Bella wakes me up the next morning,
"Time to get up and go to school, Edward is going to drive us." She whispers
"Ugh, can't we just turn off the sun and go back to sleep?" I roll and and hid under the blankets
"I wish, he is waiting, come on." She opens the curtains and pulls off the blankets and walks down stairs.
Ugh, I look around the room and groan again. Wait, it's a fresh start, no one knows, yet. I get up, look down the hall and Bella is busy with Edward, they can't hear me. I start a treatment and feel pretty good after, I managed to cough up crap like 3 times. I grab my backpack and my inhaler form my other bag, get dressed and walk down stairs. I'm still vibrating form the vest. (You know if your in like a massage chair and after your still vibrating even after it stops?)
"Ready?" Edward asks,
"Yeah, new start here I come. Too bad James couldn't come start over with me." I grumble
"What does James look like?" Bella suddenly asks
"Oh, perfect. Goldish hair, green eyes, tall-ish. Totally invincible. Nothing knocks him down." I think back to under that tree and hug myself,
"Sound's a lot like Edward." She mumbles.
I laugh. Has Edward have to think Bella was going to die? Spend all his money on medical bills with my brother? I didn't think so.
"Maybe. If you close one eyes, then close then the other, then you use your imagination." I joke.
Edward laughs.
"You want some food?" He points to the plate of donuts and muffins.
I smiles at him. "Thanks." After a 3 pills, I clearly take in front of them I dig in.
In the car Bella seems nervous.
"She hates speed." Edward tells me
"Oh crap, because I love it, the faster, the better." I laugh as he speeds up
He is at least 30 mph over the limit and I lean out the window and scream.
Edward laughs and Bella looks like shes praying.
"Ok slow down, I think Bella is scared." I get back in.
"But we were having so much fun." He jokes and I laugh.
"Why do you like speed?" He asks
Last year I was in the hospital but not real bad yet James and Jason took me on a motorbike and it was awesome. It didn't matter if you were sick or healthy, air was air, road was road and sky was sky.
"I don't know. It feels like nothing can catch me." even a stupid disease
"I think I know the feeling." He mutters.
We pull into school and I follow Bella to the first class, no one stares at me weird or anything.
At lunch I don't know where to sit because Bella sat with the Cullens.
"Hey Lucy right?" Leah
"Hey," I go over and sit. "Can I?"
"Of course. You came with the Cullens?" Leah asks
"Yeah, I'm staying with Bella."
They look weird
"What?" I ask
"Nothing, so where you from?"
"Louisiana" I answer
They question me all lunch and it feels so good, they have no clue.
I cough once, there goes my cover. I cough again and stand up, ready to run the bathroom
"It's ok, sit down." Leah says
"I'll be back." I manage between coughs.
In the bathroom I get the coughing to stop and spit a bunch in the toilet, praying I won't throw up.
It sounds like someone in the next is through. A minute later the person comes out
"Hey are you ok?" She asks
"Yeah, I'm Lucy." I change the subject
"Jessica." she looks me down
She thinks I'm Anorexia. Almost throwing up lunch and being this skinny. I love her expression.
"Are you?" I ask
"Yeah." She leaves and I'm alone
I call Jason.
"Hey, aren't you in school?" he asks
"I'm fine thank you." I joke
"What's new?" He asks
"I almost threw up again. I just want to come home." I am so close to crying
"I know, you want to talk to Dad?" I say yes
"Hey baby. I'm sorry. I love you."
"I want to come home. I don't know theses people,"
"I thought thats what you wanted." He sounds confused.
"Sure. How is he?" I ask, he knows
"He misses you, punched a hole in the wall after you left,"
"Sorry, I'll fix it." I laugh and he does too
"I miss you and Jason." I say again
"I know. You should go." He says
"Bye, is Jason there?" I ask
"Yeah."
"Hey Lucy Goosey" Jason never stops amazing me
"Hey Jay. What are you doing?" I ask
"Hanging out, missing you." He sounds tired
"What's wrong?" I ask
"Nothing, just some bill crap, don't worry, have fun." He hangs up and I stand there.
I go back out and see Bella sitting with Edward and 4 other people. Lucky them.
"Hey Lucy, you ok?" Leah asks.
"Just fine. What time is lunch over?" I ask.
"In like 20 minutes, we have the longest lunch."
I haven't touched my food, I'm not hungry. I let random thoughts float through my head.
Last year in the hospital, me and Jason had wheelchair races with other kids.
"Lucy, your tests aren't good. We estimated about 4 months." Stupid doctors
"Lies. She's going to be fine." Jason screamed at the doctor.
"No Jay Jay, it's fine." I whispered, to tired and weak to be louder.
"No, Goosey!" He cried, my big brother cried.
"No, Jay, it's ok. Listen to me. It's going to be fine. You listen to me, not them, you understand."
"Yeah, but I love you so much, please don't leave me?" He is on his knees, begging me.
"I won't, I love you too. You gotta be strong ok?" I ask him
"I don't know how!" He is sobbing now.
"You don't have to. Just trust me, here." I hand him a gold cross necklace.
"I'm always with you ok?" I ask
"I know. Hey Luce, remember when we went on that picnic? What am I gonna do without you?" More tears, he's shaking, I took his hand.
"Live. Don't worry, you are big and strong, don't take crap from no one and stand up for yourself. Be that big strong brother I always see you as." coughing fit.
"I will. I am. I love you."
I fell asleep, holding my big brothers hand.
"What do you think Lucy?"
"Sorry, what?" I shake my head
"Never mind, there's the bell." They look annoyed, so what?
