Visions of Love

Rating: M Genre: Romance/Horror/Angst

Summary: "You say I'm a heartless creature but what does that make you? You, a creature of the damn doesn't know how to love or show compassion, how is it a kind girl can turn into an evil entity of the night?" Dark SxS.

Warnings: Sexual content, OOC-ness from Shizuka but that will change throughout the story, and violence

Chapter One: Closed Doors

Shizuka's POV

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"Come find me Shizuka…"

I'm waiting for you to come and find me…"

There it was again, that voice that I've heard for few weeks now. I couldn't see anything, it was completely dark and there was I, standing alone. You would think it would be something I'm used to now. I start to run, to where I do not know, but I want to see the man who keeps calling out to me. After a few minutes, I became exhausted and stopped to rest, breathing heavily, looking toward the ground.

"Who are you?" I muttered under my breath.

"I'm right here."

I quickly look up to see a tall dark figure standing in front of me, but couldn't see his face it was…

"Soon everything will be reveal and the truth will come to you"

"What truth? What do you mean?"

"You'll soon learn when the time comes and you are ready."

"Ready? I want the truth now! Who are you?"

"That will be answered sooner than you think."

As I looked on at the dark figure, a pair of piercing blue eyes appeared, never have I seen such a pair of striking eyes in my lifetime, that had pierced my soul as they did. I looked into his royal blue orbs that looked like that can go on into infinity. Who was this man?

He walks up to me and takes my hand and placed something in the palm of my hand. I looked down to see a silver chain with the pendant of a dragon.

"The day you learn the truth is both very far and very near, soon you'll be free from solitude."

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It was one year ago that I took fate's hand and enter the realm of darkness where only the creatures of the damn reside…what I am. I am no longer a regular human, but a vampire that can see the world for what it truly is and the many places that I've only seen in stories almost like entering a horror movie, but that is my reality now. Living in the shadows is something you would think I have become accustomed to but, I can't see how anyone can get used to living in. The few friends I've made have helped a great deal.

I suffered from another vision last night again. These visions have been plaguing me for quite some time now. This is the first time I've gotten a glimpse of the man in my visions. I can't get those eyes out of my mind…they were amazing, yet filled with grief and sorrow, but why did he give me the necklace? What does all this mean? I have to find out who this is.

Ever since that day in the rain, my life has changed completely. If you haven't guessed, I'm not an ordinary human being, but a vampire of the night. With this transformation, I am an immortal being but with price, I can no longer feel love, happiness or compassion towards anything. I'm bitter towards the world and everything in it and the hate that consumes me blackens my heart that was once so pure and warm. I kill recklessly with no remorse or sadness for anyone; I'm only concerned with my lust for blood. The sweet liquid that courses through veins, feeling the sweet pleasure while sucking my victim with the warm sensation running through my body. This is my life now and I've never looked back since besides to the rest of the world, I'm just a missing girl that was never found…

I arose from my large bed in my bedroom, as the sun beamed through the window. Patches of light filled the room. The life of a vampire is nothing like you've seen in movies or read in books. The light from sun does not kill or even harm us but simply weakens slightly yet there are some who still resent it for being so pure, without the feeling of evil in the night sky. I don't feel that way because the sun is the only light I have in this darkened world. I walked over to my window as the light went in my eyes, but I still continued to look at the sky as the cherry blossoms bloomed and the birds were happily chirping through the window only wearing a black cami top and panties with my auburn hair down against my pale skin. I only wish my world was as happy as it seemed to be outside, but this is the world, the darkness the binds and gives comfort rather than being an outcast in the world. No one knows what it's like living behind closed doors.

"Do you wish you were living out there?" said a voice behind me but I didn't flinch for I already knew the identity of my visitor.

"No, it is because of you, Bakura that I live in the shadows ,but I also was the one to take your hand that day so it's equally my fault, but I much rather this place than out there."

Bakura, with his back to the door walked to me near the window and placed his hands on my shoulders that sent a shiver up my spine and whispered, "The darkness is where you belong."

The darkness is where I belong…if that's true why do I feel differently?

