april 22 , 2009
TITLE : Christmas Again
CHAPTER/S : FIVE chapters COMPLETE !
AUTHOR : RedsunsetgirL
GENRE : romance , drama
PAIRINGS : who else ? AMUTO
SYPNOSIS : Amu hated Christmas so much because of what had happened in the past. who can break the barrier she made around her heart? can a guy break it?
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CHRISTMAS AGAIN
- Chapter TWO : Holding Back -
by : RedsunsetgirL
Then, after a minute of silence, she heard another footsteps. then suddenly, the door opened and the man who opened it entered the room.
she was blinded by the sudden light and the man did noticed it so he quickly closed the door.
He took a step forward, to close the distance between them. and she felt something warm in her heart. that's the first time that someone made a move to be this so close to her. but what can she expect with this guy? it's so like him. he's the only person who never leave her even if her own father abandoned her.
"merry christmas Amu" he whispered, then he showed his breathtaking, mouth-watering smile that she love ever since.
she wanted to smile at him but, she couldn't and she must not do it. so, she didn't respond at him
"it's so dark in here" he then said
"what do you care huh?" she replied quickly
it's better this way. it's better to act than to be hurt again
"i care for you Amu, very much because i love you" he said while looking directly at her eyes.
she wanted to be happy because the one he loves, love her too. but, something was holding her back. how could this guy love her when her own father couldn't love her even just for a bit?
"i don't need your damn care. and most of all, your useless love. i don't need anyone" she hissed and she felt her hear contracted because of what she had said
"it's better to tell a lie. it's better this way" she said to herself
she saw how hurt and pain crossed his eyes and for a moment, she wanted to say that she didn't mean what she had said but she held back.
"why are you like this Amu? why are you pushing me away?" he asked gently
"i don't know what you're talking about" she said flatly
"i love you Amu and i know you feel the same way too. i can feel it. but something was holding you back and i want to know what was that Amu. you can trust me" he said sincerely
she felt something tugged her heart. it's the first time that someone showed to her that she's being loved. it's the first time that someone cared for her so damn much.
she looked down to hide the tears that was now starting to form on her eyes
"go away!" she said, her voice weak
he sighed in defeat and looked at her with pleading eyes
"i would leave you if you'll come with me and celebrate the Christmas together, at the park" he said
"i don't want to" she answered coldly
"please Amu, just this one and promise, i would never bother you again" he pleaded
she wanted to come with him. she wanted to celebrate and be happy just like when she's still three years old but she can't. she can't be happy. she can't be selfish
as much as she wanted to be with him, as much as she wanted to be the old Amu again, it's not that easy
he noticed her expressions and he whispered
"what's holding you back Amu? for a moment, i saw in your face that you wanted to go but then, it change"
"i don't deserve to be happy" she murmured to herself but he heard her
"what do you mean Amu? anyone deserve to be happy!" he said
"anyone deserve to be happy except me! i don't deserve to be happy! i don't, i don't!" she shouted as tears were now falling on her cheeks
She looked down so that he would not see her.
he hold her chin up and looked straightly into her eyes
"tell me what's wrong Amu. tell me please. let me help you." he begged as he wiped her tears using his own hand
there's a battle inside her mind and her heart. a part of her wanted to give in but a part was also stopping her.
"i can't tell it! i don't want anybody's pity!" she said to herself
*to be continue*
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