura would be good for him, but Sasuke wasn't anywhere close to what she needed.
"Let's go as friends, I mean…we are, we've been friends forever. It'll be fun, maybe we can ask Sai to come along," She said, he was glad she didn't suggest Sasuke, but bringing him up now might have been insensitive to both of them.
"That's if they do get back today," Naruto said.
"Sai's pretty efficient, they'll be back," she said.
Naruto sighed as she began to place the sliced bits of fruit in a cup and went to make a few pieces of toast for them both. "I guess you're right," He said.
"You alright?" she asked.
"Hm? Why you ask?" this wasn't good, he was starting to feel guilty.
"You're acting weird," she said as she handed him a piece of toast and he opened his mouth and pointed at himself. "See, annoying," She muttered but placed the bread in his mouth and he clamped down with a chuckle.
He chewed slowly and he looked over his shoulder at the bed and when he looked back to Sakura her eyes were wide. "What?"
"Nothing," she insisted, but Naruto knew she was lying immediately.
"What would be so wrong about you and me anyway? I don't get it," Naruto said as he leaned back in his seat.
"Other than the fact that we both have it bad for some stupid jerk rather than each other? Nothing I guess," She said.
"Yeah, I guess that's pretty much a deal breaker," He muttered.
"Naruto?"
"Hm?"
"Did you sleep with Sasuke?" she asked and Naruto choked on his breakfast.
"Why would you even think that? I mean, I haven't talked to Sasuke in forever," He said after he regained whatever semblance of composure he was capable of.
"I saw him on my way over…and you keep looking over toward your bed. He didn't really want to talk to me. He didn't say anything even though I know he saw me. You're also acting really weird, I can't think of anything other reason. I mean, it could have been a fight, but you two fight all the time so why would you be acting weird unless something happened?" she said quietly.
Naruto kept a lot of things to himself, but he didn't really enjoy lying. He sighed heavily before he put the piece of toast down and took the cup of fruit Sakura handed to him. "He's probably pissed that I threw him out," Naruto said quietly.
"Why would you do that?" Sakura said, she didn't seem hurt…at least not in that betrayed sort of way. He didn't want to hurt her like that.
"Because I don't have the will power to deal with him," Naruto said quietly, he was wondering if he had the will power to resist.
"You, with no will power? Quit lying to me," She said as she started eating herself.
"I'm no good for him," He shrugged, great, now Sakura was calling him a liar.
"You're too good for him and probably the best thing for him, you're still being annoying," she said.
"Best thing for him? Yeah, right," Naruto muttered.
"You would be, you shouldn't have thrown him out," she said. He knew she meant that she would have taken the chance if she was given the opportunity, so she was giving him the okay to pursue Sasuke like it was Sakura that was holding him back. The only thing holding Naruto back was Sasuke himself.
"I don't want to enter a relationship that's screwed right from the beginning. I'm just going to wake up a year down the line to Sasuke realizing he doesn't actually want me, and then where am I going to be? Too far invested to try and pick myself back up, I don't want to deal with that," he said.
"Now you're just making excuses, since when have you been afraid of anything?" She said.
For some reason he could see Sasuke as a child making fun of him for choking when they headed out to wave country and he sighed. "It's my life Sakura, I'm going to do what I have to with it, and it just doesn't involve Sasuke like that. I have a village to worry about," He said as he stood up and he went to go grab his over shirt and his band. Sakura didn't get it, and neither did Sasuke.
-::0::-
The next day Naruto heard a knock at his door and he frowned. "Who is it?" He called out. Normally he'd just go and look, but he was lazy and comfortable lying on his bed with a few scrolls to look over.
"It's me," well, it really would be only one person.
Naruto sighed and he rolled over onto his front and was surprised when Sasuke didn't just let himself in. "It's open," he said…he didn't want to, but what other choice did he have?
The door clicked open and Sasuke closed it behind him as if he'd done it a thousand times when in fact, Naruto couldn't really remember Sasuke ever being to his apartment. He didn't like his familiarity because he had grown comfortable being alone, it was fucking awful sometimes, but it had to be better than this. Sasuke walked in much like Sakura did the morning previous and Naruto frowned. "What are you looking at?" Sasuke sounded colder than normal.
"What are you doing?" Naruto said. He didn't like where this was headed, not one bit.
"I'm making dinner," He said calmly.
"I already ate," Sasuke looked at him a moment and he started unpacking vegetables and Naruto grimaced.
"You're lying," Sasuke said quietly and Naruto cursed inwardly before he rolled over to the edge of his bed and he stood.
"Quit saying that you bastard," Naruto said, irritated.
"Then quit fucking lying to me," Sasuke said not even looking up from what he was doing, Sasuke always knew how to make him feel like shit without saying much at all.
"Why do you always have to be a pain in my ass Sasuke?" He said as he headed over to the counter.
"That's your problem, not mine," he said as he sliced through a few of the things he brought.
"You know, Sakura comes over and does this sort of stuff all the time," Naruto said, hoping to piss him off, maybe he'd leave.
"At least someone else cares that you don't kill yourself with the disgusting shit you eat," He said as he moved around the kitchen and started preparing something else.
"Fine…do you even know how to cook?" He asked, he knew it wouldn't have been that easy, but it was worth a try.
"I've been alone since I was eight, don't you think I'd have learned to take care of myself since then?" He said. He sounded so neutral, so different than he would have a few years ago talking about his family.
"I suck at cooking," He said, and he'd been alone a lot longer.
"You're a moron, would you expect anything more?" he said as he began cooking and Naruto looked over his shoulder at his apartment. He might have laughed if there wasn't so much on his mind.
"You know she loves you right?" He said, they both knew he was talking about Sakura.
"And?" Sasuke didn't seem bothered, but Naruto could see the tension in his shoulders. He could hear Sasuke thinking 'why won't you say it instead?'
"Never mind, Need any help?" Naruto said.
"Wash those," He pointed to the basket and Naruto shook his head. This was too familiar, Sasuke was acting like he hadn't left, like he'd been here the whole time and like Naruto should just forgive him for everything he'd done. It wasn't about forgiveness though, that's the one thing Sasuke didn't get.
"Fine, fine," He said as he did as he was instructed.
"What I don't understand is if you know about her feelings, why did you sleep with me anyway?" Sasuke was trying to aggravate him. Naruto wish he could have helped reacting.
