Title: Happiness gone awry
Author: Ree
Theme: Sailor Moon R first Arc - Memories
Genre: General
Version: Anime
Rating: G

They're not mine...they're not yours unless you are Takeuchi Naoko. Well, some of them might be mine.

lj-cut text"Happiness gone awry"

center u Happiness gone awry /u /center

Makaiju huddled deep inside of herself, protecting the new life that was held there from the encroaching darkness. em 'The walls are as thick as I can make them. But I can feel the malignant energy chewing away at them. Soon they will collapse. Soon there will be no hope.' /em Suddenly she felt them, An and Ail, and memories of hopes and wishes rushed through the protected core of Makaiju.

em 'Home.' /em The memory of a bright watery world sparkled as a long lost haven. em 'I had everything I needed there. /em The pang of an old loniless slipped through the bright happy memories. em 'Everything but company. So, I birthed the first of my fair children. And I had hoped... I had hoped that they too would be able to live off just the water, sunlight, and atmosphere. ' /em The memory of her failure tried to carve its way out of the protected core. em 'But, they still brought me happiness, and they lessoned my loneliness.' /em

The richness of her home had allowed her to birth more of these less than perfect children. And they grew, feed only from the energy she had been able to garner from their home. Her and her children had lived contently for years, but somehow, a darkness seeped in and infected her children. They began to fight and squabble amongst themselves. A bitter war erupted that ranged from the top of her branches to the bottom of her roots. Steeped in darkness, her embittered children lost their ability to her here.

em 'They never heard my pleas... my screams of pain as they soaked me in the darkness that filled them... As they destroyed our home. They never heard my tears.' /em She hadn't wanted to, but slowly she pulled into herself, cutting her children off as throughly as they had her. em ' Of course that made things worse. The less energy I gave them, the worst they fought. And to make things even worse, they started deliberately filling me with negative energy.' /em A small shudder passed through her, making the tree creak slightly. em 'They didn't know... They couldn't hear me tell them.' /em The memory of the poison leaking into her body almost weakened her barriers against it. em ' It was then I gave birth to my last two children, An and Ail.' /em

Makaiju remember the effort she had put into creating them. They were different from her other children. They were to be the caretakers of her true child, her seed. So, she had made them truly male and female, and she had infused their seed pod with all the feelings of love a mother could feel. All in hopes that they, her last chance, would learn how to love.

She felt another wave of negative energy seep through her root, and another section of the barrier surrounding her core melted away before it. em 'Instead of becoming my caretakers, they are unwittingly following in the other children's footsteps. They are killing me, too.' /em Tightening the barrier around her core once more, Makaiju checked on the seed the hovered in the center, and tried not to give into despair.