Chapter song is My skin- Natalie Merchant

I need a lullaby,

a kiss goodnight, angel,

sweet love of my life

Oh I need this

I'm a slow-dying flower

Once back in the comfort of her own home Bella managed to get Edward into the house and into her room. She ran and grabbed a bucket from the garage and sat on the floor behind Edward as she pumped his stomach with charcoal. Within a few moments she was able to get him to vomit again this time his pulse seemed to strengthen.

After wiping Edward clean and getting him settled into her bed Bella made a makeshift bed on the floor besides him and settled in for a long night.

Bella was awoken the next morning by sound of coughing besides her. She turned on her side to see the man laying in the bed his eyes darting around the room in confusion. Bella stood up and leaned over the bed to look at him. After taking his pulse again and seeming satisfied with it. She finally spoke.

" Hi Edward, My name is Bella I found you last night on the Port Angeles Bridge you took a lot of pills and I couldn't just leave you there. I'm so sorry if your angry with me but please try and understand. I pumped your stomach last night so your throat may seem really raw right now but I'll do anything I can to make you more comfortable. I called your sister Alice she is flying in tomorrow but I just want you to know your welcome to stay here as long as you'd like. I figured last place you'd want to be is the hospital."

Edward nodded unclenching his fists as he looked at her. She looked tired she was sitting on the edge of the bed sort of slumped over in a pink sports bra and black yoga pants. Her long mahogany hair pulled into a pony tail. Her brown eyes searched for his as he looked up at her he noticed the sadness that filled them. He brought a hand up to rub his throat that now felt like it was on fire. Bella seemed to notice this because she got up and left the room. A few moments later she walked back in with a warm bowl I her hands.

" Here Edward its broth… I made if from scratch so it should be fairly decent. My friend Rose recommended keeping it light until you feel better. Speaking of Rose she drove your car to her house so whenever your ready for it …we can go get it at her place."

Edward nodded his head mouthing thank you before lifting the spoon to his mouth.

Bella set about to do some chores around the house and placed a call to her school telling them that she needed to take some emergency leave. After that she checked on Edward who was sleeping almost peacefully on her bed. Figuring it couldn't hurt any she placed her ears buds in walked to the treadmill on the other side of her bedroom and began to run.

Edward very carefully pealed one eye slightly open to find Bella running at a sprint on her treadmill. He watched in interest as she slammed her fist repeatedly on the button slowing it down more and more until it came to a stop and she was hunched over with sobs racking her body. Edward laid deathly still as she got up and headed into her connecting bathroom he could hear her slide down the back of the door and cry even harder.

He was brought up to be respectful she he politely knocked on the door and after receiving a answer slowly headed in. The heat was thick and hot and made her scent so strong like freesias. He sat himself on the counter and tried to look away from the coke bottle glass shower. Finally managing to get up the nerve he spoke.

" Are you alright." Bella had been washing her hair and was surprised by the gruff voice that came from the other side of her shower. She could tell it hurt but it was the most beautiful sound she had heard.

" I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you ."

Bella sighed wrapping her towel around her body as she climbed out of her shower. She sat on the cool tile of the floor and combed through her hair. She was beautiful he had to admit that her hair was long and just slightly curled at the very ends. She had the faintest dusting of freckles across her nose and cheeks and if you hadn't been sitting 4 feet from her he'd never have noticed. She had the deepest chocolate colored eyes he had seen her cheeks were flushed a beautiful pink from the hot water. Her full bottom lip was sucked in between her teeth. He had seen plenty of woman in his life but none had ever looked like Bella.

Bella sighed to herself this time getting up to head into her bedroom and dress. She paused just in front of Edward long enough to smile a sad smile.

" There's towels in there if you'd like to take a shower."

He don't know why her sadness affected him so but he felt compelled to make her feel better. He grasped her shoulders and pulled her against him before placing a soft kiss to her forehead.

Bella turned and headed into her room collapsing on her bed as she heard the shower start up again. After changing into a white cami and plaid sleeping shorts she knocked on the bathroom door. Edward had just climbed out of the shower when there was a knock on the door wrapping his towel low on his waist he opened the door.

Bella was standing outside the door with a pair of sleeping pants and the softest t-shirt she could find. It was old and worn and had been her fathers and after he had his stroke she wore it to bed regularly but she was willing to sacrifice it so that Edward would have some clothes to sleep in. When the door swung open she was startled by the state of dress Edward was in. " Um uh here thought you'd be more comfortable in these they were my dads so I'm sorry about the state there in but its what I have right now. I figured we could eat something and if you'd like we could head to the store and get you some other things if you'd like if your brave enough to head out in jammies."

