The Mirror of Edward's Mind by Roshandra

by Roshandra

Edward has just realized that his love was taken from him. After a talk with Carlisle, Edward decided to embrace his dark side of his nature. His vampire side wanted BLOOD. How does he cope when this blood lust is open and his pain pours forth for Bella, gone now.

2. Chapter 2 Fate of Hell

The Mirror Side of Edward

By R. Author of Gothic Gates, BOOK V Saga and BBW series

May 31, 2015

What if Edward had a mirror side? What if that side revealed his desire for being a vampire and the blood that drew him? How would that change everything? Carlisle sees Edward's dual nature.

May 1st, 2011

Twilight disclaimer and no copyright infringement. Characters are being used in Fan Fiction and Original Story of THE MIRROR SIDE OF EDWARD is owned by author Roshandra/ R. M. Simone'

His journal notes.

What is the point? I tried everything and the one thing I loved more than life, if you can call being a vampire having a life, was her. That darker side had to be controlled all these years and I managed somehow to move with handling the lust thirst for her blood till that one moment. Carlisle wanted me to recount all the good she brought into my life. The way my heart opened to her; it shattered me in a way that left what sat there inside could be shared. This long awaited time of actually having found someone to love and be with. Love came into my life and I was finally with a mate.

Was this some stupid moment of fate for taking her from me as a punishment for killing James? I was inconsolable. I wanted blood now. All I could get; consume and kill for my pain and this nature of being a vampire. It was my time to embrace what I was fully and let loose my fury on how things had turned out for me. Without her, I was broken and the pain had to be filled. Filled with what? Blood, of course.

Chapter 2

Fate of Hell

I had to get away from my family and brood in the wounds that were freshly bleeding. Revenge was the plan. I wanted to just get this pain out and die myself. Carlisle tried to persuade me and I saw the concern in Esme's eyes when I left. Unconditional love from both of them held the open space I should have fallen back into. My family loved me. Nothing mattered at the moment and least of all consequences. I wanted to bath in blood now till the thirst was satisfied. I was about to head to Italy and join the Volturi when Alice stopped me.

"Edward, please stop. I know you are packed and setting on a course that will make you into the monster you dread about our own kind. I don't see you going to Italy. Please, stop and listen to the vision I have of you Edward?"

"Alice, no, I want to leave this pain out of this body shell. She was the only thing I ever loved. I tolerated this existence and nothing matters now that he is gone. Killing James brought his mate down on my own love and I thought I could protect Bella. I am having nightmare dreams of her calling out to me to come and help her. Honestly Alice, I am in hell. I need to go and finish off some killing accounts and I want to take with me as many as I can for this pain. Then I am ending my own existence."

"Edward, I don't see you going to Italy, I see you going to Rio…"

I turned on my heel and spun around to look at Alice. "What? Rio? I keep having a dream with Bella calling me to help her in Rio, in Brazil in a forest. What are you saying Alice? This is driving me mad."

"Look, Edward, I know you love her and I am only saying what I see. Go to Brazil and you will figure this out. Don't end your life now, don't go on a vampire killing rage and don't block your family out. We all want to help you Edward."

I nearly crumbled into a pile of rubble with the thoughts that my dream of Bella and flashes was of her soul maybe lost in some other world she was transitioning in. Maybe, just maybe this is a part of her spirit calling out to me from the grave. I grabbed by my chest where the heart in my body shell was, the heart that only beat for Bella. Something rang true.

"Brazil? You want me to go to South American?"

"Yes, Edward, change your flight plans when you get to the airport. May I drive you?"

"Alice, in my state, I am a mess and set for vengeance. Take me to the airport and I know Carlisle will breathe easier on this shift in plans."

NOTE:

Edward is about to enter a no fly zone. His trip is going to take him into his nature as a vampire and yet something much more. The fact Bella was killed how she was and her last thoughts were of… Well keep reading as this mystery of death, the recently departed and the paranormal is about to throw this vampire immortal true love into another realm he never saw coming. Neither did Alice…