Hi again! There is the second part of the story. As you may notice, some lines are from Breaking Dawn, where Bella was thinking of everything he wanted to tell to Jacob, and from the end, when she was saying goodbye to him.
There will be two more chapters that contain a notes to Charlie and Renee.
Hope you like it!
D.
Jacob
You have no idea how sorry I am, for putting You into such a situation. I didn't want to force You to abandon Your brothers, family and home. But You of all people should know how selfish I can be, when my loved ones are concerned. I know You will do the right thing. You love her as much as I do. I want you both to survive, to move on with your lives. To be happy.
I know you could understand where to go, and why I choose that destination. We still have a problem with her quick growth. Try to find out anything you could about children like her, all right? Those documents I gave to You will be good for only a year or so, at least on Nessie's case. Use this time well.
If You have a chance, try to find Alice and Jasper. I know You probably don't like this idea, but think of Nessie. Even if we manage to kill Demetri, she still needs the best protection possible. They will help You, it is the least they could do.
Keep my Nessie well, raise her in a way we would be proud off. And don't You dare to ever cause her any pain, or I swear to God, Jake, I will find a way to come back to life and hunt You down. Yes, it is a promise.
If its ever safe again, take her to Charlie. Tell him the whole story someday. Tell him how much I loved him, how I couldn't bear to leave him even when my human life was over. Tell him he was the best father. Tell him to pass my love on to Renee, all my hopes that she will be happy and well....
Talk with Nessie also. Don't let her forget us, or become a distant characters of some strange story. Don't idealize us or anything we have done. Tell her everything as it was, tell her about our mistakes and flaws, our quirks. Tell her how clumsy I was, and how I attracted every kind of danger. DON'T let her think that what happened was in any way her fault.
Oh, well, I am babbling. You know me, I have never been very good with the emotional stuff. I know You will do what is best for her. I hope You will find your happiness, together.
(But don't You dare to molest my baby before she is in age!)
You will always be my best man. Farewell!
With love
Bella.