A/N: so here's my next chapter…I know some of this stuff isn't historically accurate, but just go with it.

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns this NOT ME!

Chapter 2 Memories.

I was soon home, I ran up to my room and sobbed tearlessly into my pillow.

"Edward." I moaned his name. I missed him so much and now he was here in my school, and I couldn't even tell him who I was because I had to stay away from him. I didn't want him to hate me for making the decision for turning him into a vampire.

The memories hit me like a ton a bricks. I didn't stop them though, I wanted to remember.

Carlisle was at my side in an instant. Elizabeth Mason was having her baby and she was my best friend and Carlisle's. We needed to be by her side at that moment.

She was trying so hard to get the baby out, but he just didn't want to. Stubborn.

"Come on Lizzie, you can do it! Push!" All she needed was a little motivation. I had known Lizzie since the day I went to St. Joan's School for Young Woman. We had been roommates. Sure I was a vampire, but because of my shape-shifting I could look like I had aged.

Soon enough, Carlisle sighed in relief. He too didn't like to see Lizzie in pain. He was also a good friend to her, although he hadn't known her as long as I had.

"It's a boy!" Carlisle cried out. I ran to Carlisle's side—I was also a nurse that worked for him—examining the baby. He was beautiful. He had a strange color of hair, bronze almost, his face was perfectly round and beautiful, just like a baby should be.

I quickly wrapped him in a blanket and gave him to Lizzie. She was crying tears of joy. Her husband would be too, if not had he been several miles away when he got the message that his wife was in labor. He hopped on the train as soon as he got it.

"What's his name?" I asked her. I was the one who was also supposed to write down his birth for the birth certificate.

"Edward. Edward Anthony Mason Jr." She confirmed. Her voice was filled with adoration.

"That suits him perfectly." I smiled at my best friend. She was going to be the perfect mother.

"Date of birth: June 20th, 1901. Mother: Elizabeth Anne Mason. Father: Edward Anthony Mason Sr. Child's name: Edward Anthony Mason Jr." I smiled at Lizzie and she smiled back weakly. I walked towards her and looked at the baby once more.

He looked as if he was smiling at me. I smiled at the boy. If I could cry I would have. It was an amazing moment between two friends. And this baby was going to just make the friendship better.

The memory ended, Edward's birth was amazing. I admit, it was wrong to fall in love with my best friend's child, and having seen his birth. I didn't care though, he was my dream man that I had once.

Another memory hit me. Again I let it take me over.

"Bye!" I called to Elizabeth. She and Edward Sr. were going to a ball hosted by one of Edward Sr.'s colleagues.

"Edward say bye to mommy." I told Edward Jr. He was wrapped in my arms, completely comfortable with the cold. Most people just shy away from it.

"Bye mommy!" Edward said. He was eight now and getting even more rebellious by the day.

As soon as his parents disappeared he grinned at me.

"What are you thinking Edward? I hope it's not something bad. It isn't right? You know you're not supposed to give me any trouble."

"Yeah, I know, but I want to do something fun. Can we please?" Edward begged. How could I resist those big green emerald eyes?

"On two conditions," I held up my finger, I could tell that he was hoping I would let him do whatever he wanted.

"What are they Bella?" Edward asked, seriously nervous now. I thought it was really cute, especially when he said my name with so much fright.

If only he knew what I was, then he'll be scared for real.

"Okay, one you have to tell me what it is first, and two I will have to go with you."

"That is okay. I was going to let you come with me anyways. I want to go hiking into the forest. I really want to see some nature. Please Bella, please let me go." I really wanted to say no. Who knew how much danger he could be in? But then again, I'd be with him, just no hunting.

"Fine, but go put some hiking clothes on. We'll have to leave soon, or else it will get dark." Elizabeth and Edward weren't supposed to get back until late, and they left around 3:30 so they could help set up.

"Yay! You're the best Bella!" At that he ran upstairs and got dressed. My clothes were good enough to go hiking in.

"Are you ready?" I asked him a soon as he got downstairs.

"Yep, except one thing." He walked into the kitchen and got food enough for the both of us. Great, now I would have to eat that nasty stuff.

"Okay, let's go!" He almost ran out the door, but he stopped himself reminded that he still had food in his hands.