"It was a mistake you asshole," Naruto said angrily, if only to keep any other emotion out of his voice.
"You've known her better than I have for years now, I bet she trusted you," he said.
"I wouldn't expect someone like you to understand," Naruto said.
"It has to be for something bigger than attraction," Sasuke said.
Naruto glared at Sasuke's back, he understood now. he was trying to get him to admit it, well fuck that. "You know, if you want any chance at this working out I'd really suggest trying a different approach," Naruto muttered.
Sasuke looked at him for the first time and he could see that he wanted to rebel against him. Instead his lips flattened into a straight line and he grunted in response. "I don't know what you want from me," He said.
"I want you to get out of my apartment, and go find someone else to mistreat," Naruto said. If it hadn't been for those two years Sasuke decided to disappear, Naruto knew he would have fallen at Sasuke's feet. He would have been everything that Sasuke needed him to be. He was older now, maybe not by much, but he had a village to worry about, a village that he couldn't sacrifice for Sasuke. He knew Sasuke could destroy him if he let him, he wouldn't let him.
Sasuke was pressed against him a moment later, locking him against the counter and Naruto felt his will power beginning to crumble. If he wasn't careful, he'd give in again and he couldn't guarantee he could stop himself next time. "You think that's what this is? You think I'm the one mistreating you when it's you who has been dragging me through the dirt?" his voice was dangerous, murderous even.
"I hardly think rejecting you after you abandoned me is dragging you through the dirt," Naruto said, trying to keep up a strong front as he leaned back over the counter.
"So the person you want me to mistreat is Sakura then?" Sasuke said, his hands resting on the counter at either side of Naruto.
"Quit twisting my words!" Naruto said, moving until they were chest to chest, feeling that anger spark inside of him. He remembered when Sasuke pissed him off like this when they were children.
"Then start saying what you mean!" Sasuke hissed before he leaned forward and pressed his lips against Naruto's…that wasn't good.
When Sasuke pulled back Naruto's eyes opened slowly and he had to jump start his brain, "Don't burn my house down…" he said softly as he heard the sound of heat coming from the stove.
"Of course not, that might be considered doing you a big enough favour to get you out of this shithole," he said as he pulled back finally allowing Naruto to stand straight.
"I like my apartment," Naruto said with a frown.
"I wouldn't expect much more from someone so simple minded," Sasuke said. He could see Sasuke trying to be playful in that twisted way that they used to be, Naruto wish he could have responded in kind.
"I guess," Naruto said.
"What's with you?" Sasuke said finally.
"Nothing, what else do you need help with?" He asked.
Sasuke looked at him, not believing him, but turned back to what he was doing before rattling off a few orders and Naruto gave in and helped Sasuke out regardless of how conflicted he was feeling. When it was done they had a delicious smelling curry on the table and they sat across from one another. The small talk was unbearable, but to Naruto's credit, he managed to get Sasuke to leave without sleeping with him.
-::0::-
Sasuke fell into this weird routine that left Naruto's life a giant mess of confusion. If Naruto wasn't on a mission, he'd stop by every night to prepare dinner for him, they'd talk or sometimes just sit quietly and exist. They never really needed to say too much to one another. Naruto hated that he was beginning to feel comfortable again even though every morning Sakura would prepare him breakfast before asking about his time with Sasuke.
"It's late, I think you should go," Naruto said quietly.
"Is this how it's going to be?" Sasuke said as he looked down at their empty plates.
"What did you expect, Sasuke? Am I supposed to just fall into bed with you whenever you feel like it?" Naruto asked in all seriousness.
Sasuke's jaw shifted "That's not what I meant, and you know it," Sasuke said.
"Well, we've had dinner, that's pretty standard. I had a good time…mostly, so you know…go home Sasuke," he couldn't say no, no matter how hard he tried, the words to cut Sasuke's hopes off just wouldn't come out. It wasn't really like Sasuke had shown any further interest in sleeping with him again.
Sasuke's lip twitched and he stood up and gathered the plates, "Let me do the dishes first, then I'll leave," he said.
Naruto watched him move to the small kitchen and he shook his head and followed after. "Let's spar tomorrow," Naruto said as he began helping the process along.
"I haven't been to the grounds yet," Sasuke admitted to him.
"You've been gone for a long time, Sasuke I can't just…I can't, I'm trying," He said quietly as looked down at the plate in his hand.
Sasuke watched him, it was kind of said at random, but Naruto kind of forgot how to function properly anyhow. Sasuke didn't say anything, he was expecting Sasuke to make fun of him. He wasn't expecting Sasuke to lean forward and catch his lips in a kiss that was far too tender and understanding. It was going to break his resolve and he'd been holding on so furiously to it. Naruto responded to it with slowly gaining skill. When he pulled back Naruto's eyes lingered shut and only opened when Sasuke finally spoke. "I'm not a patient person," he said.
Naruto looked at him and remained quiet as he put the last dish on his ugly little drying rack. "Yeah, I know," Naruto said quietly. It wasn't that Sasuke was threatening him, Naruto could hear in there somewhere that Sasuke was trying too. He was waiting even though it was against who he was. Naruto suddenly felt like he was fighting a losing battle. He looked down at their feet for a moment before he looked up at Sasuke with a smirk on his face. They'd been at this for a few weeks now, this painful co-existence, "Wanna have sex on the counter?"
Sasuke's brow rose, and for a brief moment he looked intrigued. He leaned forward and caught Naruto's lips a second time, leaving him equally as moved as the first. "I'll be back tomorrow," He said quietly before he grabbed his things and headed for the front door without another word.
Naruto stared in front of him where Sasuke had been and tried to ignore the fact that he was shaking. He tried to ignore the fact that Sasuke saw right through him…if it was just sex, then maybe it wouldn't hurt as bad when Sasuke brought down the skies around him. "Tomorrow…" He murmured to his empty apartment, tomorrow Sasuke would come back and he'd be quiet and stoic and understanding. He'd be everything Naruto needed, everything that he didn't think Sasuke knew how to be.
"Shit…" Naruto muttered as he headed toward the door, maybe a walk would clear his head.
-::0::-
"How've you two been?" Sakura asked as she cleaned around his house and Naruto snorted.
"Fine I guess," Naruto said.