"You seemed troubled, let me make you forget your troubles," he said and began kissing my neck softly. I moaned in pleasure as he wrapped his arms around my waist, my head going back, closing my eyes as he continued his assault. His hands wandered my body and stopped at my hips as he continued leaving a trail of kisses on my skin. He stopped and I turned and we engaged in a passionate kiss, feeling the heat run through me as his hand went under my shirt feeling the contact on my skin. Our clothes began to fall off and fell on the bed, beneath the covers, as I lost myself in the sweet passion and our bodies becoming one. Sex had meant nothing to me, I did not feel any love for Bakura but I used it as a relief, my body had already been damaged and abused before so why should this mean anything to me? For me, it's not called making love, it's called removing the pain or any troubles in my heart, even though it always come back.

Two hours later, we were still in bed, entangled between the sheets in each other's arms, resting from the passionate interlude that happened only moments ago. My head was on his chest, as my mind wander into the depths of my soul. Even though we're in such an intimate position and I give my body to him, my soul and my mind aren't there. There is no feeling of love in it, but isn't that what it's about – showing your love someone by giving yourself to them. I can't even remember what love feels like anymore, I don't remember what it is like to feel joy or happiness from being with the person you love. I'll probably never have the chance to.

Bakura stirred and awoke from his sleep and began petting my hair like he always does. He's the reason why I'm in this world, but this is where I belong – in the embrace of darkness.

"I have to go," he said in monotone.

"What time will you be back?"

"Probably around 8, no later than 10," he said and got out of bed and got dressed in his usually black attire. I sat on the edge on the bed with the covers wrapped around my body. He walked to me and planted a passionate kiss upon my lips, but I merely give him every time he does. When he would ask why, I'd simply say because I don't feeling anything. I never do. With not another word, he left, leaving me alone once again.

-

I decided to stay in and walk around the mansion. I've been living here for a while, so it's nothing new. Bakura owns a huge company, widely known throughout Japan, so we're very wealthy. All the vampires in the clan live here. They're nice once you get to know them. They're the only real family I have.

I walked out to the garden, adored with an arrangement of exotic flowers that bloomed beautifully. I walked to the rose patch and picked a crimson colored rose. I always come out here when I need to think and need to clear my mind. It's the only tranquil place here.

"Shizuka."

I turned around to find Anzu right behind me. Anzu is one of my best friends besides Isis and Yuki especially being they're the only women throughout the whole mansion.

"Hey Anzu."

I stood on my feet as we smiled and walked through the garden. If you think my tale of becoming a vampire is tragic, Anzu's is just unbearable. She was only ten years old when she was bitten, which was by the former vampire lord of the mansion. When he died, she was only fourteen and didn't know of any other vampires besides herself until she met Bakura who let her live here once he became the new lord of the mansion. No on really knows how the former vampire lord, Ahmad, died since he was nearly impossible to kill a vampire, unless it was by purification of a priest or priestess or by another vampire. For a vampire to simply die on its own is simply unheard of, almost like a baby being born without a fingerprint. There were no traces that would lead to murder so it still remains a mystery. Anzu's parents don't even know if she's living or not, she doesn't even remember what they look like.

"What's wrong Shizuka?" asked Anzu.

"Oh nothing really…"

"I can tell it in your eyes that something is bothering you, tell me what's on your mind."

"…I keep having visions of a man, I can't see what he looks like and I'm always by myself, last night I saw his eyes and they were unlike anything I've ever seen before and he gave me a necklace with the pendant of a dragon…I still don't know what it means."

"It must have an important message that is trying to be told to you, vampires often have them to foresee events that could be life changing and devastating to the person, I hope it's nothing bad," she said worriedly.

"The only thing I can remember specifically is, the day you learn the truth is both very far and very near, soon you'll be free from solitude, I think it means that something drastic is going to happen and something will be revealed."

"We can only hope it doesn't come to that…"

"I hope you're right Anzu…I hope you're right."

I looked up at the blue sky and see a crowd of ravens, soaring overhead which signals that trouble and turmoil lie ahead…

Preview: We look take a look at our CEO and see how Seto and Shizuka cross paths but will Shizuka's vampire nature come out or will she have a slight change of heart. (I know poor preview but trust me it's going to be good)
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