Edward smiled. A real smile one that reached his eyes and it amazed Bella looking at him you never would have guess the state Bella found him in the night before. He was truly beautiful. Bella was standing in her kitchen when Edward headed down the pants were perfect size the shirt was a bit small in the sense it showed off his form more than he was use to.

Less than thirty minutes later they Bella and Edward were standing inside the only twenty four hour grocery store in forks. Bella pushed the cart while Edward held the side. To others they seemed like a normal couple grocery shopping.

" Um what kind of things would you like me to buy I'm kind of a health nut so."

Edward smiled at Bella's consideration towards him.

" Go ahead Bella I'll buy the groceries this time it's the least I can do. I'm a bit of a health nut myself so I'm sure what you like I'll like."

Bella wandered through the store collecting various things to stock her pantry. She had been surprised by Edwards words she wasn't use to him talking much around her but it sort of set her at ease. Almost two hours and two shopping carts later Bella and Edward were standing in line checking out.

Bella was in the kitchen preparing a late dinner while Edward put the groceries away. He had his back to her but he could tell something was off about her. It wasn't until he heard her swear and drop something on the floor did he realize something had happened. He turned in time to see the blood running down her arm. Edward sprang from his location in the pantry and lifted Bella onto the counter inspecting the damage done to her arm.

Bella couldn't control herself she knew she shouldn't do what she was about to do that it might push him away but she couldn't stop herself. She wrapped her hand around his wrist that was holding onto her arm weaving her free hand into his hair. She watched as his eyelids fluttered closed over his emerald eyes. Leaning forward she gently pressed her lips to his drawing his lower lip in gently with her teeth. Edward moaned kissing her back just as hard he pressed himself against her causing her to lean back against the counter.

Edward had latched his mouth against Bella's collar bone and was placing kisses up her neck when he turned his head and saw the blood. He leapt back like he had been shocked resting his bloodied hand against the counter.

" Shit Bella I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that. I should take you to the hospital your going to need stitches where are your keys?"

Bella pointed to the hook on the wall before collecting her purse and heading to the car. Edward pulled her car from the driveway he noticed out of the corner of his eye Bella's head was low. She was embarrassed…or ashamed.

" Look Bella I'm sorry that shouldn't have happened and I'll understand if you want me to leave. You shouldn't have to get wrapped up in someone as messed up as I am. You deserve so much more."

Bella snapped her head in his direction her fist clenched.

" How do you know what I deserve Edward. I'm sorry that I embarrassed you. I shouldn't have done that but can you answer me one fucking question. Why did you do it? Because for the life of me I can't seem to understand why someone as gorgeous as yourself would try and end your life."

A very severe sneer cross Edwards usually calm features.

" You think that's what life is about Bella…being fucking gorgeous. My god are you delusional….because let me tell you if I'm as gorgeous as you say I am why for the life of me can't I be happy. You want to know why I did it…because I didn't have a reason not too…she left me…she left me because I wanted a fucking child…I mean don't most women beg their boyfriends to have a child only to have them run away like a coward…and here I thought I was different and you know what she did…she fucking left without saying goodbye. I came home from work and she had packed all her shit and left, and now I have no one."

Bella sighed pinching the bridge of her nose.

" You know what Edward I don't know shit about you but you know what I have no one. No siblings, No Mother, my father is only half there and it's not his fault. My fiancé left me you know why he left me…very similar to your situation but because I WAS pregnant. Was the timing good no. Was I ready for it…probably not…but at least I would have family because if something happens to Charlie I have no family left. So Jacob left I went about my life I took care of Charlie I worked and you know what I have to show of it…nothing Edward I lost the baby at 28 weeks….28 weeks Edward I was almost there. I went to bed one night feeling him moving around and then nothing. Do you know what they do when your that far along Edward?"

Edward squeezed his eyes closed of course growing up in a house with a doctor for a father he knew what happened to women who were that far along in their pregnancies. " You deliver the baby."

" Yes Edward you deliver the baby. He was perfect he looked just like me as a baby. Charlie would have been so happy. Now I have no one so don't you talk to me about being depressed."

Edward watched as the woman who had saved him broke down. She was right and he had been selfish. She had lost more but yet she was standing strong.

" And Edward you do have people who love you…you should have heard how distraught your sister and brother in law were when I called them. And I cared Edward or I would have just left you there so don't think you don't have anyone."

Edward smiled a sad smile. " Bella you have someone too…I care about you and Charlie does I know I don't know your father but he cares about you as much as he probably can. And if you'll allow me I'd like to stay and help you."

Bella nodded by that time they had reached the hospital and Edward dropped Bella off so he could park the car.

Three hours and 30 stitches later Bella and Edward were headed back to her house.