"You're living the dream Naruto, I don't get why you aren't happy," she said.
Naruto rubbed at his face and he groaned, "It's not that easy," Naruto said.
"Why not?" Sakura asked.
"Why do you think?" Naruto actually started to help when he was usually so content to let Sakura clean his apartment while she bitched at him about it.
"I guess there is a lot of history…" she said quietly as she rearranged some things that Naruto would probably end up bumping out of place anyway. "He came back though," she smiled.
"But why?" Naruto asked quietly.
"You'd probably have to ask him. I'm not going to pretend I know anything that goes on in his head," She said. Maybe that's why she wasn't good for Sasuke, she didn't understand him. She'd been so unbelievably selfish in the past in regards to Naruto's lack of parents on multiple occasions. It was probably hard to understand people like Sasuke and himself, she'd probably do the same to Sasuke by accident, and no matter how long it had been since Sasuke's family had been murdered, he wasn't as understanding as Naruto.
"I can't see that discussion going far," Naruto said.
"So, what's he like in bed?" She asked, leaning on the kitchen counter with a perverted grin on her face.
Naruto felt the heat surge up to his face and he shook his head, "The hell? That's really none of your business," He said in comical outrage.
"Oh come on, I want to know!" She said with a coy smile.
Naruto scrunched his nose. That shit was private, but he felt himself talking anyway. "I dunno…he was kind of rough the first time, but it was good," Naruto said rubbing at the back of his head. It had felt good, but there was an edge to Sasuke that he imagined was dangerous, even if it had dulled considerably over the past couple of months.
"And after?" She said nodding.
Naruto looked at here with a frown before he just shrugged, "Dunno."
"You mean you've only done it once?" She said in disbelief.
"Why does that matter?" Naruto said, suddenly wondering if there was something wrong with him or maybe there was something wrong with Sasuke.
"You have Sasuke, what more could you want?" She exclaimed. "What are you waiting for?"
Naruto looked away and he took two unguided steps around his apartment, he didn't want Sasuke because of how he looked, it was a welcome bonus, but it wasn't anywhere near everything. "I don't really feel like talking about it, how about we go grab breakfast out today, yeah?" He said with a grin.
"Spoil sport," She pouted but she moved toward the door in agreement.
He was waiting for Sasuke to realize how much of a mistake wanting him was.
-::0::-
"That was great," Naruto said panting heavily as he flopped down onto his back. When his eyes opened he was faced with a deepened sky of soft lavenders and warm pinks as the sun started going down. "I don't remember the last time I've had a sparring session like that," Naruto admitted. They had made promises of sparring, but there they were three months later and this was the first time they'd ever made it to the training grounds.
Sasuke was panting as well, but mostly through his nose. His chest shimmered in a light sheen of sweat and he took two steps toward Naruto before he sat down and leaned back on one arm. "Hm, yeah," he said as he looked up at the sky.
Naruto watched Sasuke, the other man had suggested doing this in the heat of another argument the day before. It felt almost natural again, right…he supposed the only time they were ever right was when they were fighting in some fashion. This kind didn't hurt as much though. This wasn't a battle of words that Naruto would never win. "That was fun, yeah?" Naruto said, smiling.
Sasuke seemed tense, but when he finally met Naruto's gaze he nodded. "Yeah, it felt…"
Naruto felt bad, he knew he'd been more than difficult and Sasuke was paying the price for it. He wanted to put an end to it, to everything, to all this false hope building inside of him. "What? Say it," Naruto said quietly.
"Like before," Sasuke said quietly.
He didn't know how two words could hurt so much, but he let out a soft laugh anyway. "It did, didn't it?" Naruto said quietly. Maybe…maybe if that hurt went away, it could work, they could work.
"Hn…" Sasuke looked back up and a long period of silence fell between them. It was nearly comfortable in the same way that things felt nearly normal between them.
"I can see why Shikamaru likes this," Naruto said quietly.
"Likes what?" Sasuke didn't look at him.
"Cloud watching...it's nice and calm, and it's kind of pretty," Naruto said.
"I wasn't aware he did that…" Sasuke said.
"I guess not," Sasuke, to his knowledge, didn't do much outside of being on his own, probably spending time with Sakura, and feeding Naruto as it were.
"We spend a lot of time together I guess, he's going to be my advisor when everything is settled," Naruto said feeling a grin pull on his face. "He'd probably be better at this whole Hokage thing than me if he had any will to be active," he smirked.
"How are either of you going to get anything done?" Sasuke asked, it was good that he seemed to remember some things. It wasn't as if he'd never been here.
Naruto laughed to himself, "I dunno, I think it'll work out," he said. He liked Shikamaru, he'd at least make him stop and think and he probably wouldn't hit him like Sakura, to make things happen. "At least I'm punctual," he'd always been good at that if there wasn't something vastly more important weighing him down.
"One can hope," Sasuke muttered as he ran his fingers through his hair. It was beginning to cool down, and the heavy heat of their sparring match was no longer suffocating.
"Sasuke?"
"Hn…" that usually meant he was at least listening.
"What are you going to do now? Being back here that is…" Naruto hadn't dared to ask, because he knew Sasuke wouldn't side himself with Naruto or the village. There had to be too much bad blood between them, and Sasuke wasn't very forgiving.
"Probably work on private contract…fix up my home, those sorts of things," he said. Naruto wondered if fixing up a family was one of those things.
"Ah…sounds boring," Naruto said.
"Your attention span has always been short," Sasuke smirked.
"I don't know if you've noticed, but I'm going to be Hokage, and who has been saying that since they were twelve? Huh?" Naruto growled.
"Sure," Sasuke pushed at his face and Naruto managed another laugh as he pushed Sasuke's hand away.
He watched Sasuke's face for a while, amazed he could hold Sasuke's gaze for so long before an idea crossed his mind. "Think if we did it here, that anyone would see?" He said with a smirk.
Sasuke shook his head, "I don't think that would be a good idea," he said.
"You say that every time," Naruto muttered. He wasn't really one to question the act, all he really knew was that it felt good regardless of whether he'd been opposed to bottoming at first.
"You know, acting like a slut really doesn't suit you," Sasuke said. It was rare that he was so brutally honest anymore.
