Author's Note: I've been reading Edgar Allen Poe lately. So…yeah…just wanted to say so…Weeheeheehee! This is drabble-y…again…some hints of RobRae. I know that it wasn't in raven's point of view, but please, bear with me. I wasn't expecting this to be posted after Scars and Wounds…I was planning to post this as an individual fic, but I realized that they looked as if they were the same, so I just put it under that.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of this fic.
I found myself lying on my bed, awake, again, in the middle of the night. My eyes darted around the room, looking for anything that would catch my attention.
I rolled to my side then pulled my blanket over my head. It was in these times that I felt worthless and alone.
My room was my sanctuary and my home, but why did I feel solitary within those four walls? Yes, there were times when I needed "Raven-time" and my "friends" would still oblige me to come out. How I hated that. Why was it that when I didn't want them to come near me, they would be there because they wanted to be there; but when I needed them the most, they couldn't care less about what I was doing or whether or not I needed them.
No one would dare come and comfort me to tell me that there were no monsters under my bed. No ghosts outside my window. No demons in my room.
It didn't matter to me that I was already at the age of around sixteen, and I still needed someone to ease my fears. Though I had already learned to live alone, I prayed that, for once, someone would be brave enough to come near me.
Through my entire life, I couldn't find anyone, not even my parents who would make me calm when I needed to be calm.
I didn't really expect much from my parents now. I had gotten more from my friends.
My father used me to control the world. My mother knew what I was to become, but didn't even help me. Yes, they said they would nurture and accept me for who I was to be, but they didn't do anything about the prophecy.
My friends, they believed that I could change my destiny. They tried. They believed. And out of everything the world could give me, that was what I needed the most. I needed someone who I would put my faith in and someone who would risk having faith in me, too. I found that person, those people. They were whom the earth people called "friends". The ones I called "teammates". The one I called "leader".
I shut my eyes, not wanting the thought that was passing through my mind. If they were really my friends, they would know me enough to know that I could not have anyone closer to me than a friend; I should also have the initiative to keep them only art arm's length away from me.
At that thought, I couldn't get myself to sleep again. Just the thought that I had no friends, was troubling to think about when I want to get to sleep. It was horrible. To think that everyone around me had always been there, and always will be there, but I can't even get close to them.
It was my curse…my nuisance. A burden to carry for the rest of my life. Just like the scars and wounds that are carved into my skin. Burdens from the curse that was given to me on the day of my birth…I just have to live with it.
To be alive right now, given the pain and trouble and everything else that came with it… that's all I can ask for.
Author's Note: nothing else to say but REVIEW! Will not post another chappie if I don't get enough…it's not like it's a cliffhanger…but I think it would be good to al least give an idea of what Raven is going through. It's more like…Through the Looking Glass: Raven Roth. Whatever that is…
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