We had been out here an hour now. We both asked questions about each other. It was mostly him though, he didn't know much about me versus how much I did about him.

"Bella, I'm getting tired, can we rest?" Edward asked.

"Sure," I found a suitable log to sit on. "Come and sit."

"Are you hungry?" I asked after a while.

"Yeah, a little, what about you?"

"No, not really."

"You're never hungry." He accused me.

"Only when you're not around." I teased. I pulled out a sandwich Edward had made himself earlier.

"There you go. Eat up." With that, Edward ate it. It had only taken him a minute to eat the whole sandwich.

"Wow. You were hungry." Suddenly a sudden growl escaped from the trees.

"Did you hear that?" Edward asked, his tone was panicky.

"Yes." I was debating myself if I should make a run for it and expose myself, or wait for it to come, if it comes, and kill it.

I chose to wait for it. I hoped it wouldn't come. Against my luck, a huge furry body stepped out of the trees.

"Edward," I hissed at him. "Get behind me, now."

"No, I don't want you to get hurt, I'll protect you." He tried to act brave, but that didn't happen, fear was plastered on his face.

"Edward, trust me, I won't get hurt. You on the other hand, will. I said get behind me."

He did as I commanded.

"Edward, what I want you to do is close your eyes." He did. I quickly swooped him up and stuck him in a tree. It was far enough from the ground that he wouldn't get hurt by the bear.

"Whoa, how'd you do that? Whoa this is way too high up. Get me down!"

"Edward, calm down, stay still and don't move. I need you to be very quiet, and I'm sorry if I scare you."

I climbed quickly down the branches to the wet soil below.

I can't believe I had to do this.

I loud snarl escaped my throat. I ran at full speed towards the bear, snapping its neck within seconds. I didn't spill any blood though, no hunting, not now. Edward had seen the whole thing, and if I drank its blood, that would just be more frightening to him.

I picked up the dead animal and buried him just under a bush, so no one with discover an animal with a snapped neck.

I turned to face Edward. His eyes were wide with fright, staring straight back at me from the tree.

I slowly climbed the tree. Hoping not to frighten him anymore.

As soon as we were on the ground I sat him on the log we were sitting at.

"Edward?" I asked, my voice soft, trying not to scare him again. "Edward, are you alright? I'm sorry that I scared you. I didn't have a choice; the bear would have hurt you either way."

Edward just stared at me with a blank expression. I knew he was scared, that was the face he put on when he didn't want anyone to know that he was scared. He wanted to be a man and handle the frightening events.

His lips finally twitched after a few minutes.

"Wha-What are you?" He asked. Should I tell him, I mean I did kill a bear that was six times my mass without any weapons?

"I can't tell you that, it's not safe."

"Why isn't it safe Bella? Please tell me. I need to know. I just saw you kill a bear, and you didn't have anything on you. How did you do it?" Edward demanded. For an eight year old, he did look kind of scary.

"Edward, even if I told you, you wouldn't believe me, or you just run away screaming."

"Wait, you just killed a bear like that and carried me up a tree with one hand, and I'm still here. Please tell me, I will believe and I promise not to run, if I do come and catch me."

"Okay," my voice cracked. I didn't want to tell him, but what more could I do? "Edward, I-I'm a vampire." His eyes widened in fear.

"They don't exist." He declared, not believing my statement.

"You just said that you would believe me no matter what." I stated.

"You're right, I'm sorry, go ahead. I know what a vampire is, but you have to explain some things."

"Well, as you may have noticed I don't go out in the sunlight because it makes me glitter, sparkle like diamonds. I don't sleep. I can't be killed by stakes or garlic, only other vampires can do that. I have super speed and super strength. I'm very pale, and cold. I have super hearing and eye sight. All vampires have all that stuff. We are all very beautiful, we smell good, and our voice sounds pretty. I'm immortal, which means I don't grow old. And I drink…blood."

Edward flinched at the word blood.

"If you drink blood then why haven't you killed me yet, or mom, or dad?" He asked. I couldn't blame him; all humans would guess that I drink human blood.

"I don't drink human blood, I don't want to be a monster." I said quietly. "I drink animal blood instead. It doesn't taste good or smell as good as human blood, but it settles the thirst. One fact that you can tell an animal drinking vampire and a human drinking vampire is that an animal drinking vampire has golden eyes, and the one who doesn't has red eyes. But when we're thirsty our eyes turn back." I was giving him too much information.