Naruto's face twisted into some sort of a snarl and he snorted. "Screw off, you want to be together, but you don't want to be more than friends. Make up your mind," Naruto muttered. How could you be a slut when you'd lost your virginity weeks before with no encore? Sasuke made no sense.
"I don't want you to hate yourself afterward," Sasuke said…that was how he had felt, wasn't it?
"Are you saying that for me, or for you?" Naruto said, his lip twitching.
"Isn't it obvious?" it was, that's what the scary thing was…Naruto was starting to believe Sasuke. It was starting to feel like the only one playing games was Naruto.
"I'm hungry," He said after a while and he sat up.
Sasuke was quiet as he stood before he reached down to slip his arms back through the sleeves of his shirt. The bottom hem had been trapped in the belt that hung at his hips; he had simply let the shirt dangle as they sparred. "My place is closer," Sasuke said.
Naruto looked off toward the Uchiha district and he nodded. "I've never been to your place before," Naruto said quietly.
"It's nothing special," Sasuke said…only the place his family had died in. It seemed too sacred to take lightly.
"If you want," Naruto said quietly, giving Sasuke the first luxury of decision. He had a feeling something had changed between them, but he didn't know what it was. He'd been good at reading people, at sorting out the impressions he had of people he met and the things they said. They were only impressions though, he'd never really been great at identifying what he sorted through, only that people were either good or bad, honest, or liars. The in between was a lot more difficult to put names to.
"Let's go," He said and Naruto quickly grabbed his coat and he followed after Sasuke.
People nodded to them as they walked by, sometimes with smiles on their faces, sometimes not. He wondered what it must be like for some people, seeing the monsters of the past and present walking together in the streets somewhat peacefully. His eyes were focused more on Sasuke though, every once in a while he'd look down. People knew about them, he'd received choice words of caution from Shikamaru, and maybe a little teasing from Kiba and who knows what from the girls, but they were mostly okay. His heart started hammering in his chest, it was so intense that he thought Sasuke would hear it for sure, but Sasuke kept on. He hesitantly reached forward, this was stupid because he wasn't afraid of anything…well, he wasn't afraid of much, Sasuke had always been the exception. His fingers touched Sasuke's and the man pulled back and looked at Naruto for a moment with wide eyes. "Sorry…" he said and he rubbed at the back of his neck and he looked off into the crowd, and much to his chagrin he admitted he wanted to run. He wanted to tell Sasuke that maybe they could see one another tomorrow.
"Hn…" was all Sasuke said, and Naruto thought he was going to drop it. It was five steps forward before he felt Sasuke's hand close around his.
Naruto nearly sighed in relief and for that pulse bursting fear he felt moments prior, there was a sudden surge of pride that flooded through him. This hand meant Sasuke was his and how dare anyone judge Sasuke for things they hadn't even known he'd done. That wasn't their right, judgement wasn't their right. He could feel an almost peaceful aura around them as they closed in on the Uchiha district, still abandoned. He imagined Sasuke viewed this as a small victory and Naruto couldn't really look at it as the huge defeat he would have defined it as the day before. "This is your house?" Naruto said quietly.
"Of course," Sasuke said, like Naruto should know. The thing was though, it looked cleaner, it looked brighter and more vibrant than the other houses.
"Have you been fixing it up?" Naruto asked as they stepped inside. The paint seemed fresh, but there were echoes of a life here other than Sasuke, lives even.
"I take odd jobs sometimes, there are a few who pay me well enough to buy the things I need," Sasuke said.
Naruto opened his mouth, he wanted to tell Sasuke that he had a job if he'd just ask for it. He had a pretty shitty sense of when not to say certain things, but something was telling him just to keep his mouth shut for once. "I like it…" He said quietly.
"I'm glad you approve," Sasuke said sardonically, but there was a quirk to his lip.
"I guess my approval doesn't really matter," Naruto let out a laugh as he slipped his shoes off and followed Sasuke inside. He could feel Sasuke's life before everything went so wrong. He could sense it in the way things were arranged, Naruto would bet anything that nothing had moved since they'd died…like a shrine. He found himself wanting to know more, wanting to make sure that whoever they were, that they loved Sasuke so he could have at least been blessed for a little while.
"Hn, what would you like?" He asked.
"Probably be way too good to be true if you had ramen in here somewhere, huh?" Naruto said.
Sasuke chuckled and shook his head, "I think my mother would find a way to strike me down if I brought it in here. She never let us have the stuff," He said quietly, as if it didn't hurt. He was happy if that were really the case, he didn't know yet.
"It's so big," Naruto said quietly as they walked into the kitchen, he barely had three separate rooms in his apartment, he could already see four doors down the hall.
"Mhmm," Sasuke said as he began to grab some things and start cooking.
He'd said the wrong thing, he could tell. Of course it was big, it was a huge mass of space just like his apartment was. Anything was huge when you were alone. The difference was, this was the perfect place if Sasuke decided he wanted to rebuild his clan. "What are we having?" their life seemed to revolve around food. Maybe it was because they were both so socially stupid, that this was the most basic spot they knew that social interaction was supposed to happen. Naruto knew that Sasuke would never hang out with his friends, and his friends had been giving him space while he'd been so moody.
"Omelette on rice," Sasuke said simply.
Naruto leaned on the counter and Sasuke looked like he was about to say something, but decided against it. "Teach me how to make it?" Naruto asked, trying to be a little more optimistic.
"And let you burn my house down?" Sasuke snorted.
"Come on jerk, isn't it supposed to be easy?" He growled.
"Then why haven't you figured it out?" He said stepping into his space.
"Don't have much time to learn how to cook when I have people who do it so willingly for me," Naruto snorted. Naruto never had to cook anymore between Sasuke and Sakura.
"You're so well kept," He muttered.
"It's nice being babied," Naruto shrugged. He'd never felt it before, no one had ever wanted to take care of him, Naruto included. Sasuke quieted down and he kind of hoped that he hadn't caught on to the meaning behind what he said.
"Get over here," He said and Naruto grinned as he leaned over the stove a little. "Not too close dumbass," he growled.
"I wasn't even close!" Naruto yelled at him before Sasuke began to concentrate and run him through the seemingly easy steps. It was easy, it was comfortable, and there was a sense of lightheartedness where Naruto hadn't been expecting it. The night gradually led the bedroom with Naruto on his side and Sasuke pressed behind him making his body sing. He was moving with slow languid thrusts until they both fell over the edge that left Naruto deliciously trembling in the aftermath.
