Back Into Existance
:: Chapter: 2
Disclaimer: -rolls eyes- Do you guys really want to play games? I don't. I want to get on with my fanfiction that I created using the things Stephenie Meyer created for all of us fans, and I am borrowing them. Good enough?
EPOV
"What do you mean we are going back to Forks?" I asked in disbelief. I couldn't believe they were going to make me face that place again. What if my sweet Bella was still there? She'd certainly be old by now, and she probably wouldn't remember me. Either way, I'd be able to avoid her, since I will be in school and she will be at home.
"Edward, we left everything there, and left without much warning. We have to go finish up there, or start new. You know it won't be to long before we have to move out again." Esme though, obviously trying to comfort me. I knew it wouldn't work though. It would hurt even more to go back to that same school and remember everything that had happened there. Heck, I'd probably get the urge to go to Bella's house and pick her up for school.
"No Esme!" I said, a little to harsh. "Everything reminds me of her! How do you think it will be like to go back to our old house, old school, old town? What if I get the same biology classroom? Do you know how it feels to have to go back to the one place you want to avoid forever, the one place that pains you the most?" I said, yelling now.
"Edward, calm down!" Rosalie yelled. "You left her, and now you have to pay the consequences. You got what you wanted didn't you? She lived a human life!" She said, voice going from mean, to comforting, "Edward, you can't change the past. You have to live through your choices." She then thought, in a calm voice.
I looked at everyone, one by one, saving Alice for last. They were really going to make me go. I stared at Alice, hurt defiantly in my eyes, and sadness in hers. She was probably the best person I could talk to ever since she left, since she loved Bella very much.
"They're right Edward." She started then, her voice low. She was probably scared to tell me this, since I depended on her to keep me civilized. "Its time to go back." She kept going, looking like she was about to cry, if she could. I probably looked very hurt right now, just adding to her pain. "I'm sorry, I just saw it." She thought quickly, and ran upstairs, probably to pack.
I just stood there, thinking. Soon, everyone had left the room, gone upstairs to pack or just to go on with their lives. I was still standing in the middle of the room, staring at the wall, thinking.
I knew I had to go get ready, and get over the fact, but how could I? My love - well not mine anymore - had lived her life, hopefully a very happy one. I would have to find out, and if she was still alive I would stay with her until she dies, and then go to the Voulturi to end my life, and pray for a after life for myself. I'd especially pray for heaven, where Bella was sure to go.
"Edward, son, I know you are shocked, but please, go get ready. We plan to leave as soon as everyone is packed." Carlisle thought to me, and came and patted me on the back. "Everything is going to work out." He continued aloud, probably to everyone rather than just me.
"I'm sure it will." I said in a dead monotone, and walked at human pace up the stairs. This house only had two floors, and was very pretty, although much less pretty than our house in forks.
When I got upstairs, I turned to my right, and went down the hall to the end, and turned to my right. I entered my room, which was much like my room back in Forks, something I did on purpose. I packed a small bag of my things, mostly the clothes I brought everywhere and a few other clothing items that seemed to need wearing, any very important belongings, and the CD's I only had one copy of and had to take with me. I then turned to walk downstairs.
"I wonder how he's going to handle things, Em." I heard Jasper saying, very obviously to Emmett. The only reason I was able to hear is because I was next to Jaspers door. He was talking very quietly. "Alice saw about four different ways he's going to be when we are back. One was depressed, another was very happy - but that one can't be it, - she also saw him in a very calm mood, like he was trying to get everything out of his head and just deal with things which I'm hoping is right. The fourth vision was of him being very shocked - almost like he was having a heart attack if that is possible for us." He sighed.
"Its weird Emmett!" Alice screeched, but also in a low voice. "The vision of him being shocked was the most clear, so I'm guessing that's the correct one, but how can I know when I've seen four different outcomes? Each of them show me and Rose in them too! But we are just background characters, even though he's looking at us, in all of them. Its insane!"
"We just have to see how it turns out - but whatever he does, he better not touch Rose!" Emmett said in a sarcastic tone, obviously trying to lighten the tone. It hadn't worked, so he calmed down.
I ignored the rest, and walked down the stairs. Everyone else was waiting for me, looking at me with gratitude for not giving a fight. Everyone was thinking random things; Esme was thinking about how she might redecorate the house in Forks. Carlisle was thinking about how he was going to get his job back - something that would be easy anyways. Rose was being normal old Rose, thinking about the shopping trip she'd have to go on, and how she was happy she'd be able to go with Alice in a area near Forks without Bella complaining. I knew she actually wouldn't mind now, but that was Rose to be thinking that now since she knew she wasn't going to experience it anyways.
"Alice!" Carlisle called out. "Bring the boys and come down here, we are leaving!" He continued, and waited. Alice came running down the stairs with her 6 suitcases of clothes and shoes, and was quickly followed by Jasper and Emmett with their suitcases. We left quickly, on with our 8 hour ride, even while driving way beyond the speed limit. I took my Volvo, Alice and Jasper went in her Porshe I had bought her, Rosalie and Emmett went in Rose's Convertible, and Carlisle and Esme took Carlisle's Mercedes. We decided not to take a plane, for Jasper's sake.
After the long, 8 hour ride, we arrived in Forks.
It was very much the same as I remembered it, but it was defiantly remodeled. The town had the same 'old' look it had always had, but you could tell my buildings were rebuilt in the past 10 years. I decided to check out other areas to see what else has changed.