"Wait, didn't you say you don't grow old, and you're supposed to be real pretty and have a cool voice and a wonderful smell. You don't look that pretty, you just look ordinary and you have a couple of wrinkles on you and your voice and smell aren't that nice either."

"That's because, well, umm…" How am I going to explain this one? "Some of us are special. We have powers. Some of us can do amazing things. I, myself, have a power; it's absorbing other vampire's powers. I ran into a man that could shape-shift once and I absorbed his power. That's why I look old, and don't look like a vampire."

"How old are you Bella? At least how old are you supposed to look?" He was staring at me intensely with those big emerald green eyes.

"I was changed at the age of seventeen. I was born September 13, 1795. I'm one hundred and fourteen years old."

"Wow that's old, and you're so young. Can I see what you're supposed to look like?" He asked quietly.

"I'm sure it might scare you, just because I'll look very different from what I do now."

"Okay, then first can you describe what you look like?" He asked.

"I have long mahogany-colored hair that goes down to my lower back, golden eyes, and I'm a little shorter than this, and I also look a lot younger, since now I'm posing as a thirty-one year old woman."

"Okay. Can you change now? For me?" He asked his expression filled with hope and desire for him to see my real self.

"No, not now, wait a little bit, I want you to get used to the idea." I was hoping he wouldn't hate me for giving him that answer, but I didn't want him to be consumed with too much information at the moment.

His face fell, then lit back up. "Okay, can we go home now? I'm getting tired." His eyes drooped a little.

"Fine," Then I had a good idea, "Edward?" he looked up at me. "Do you mind if we go home my way. I mean you riding on my back while I run?"

"Uh…okay sure, I guess."

Soon enough I pulled him on my back and commanded him to close his eyes, he did. I started running at full speed toward the house. I only took a few minutes to get him here, when it took a whole hour to get to that one place we stayed at.

"That was…fast." He said.

"I hope I didn't scare you."

"Nope, not at all." He replied with a grin.

"You should be going to bed, it's way past your bed-time." I told him.

"Fine, but Bella?"

"Yes?" I asked slowly, nervous he was going to say that he didn't want to see me again. I truly loved this child, he was absolutely wonderful. I don't think I would live not seeing him.

"Can you stay tonight, I mean in my room. I have been getting bad dreams lately and for some reason when I think about you they go away. I just hope that if you're around then the bad dreams won't come."

I was joyful. He wanted me to stay because I kept the bad dreams away. That was so cute.

"Okay little one, when your parents get home, I will leave, then come back and sneak into your room."

"Okay," He yawned, "I'm going to bed now. Night Bella see you later."

"Goodnight Edward, sleep well."

I headed over to the couch and rested while I thought about how accepting Edward was when I told him about me.

That was an amazing memory. Another one was coming up again. Why, oh, why am I doing this to myself. I didn't resist the next memory, I wasn't strong enough.

Edward was thirteen in this one. Sweet, but a total teen.

Days went by, then weeks, then years.

Edward asked me to sleep with him every night now. I always snuck into his room at night and left after he woke up.

Edward Sr. and Elizabeth were both going out to the same ball as every year with Edward's colleagues. They left at 3:30 to help again.

Edward and I said our goodbyes, and went into the living room.

"Bella, can I have a sandwich?" I nodded and ran towards the kitchen to make his dinner, or late lunch.

He ate it quickly.

"So what do you want to do today?" I asked.

"I don't know."

I suddenly had an idea of what to do. It had been sunny today and still was. Thank God the Masons' house was surrounded in thick forest.

"I have an idea. How would you like to see me in the sun?"

His eyes went wide, glittering with excitement.

"I'll take that as a yes?" I asked. Did he really want to see me out in the sun? Although I was human like—I still had my human form up, unwilling to show Edward what I looked like—I still sparkled, no matter the skin color. "Then go change." He nodded and ran as fast as he could without tripping up the stairs.

He came back down quickly; appropriate clothes for hiking on him.

"I'm ready!" he called, although he did know I had perfect hearing.

"Then let's go." I picked him up and carried him out the door. He had gotten use to running with me so much that he didn't have to close his eyes.