"We need to do that more often," He said softly as he twisted to lay on his back, his head turned to look at Sasuke.
"Agreed," He said, he sounded sated.
Naruto smiled quietly and with his arm closest to Sasuke he coaxed him downward from where he was leaning over him on his elbow. Their lips met, this might have been what he liked best, the brief moment of peace he felt in Sasuke. "I don't hate myself…" he said quietly.
Sasuke watched him before he settled down onto the bed and wrapped his arms around Naruto's torso. "You don't hate yourself…what else?" Sasuke asked.
Naruto's disposition changed, Sasuke was still looking for it. He should give it to Sasuke, he'd never been so selfish before. "Why did you leave?" Naruto asked instead.
Sasuke eyes lingered on him before he leaned on his back too and he threw his forearm over his eyes. "I knew what was waiting for me here, and freedom looked appealing," He said quietly.
"You'd lie to me now?" He asked, it was a horrible exploitation of their intimacy.
Sasuke tensed, "Maybe this was a mistake," he said. Naruto didn't believe that either, but it hurt all the same. Sasuke probably knew that already though. He probably knew it and said it anyway.
Naruto thought to himself as he turned to look at the pile of clothes that was laying on the floor. "You were afraid…" He said quietly.
"I'm not afraid of anything," Sasuke said. Naruto was willing to bet he meant 'hardly anything'.
"You were afraid it was too late…" it was one of those in between impressions Naruto could only guess at. Sasuke thought he might not be waiting.
"It's starting to feel more and more like I was right," He said, his voice deeper than normal.
"If you really think this was a mistake, then maybe you are right," Naruto said as he rolled toward the edge of the bed and rubbed at his eyes before he made to get dressed.
"Naruto…" he liked the way his name sounded on Sasuke's lips, he wished he'd say it more often.
"You owe me lunch since I beat you at the training grounds, asshole, I'm not forgetting it," He said and as soon as his pants were on he headed out the door, happy enough to throw his shirt on as he walked away from Sasuke's home.
-::0::-
"Why are you fighting this so adamantly?" Sasuke asked, he didn't sound too angry but Naruto imagined beneath that mask of indifference that Sasuke was seething. There had been so much tension between them since he'd walked out on Sasuke. He didn't want to move forward if both of them were having doubts…maybe he just liked that Sasuke was chasing him for once. He didn't know who he was anymore, Sasuke was the only person who could do this to him.
"We don't make sense," Naruto shrugged.
"That's the weakest response I've ever heard," Sasuke said.
"It's not like no one else wants me, or you for that matter," Naruto said.
"You mean that Hyuuga girl?" Sasuke asked.
Naruto shrugged, "I dunno anymore. I think you and Sakura could work…"
"Every time she looks at you, she's going to remember that other boy, how can you build a relationship on that?" Sasuke hadn't been there, but Naruto was sure he mentioned it after the war had closed, when they were being treated and waiting to mobilize home, before Sasuke disappeared from his life for what seemed like the millionth time.
Naruto pushed Sasuke back angrily, but he didn't punch him this time. He'd lost the will to fight Sasuke like that outside of the training grounds shortly after he'd punched him the first time. He doubted Sasuke would fall for it twice anyway. "That other boy's name was Neji, or could you not remember? Oh, right how could you know…that was when you...you never really knew him, did you?" Naruto trailed off and he looked off to the side, he could feel the anger vibrating through his body as he clenched his fingers into fists at his side. "What am I supposed to see when I look at you Sasuke? She's going to see Neji dying to protect us, and I'm going to see nothing but your arm through my chest, and the empty spot where you abandoned us. I don't know which one's more torture, the fact that someone loved us enough to protect us, or that you didn't love us enough to stay," If Naruto was completely truthful, he thought about the Valley of the End, but never because Sasuke could have killed him rather than he hadn't been strong enough.
Sasuke was watching him, Naruto could see with every word he said, Sasuke realizing his poor choice of words. He was getting sloppy in his impatience. He wasn't thinking his arguments through. "How about when you tried to kill me a second time…or when you tried to kill Sakura? How about that time when you left us again, isn't that what I should think about in this fucked up relationship Sasuke? You've pretty much forced me to be worried about how long we have until you leave,"
"You still haven't forgiven me," Sasuke said quietly.
"That's the fucked up part, is that I have. I've never felt like I needed to, but it doesn't stop me from thinking about it," he said.
"I don't think you know what forgiveness means," Sasuke said.
"Yeah, I don't know what a lie is either according to you. You can't ask me to un-know the things you did Sasuke, it doesn't work that way, the word you're looking for is forget," he said.
"I told you, I'm not a good person," Sasuke said.
"I know who you are Sasuke…" it was the same answer Naruto had given him months ago. The only thing was that Naruto didn't believe Sasuke was a bad person. Sasuke was here, he was moving at a glacial pace because of Naruto…every time Naruto wanted to move forward recklessly, Sasuke would stop him. A bad person wouldn't try to save Naruto from himself.
"Yet you won't believe me, do you want me to say it again?" Sasuke said.
"You don't have to," Naruto said.
"Then what do you want?"
Naruto bit his lip and he looked off to the side, "I want a world where any of this makes sense."
"The only one confused is you," Sasuke said.
Naruto really didn't think so, "I'm tired," Naruto said.
"Hn…It is late, I'll leave," Sasuke said.
Sasuke wasn't getting angry at him when he probably should be. It wasn't fair that just as soon as he felt healed from all their hardship enough to let Sasuke go was the moment Sasuke finally decided he cared enough to come back into his life. "You can sleep here," Naruto said weakly it was very late.
"Do you think that's a good idea?" Sasuke said.
Naruto shrugged, "We'll just sleep, where's the harm in that?" except that it was far more intimate than anything Naruto had allowed so far. They'd slept together, sure, but they hadn't actually slept together, not like this.
Sasuke watched him, he was always watching him, and after a long moment of contemplation Sasuke nodded. Preparation for bed was methodical and Naruto wondered if they could be on the same page for just a moment, if his life would stray from unpredictability into routine if he gave in.