Next is Bio. I sit next to Edward and Bella. They whisper a lot.
Let's all just sit back and relax I think,
"We will be doing blood tests today. Get with a partner. Lucy you can be with Edward and Bella." The teacher says
I'v done so many blood tests I know my blood type and everything.
"If we know how blood type can we just skip it?" I ask.
"You do?" He asks
"-O." I say.
"Very well, you can help your partners." He moves on.
"You know your blood type?" Edward looks confused
"Yeah, don't you?" I ask.
"Yeah," He looks at Bella.
I put my head on my arms and close my eyes on on the desk, trying not to remember that day.
"It's just a cold." I told my dad.
"I don't think so. We will see." He looked doubtful
"Lucy St. John." The nurse called
We told her everything.
"Mh, I'll go get the doctor." She left and my dad hugged me,
"It's fine see?" I grumble.
"Let's make sure of that.
"I'm Dr. Erickson. Let's just do some blood tests and we'll see what's wrong with you today." She did the tests and came back.
"What's my blood type?" The question made her smile.
"-O, I don't think I have ever had a 14 year old ask me that. I think you should go have some tests done including a sweat test and a genetic test." She told my dad.
"Why?" I asked
"I don't want to scare you." She was!
"Tell me." I demand
"I think you have Cystic Fibrosis." My dad froze then slumped.
"Ok. Thank you." even back then I was sarcastic and crazy.
"Luce. Be nice." My dad tried.
"No, can we go. She's wrong. I want to go home." I said.
"We have to go do the tests," He sounded said and tired
"I don't want to. Take me home." I demand again.
"Lucy, I know you are scared." He grabs for my hand but I move away.
"I'm not scared. TAKE ME HOME." I screamed at him.
"Sit down Luce." He asks
"No, please Daddy, take me home." I'm so close to tears.
"We have to get you better." He tires again.
"I am better. Take me home or I'll call Jason." I threatened.
"He's in school."
"I'll run." I try again.
He doesn't do anything but hug me, I struggled and fought, screaming and threatening and hitting.
I gave up after like 20 minutes, sobbing into his coat.
"I don't want to Daddy! Don't make me." I begged.
"I won't let them hurt you, don't you want to feel better?" He asks.
I didn't say anything, just let them do the stupid tests, not talking, like a clam.
"I'm so sorry Mr. St. John. Lucy does have CF." Those words crushed my wonderful world.
My best friends and school. Everything I loved was thrown away. I was tossed in a scarier world of doctors, hospitals, more fights, more crying. It torn my family apart. We picked Jason up from school.
"What's wrong?" He asked
"Tell you at home." my dad couldn't act if his life deepened on it.
"Tell me now. Lucy?" He looked to me.
I shook my head, my eyes were red from crying. I wouldn't say anything, not a thing.
When we told him he punched holes in the walls. I ran after him, yelling at him and holding him while he cried and screamed. Stuff I had already did, I knew how he felt.
"No Lucy. They are lying." He told me.
He wouldn't sit still, just run around the house, throwing things around, screaming and crying. Saying they were wrong and liars.
"Jay. It's ok baby." I told him when he punched the bathroom mirror.
"No. It will never be alright. Don't you dare TELL ME IT'S OK!" He screamed,
It went on all night. Dad hadn't moved form the kitchen table, leaving me to help Jason.
"I love you Jason." I kept whispering when we fell down on the bathroom floor. He laid there, sobbing and denying.
"I love you to." He said.
It was the first thing he said that wasn't bad after we told him.
"Promise me something" He said
"Anything." I meant it.
"Don't leave me." He said, falling asleep.
"Never, Jason, never." I rubbed his back and his hair.
The next day he didn't go to school, neither did I.
He watched me while Dad went to work,
I wasn't ever going to leave him.
"Ms. St. John." The teacher called me out of my nightmare.
"Sorry, yes?" I wouldn't move, ready to get yelled at.
He didn't say anything. I turn to Edward and Bella, Edward is really pale and Bella looks confused.
"Done?" I ask.
"Yeah, are you ok?" Bella asks,
"Yeah, just tired." I yawn on cue and cough.
The bells rings, PE. I'm glade I have a note.
The whole period I watch Bella try to run straight. It's really funny.
The fresh air feels good.
The bell rings again and Bella meets me at the car,
"Have a good day?" She asks.
I shrug and get in.
"Did you Bella?" Edward asks
"Yeah, because you were there with me." She tells him.
James.
My phones goes off
"Hey, your brother said you called." James makes my dad so much more better.
"Yeah, I love you." I tell him.
"I know, I love you too. I have a surprise for you?" He says
"You found a cure?" I can be hopeful
"I wish, I can come visit next week." I can't believe it
"Really? Can Jason come?" I can't wait
"Yeah, man I can't wait," He sounds tired?
"What wrong James?" I demand
"Nothing, just my sister. Don't worry. I'll see you next week." He tries to sound happy.
"What about your sister?" I ask
"Nothing, tell you next week. How are you?" He changes the subject
"Great, I had a horrible day." I mumble
"Aw, why?"
"I was just thinking of when we had to tell Jason." I'm scared of his reaction.
"I know it's scary, don't worry, I'll be there soon,"
"Can't wait, it feels like no matter what I do I can't breathe with out you guys. I love you James." He laughs
"Don't worry. I love you to."
We hang up and I can't stop smiling.
We hang out at home till Bella gets up.
"Want to go to Edward's house?"
"Sure." I don't have anything else to do.
The house makes mine look like nothing. Here I go.
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