Edward's head was resting on my shoulder, playing with my hair. "Where are we going?" He asked.

"I found a little meadow, perfect for this." He just nodded and continued playing with my hair.

"Bella, Can you do me a favor?" he asked. He was speaking as if he was thinking he shouldn't ask it.

"What is it?"

"Can you do that shape-shifting thing a turn into someone my age; it'll make me feel better. Sometimes it feels like you're a really old grandma—sorry for that—and maybe if you change to a girl who's thirteen like me, that'll make me feel better."

I laughed, now that was funny, but I said it was fine.

The meadow appeared. "Do you see that?" I asked.

"No, what?" So it was a little too far for his sight.

"It's the meadow I'm taking you to; it's too far away for you to see though."

"Okay."

Soon the meadow appeared, and I knew he saw it because he stopped playing with my hair and gasped.

"It's pretty." He said, astonished.

"Well then, you go ahead and explore." I pushed him gently towards the meadow. He was gaping the whole time, he quickly found a spot in the middle of the meadow.

"Bella?" He called. Did he not notice I was still here?

"I'm over here Edward!" I called.

"Why, come out into the sun, it's wonderful." He said.

"Okay, but promise me something."

"Okay," his voice was wary.

"Tell me if I scare you, I promise that I will try not to."

"Okay, but you won't scare me, you know that."

I stepped out into the sun. I had made sure I looked younger, Edward's age to be exact, since he had asked me to. I made myself look like I did when I was human. Mahogany hair that went to my shoulders, brown eyes, pale skin, small, but slightly full lips and a small cute nose too.

"Wow, Bella, that's really cool."

I sat down beside him, carefully so I wouldn't scare him or break him.

"Wow, you sparkle like diamonds. Why do you look like this anyways? You turned yourself to my age, but why look like this?" He was curious. Cute that was definitely the word for it.

"I chose to look like this because this is what I looked like when I was a human your age."

"You had pretty eyes." He stated simply, and then blushed in embarrassment.

"Thank you." I said.

"Can I try something?" he asked, I hope it wasn't something that bad.

"Sure." I tried not to sound worried, but some of it leaked out into my voice.

He lifted his hand and carefully stroked my cheek.

It was the middle of July, so I was wearing only an undershirt and a skirt, and although I wasn't suppose to show this much skin in public, I did it anyways. Who cared what people thought?

Edward's hand slid down my cheek to my neck. Then down my arm to my thigh and place it there. Then he slid his other arm to trace the other side of my body.

"You have no idea how confusing this feels." I said. I wasn't talking like a child, it was kind of funny. Like an adult like child.

"It's okay, you look very pretty Bella. Your skin is so cold and hard though, but it's really pretty." I knew he wanted to say beautiful, but teenage boys, don't express their feelings that way.

"Thank you." I notice the sun, it was going down, time to get home.

"Come on Edward, we have to go back." I said, he agreed and jumped onto my back as I shifted into my adult form.

He was asleep before he could make it to bed.

It was so clear, that I thought I was experiencing this for the first time in my life.

Another memory came up, stronger.

Edward was 15 now, as handsome as ever. He would ask me to come over sometimes when his parents were away. Although he was too old for a babysitter, he still needed a friend.

"Awww, come on Bella, please, please just let me see the real you." He begged, his emerald eyes sparkling with excitement. He was perfect and beautiful.

"Why should I, you really don't need to see me as my regular self." I had already shape shifted into one of his parents one day; he needed some help with the teachers who were bugging him. So I decided to step in. He wasn't at all creeped out that I had shaped-shifted into his mom. He thought it was cool.

"Please, you promised." He begged. Damn, why couldn't I say no?

"Fine." I changed into my normal self. My hair changed to mahogany, and lengthened itself. My skin grew paler and my eyes turned gold. My lips changed themselves to a warm pink color and also turned full. My eyes were rounder, bigger. My face was a little bit more child like, by a quarter of a centimeter. My body's curves became more prominent and beautiful.

I turned to look at Edward. His expression was priceless. He was gaping at me, mouth wide open. He was practically drooling. I started laughing, my bell like laugh sounded strange, because it had been so long since I had been in this form.

"Oh my God Bella." He said and that was all he said for a few minutes. His eyes were raking over my entire body.