Naruto slipped into his double wide. It left hardly enough room for Sasuke to do much more than throw his arm over him. Naruto wished the safe embrace would translate to his mind and then maybe he could just concede. "Say it," Sasuke said after a while.
Naruto's throat was dry and he opened his mouth, but it felt too much like sealing his fate. He had no real issue with absolutes, but he couldn't find the words. "Is now really the time?"
"I think it's well past time," Sasuke said, he could hear the anger, but Sasuke just held on tighter.
"Go to sleep Sasuke," He murmured.
-::0::-
"You should fix up the garden area," Naruto said as they sat out on the deck overlooking the untended yard.
"It's not really my thing," Sasuke muttered.
Naruto leaned back on his arms and his feet swayed where they hung over the ledge of the deck. Sasuke had a lot of time on his hands now, he wondered why he wasn't open to learning. "Maybe not, it just seems odd that you're fixing the rest of the house and this is going to stay…like this," It was overgrown and could do with a little weeding.
Sasuke sucked in a deep breath through his nose before he took another bite of the apple he'd been tending to for the past while. "My father used to deal with the garden," he said calmly.
"Yeah?" Naruto had seen the man maybe once or twice that he could ever remember outside of photos. He didn't seem like the type.
"Mhmm, I think it helped keep him calm. I really don't know," he shook his head.
"Gardening can be pretty soothing," Naruto said quietly. He kind of liked it, he'd kept a few small plants outside his window a few times. Extended missions seemed to get in the way of it, so he hadn't started anything up in a while.
"He let me help once, I dunno, he kept to himself a lot. I thought it was one of the most exciting days of my life," his voice didn't betray a thing.
"If you don't know what to do, I might be able to help," Naruto offered hesitantly, he was committing…he was kind of committed anyway.
"You? What could you possibly do to help?" Sasuke's brow rose.
"Che, you're a dick. I happen to be pretty good at it, so do you want my help or not?" Naruto growled as he sat up a little straighter only to lean closer to Sasuke in some feigned attempt at intimidation.
"I find that hard to believe," Sasuke said unaffected, Naruto felt like he could never get a reaction out of Sasuke when he wanted one.
"What do you think I did all day? Sat and twiddled my thumbs? No, I trained and when I couldn't do that anymore I found other things to do," Naruto was getting a little angry, but he tried to keep it in check, especially if the potential garden that was left behind was important.
"If you think you're up to it then. It's a pretty large area, whatever you could grow in that apartment of yours probably can't compare," Sasuke said.
"I can do anything," Naruto said as he leaned back again.
"I bet," Sasuke said before he leaned back until he was lying down.
Naruto looked down at him before he flopped back too and he rested a bare heel on the banister. "What was your mom like?" Naruto asked.
"Gentle…I guess. She always seemed to know exactly what to say and do exactly what was necessary for me to feel better when she had a moment," Sasuke said quietly and he rubbed at his eyes as if he were tired. "I don't even remember her voice," he whispered.
Naruto watched him before he rolled over and threw one arm over his torso. He rested his cheek on Sasuke's shoulder, Naruto rested there with his eyes half lidded. "I'm glad that you have those sorts of memories though," he said quietly. It was a genuine moment. It wasn't snarky, it wasn't judgemental, teasing, or downright cruel, it was genuine.
"Really?" Sasuke sounded offended for a moment before he relaxed and let it slide. Naruto hadn't meant anything bad, he was envious in a way. It was funny how a snapshot on one life was a lifetime in another, he didn't want Sasuke worrying about him and his lack of life time though.
"They loved you so much," Naruto whispered against Sasuke's collar and he tightened his grip around Sasuke so hard he felt like he could have crushed him. Sasuke didn't talk about them often, and the moments he remembered seemed so small and insignificant, but Naruto could see vast expanses of affection in each small detail.
"Maybe…" Sasuke sounded like he was fighting to get the words out, it wasn't long before he rested his hand on Naruto's shoulder blade.
"No maybe," Naruto said quietly and he let his hold relax, but Sasuke didn't let him go.
If there was ever a moment to say it, it might have been then...
-::0::-
"You're clearly still pissed with me," Sasuke said. They'd been together for a year now, some sort of fucked up together anyway. Sasuke had forced his way into the relationships that surrounded Naruto. He did it just for him, so that Naruto would feel comfortable being able to care for everyone in his life at once. Naruto was thankful, but it didn't fix everything. Even though they had learned to have fun again, they'd sparred, they'd talked and just were stupid together, it didn't fix everything.
"I'm not mad at you, but if you're going to start a fight, I will be soon," Naruto muttered. He was daring Sasuke to keep talking.
"How many times are we going to have this fight?" Sasuke asked.
This was a dangerous place to argue. He'd been spending far too much time at Sasuke's house, it was too real and too raw. He should have insisted they go to his place, nothing was sacred there. "Until you get it through your head that I forgave you a long time ago Sasuke!"
"Then why doesn't it feel like it?" he said. He was growing desperate, Naruto could feel it coming. Sasuke was going to leave him, and Naruto had abstained long enough that maybe he wouldn't break when it happened.
"You're the one not letting go," Naruto said quietly.
"Then why won't you say it, I know you feel it even though you seem to enjoy treating me like dirt," Sasuke growled. It was funny that Sasuke thought their roles had reversed.
"You ran for seven years, I'd think you could handle one," Naruto growled, and they were chest to chest again in the middle of the living area.
"I already told you that I'm not a patient person," Sasuke said.
"Do you really want me to say it Sasuke? Because it's not going to mean anything if you make me," Naruto said.
Sasuke was quiet for a long moment, he was trying to formulate a plan. He did this a lot when they fought, he'd try and use Naruto's rashness against him usually. "What are you so afraid of?" He asked.
"Just go ahead and say it Sasuke, tell me you're tired of this okay?" It would save them the trouble, because they were coming apart at the seams.
"I'm not leaving. I told you that already," Sasuke said.
"Maybe not physically," Naruto said, he was tired of this fight too.
"I don't take your meaning," he said.
"You don't want me…you think you do, but you don't. You should just leave me and get it over with!" Naruto was too weak to leave.
"Quit telling me what to do!" Sasuke growled low in his throat and advanced on him. Naruto felt his back press against the wall as he glared at Sasuke.
"You're going to get tired of this, I don't know why we have to keep doing this," Naruto yelled.