When I got around to the area with our school, I noticed that it was very much the same. Nothing seemed to have changed, except the parking lot. Last time I had been here, the parking lot had been full. Now it was empty.
Dead empty.
I decided to keep going. Why bother looking at the place I'd be going to in about a week anyways? Lucky for me, I got to start on the first day of school like everyone else. I wouldn't be the new, weird kid with a weird family like we are when we move to a new place in the middle of the year.
As I drove, I realized I was heading for the place I had vowed myself not to go to. Even then, I decided to keep going. I mean, why would I skip out on something that I really wanted, but was scared to see? This would be the best thing to do to decide my future.
As I arrived at Bella's house, I noticed how noisy it was. I quietly got out of my car and walked up to the window, peeking in.
In the house was a women, probably in her high 30's, with a young teenage boy and a little girl. The mom was making dinner, while the boy was feeding the girl - probably something she would prefer more at such a young age.
"Charlie better get home soon." The lady thought, and sighed. "This boy here is going to be in so much trouble." She kept thinking, and I suddenly realized this couldn't be Bella. I could never read her mind, and that wouldn't change.
"Stupid brat, gets me in trouble and…." The boy thought, but I was to depressed to pay attention to the rest. Bella definanlty didn't live here anymore. Either way, I had to go see her old room.
I went to the tree, jumped, and stood on a branch. Then I jumped to her old bedroom window, and yanked it open.
Inside was the same bed I had seen years ago. The desk with the computer was still there too, but it had been cleaned. I headed over to the closes and opened it. Inside were Bella's old clothes. They even smelled the same - even though the scent was faded. If I could cry, I would be right now.
I went over to the desk, and saw a note. Picking it up, I read the address and everything that followed..
Harper Ridgeview Funeral Chapel
105 W 4TH STPort Angeles, WA 98362
Name: Bella Swan
Birthdate: September 13th
Declared Dead: April 17th
Body: Not found
Casket - $36.79
Flower Type - Pink and Red roses
Flower amount - 50 Flowers
Total for flowers - $135.00
Date to use Funeral Home - April 21st, 2006
Total for Funeral Home - $1580.00
Total - $1751.79
I quickly put the paper down, not wanting to read whatever else went along with it. Bella had died shortly after I had left and I hadn't known it. I wondered what had killed her but then I heard thoughts. They were coming here, and I had to get out. Quickly, I ran to the closes grabbing a shirt and a pair of jeans I actually did remember her wearing, strangely, and ran out the window and to my car. I got in, set the clothes in the passenger seat, and drove home.
After a few minutes at the speed I was going, I arrived. Out of nowhere, I noticed my pixie of a sister, Alice, standing at my door.
"Edward, I saw what you saw. I'm soooooo sorry! I'm gonna cry. My best friend is dead. Oh gosh Edward, what should we do?" She thought, obviously upset. I knew we'd both be crying pretty hard if we could be. My love, her best friend, Esme's other child, Carlisle's favorite patient, and Emmett's favorite person to tease was dead. I couldn't say she was Jasper's or Rose's favorite of anything - I really wasn't sure. I knew they loved her, but was she really that important to them.
"We have to go tell them, Alice." I said, upset. I grabbed Bella's clothes, and handed them to Alice. She'd keep them safe for the time being.
I walked inside my new - or well new now - house. Everyone was looking at me with very sad expressions.
"We heard your conversation." Rose said, as Alice appeared. "I am so sorry Edward." She said, and Esme came up to me, looking as if she'd cry like the rest of us, and hugged me. Carlisle gave me a quick hug, and sighed. I knew he wishing he could make her alive, but she couldn't.
"Edward, man. She was all of our favorite something. I had never seen you so happy before you were with her. But listen, you can't just go do something stupid now. You have to be brave - for us, for Alice and Esme. If you did something to them or someone did something to you, I'd have to kill someone or something. Esme lost a daughter, Alice lost a best friend, and you lost your love. Man, we've all lost something or someone from our human lives. That was so long ago though, it doesn't seem to affect any of us. You're going to hurt, we all are. But please Edward, don't do something stupid." Emmett though, going on about it. I'd never think he'd be the first one to think of me doing something rash, but he was. I looked in his eyes, and gave him a nod, but even without hearing his thoughts, I knew he wasn't sure I'd be able to not do something.
Hearing everyone else's thoughts of sadness and sympathy, I looked at them with a pleading look. Quickly, everyone started thinking of something random, but I could tell they had Bella on the back of their minds. It wasn't bad, so I went up to my room to think. I never thought that she would have died that early. Something obviously killed her and it wasn't suicide. They would have found her body if it was.
All I could do now was pray that she was in Heaven, and she was happy there.
K so I promised you guys I'd post a second chapter.
I thought I'd let you know that with my other story, I have the most amazing beta ever. Sadley, she is having a very hard time getting on, and cannot beta my latest chapter. It is postponed for a bit, but I hope you all like to read that story. Also, I will be able to update this story more often because I won't be waiting for a beta, but finding time to write chapters in my schedual is complicated. I'm planning to get ahead in the story so I will only have to update and not write chapters consantly, but I have no idea how that will work out. Please bare with me, as I am going to try and plan a schedual update for this story.
Thanks again guys! R&R please! (:
~Leah