"You know, it's impolite to stare." I said, my voice was beautiful compared to the one I had earlier.

"How could I not, Bella, you're absolutely astonishing, inhuman." He said.

"I told you so." I grinned.

"Yeah, you were right, your voice, your smell, and your looks are all attractive. I love it."

"Thanks so much, I love being beautiful, but I hate all the attention people give me. When I was first changed, I got a lot of attention, and that lasted until I found the man that could shape-shift. I was so happy after that, to look like a different person."

Edward walked up to me slowly then, cautious about something, but I couldn't tell what. He gave me hug first and I hugged him back very lightly though. But then he stroked my cheek, I pressed my face into his palm.

"Can I try something?" I asked cautiously. Better for me to do it first, then I won't be caught by surprise.

"Sure." He shrugged not looking away from my eyes.

I leaned forward, hesitating a little bit. I wanted to see his reaction about this first, and then see if I had the control to do it. He leaned forward as well his eyes never leaving mine. He did want to kiss me. That was good. Soon enough our lips touched.

His reaction was surprising, he went wild, his hand traced my face and the other one messing up my hair.

My body reacted quite similar. I knotted my hands into his hair, kissing him passionately. Soon I had to pull away; his scent was too intoxicating to me. I had so much control over me it was unbelievable.

Edward stared at me wide eyed. Surprise, wonder, love, and compassion all flashed on his face.

"I'm sorry, that was over the line, and I shouldn't have done that." I apologized. I really shouldn't have done that, I mean, I'm 100 years older than him and he's only 15. That is definitely not good.

"Actually Bella, that was amazing. I'm sorry but although I'm a bit surprised myself, I didn't mind at all. Not one bit."

I smiled at that and leaned in to give him a peck on the lips. We then started dating, but I myself as Lizzie's friend supposedly moved and a new girl named Isabella Swan came into the story as Edward's girlfriend.

The memories hurt like a bullet through my heart. I didn't stop them. The next memory was unforgettable.

Elizabeth, Edward's mother, called me up on the telephone, asking me if I had seen Edward.

"No, why?" I asked slightly confused.

"Edward said he would be out with a bunch of friends and come over to see you later."

"He never came over here Mrs. Mason. I haven't seen him. But I'll go look for him, he wouldn't be far."

"Oh, no dear, don't I'll have my husband do it. You don't know how vile the night can be."

"Mrs. Mason, I know that, but I can't let him be out there all alone. I'm a tough girl. I promise to bring him home. Mrs. Mason?" I asked not sure if I should ask this.

"Yes darling?"

"May I ask if it was too far into the night that I found him, would you let him sleep over at my house? I promise I will keep him in a separate room."

"Of course dear. I trust you both more than ever. Please, when you find him, just bring him over to your house, it's already dark. Just call me when you find him."

"Okay, thank you. I promise to call you. Goodbye" I said.

"Goodbye Bella, good luck, I hope you find him soon."

"I will I promise, I have a pretty good talent at finding people you know."

"Okay honey, bye."

"Bye."

I hung up the phone, grabbed my raincoat, and ran out the door.

I needed to go to the Mason's house first, so I could follow his scent.

Not minutes later did I arrive at the Masons'. Edward's scent was very strong. I followed it hoping that he was not in any trouble what-so-ever.

It was already ten, when I found a spot where his scent was the strongest. He had been all over the city, well that's great. I soon walked up to a pub. Edward had been here?

I heard laughing just before I entered the pub. One laughter was very familiar, but with a different tone in it. It was Edward's laugh, but something was not right.

"Bella!" Edward slurred. Oh, great, he's drunk.

"Edward? What are you doing out here? Your mother is worried sick about you? Why the hell are you drunk? What's gotten into you?" I asked, I walking towards him.

A man whistled and slurred, "Hey there honey. Come to my place, I need some company."

I grimaced at that. That was gross. I was way older than he was.

"No, she's mine." Edward defended. He sounded more like a child though. He pushed the man who whistled at me.

"Back off or you'll get hurt." The man defended himself, punching Edward right in the gut.

"Edward!" I cried. I ran forward a hugged his crippled body on the ground.

"Come here sugar, I'll give you something to cry about." The man cooed, well tried at least but he sounded too drunk to even care.