"Is that what you want?"
"Why does it matter what I want, I can see you're getting sick of this," Naruto said.
"Answer the question,"
"No."
"No, it's not what you want, or no you're not answering?" Sasuke said.
It was both, but Sasuke didn't need to know that, "Get off me," Naruto said.
"Why do you have to be so damned stubborn? We both want this, why can't you just be happy that things are going right for once?" Sasuke said.
"How long will it last though?" Naruto asked.
"I'm not going anywhere, I know you've deluded yourself into thinking I will because you haven't forgiven me. Just tell me…what do I have to do to make you believe otherwise?" Sasuke pleaded. Naruto didn't know that he liked this side of Sasuke.
"I've forgiven you, I'm not going to say it again," Naruto said. Part of him wanted to give in and be that person that he would have been years ago. He wanted to welcome Sasuke into his life and make him believe that everything was fine, make him believe that he was a good person, that they could do anything because they were indomitable.
"Then what is it? I'm running out of ideas here," Sasuke said. He still hadn't moved away from him, his scent was intoxicating and maybe that was part of the reason he snapped.
"Yeah? What happens when you decide that I'm not enough? When you decide that you want to rebuild your clan? Where do I fit into your plans Sasuke? When have I ever fit into your plans?" he never had, that was beyond true at this point, and he was selfish enough for it to kill him every time he thought of it. "I've always just been an obstacle to you, what's one more time?"
"I…" Sasuke was stunned. He had very rarely ever seen Sasuke at such a loss for words.
"See, that's it, isn't it? There's no room for me in your life, so let's just call it quits now before we're in too deep," He whispered quietly and he could feel the emotion pulling, forcing the tears to well up in his eyes. Naruto was in too deep.
"No…I'm not doing that," he said, his hands moved to Naruto's arms and the blonde turned his head.
"Don't make it harder than it needs to be Sasuke! I knew it, you didn't even think about it. You just blindly acted like you always do! You never see everything!" he never saw how badly he broke Naruto.
"What makes you think I haven't thought about it? You think it's not obvious that I'm the only one here Naruto? You think I don't know that, when every day I wake up and hear nothing outside? This is my life, and the one time I try to allow someone else into it you pick a fight with me like a vindictive…"
"Go on, say it," Naruto dared.
"I only want you," Sasuke said weakly.
"For now," Naruto wished he could step back, he wished it even more so when Sasuke's lips descended over his. It didn't cure the madness between them like he wished it would.
Sasuke shook his head when he pulled back. "I'm not letting you go," He said.
"You've always wanted a family," Naruto said. He did too, but their definitions weren't the same.
"You are my family," Sasuke hissed and Naruto shook his head.
"Is it enough?" Naruto asked. Naruto wished he was the selfless person everyone thought he was. He'd let Sasuke go, he'd let him find someone worthy enough to start a family with and he'd fall into his duties as the future Hokage and let that be enough. Maybe they'd lead separate lives and somehow manage to stay friends, but he didn't want to. He wanted Sasuke to stay with him, he wanted to be it, the end all to Sasuke's life, it was one of the things that made Naruto hate who he was.
"Yes," Sasuke said.
"Why'd you come back?" Naruto knew why he left, but Naruto had been certain that Sasuke wanted to ignite a new legacy with his blood, and that was why he had shown up at the gates and turned himself in.
"You really are an idiot," Sasuke muttered.
"Never said I was smart," his voice was weak again. He could barely rasp out the words.
"Whatever I was doing out there wasn't even worthy of calling an existence. Prison bars didn't bother me when I squared myself with that. At least here, I might see you again before they decided I wasn't worth keeping around," He said, voice unwavering as his hands slid up Naruto's arms to his shoulders.
Naruto shook his head, "Don't…" He said softly, he was daring to hope.
"There's a difference between you and I. I feel like it should be obvious, but I shouldn't be surprised that you've somehow missed it. Where you might create empires built on a unique trust and charm, I would fall them just as easily for you, to get to you. The existence of anyone else is trivial and unnecessary to me, I don't need any other attachments and I don't need anything else in the world if I don't have you," Sasuke's voice was low as he spoke perilous words.
"And if you change your mind?" Naruto said, trembling with the weight of the words. Sasuke had always been so much better at this fight than him. Naruto could persuade and earn trust while Sasuke could strike you down as easily as he breathed.
"If you're asking me to live without you, Naruto, I can't. I refuse to," His hands trailed to Naruto's neck and he felt the warmth of Sasuke's lips on his. Maybe Naruto was tired of fighting, perhaps this was the final stand and Sasuke had won the game that only Naruto had been playing.
Their lips parted for a second. Naruto took the opportunity to breathe while his hands moved to Sasuke's ribs before his fingers clamped around the fabric of one of Sasuke's too thin shirts. "I love you…" He said softly and tried to convince himself there wasn't a tremor in Sasuke before he found his lips occupied once more. It was over, there was nothing he could do now but submit.
The force of Sasuke's lips forced his head back, and Naruto's hands slipped around Sasuke to grip at the back of his shirt, hanging onto it as Sasuke's hands pushed at his own shirt. It had always been Naruto truly instigating anything like this, the fact that Sasuke was so desperate played to something deep inside of Naruto.
Sasuke's hips pressed against him, flattening Naruto out against the wall of the living area. The friction between them forced both of them to groan and Naruto pulled his head back and panted heavily. He watched Sasuke's face for a moment before the pleasure of Sasuke grinding against him caused him to lose focus. "Sas…" he tried, but Sasuke pressed on, his hand moving to unbutton Naruto's pants before his hand slid inside. The grip around his member was too much for him to hold onto his thoughts and instead, his head fell back against the wall as the other man began to stroke painfully slow.
"Hm?" Sasuke's mouth was at his throat, for the life of him he couldn't remember what he was going to say, so instead he moved his hands down to push at his pants until he was able to step out of them when he remembered.
"Door's open," Naruto muttered, his eyes trailing over to the open screen that opened to an untended garden, a very low fence, and the street.
"No one comes here anymore," Sasuke muttered against his collar bone before he pulled back giving his cock one final tug and Naruto whined in the back of his throat. "Off," Sasuke said tugging at his shirt.
"I'm not going to be the only one naked in front of your door, what kind of exhibitionist are you?" Naruto muttered.