"Don't you even think about touching me sir." I glared at him. "Don't dare bother me or him again." I said nodding my head when I said him.

"Or what, you'll shop me to death?" He asked not even close to being intimidated.

"No." I glared at him even more. I picked him up by his shirt. "Shopping would just be a reward for doing your homework, little boy. I can do a lot more than rewarding you." I punched him in the arm, I heard a crack and he screamed. "Now do as I say, leave me and Edward alone. Got it?" He nodded.

I picked Edward off the ground and carried him to my house. He was still in pain from that punch to his stomach. It must have been a strong one too.

I ran home, after the men weren't in sight.

I laid Edward on my bed. Tucked him in under the covers and kissed his forehead.

"Go to bed, Edward, you need some sleep." I whispered to him.

"Bella?" He slurred.

"Yes?"

"Thank you." He said, it sounded sincere, but I couldn't tell whether it was the alcohol messing with his mind and emotions or what.

"Bella?" He asked again.

"What is it Edward?" I whispered softly.

"You look beautiful. And I'm really happy that I have met you."

"Thank you Edward."

"Bella?"

I turned again. This was getting annoying. "Yes?"

"Can you come here? Can you sleep with me tonight?" If he had said that in front of anyone then they would be in total shock, but I understood quickly, he just wanted to sleep next to me, that's all.

"Okay Edward." I crawled into bed with him. He was staring at me with tired eyes.

"Bella?"

I turned to face him. Then he attacked my lips. Great, a drunken boyfriend is making out with his blood obsessed vampire girlfriend. That wasn't a good idea.

His tongue was on my lip trying to ask permission to enter. I didn't let it though. The venom in my mouth would have killed him.

"Edward" I moaned. He was planting kisses all along my jaw line, my neck, my shoulders, and my collar bone. "Please stop it. You're drunk, you need your rest." With that I pushed him away. He was pouting.

"But I love you and I want to show you how much I do." Did he just say I love you? No he couldn't have. Then again he is drunk. My dead heart skipped a beat. I loved him too, and I knew it. But this wasn't the time to tell him that, he's drunk and he'll probably not remember any of it in the morning.

"Thank you, but you really do need your rest, if you don't behave yourself and go to bed, I won't stay in here tonight."

He pouted, but followed my orders, he was out within seconds.

The next morning, I got up from the bed to make breakfast for Edward. Edward was staying until lunch today, I told Lizzie about what happened to her son, the drunken part and all. She was a little disappointed in him for getting drunk, but she couldn't get mad at him. She was too forgiving.

Edward woke up a few minutes after I had finished cooking.

He yawned and then asked, "Why am I over here?"

I laughed. He didn't remember.

"Why are you laughing?" he said, trying to scowl at me, but not succeeding.

"Because you don't remember a thing. You were drunk last night, Edward. A man hit you in the stomach; I cracked, threatened him, broke his arm and took you here."

"That's funny, all I remember is leaving the house to go to the pub, hanging out with the guys, and then I end up over here." He looked as if he was considering saying something.

"Anything else?" I urged him.

"Well I did have a dream about you last night, but it seemed really real. I remember kissing you and then telling you—uh"

"Telling me what?" I knew what he was going to say, but he had to have the confidence to tell it to me.

"I said…I love you." He looked down at the floor, embarrassed.

"That happened, for sure, but the thing is, is that you were drunk and I couldn't tell you anything about what I felt like, until you were sober. Then you could have a clear opinion on things. Edward," I took a deep breath. "I do love you, I'm absolutely sure about that, but it's dangerous for me to be around you. I don't know if I could do it. I don't know if I'm strong enough." I added quietly.

"You are definitely strong enough, you have lasted 17 years to resist the temptation of my blood, and you did it beautifully. I love you Isabella Swan, we were meant to be together."

With those words I kissed him.

It was the most beautiful thing he had said to me.

The last memory was even more difficult than the first. Edward accidently fell into a river and almost drowned. I saved him, though.

Edward was lying on my bed, shivering. It was freezing in the water, almost as cold as my skin. I'm surprised he's alive from that.

He's been sleeping for a while, probably just a defense mechanism that is put on from your body after you are saved from drowning.

"Bella? BELLA! Bella don't leave me, please. I love you, so much, please?" He was talking in his sleep. It sounded like he was scare of me…leaving? I had to wake him up. It was a nightmare, like the ones he used to have when he was a child.

"Edward, wake up honey." I said quietly while gently shaking his shoulders. "Edward, come on, you need to wake up." I said.

"Bella?" He asked, his voice cracking from exhaustion.

"Are you okay? You were talking in your sleep. It sounded like you were having a nightmare." I asked, I was leaning closer to him, trying to comfort him somehow.

"Oh Bella, it was terrible. It was the scariest dream I've ever had." He cried. What was with him tonight? He's almost eighteen years old, and he's crying? He's acting like a little boy that had just lost his puppy.

"Shh, shh. There, there Edward. It's okay, I'm here." I was cooing to him. It was weird. Like a child in his mother's arms.

He stuck his face on my collar bone, right under my chin. Man, was he big. I decided to change his shape, shrink him. I had done it once before, and it succeeded. I did it to Edward no less.

He shrunk into the size he was as a toddler. Although he had the same body and features as the man he was, his size was different.

I cradled him in my arms for hours. He had finally fallen asleep again when I changed him back to his normal size, six foot one.

Edward finally woke up. Finished crying. It was almost seven in the morning.

"Edward? Are you okay?" I asked quietly, I didn't want him to be scared.

"I feel better, Bella? I am so sorry about last night. I have no idea about what came over me. I'm sorry." He looked straight into my eyes, my golden ones. I didn't have time to change into another body.

"It's okay Edward, you were having a nightmare. Can you tell me what it was about?" I stared straight into his eyes, smoldering them, trying to see if that would convince him to tell me.

His heart skipped a beat, I smiled. "Umm…it was about...umm. You…um…leaving me." The last part he said so quietly I could only guess a human had to struggle to hear.

"Edward," I moaned slightly. "That won't ever happen, I promise, no matter what. I love you Edward Mason."

His heart skipped a beat once more. I leaned in going for a kiss. This kiss was different from most, I didn't hold back as much. I showed more love and passion in it. I hoped he had noticed that.

"Wow." That was all he could say, but with that one word, I just wanted him even more.

"Do you believe I'll stay, or do you think that kiss wasn't real?" I asked, smoldering my eyes. I learned that trick from an another vampire. He had tried it on me once, and the bad thing was, was that it worked. I forgot entirely about the conversation was and my breathing stopped all together.

Edward stopped breathing. Ahhh, so it did work, but he couldn't live without breathing, I could.

"Edward, breathe." I commanded, seriously worried he would faint or something.

He smiled, embarrassed. "Yes I do believe you. I've always believed that you loved me. The only thing is, is that why? Why do you love me? I'm just a plain human. And you, you are too beautiful, too perfect, too wonderful, to be with just me." His eyes were full of wonder.

I glared at him, not so much as a glare, but a stare with a hint of anger in it.

"Why would you think that Edward? You, you are the one who's way beyond perfect. You don't see yourself clearly. You're intelligent, a gentleman, sensitive, understanding, trustful, truthful, and unbelievably handsome. You're way to perfect for me, but here I am, on your bed, kissing you." I stared back into his eyes, understanding and confusion filled them. Then he blushed.

"Edward, I love you and nothing, absolutely nothing can change that. You are an amazing creature that came into my life, and made it better. A whole lot better. I had never believed in love. Then you came and changed that. The first moment I saw you, I felt love. Maybe not in the same sense since you were only a baby. I felt motherly love throughout your childhood. Then teenage years, I felt as if you were my best friend, always there for me when I was in need. Then now, I realize that we are meant to be together no matter what." I had looked down during the middle of the speech, not able to look into his eyes for a while.

I had to be brave, see his reaction so I looked up. There was a single tear running down his cheek and he was smiling my favorite smile, his crooked grin.

"Thank you Bella, you don't know how much that means to me." He stroked my cheek and placed another kiss on my lips.

We sat there kissing, for a long while. He fell back asleep. All was perfect.

At last, the memory I had been afraid of ever since I had started this memory drive thing in my brain. The one I'm always terrified to think of no matter in what situation.

This was the memory I'd suffer through a million changes before remembering it.

This was the memory of Edward's change and me leaving him.

A/N: I'll update soon, I'm having a difficult time adding chapters, so it'll be confusing for a little bit.