"Maybe that's exactly what I am," Sasuke said as he caught Naruto's lips again, and somewhere in the cloudy recess of his mind he realized Sasuke was working on unlocking his own belt with his free hand.
"Maybe I'm not…" Naruto kind of liked this, it wasn't romantic, soft or anything similar. They'd never been that way. It felt right, even on the tail of a confession as heavy as love.
"You wanted to have sex in the training grounds," Sasuke muttered, and it was only moments later that they were both completely bared for anyone walking by to see.
"Temporary insanity," Naruto muttered before he felt Sasuke press against him again and quickly lost any wit he might have had.
"You've always been perfectly insane," Sasuke muttered with the hint of a growl in his voice as his hand slipped under Naruto's thigh and lifted it.
"Hgn…" was all Naruto could say as his hands dragged down Sasuke's sides and he took a moment to trail kisses across Sasuke's jaw.
"Up," Sasuke urged. Naruto's lashes fluttered on his cheek and it took a short while before his eyes focused on Sasuke's face and realized Sasuke had even said anything causing Sasuke to press on, "Up."
"Oh…" Naruto let out a heavy breath before he settled his arms around Sasuke's shoulders and managed to lift himself up so his legs could wrap around Sasuke's hips. He could feel the heat on his cheeks and breathed out as his back was pushed against the wall.
"Good," He murmured against Naruto's ear, his hands were resting on his thighs, keeping him in place. Naruto's eyes widened when he felt something slick at his entrance, he had been so out of it that he hadn't noticed Sasuke at work until his digits began to press inside of him. It wasn't nearly as awkward as it had been when they had first started having sex. It was brief moments before he felt Sasuke's member pressing into him and he keened gently as Sasuke's cock stretched him wide, his head thumped against the wall again. "So good," Sasuke whispered, his mouth teasing along his throat, just below his Adam's apple as he seated himself fully.
Naruto couldn't speak as Sasuke began to lift his weight with raw power, setting them into a shallow and quick pace. Naruto's fingers gripped tightly in Sasuke's dark locks, and his legs locked around Sasuke's hips, keeping him there, inside of him, driving him into a passionate incoherence. He left unable to do anything but cry out loud into the empty house. He wanted to keep Sasuke.
Sasuke's movements ceased only long enough for their mouths to come together, the slide of Sasuke's tongue was intoxicating. "I love you," Sasuke murmured.
"I know," Naruto whispered against his mouth, and suddenly none of it was enough.
Sasuke seemed to know what he was thinking when his thrusts slowed to a stop. He leaned his forehead on Naruto's shoulder and panted heavily and Naruto fought to catch his breath as well. Naruto shivered at the lack of movement, but it wasn't long before they were soon situated on the floor, Sasuke on his back and Naruto straddling his hips. He rested his weight on his knees before he situated himself properly and he eased down slowly with a breathy sigh. "You're so loud…" Sasuke said quietly, his hand caressing Naruto's stomach and the sides of his hips.
"What did you really expect?" Naruto breathed out as he finally found himself seated on top of the other man, shivering in anticipation. His hands rested on Sasuke's chest and he leaned over Sasuke, his eyes watching the flush spread across his pale skin. Sasuke was almost cruelly beautiful, it was a wonder he could be attracted to someone as awkward and clumsy looking as Naruto.
"Wasn't complaining," Sasuke breathed out, and although Naruto was pleased at the comment he decided that they were both far too coherent and with shaky balance he set himself into motion, drawing a growl from the man beneath him.
"Good," Naruto shifted his weight until he found the best angle before he found a steady rhythm that left him calling out again, drowning out the sounds of their skin making contact. Sasuke's hands moved behind him and gripped at his backside, he kneaded the flesh before he urged Naruto to move faster, and when he grew impatient enough he pulled Naruto forward, held him in place and thrust his hips upwards hard and quick. If it hadn't been for Sasuke's hold on him, Naruto was sure he would have collapsed as Sasuke scraped against that spot inside of him that ripped the whine from his throat and that caused the pleasure to build at an alarming rate. Naruto knew he couldn't hold on much longer as the pleasure began to consume him. His forehead rested on Sasuke's shoulder and he found himself holding his breath and the growl that sounded in his ear from Sasuke's throat caused desire to run through him and he was suddenly riding his climax out between their bodies only vaguely aware of Sasuke's own cry of release.
"Shh…" Sasuke soothed as his hand stroked down his spine gently after he had come down far enough. Naruto sat there with the aftermath tingling through his limbs. "You're shaking…"
"Shut up…" Naruto muttered as he felt the imbalance in his legs and decided to just stay there sprawled over top of Sasuke as the shaky response finally filtered out of him.
Sasuke's hand didn't stop even as he shifted to pull out and Naruto groaned. "No…it's good," Sasuke said as he rested the back of his hand on his forehead, the summer heat far too apparent, but still they didn't move from one another.
"Wanna do that again?" Naruto asked, with a smirk on his face as he lazily rolled over to the side, letting only one of his legs stay flung over Sasuke's middle.
"What about the door?" Sasuke said, a really soft reserved chuckle sounding in his throat as he accommodated the shift in position. Sasuke laughed and for once it sounded real.
"Whatever," Naruto muttered. He felt better, he didn't know how to explain it, but the talk had changed something.
They were quiet until Naruto started to shift uncomfortably and Sasuke sighed and turned his head until his cheekbone was resting on the wood panels of the floor. "Are we done now with this fight?" Naruto had a feeling he was going out of his way to specify what was finished.
Naruto looked up at the ceiling and he nodded, "I call temporary insanity…" he muttered quietly. He had fought hard, maybe unnecessarily, but Sasuke had never been anything but disarming, Naruto probably hadn't stood a chance.
"You use the word temporary far too liberally," Sasuke said.
"Yeah, well…shut up," the blonde had very little argument, if any.
"It probably would have been too easy…" Sasuke mumbled.
"Yeah, you do make things complicated," Naruto teased.
"Hn…moron," he said hooking his arm around Naruto's neck and he drew them both up for a lazy lip lock.
Naruto just smiled against Sasuke's mouth and felt liberated.
End.
…So this was difficult to piece together, and yes this is the last chapter I will be writing for it. Thank you for the lovely comments you've been leaving me. They make me so happy!
KoriC